Miles morales isn’t that special or in his thoughts he isn’t and he most likely will Never be he may be spider man and he may be an artist a good student a almost straight A besides the couple B’s he gets in Spanish but he never actually is super good at them if anything he’s a normal person everything about him is normal and it’s evident in everything he does he’s not a very good Spider-Man and he isn’t that good of an artist sure people may say he’s good but he’s never admired by others the way other kids are but even the thing he was made to do he’s not even that good at, prowler miles or Milo now is a better Spider-Man and prowler than miles because they decided to switch once just a fun, a game , but prowler did it so much better than him he even got compliments from everybody when everyone didn’t know it was Milo they praised him they said he was amazing him however the exact opposite
Milo’s Aaron just kept laughing at him constantly. He wasn’t good at it; he wasn’t even good at the thing he was always meant to be. What a joke he is, and what a joke his powers are. If not for Hobie, he probably wouldn’t have even known how to use his electricity correctly because he’s not good at it. He’s not good at anything. He doesn’t dress well. And he will always be overlooked by people he adores and admires. Gwen Peter B. Parker, heck, even Hobie and Pav admire each other more than they could ever do him, and sure, they absolutely appreciate and respect him for saving their loved ones, and when he did save Pav from his canon event,
it felt amazing to get all of the praise for once to not be looked to the side, as someone, a helper as someone who did it all on his own with his amazing friends but it was him with his amazing skills he did it maybe he’s over playing it because it wasn’t really him it could’ve been anyone. wich is why he thinks although they thought miles was great
pavs universe still had a giant whole in his world and as those two got to know him more they realize that miles isn’t that great and Gwen is much better everyone is better there all improving so much more and have all something great something special about them
he wishes he could be in there band but he doesn’t know how to play anything I mean unless his voice counts but it doesn’t because his singing isn’t even good it’s horrible he even tried so hard but it never worked out. because he isn’t that good at it he’s not good at much.
Honestly, this could be because of everything Miles has done. He’s picked up so many hobbies that he wanted to pick up so bad, and now that he finally did them, he realized how okay he was at them no matter how much he practiced, constantly worked on them, or watched tutorials on them. Like crocheting, he really wanted to make stuff with it, but he gave up because he couldn’t even do the simplest of tasks, which is to make a small square, line, or whatever! He doesn’t know anymore; it’s long forgotten anyway, and then the next thing is skating, like roller skating. Although he adores doing it, just like drawing, he’s too much of a scaredy-cat to actually do anything cool. In fact, he roller skated, really Young ended up fracturing his ankle from it. Sure, he still does it, but he will never be good at it, and even though he’s Spider-Man, he’s still not good at it.
He’s taken up so many things and just been okay at them—not something jaw-dropping or even a wow or anything. Even his art is simple—just a weird figure of things—and it's not incredible good. He's not even that good at socializing. He once had on-going mannerisms that were okay with his friends and people, and suddenly there were people telling him to stop, which confused him because he’s been doing this since forever and he doesn’t know any other way to actually communicate his feelings without being extra. People at school would tell him he’s weird and special, whatever that means. He didn’t want to go into it because every part of him seemed to not be good enough.
enough.
The only thing miles wishes to be
Even the thing he so desperately tried to work at (art)
Was just a weird figure of things he put together so he could express his love for stuff but look at that he’s not even good at expressing what he truly cares about he doesn’t know how and it’s always seen as weird or AWKWARD he can’t even love right he can’t express correctly and he will probably never ever be able to get praise on just existing and being amazing at something like hobie oh hobie is just amazing by sitting there actually standing up looking cool being cool be able to communicate slyly just so amazingly and smooth and then Gwen who’s so good at the drums and a passion for everyone in her life being able to express freely and she does ballet and she’s a good Spider-Man they both are and pavitr he’s amazing he’s a sunshine always happy always knows what to say can pick up any hobby and be great at it. He can do anything and get so much praise and love and oh god miles wants that so bad
He wants the tiny bit of admiration, love, and praise everyone gets for just being them and not having to constantly try and try and be weird and improve but not improve enough because everyone is already miles ahead of you so far you can’t physically imagine catching up and you can’t change no matter how hard you try because you just don’t get it. You just don’t get how people do these amazing things because you do not have raw talent.
Miles is simple. Someone who is average at everything, even the thing he’s put so much effort and love into, will never be good. It’ll be a weird misconstrued being of everything you aspire to be because, although you wish you were perfect, amazing, and loved by everyone, you will never ever actually be up there because you're never going to be as good as the others you so desperately cling to. It's worse when the people you admire ignore you because it’s like you popped out of nowhere and it’s like you're trying to force yourself into a friend group and it just doesn’t fit because you're not that special and nobody really knows you.
Miles being special?
miles, him? No, nothing very basic, just miles.
And
There’s nothing more to that. You may say he has a big heart, but Pav has a bigger one. You may say he cares, but Hobie cares more. You may say he's louder and prouder. Gwen is better. You could say he’s good at fighting; nope, that's Noir. You could say he's good with computers and electronics; nope, that’s Margo. You could say he’s good at really anything. Promise, Milo he will be better at it. But miles?. He’s just okay. He will never be as good as them, and heck, he can’t even be depressed correctly.
He can’t do anything. Oh, how he wishes he could self-harm and do all horrible things to his body just to maybe be good at that, but he never could because he’s not that sad and he’s too afraid of doing something like that. He’s not stupid; he will know what will happen if anyone finds out, but he so desperately just wants something to cling to and let it be his thing, but he knows deep down that he would never do that, mainly because of the hassle it’ll cause. He's average. That's good to some people, but to him it's just nothing, so he will fantasize about doing this thing he really doesn’t even deserve to do.
Because he’s not sad enough
Consume content containing such horrible things. he would never do but so desperately wants to but he knows he can’t because it won’t make him any different he would rather rot and purposely get hurt during fights then reach out or really anything to help himself because he knows he’s ok and he knows nothing will actually happen he will live a long life of nothing truly special about himself and he’s ok with that because he can’t do anything he is nothing and that is ok he’s just some weird thing that appears every so often and leaves because he’s not special he’s a thing and you can’t change that fact, so he accepts it.
He will accept that he wants to self-harm but never will because he’s a chicken, and he will know he is nothing special because there’s nothing there. He will rot, and he will continue to live this fungus of a person only made to exist. He will never be something someone admires, wishes for, or references for living. Nope, he will be a sideline character because he’s nothing special.
Miles Morales is nothing special.
He never will.
And he never can be
Because he’s too stupid to be able to
So let him be.
Let him rot.