Characters
Tags
Angst
Canon-Typical Violence
Torture
Blood
Whump
Bucky Barnes Has Issues
Non-Consensual Drug Use
Crying
Seizures
Vomiting
I promise
Broken Bones
survivor's guilt
Headaches & Migraines
Waterboarding
Hypothermia
Overdose
Hurt Bucky Barnes
Nosebleed
Angst with a Hopeful Ending
Whumptober 2022
Steve Rogers Loves Bucky Barnes
Bucky Barnes Loves Steve Rogers
eventual hurt/comfort
(Temporary) Brain Damage
Summary
He could stop, he knew. He didn’t have to watch the tape. But god, Steve missed Bucky -- missed him with something verging on desperation, so much that it was impossible to resist the pull. He fitted the tape into the video player and extended a shaking finger to press play. Steve's wrestling with a guilt he can't seem to get over. He wants to know exactly what happened to Bucky in the time they lost. [written for whumptober 2022]
Note
Hello! This fic was written for this year's Whumptober prompt list and contains a bunch of different prompt fills. (I'm trying to post chapters on the day corresponding to the primary prompt filled for that part.) I wanted to combine as many of these prompts as possible into a real-ish estimation of what I imagine Bucky would have gone through while HYDRA was breaking him, and because of that it ended up being pretty dark at parts!(However it is definitely more about Steve always loving Bucky, Bucky always loving Steve, and Bucky deserving and being shown that love no matter what)Please just be aware of any warnings - everything should be tagged, but please let me know if anything should be clearer.(Also if you're here for my other WIP, I still haven't forgotten it but just needed a change of pace for a bit!)