Joyride

Moving around the quarters had been easy but telling the team was a whole other issue. It wasn't like they were official or anything but it wasn't like he didn't want it to be official it was just- "You're overthinking again." Thor had grown accustomed to the subtle movements and signs that told him how Quill was feeling when the captain didn't want to speak. "I was just thinking about us, you know." Peter's knee bounced anxiously.

"What about us?" Thor leant forward from his chair in the cockpit. The ship was empty apart from the two of them, everyone was on Knowhere doing something or other. "I was just thinking about if you wanted to get a drink." Peter skirted around the answer "That is not what you were thinking about." Venom was confused but luckily kept himself hidden from sight.

Thor contemplated the idea for around a second before agreeing enthusiastically "Of course! Where the ale flows then I must be there." He exclaims standing up and excitedly walking towards the lower regions of the ship. Meanwhile Peter remained sat and talked with Vee for a moment "Why are emotions so difficult!?" He sighed "They're not difficult. You are just a loser." Venom mocked.

"Hey! I'm not a loser." Quill exaggerated his offence "Debatable." Venom's chuckle was only audible to him. The ravager checked the tablet that was on the dash and saw the intergalactic calendar. It was THAT day. "Well then you are stuck in the body of a loser and this loser is going to get drunk and forget that you exist." Peter held his head up high and he went to leave. High enough that it hit the door frame causing him to groan in pain.

"..." Venom was silent as underneath the confidence and slight agitation was a pool of sadness. The sadness came from a memory that his host had prevented him from going near. The memories that Peter keeps off limits are what keeps the symbiote awake at night. They caused stress, worry and anxiety but his host won't let him fix it.

Peter shortly found Thor and they departed the ship and stepped into Knowhere

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Knowhere had improved significantly since that initial trip where the Guardians had barely formed. Now it was somewhat prosperous and had gone beyond its mining colony origins. From what Peter could recall. Gamora and Nebula were off finding their next job while Rocket, Groot and Drax went to spend their latest earing on the questionable things they usually did.

The bar was a relatively nice one called "Haxion Garland.". The two of them stepped inside to discover that it was nearly packed full already. "We don't like it here." The symbiote informed "You don't like anything I do." Peter defended himself "What was that?" Thor asked as the two walked over to the bar. "Nothing. Just talking to the little guy." Quill answered before putting an order in.

"I don't think they have mead but they do have whiskey." Peter recalled seeing it a few times when passing through and it was rare enough to earn its place on the top shelf. "Whisky? Sounds good." Thor nods "Just a warning it's like pure fire going down your throat. Hey barkeep! Two shots of whisky." Peter shouts as a new song comes over the speakers with its thumping beats. Venom didn't like this.

The shots arrive and the two clink the small glasses together before downing them. Yup he was right, for a second the drink feels like drinking magma and yet he sees Thor cheer loudly "More!" He goes to throw to glass down but has a moment of reconsideration and instead places it down. Something tells Peter that his friend? Boyfriend? Partner? hadn't always been like that.

After grimacing at the taste he realises how much this is going to cost him. "That was great!" Thor compliments before grabbing the next round and passing one to Quill "Bottoms up." The captain takes it and they down their respective shot at the same time. This time there was no burn this time but he still managed to get the taste and feeling from the drink. Did Venom see the sensation as a threat?

"Let me feel it, Buddy." Quill requested from the symbiote and even if it didn't like the self destructive behaviour it knew that if things were to go wrong it could fix almost any physical injury. Peter sighed in relief as the burning feeling returned. It gave him something to focus on other than that looming dread. The sooner he could get drunk the better and in this case being a lightweight had its benefits.

He had heard of Thor's near inability to get drunk and wondered something. "You bonded with him for a short bit right?" Peter asked Venom who answered "Yes. To help you.". Thor was talking in his direction but he couldn't make the words out. "If you can replicate feelings and mess with my nerves or whatever...can you..." The captain stumbles slightly as he feels his entire body relax.

All his inhibitions seemed to float away and any previous train of thought drew to an abrupt stop. "I wonder what Asgardian dancing look like." Peter said out loud "Well my people's dancing isn't very suitable for a setting like this." Thor explains frowning slightly as Peter begins to sway side to side. "Let's do it, man." Quill takes Thor's hand and stumbles towards the dance floor. This was going to be amazing.

They eventually stop in the middle of the brightly lit dance floor. Peter's 'Dancing' is more like drunken flailing, nothing like when they listened the the music from his Zune together. Something felt off but he indulged his love for a moment. Thor's movements are more focused than Peter as he keeps an eye to make sure that he does not fall over or hurt himself.

