Prisoner of your own mind
*WANDA POV*
I didn't know what had happened, from one day to the next everything had been destroyed, we were all happy and now everything had collapsed. Nadya and Yelena aren't talking, Lila is unbelievably sad that Nadya isn't talking to her, Nathaniel is crying because no one plays with him, and Clint and Laura are trying to calm him down, but he just wants Nadya.
- This can't go on like this, they need to talk, they've been closed in on themselves for days, they're only hurting themselves - Clint raised his voice
- We can't do that to them, they've been through a lot, they're not going to open up like that because that's how it is - Lila replied
- Maybe you can, you are her best friend and even something else, Nadya will open up to you, and Yelena to Nadya - I said
- Nadya is not going to open up to me - she murmured
- Just try it -
- You think I haven't tried? - she asked, now raising her voice - what do you think I've been doing these last few days? But she doesn't listen, she spends her days stuck in her mind, remembering and remembering, thinking that she's a monster that doesn't deserve anything -
- Only you can get her out, she trusts you, Lila - I told he
rShe looked at me and then at the stairs
- Fine, I'll try, she deserves it -
- And you too - I told her before she went to her room.
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*LILA POV*
I knocked on the door, I knew Nadya was too far gone to hear it, but I also didn't want her to be startled if I walked in unannounced.
I didn't get an answer, so I opened the door and went inside.
- Hey, Nads - I called her and she turned to look at me, at least she responded, even if it was just looking at me - How are you? - I asked, I knew the answer, but I still needed to ask
- Fine - she replied, her voice hoarse from not using it in several days. I knew she wasn't telling the truth, but I let it go anyway.
- Do you want to talk or do we stay here without saying anything? -
- Stay here - she murmured.- Okay - I answered sitting on the bed - Can I hug you? - I asked and she agreed.
When I received her answer, I immediately drew her to me, she leaned on my chest and put her arm around my waist.
I started to notice my wet shirt, Nadya was crying, but I decided not to say anything and keep hugging her.
- I saw him - she said a few minutes later - I saw my father, we were on one of the test missions, he had taken me to the forest, we had to find a man who had escaped from HYDRA and kill him before he said something. He was hiding in a cabin in the woods when we found him, the man didn't agree to come voluntarily, he preferred to die, so I took the gun and pulled the trigger, a simple bullet between his eyes. My father congratulated me, said that I was going to become the best assassin if I continued like this. I just wanted to make my father happy - she said crying
I didn't say anything, I just kept hugging her and caressing her back. She didn't need me to say anything, she just needed someone to listen to her, and that was what I was going to do.
- I'm sorry, I ruined your shirt - Nadya apologized, raising her head to see the wet area
- Don't worry, it dries up - I told her laughing a little
- Either way I'm sorry - she told me lying down again, but this time with her head on the pillow and I got next to her.
- are you feeling better? After talking about it - I asked her and she nodded - do you think we're going to sleep a bit? You need to rest -
- Okay - she said closing her eyes and putting her head in my chest again
I watched her a bit while she slept, until, without realizing it, I fell asleep too.