I've seen your "death" many times before, but now it was for real. It hurts a thousand times more. Why? Why. Why? Why, Loki my brother...known for lies and mischief, you sacrificed your life to save mine. I hated myself for my last words.. as much as I could. I didn't mean it, my last words to my brother. The only brother I have, you've always been the closest. I'm terrible. But you turned out to be good. Brother adopted or not, still a brother. Son of Odin. You said that to me and gave me that look that was so rare. You always hid emotion in your eyes, this time too. You didn't look like you were angry with me, quite the opposite.
What I would give for us to reconcile earlier and spend as much time together as possible. Because that's what I wanted.
He grabbed you by the neck and lifted you up. You were vulnerable. I was breaking out of
metal "seat" and tried to scream for him to let you go. I heard the sound of a broken spine and the image that I dream of to this day. I froze then, not believing what happened. I can’t even say his name even in my mind...he threw you like a puppet I crawled to you and I almost fainted seeing the blood coming out of your eyes and mouth. The picture was terrible. Loki why, Loki Why did you sacrifice yourself for me? I was your big brother and this was my job to protect you. But i failed. I cried into your chest asking for some sign of life, seeing that it was no longer possible. It didn't even compare to the pain I was getting during battles, fights. The fights we went to together. Despite the arguments, your pranks, we still worked together.
That was even worse, brother. You have no idea how my heart ached. I didn't want to leave you even though you were already unconscious. The blood-pumping apparatus was no longer functioning, I checked your pulse. On this skinny hand, more like a wrist, I felt nothing. This made me sob even more into your body. I could die with you then, that's what I wanted then... because that was the end for me. Life without Father, Mother and you is damn hard... and how. You don't even know how much I miss you, I want to finally see you, and then, the sun will shine, shine forever. I love you 3000.