Lyrics begin to accompany the song and Peter sloppily followed them and tried to sing "Oh I love this song!" He exclaimed before slurring and shouting along. As expected, Peter eventually bumped into someone. "You got a problem?!" The person grunted "Yeah...I'm hungry...Vee, eat him please." Quill requests and in an instant Venom covers Peter and stands to his full height before looking around.

Thor hesitates for a moment as he sees Venom looking around for the source of the sound. As expected the monster launches at the speakers and breaks them with a roar. The bar patrons were now screaming and running to get out. The thunder god was left on the dance floor as everyone bumped past him until it was on him and Venom left in a NOW silent room.

The symbiote eventually stood in front of him and receded to reveal Peter who was smiling dumbly. "That was fun." He mumbles before letting him fall forward and collide with Thor's toned chest. "So strong." He mutters. Thor takes a second to process what just happened, this was nothing like the person who knew and loved so why was he acting like this?

"Peter, what's wrong? You can talk to me." Thor wrapped one arm around his friend's shoulder to which Peter was happy about. "What's wrong is that we're here and not it bed." Peter answered and tried to wink but instead ending up scrunching his entire face. Thor pushed him away causing Quill to whine at the loss of warmth "I think you need to sleep this off." Thor looked for the exit.

"Always like sleeping with you. So buff and big." Peter utters incoherently "Makes me feel so small and safe." He adds whilst being dragged back to the ship and past the crowds of panicked aliens.

They're lucky that no one has come back to see drunkenly confessing his feelings. "Peter didn't want me to say this but he like likes you." The captain whispers seemingly unknowing that he is divulging his own secret "Well then let's not tell him that you said that." Thor played along until the two were back at Quill's room. He pushed his friend in and helped him eventually lean back on to the bed.

Peter seems to relax a little when his back hits the pillows and cushions. "Just stay in here until you feel better." Thor instructed as he goes to leave but Peter pipes up from where he had began to snuggle up under the blanket "I'll feel better if you're here." He mutters sleepily and Thor ,for all his might, hesitates. Eventually he nods faintly but it was enough to get Peter to giggle childishly.

As Thor settled his partner cuddled up close enough that his cheek was smushed up against the god's chest once again. Clearly his favourite place to be. He sighs contently before speaking "Vee wants to talk to you." Quill laughs as the symbiote emerges from his side and passes itself onto Thor temporarily. "That tickles." He says before somehow snuggling closer.

Time to start asking the questions.

"What is wrong with him?" Thor asks through the new bond "He is sad." Venom answers "He does not seem like it." Thor checked and saw no tears, frowns or furrowed brows. "He wants to forget an event that happened on this day." The symbiote explains "What happened?" Thor enquires idly brushing his hand through Quill's dishevelled hair. The symbiote doesn't answer for a second.

"He won't let me know. He won't let me...us help him." Venom sounds sad and Thor feels it himself. Quill meanwhile is fast asleep based on the small occasional snore. "If he is asleep could you not discover this memory and resolve its issues?" Thor suggests knowing that it went against Peter's wishes and mentally kicking himself for thinking about it. "I guess." Venom agrees before slithering back into Quill's body causing him to startle slightly.

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The dream is a pleasant one to say the least. He feels the warm and toned muscle under his hands as Thor let Peter roam the godly ridges of his body. "You're so hot." Peter didn't really do dirty talk. Quickies left little time for talking and anyone that he might have called a lover were usually stoic or an alien that made all sorts of noises but Thor, he was different from the rest.

"And you are so beautiful, Quill." Thor praises brushing a thumb over his partner's cheek. Said feature blushing at the soft words "Everytime I look at you, I feel my love for you grow." Thor speaks quietly like it's a secret "Shut up, man." Peter's face is nearly all pink with the amount of flush against his cheeks. "Why? It's true." Thor promises and seals the promise with a kiss.

Peter can't stop the dumb smile he has on his lips as Thor leans back down on their bed. On inspection it's not their room on the Milano, it looks like a house or at least regal in appearance. Asgard perhaps. Thor was the rightful king of the land after his father passed.

Father. The idea caused a shake of fear to rattle down Peter's spine but Thor was quick to react and kissed away the tension as he shifted their positions, leaving Quill with his back on the mattress. He felt so small yet with Thor looming over him he felt safe. "I'm going to take you slowly and with great care. I want you to tell me if it hurts." Thor explained planting a series of kisses to Peter's neck and chest as he eventually sat up.

