Chapter 5
Carmen’s POV
I was not enjoying myself. I really don’t know why I bothered to come. I even got all dressed up for a guy that won’t even look at me. I know that Bucky’s just trying to enjoy himself on his last night in New York, but the more he dances and laughs with his stupid date, the more I feel like just walking out. I can tell Steve and his date aren’t enjoying themselves either, just as Bucky said, but I don’t want to interrupt Steve’s weak attempts at impressing his date. In short, the only people who seem to be enjoying themselves are Bucky and his date, Vicky. Of course, that pretty girl with the fair skin and perfect face would catch Bucky’s eye, along with her charming friend. What’s the use of me even trying to gain his affection? I’m lucky that he’s even my friend! If I ever told him how I felt, I would ruin that for the rest of my life.
Bucky has been happy the whole night, and while I know that’s a good thing, I wish he was dancing with me like that. Looking at me like that. In love with me. It’s not fair that some of these girls just expect men to be their little lap dogs, and then drop them whenever they want, and I can’t believe that Bucky’s falling for it!
“This sucks.” Steve says beside me. He’s watching Bucky as well, although I think he’s sad about the fact that his date won’t even look at him, well, won’t look at him without a disgusted look on her face.
“I think I’m just going to go. There’s really no use in me being here. It’s just making me more upset.”
“No! Don’t leave me here alone! You think I’m having any more fun watching him dance with both girls? I can’t even impress one!” Steve replies in distress.
“I’m sorry Steve. We could have one dance before I go.” I offer.
“Nah, I think a dance out of pity would make me feel even worse.”
“Alright. I’ll go tell Bucky I’m leaving. Do you have a ride?”
“Yeah, I’ll be fine. Go.”
I give a him hug before saying,
“We should meet up at your place tomorrow. I think we’ll both need some relief.”
Walking towards Bucky makes my stomach twist in tight knots just like the ribbon of my dress in my hand.
“Bucky, I’m just going to leave now.” I announce and his smiling face drops.
“Why? We haven’t even seen Howard Stark yet!”
“I-I just need to go home and get some sleep. There’s no use in me being here without a date or anything. I just feel sick watching you dance and have fun while Steve and I stand off to the sides like the social cripples we are.”
“Are you seriously going to leave on the last night I might ever see you again?!” Bucky says, raising his voice. “Carmen, you’re just jealous because people actually like me,”
“No, I’m not Bucky! I’m jealous because you’re dancing with two girls when all I want is for you to be dancing with me!” I scream at him, causing many people to stare at us, before storming out of the room. As I’m walking out I hear the aggravatingly high pitch voice of Vicky say,
“Sarg. Why do you always hang around with such loonies?”