я люблю тебя
*LILA POV*
I had just finished my therapy session and I couldn't take it anymore, I urgently needed to sleep. I had thrown Nadya out in the middle of the session, I know it was wrong and she only tries to help me, but sometimes her affection overwhelms me more.
Right now I was looking for her through the corridors of the place, but I couldn't find her. First I had gone to look for Yelena, I thought she would be with her, but she wasn't; so I decided to go look for Wanda, who was in the garden reading alone, and Nadya still didn't show up. When I was about to give up I saw her through a window that overlooked a room full of mirrors with a bar in front. It looked like a ballet hall. And there she was, dancing like she was the only one there, it was like the music was dancing for her not the other way around. Her feet moved so fluidly, as if she were flying in the clouds, and she jumped like a bird taking off from a tree. It was impossible not to stare at her, her dance attracted you like a magnet.
I stayed watching her dance, until the music ended. She still hadn't realized that I was watching, so I decided to open the door.
- You're incredible - I said as I entered, making her jump in fright - I never thought I could go unnoticed in front of you - I laughed
- The music makes me disconnect, which made me get quite a few punishments in the red room - she joked, which I didn't find so funny anymore
- You will no longer be punished, I promise - I answered approaching her in the chair
- How are you? - she asked - I know I shouldn't have left, even if you had told me, but I thought that maybe the fact that I'm not there could help you, maybe my presence overwhelmed you and made you... - she began to ramble, but I silenced her, her mind was going somewhere I didn't like
- Hey - I said taking her hand and silencing her - I was stressed, yes, but that's not your fault, I've taken it out on you, but it's not your fault, all you've done all this time is help me - I told her firmly - It's I just don't know, that you saw me, I don't know, like this, I can't even walk -
- But, you can, I know you and, although it will take time, I know that you will get up from that chair - she told me making me smile
- I love you - I said, bending down to her level, since she was sitting on the floor, and I kissed her on the lips.
- I love you too - she replied while smiling in the kiss - But you haven't answered my question - she said separating me and I looked at her strangely - How are you? -
- To tell the truth, I'm tired and I want to sleep - I replied
- Well, let's go to sleep - she said getting up from the floor, collecting her things and began to push my chair towards our room.
When we arrived, Nadya helped me onto the bed, and she lay down next to me, but too far from me, in my opinion. She's been doing this every night, she says it's not to hurt me, but I don't sleep comfortably like this, I want her in my arms, as it should be.
- No, Nadya, come here, please, I'll sleep well if I have you in my arms, please - I asked her already tired of her overprotective behavior
- No, I'll hurt you - she said, but I wasn't going to stay like that, so I grabbed her from behind and pulled her to me
- Do not dare to move, you stay here - I warned her
- And if I hurt you? - she asked me scared
- You won't hurt me - I assured her.
She began to turn on top of me, leaving her head resting on my chest and she put an arm around my abdomen, hugging me.
- Why didn't you ever tell me that you danced so well? - I asked after several minutes lying like this
- They taught me to dance in the red room, and I loved it, it was the only activity that I liked in that hell, it was the only thing that made me smile, but I suppose you wouldn't like to know that I love the activity that turned me into a monster - she answered closing her eyes
- Just because you like to dance doesn't mean you're a monster, it's more, it makes me fall in love with you more, because you know how to accept what they taught you to kill, and use it to make something precious like you - I said, kissing her on the head
- я люблю тебя - she murmured
- what does that mean? - I asked, she had taught me Russian, I still don't speak fluently but I'm learning, but she had spoken fast and loose that I couldn't understand her
- I love you - she answered making me smile, I needed to learn to say it myself in Russian
- I love you too - I answered, finally letting my eyes close and sleep take me away.