Chapter 1
“Are you going to speak, or just stare out the window the whole time?” Pavitr asks in a playful tone, glancing over at Miles. Miles blinks a bit, slowly getting out of his thoughts and back to reality.
‘Right… I’m with a friend right now.’ He thinks to himself. He turns his head and flashes an apologetic smile.
“Sorry Pav,” He begins, sheepishly rubbing the back of his neck.
“I was just thinking about something.” He mutters, looking back out the window. Pavitr rests a hand on Miles shoulder.
“What’s up with you pal? You seem really upset lately.” Pavitr frowns, his voice was laced with worry.
He was right, Miles had been upset lately. Nobody knew why. Not his parents, not his friends, sometimes not even HE knew why.
Well, he did. He just didn’t want to admit that it was the reason.
“Can I tell you a secret?” Miles requested, his voice was low. Pavitr nodded, squeezing the shorter males shoulder.
“You have the floor, Miles.” Pavitr assures. Miles inhales sharply.
“Gwen and I broke up.” He gets out with it. his face looks sad, like a dog who just got kicked. Pavitr frowns.
One part of him couldn’t help but feel sympathy for his crush. Afterall, he wanted him to be happy, but the other part of him was relieved that he had a chance. The fact that he even felt a glimpse of relief made him guilty though he didn’t show it.
“What happened?” Pavitr calmly asks, his voice is smooth and soft. He pulls Miles into a hug. Miles sighs.
“She’s… not really all that into guys.” Miles calmly says, he hugs Pavitr back as he speaks. Pavitrs frown grows.
He was glad his friend Gwen was finding herself, but he still felt bad for Miles. Before he could speak, Miles does instead.
“That isn’t what bothers me though, since I ain’t into girls.” Miles mutters, his voice has a bit of panick. Pavitr was the first person he was coming out to.
Pavitrs eyes widened as he heard Miles speak, his heart beating faster in his chest.
‘He likes guys too?’ Pavitr thinks to himself. He was almost happy that he had a chance, though then he remembered the sad look on Miles face.
‘My feelings can wait.’ He thinks to himself again.
“Well what’s upsetting you?” Pavitr mumbles, tightening the hug for more support. Miles face goes a bit shocked.
‘He doesn’t care that I’m gay?’ He thinks, clearly puzzled by the support.
“Miles?” Pavitr calls, taking Miles from his thoughts once more.
“Sorry, I was thinking..” He trails.
“What’s bothering me is, Im kind of. Afraid nobody will love me like that again. Gwen genuinely was into me for awhile until she found herself and I was genuinely into her. Now, we’re not together and I just.” He pauses.
“I just feel like nobody will love me like that again, ever.” He confides. It felt good to get it off of his chest, he didn’t know why he trusted Pavitr so much with his secrets but… he did. Something about Pavitr made him feel so happy and comforted that, he didn’t mind sharing personal things with him.
‘ *I* love you like that, Miles.’ Pavitr thinks to himself. He developed a crush on Miles 5 months ago, back when Miles and Gwen weren’t dating yet. The feelings didn’t go away. They stuck there like a piece of gum at the bottom of his shoe. His crush on Miles made him notice that he was bisexual. His crush ALSO made him notice that he was better off being just friends with Gayatri. He loved her, but he wasn’t IN love with her. She understood completely though. Pavitr sighs.
“You’ll find someone, Miles.” He cheerfully responds, pulling apart from the hug.
“You never know, you might just have a secret admirer!” Pavitr adds with a happy smile.
Miles giggles a bit. Pavitr really was a perfect ray of sunshine, his smile was contagious and his heart was filled with gold.
“Thanks man.” He smiles, checking the time getting up.
“You have to go now?” Pavitr inquires trying not to absolutely melt at the sight of Miles smiling.
“Yeah, my mom is cooking dinner. Let’s hang tomorrow!” He answers, grabbing his stuff and heading out the portal he created.
“Yeah, cya tomorrow.” Pavitr smiles softly as Miles makes his exit. He lays down on his bed, starting at the ceiling.
“I really do love you, Miles.” He whispers to himself, blushing slightly as he remembers Miles smile. After laying down for awhile, he gets up and grabs his phone dialing Gayatris number. The phone rings until she picks up
*Hello? Pavitr? What’s up?* She asks. There was clearly cars in the background.
“Hey, you aren’t busy at a photo shoot or anything right?” He asks her, noticing the background noise.
*No, just stuck in traffic. You know how mumbattan is.* She answers, he can almost HEAR her rolling her eyes. He chuckles at this, shifting on his bed so that he’s laying on his stomach.
“Well, my crush was just over.”
*Oh my GOD! Tell me all about it!*