guess it’s just the way things go
The aftermath of it wasn’t pretty for Miles.
After heading back into his verse he couldn’t stop the sobs that he held in for so long from coming out.
Ganke immediately stepping in and asking what was wrong wrapping his arms around the teen like he was fragile.
In this case he actually was.
Miles didn’t say anything but cry harder and crumble into the comfort of his best friend.
Ganke eventually moved him towards the bed letting Miles lay down and just sit next to him humming a little until he slept.
He woke up with puffy eyes a note by him from Ganke.
idk what happened but when i come back we can talk abt it okay bud? - Ganke
He let a slight smile reach his face but the weight on his chest snatched the brief happiness away before he could stop it.
He sighs remembering last night and everything he let out.
I shouldn’t have told him not like that at least Miles thought rubbing his eyes and laying back down.
He just felt so confused and it was unfair to get mixed signals from Hobie especially during that night.
He so clearly wanted Alec so why was he messing with Miles? And what was the whole deal with Ricky? even if it was like that he never would’ve imagined that Hobie would care.
maybe he was jealous hm? a voice said in his head
He shot down the thought, he wasn’t letting himself fall for those delusions anymore.
He loves Hobie but it’s unrequited at least in the way how he loved him.
Miles wanted to wake up next to Hobie, He wanted to just feel that Hobie was his and he was Hobie’s.
He wanted those random affections and affirmative words from him each night.
He wanted to be able to mess with Hobie’s piercings and laugh when he would squirm.
He wanted that type of love from him.
But Hobie had Alec to provide that for and Miles had to accept it one way or another.
But it hurt.
god did it hurt.
He not only lost his crush he lost a really good friend. Losing Hobie in more than one way was the main reason Miles hesitated with a confession.
Hobie was Miles’s backbone sometimes he provided him with clarity and advice that he knew he could trust. And by confessing he could’ve lost that forever.
But it happened before he could even acknowledge the consequences.
Miles feels the sense of dread creeping in his stomach again and the familiar feeling of tears building in his eyes.
He snaps himself out of it by sitting up and just trying to clear his head.
He hears Ganke walk in with bags full of snacks and some movies.
He chuckled and raised an eyebrow to just how much he had brought in.
“trying to feed an army man?” Miles said turning to face him.
“Got all your favorite snacks dude and some movies if you wanted to just chill?” Ganke said setting the things down walking over to Miles.
“do you want to talk about it?” He says sitting next to Miles.
Miles opens his mouth to respond but shuts it. He truly doesn’t want to cry anymore but Ganke should at least know a little.
“I- uh I kind of told Hobie how I felt but found out that he liked someone else..”
Leaving out some major details but mostly summarizing it.
Ganke hums and turns to look at Miles.
“i’m guessing you left out a lot but we can talk more about it when your ready m’kay? Let’s just chill and get my best bud feeling better.”
He says getting up and putting the cd in and bringing the snacks over.
Miles sighs feeling the tensions ease up a little.
Hobie walks away from the spot he had watched Miles leave.
He felt it in his gut that he had just immensely fucked up and he seriously didn’t know what to do.
Was there even a way to recover from this? Nothing Hobie can say will wash away his mistake, he couldn’t just chase after Miles and plead nonsense just to hurt him more.
He had lost him and it was on him.
He walks back into the pub looking to take back his guitar and just go home to think about how he can get Miles back and fix the damage he’s caused.
He sees from the corner of his eye the dude who was talking to Miles.
He feels a wave of jealousy in his gut not as prominent as before but still there.
He shoots a glare and gets his guitar heading to the door.
He hears a whistle and sees that the dude is walking up to him.
“Oi’ fuck off bruv.” Hobie spat.
He wasn’t going to deal with this, definitely not tonight.
The man waves him over heading to leave the pub as well.
He eyes Hobie for a bit then flicks his cig into the puddle by the street.
“Well ‘come off it then.” Hobie says waiting to get whatever this was over with.
“He really likes you you know?”
Hobie feels his breath hitch.
He looks over smoothing his look over a little.
“what’d you know mate.” He says scoffing, recalling the hurt in Miles’s words tug on his heart more and more.
“I wasn’t hitting on him dude not even in the slightest he just looked lonely and I just wanted a chat.” He says leaning to look over at Hobie.
“Yeah he joked and spoke to me nicely but I could tell somethin’ was messing with him.”
Hobie turns over to look at him setting his guitar down next to him.
“Then when I asked him about it he just spilled even used an alias for the two of you. Even when he was upset he didn’t badmouth you guys he just sorta gushed on how much he liked you.”
Hobie feels his cheeks grow warm accompanied by pangs of guilt in his chest.
The man looks down at his hands and looks back towards Hobie with a more serious look.
“He truly is fond of you dude, and shit isn’t cool for you to mess with the kid’s feelings like that. If you like him tell him. If you don’t tell him all the same, spare him even more hurt would ya?” The man says pointing at Hobie.
“Not too much on the last part though, jealousy seems to be shown from you enough.” He says moving his jaw around letting a small chuckle out.
“He’s a good kid man, a catch at that so don’t lose him over a misconception.”
The man finishes walking past Hobie patting him on the back.
Hobie lets out a held sigh and runs his hands on his face.
Why did he do this to Miles? Why couldn’t he just pull his head out of his ass and confess to Miles.
He didn’t realize how much this must’ve been affecting Miles. How his affections could’ve been twisted into Hobie leading Miles on.
He didn’t mean to he was just scared.
Miles had shown up so abruptly and took Hobie’s heart with him just as quick.
He didn’t want to jeopardize the friendship by misreading Miles’s actions and confessing.
It just felt so delicate and Hobie for the first time in a while wanted to keep it consistent.
He wanted Miles in his daily routine, He wanted to be able to hold Miles and kiss him all over without it having cost him the friendship.
From his cowardliness he hurt the one thing he held dear to his heart.
i’m going to make this right. I won’t lose him not without him knowing everything.
Hobie thought heading over to his loft.
He will give Miles space tonight the wound was too fresh.
He will come over tomorrow and confess like how he should’ve from the start.
He will lay every little thing he feels and all the love he’s held in secret for Miles.
And whatever Miles does he will respect it.
he’s going to make this right, he was going to take that leap of faith.