For someone with sheer power of Physique of the Gods, Thor was extremely caring and aware of the damage he could cause with his recklessness. By the time that the familiar feeling of thor presses against his hole it feels like part of the dream has been fast-forwarded. The intrusion lacked that usual burn that suppressed the pleasure and in its wake was almost unnatural pleasure. He sighed upon feeling Thor's hips flush against him.

"You look so good. All laid out for me." Thor rubs a hand up and down Quill's thigh as the man closes his eyes and letting the supernatural feeling take over. "For us." Thor's voice was distorted and deeper causing Peter to look up in confusion. His lover had prominent black veins along his skin and the colour in his eyes had been turned into a milky white. "What the?" Peter shakes his head with lust still clouding his ideas.

"You are ours. Now and forever." There is a mix of two voices. Thor and...Venom? Since when was he a part of this dream? "To consume and ravage." The two continue in synch and the confusion fades back into lost. Even though Peter loved the gentle side of Thor, this domineering attitude was doing things to him. "Do you understand that, Peter?" They asked and Quill was nearly unable to form words.

"Yes." he nods "Yes what?!" They tighten their grip "Yes, sir." Peter near whimpers at the slight thrust "Good boy." Thor-Venom praises causing Peter to let out an embarrassing noise. The symbiote makes itself more present by forming itself in different ways around the two. It creates an almost leather collar around Peter's neck as a harness forms on Thor's chest.

This got interesting.

Thor's smile was amused and edged the line on cruel as he drew his hips back only the thrust back into Peter with enough force that by the end of the dream there would have been bruises. The pleasure had Peter making an array of sounds that would have embarrassed him if he was aware of anything past the feeling of Thor within him and Venom's tendrils caressing his skin.

Thor's grip on Peter's hip borders on crushing as he speeds up him motion and a little bit of Quill is disappointed that this might be over so soon. It felt like more a distant daydream that he came up while zoning out as he ate dinner.

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Abruptly it was over. He was awake and on his bed pressed against his crush. He couldn't remember anything that had happened since yesterday but still felt an ache like he had been wrestling with a Glaxun. "Oh you're awake." he hears Thor greet him. Yet before he could say anything it's like a floodgates is opened and he sees the memories flash before his eyes.

the piercing sensation felt like his entire body was being stabbed with those cursed energy tentacles. There the words played in his ears

"I wanted to do this together but I suppose you'll have to learn by spending the next thousand years as a battery."

The words were spoken by his own father and his breathing turned into hyperventilation. Why was this happening? "Peter? What's wrong, my love." Thor asked seeing his partner suddenly go into an fear gripped state. The captain couldn't prevent the tears as he desperately clutched at anything close by and eventually he tried hiding himself against thor's chest. Seeking the safety he had felt only moments ago.

"I'm sorry." Peter apologised trying to silence the aggressive disappointment that kept playing so close to his ears that it was unavoidable. trying to silence the sound of his mother's last gift crumbling before him as he unable to do anything. "Hey it's okay, you're safe. Nothing is going to hurt you." Thor tried to comfort but he didn't know what was causing this until he recalled what he had told Venom to do.

Invasive little thing. "Venom please stop!" Peter begs clutching onto Thor as best he could. Then just like the dream before, it stopped. Like some hidden switch was pulled and all the pain, noise and sensations. Still Peter was shaking and wiping away what might have been the start of tears. The symbiote forms in a way that it didn't so often. Venom used its mass to form into similar shape to when it covered Quill's body.

Yet this was smaller and less defined. The symbiote was mimicking the hug that Peter was giving Thor. Quill had told the symbiote that panic attacks were things that he used to get as a kid but eventually learned to manage it with different methods. One of the most effective was pressure and weight. Whether it was a heavy blanket or a crushing embrace it usually worked to calm him down so Vee used that information.

He was apologetic for what he had done and wanted to show it but he couldn't do that until his host was calm. Between his two lovers, Peter's breath starts to slow and deepen. "You're okay." Thor promised and Quill nodded shakily. "I'm sorry, man. This was pathetic." Quill had kept his self-deprivation hidden but here it leaked freely. "Don't say that." Thor kissed Peter's forehead softly.

"It takes a lot to face one's demons and that is never pathetic." Thor explained before saying something that he hoped that Quill already knew. "I love you, Star-Lord." Thor confessed and his heart skipped at the little smile on Peter's face.

"I love you too, man."

-End-