Steve sat with his back against the wall and looked up at the ceiling.
He didn't pay any attention to the chaos around him.
The pictures on the floor of him and Tony stared at him like ghosts in the night.
He and Tony had a fight..
This time it had been more than just an argument... Steve said things he didn't want to say and Tony... did things he didn't wanted to do after the argument...
His phone rested in his hands he missed Tony so much
~~~~Picture perfect memories
Scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone cause
I can't fight it anymore~~
It was now 2 weeks ago.. 2 weeks.....
The last time Tony saw Steve... He couldn't concentrate on anything anymore..
He missed Steve around him... He missed Steve's hands on his body, he missed Steve's passionate kisses.. He missed Steve next to him in bed... He missed Steve
And every second he thought about him...
He looked at himself in the mirror.. He looked miserable... Too many nights out, too much alcohol... He threw the empty whiskey bottle at the mirror which shattered....
Steve had overdone it with his words during the argument and... Tony... Tony was just Tony.... And gave himself up to the next best person who had crossed his path in the club, of course not without taking a picture of him afterwards with the guy naked in bed, and a sending to Steve
~~~And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time~~~
Tony picked up the phone... He had to call him.. He... Needed him he felt so alone..
He caught in his lab and sat on the couch...
He would explain it to him and everything would be same as before.
He looked at the clock, it was just a quarter after one but... He needed to talk to him... Now...
He dialed Steve's number... And looked around...
Since when did everything seem so big and empty here?
..
Steve looked at the phone and tears welled up on his face...
He missed Tony.... His stupid sarcastic manner that always drove him almost white hot, his body, his moaning when he touched him, his eyes... Which meant the world to Steve..
He picked up the cell phone and dialed Tony's number.....it was just quarter after one but...he needed to talk to him....
~~~It's a quarter after one
I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call, but I lost all control
And I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now~~~
The other phone was on hold...on both sides... They couldn't reach each other ..... And they hung up at the same time......
Tony walked over to his pair and poured himself a glass of whiskey... Who on earth was Steve calling at this hour???
He downed the glass in one shot and poured himself more...while staring at the door...
Normally at this time, if Tony wasn't lying next to him, Steve would come down to the lab, cross his arms and smile at Tony...
He would come to him and give him a soft kiss and ask what was it that was bothering him that he couldn't sleep.
Tony dropped his glass at the thought of missing Steve so much...
~~~Another shot of whisky
Can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time~~~
Steve got up and went to his fridge and took out a beer he didn't even remember how many it was today but... He noticed that he was swaying...
He looked at the cell phone on the table... Who was Tony talking to at this hour?
And it broke his heart to think that he had another guy in bed again....
He considered calling him again but... He paused and downed the beer in one gulp before grabbing his keys and stepping out the door
~~~It's a quarter after one
I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call, but I lost all control
And I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without~~
Tony dropped to the ground... He didn't even notice the tears coming up... He leaned against the wall.... Why did he always have to destroy everything that was good in his life??
He closed his eyes... Why did he always have to hurt himself like that?
And why wasn't Steve there to hug him and say everything was going to be okay?
~~~I just need you now
Guess I rather hurt than feel nothing at all~~~
Steve took his motorbike and drove to Tony...
He floored the accelerator.
He had to talk to him...
He noticed that he was getting a little dizzy, but he ignored it and drove even faster...
He needed to see Tony.. He needed to talk to him!!
...
Tony, half drunk, eventually got up and took his keys... He got in his car and drove off... He had to go to Steve... He couldn't lose the best thing he had in this life just like that... He found his eyes closing again and again from drinking too much alcohol, but he floored the accelerator anyway...
It was a quiet night and there was no one on the street but him.
~~It's a quarter after one
I'm all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call
But I'm a little drunk and I need you now~~
Steve could see the tower before he saw the car coming his way...
Tony blinked, a second later he wouldn't have noticed the bike...
Steve was able to just dodge and hit the ground a lot with his motorcycle..
Tony clutched his steering wheel and jerked the car to the left, narrowly avoiding a crash.
He got out of the car
"HOW STUPID DO YOU HAVE TO BE TO DRIVE AT THAT SPEED??"
He went to the rider of the motorbike who was lying on the ground... He couldn't see him from the front ...
Steve didn't even notice Tony and was lying on the ground with his back to him... He straightened up without turning around
"I'm sorry... are you all right???"
Tony stopped short when he heard the familiar voice
Steve turned and stopped moving when he saw Tony
~~It's a quarter after one
I'm all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call
But I'm a little drunk and I need you now
~~
Tony looked at Steve and then took a few steps towards him..
And Steve... did the same and before either of them could know they were hugging each other... Tony sobbing and murmuring something to himself and Steve wrapped both arms around the other, taking in the familiar smell of whiskey as he squeezed the smaller ones.
And at some point.. On this cold spring night, sometime between quarter after one, and in the morning... Between the broken motorcycle and the sports car whose engine was still running... Sometime between the 1000 hugs... Between the 100 kisses and the 3000 times 'I am so sorry'.... They both found each other again and nothing more had to be said... The world was fine for both of them again.....
~~
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
I just need you now~