Chapter 1
I love you.
Such simple words yet, i breathe it in like it is my last intake of breath. It was a simple afternoon, me and Shindo were studying in my room for an upcoming test in English. But who would have thought those three words would come out? Surely not me, not in a million years would I have thought the crush that I've had since I moved here would ever say such words. My breath was stolen just like it will be many times after this day.
I never thought the Shindo Yuo would wanna date ME! He's everything I'm not. Popular, Hot, have friends, and so much more. Every girl and a few guys want him and yet he dates me. Of course, I returned the gesture and we started dating, after a date or two. I was so happy, I Love him so much.
I hate Shindo Yuo.
I can't believe how stupidly ignorant I am. How could he? How could Camie? Camie is my best friend and yet she fucks my boyfriend behind my back. I thought i could trust them. And yet even when I found out and Yuo didn't know he still acted like everything was fine, he didn't show any guilt at all. Not when i broke up with him, Not after i left, and definitely not after I blocked his number and everything else that would let him contact me.
Hate
what a cruel word, I know i don't hate him. Im just lying to myself. I still Love him. Even as i gasp for every breath i took back when he would tell me he loved me, or kissed me. Anytime i lost my breath they came back in deep, ragged ones. I have no long i sat up there in my new room with my back to the door. But when my breath finally evens out and my sense of place is back. I can here my mother rustle and thuds downstairs as she unpacked.
So, slowly i pull myself up and groan at the faint thud in my head and quickly place my hand there. My eyes felt as heavy as my limbs. but regardless i slowly shuffle out of the way and open the door before making my way downstairs to help my mother.
Hopefully thing end up better in UA.