Chapter 1
My vision blurred, and my ears rang incessantly, disorienting me.
"Miles?"
I heard Ganke's voice, filled with concern, breaking through the fog in my mind.
I tried to focus, struggling to make sense of the situation. What time was it? How did I end up here?
Oh yeah, this is embarrassing.
I, Miles Morales spent the whole weekend begging to try out CNC (non-consensual-consent) with my boyfriend, Ganke Lee.
Each time he shot me down, worried about my safety and the potential negative impact it might have on me. He genuinely cared, but I couldn't help feeling frustrated. After countless discussions and negotiations, we reached a compromise. Ganke challenged me to prove that I could handle rough play, and if I succeeded, he would agree to frequent sessions.
However, if I failed, I promised never to bring it up again.
And now, lying spread against the sheets of the bottom bunk in our shared dorm room, I realized I had blown it all. I couldn't handle a little asphyxiation, and I ruined my chances. As my mind cleared, I could see the
disappointment in his eyes and the tired look on his face. His disapproving glare pinned me down.
"Sorry, Miles," Ganke said, his voice soft with a mix of exhaustion and slight annoyance.
But I couldn't accept that. I couldn't let him dismiss my desires so easily.
"Ganke, please! I can't take any more of that vanilla shit," I pleaded, desperation creeping into my voice.
"I need this, dude."
His expression hardened, weariness creeping across his face.
"We had a deal, Miles,"
he replied, his tone firm as he sank back into his chair, returning to whatever nerdy project he’d left off on.
I was having none of it. I couldn't let him brush aside my cravings again. I had to make him understand just how important this was to me.
Ganke couldn’t understand how lucky he was. He couldn't comprehend the depth of my deprivation, the overwhelming craving that consumed me.
I’ve considered breaking up with him a couple times due to this fact but because he knows I’m spider man… it’s safer to just deal with it for the time being.
After all, he was the only barrier between me and my desires.
One way or another, I was going to get what I
wanted, eventually.