Hobie loved Miles a lot. He would do anything for that boy, even give him another chance. You see, they fell in love when they were saving the multiverse. They became a popular couple among their friends, mostly because they were inseparable. For a while it was always the two of them, but then Miles forgave Gwen.
He has a hard time forgiving her, because her betrayal hurt like none other. He loved- loves her. So her betraying him, broke him. Hobie helped put him back together, but apparently Miles was always missing a piece. Once he forgave her, it was always Miles and Gwen. It was no longer Hobie and Miles.
The thing that hurts most about it all is that Miles' feelings for Gwen never went away. Hobie is selfish, so he wished Miles never forgave Gwen. He wanted Miles so badly, that when Miles left him for Gwen, his world fell apart.
He can’t comprehend why Miles left him here after everything he did. After he gave life back to Miles' broken heart. For a girl who betrayed him, and then lied to him. Hobie loved Gwen like a sister, but now he envies her for taking the only happiness he ever had in life.
He was left here to burn. He was left with the pieces of his own broken heart, because he went and fell in love. Now? All he does is break down. He stopped caring for his world, so now he doesn’t even protest when waking up drains all his energy.
He doesn’t know how to breathe anymore, because his only source of happiness in this lifetime was taken from him. He didn’t know what happiness was back then, but the moment he found it, the world took it.
Hobie wants to believe eighteen is too young to be this hurt, but he knows it isn’t. You can never be too young to be this hurt. He dated Miles for a year, before Gwen proved her worth to Miles once again. Was he that easy to replace? After everything, he is just nothing to them?
He got replaced like he was just a distance memory. Like he was a temporary high. His memories will always be surrounded by Miles, but he refuses to be anywhere Miles is. He can’t deal with the betrayal. He doesn’t expect Miles to come around either though, because he’d probably be too in love with Gwen to care.
With the broken part of his heart, he decides to go to a different universe. It’s a random universe he knows his “friends” won’t be able to find him. He just needs a break from anything Miles. Firstly, he gets a hotel since he’s old enough to do so now. Secondly, he orders something to eat since he hasn’t eaten in days.
He still doesn’t eat, but it’s there if he gets motivation. Until then, it’ll just sit on the table mocking him.
He feels doomed laying around this hotel room. He’s so lost on who he is, confused on what he’s meant to do, and broken because he was betrayed. Miles was the only thing that ever made sense to Hobie. Miles was this wonderful happy person that Hobie loved.
Hobie always knew he wasn’t supposed to be happy. He knew he wasn’t supposed to ever be loved. He knew falling in love and being consumed by temporary happiness is his fault. In the end, Hobie is to blame for letting himself feel something.
He’s staring at the wall, wondering why he isn’t good enough for anyone. What was so special about Gwen that Miles would leave Hobie as he was dirt? Hobie actually allowed himself to believe he was the one for Miles.
Yeah, he understands Gwen is a girl, raised by a good dad. Gwen isn’t raised to hate her government, because hers isn’t crappy like Hobie’s. Gwen isn’t as touchy nor does she own an army of system haters. She was raised to be everything Hobie isn’t.
Counting his wounds, he realised they’ll only grow. He wants to numb them, but they refuse to fade. The more he tries, the more they hurt. He regrets loving Miles, because this all the more painful when he had the chance to avoid the boy.
Days like these, Hobie regrets failing his suicide attempt when he was younger. He wishes he was never born, and that his mother proceeded with her wish to abort Hobie. He wouldn’t have ended up as this major disappointment in life if he wasn’t alive. He could be happy, loved, and this amazing bloke, but instead he’s in a hotel room, not from his dimension, crying over a guy.
Does Miles ever care that he left Hobie like this? That he took Hobie's heart and ripped it to shreds? Or that he took a knife and twisted it through his ribcage? Why doesn’t Miles care about the fact he broke Hobie? That he carries the blood on his hands of a broken heart? Or that he murder the only lover Hobie could ever give?
Hobie gave Miles every piece of him, everything he had to offer, just for Miles to push it away like trash. He showed his injuries, mentally and psychically, that he cared for himself, to Miles. He always hated sweat and hugs, but he said damn it all, and let Miles hug him when he was sweaty. He gave his heart to Miles, just for him to crush it. Hobie even cried in front of Miles, and he nevers cries in front of others. Not even friends.
Hobie was there for Miles when no one else was, so why did he have to get hurt? Hobie was there for Miles, because he was at his lowest. The girl he loved- loves, betrayed him. So Hobie picked him up, just to get pushed to the bottom of an ocean when Gwen came back around. Hobie was everything she should’ve been.
Hobie has so many questions for MIles, although he won’t ever ask them. The questions will forever be there, never fading from his mind.
His first question is who the hell does Miles think he is? Why would someone be so selfish to make someone fall in love, and then leave them for a girl who betrayed them without hesitation? Miles has some nerves to try and ruin Hobie’s faith. Even if it was unintentional.
His second question is why would he try and play me as a fool? Hobie shouldn’t be meant as a temporary high, he should be a forever or never type of love. He shouldn’t be a rebound kind of love. He regrets ever trusting Miles.
Thirdly, why wasn’t he who he swore to be? Miles had swore he was over Gwen. They even had fights about it! He has swore over and over again he only held feelings for Hobie, that he shouldn’t worry about Miles leaving him for Gwen. These three questions will forever haunt him, because it's not- it’s unfair. Hobie shouldn’t have to be the one who is hurt- the one left broken.
Hobie thought his name was safest in Miles’ mouth, but he went and spit it out like it was nothing. He ruined a year-long work of love for a girl who betrayed him. A girl he swore he didn’t love.
Miles' voice was Hobie’s safe haven, but now it’s like a burning building. His voice was the most familiar sound there ever was, but then it turned into the most dangerous thing he had heard.
How could they fix this relationship, or at least make it a friendship? Could they talk and finally communicate? Maybe the way they ended was a mistake? Does Hobie even want to talk to Miles still? He doesn’t know.
As the weeks flew by, he finally returned home. Nothing bad happened while he was away for so long, so that’s something positive. Only, when he got back to his house, was he knocked out by something hitting his head.
When he woke up, he was tied up in a mysterious room. His head was pounding, so maybe that’s why his spider senses are acting up. When he looks around, he sees a figure in front of him. They’re not from his universe clearly.
“Ah, Hobie. You’re awake.” It was a girl who spoke. She has a voice similar to Gwen’s but at the same time, it’s not even close to it.
He stares at the figure, recognizing her as a girl Miles hangs with. She shares classes with Miles, and they become close friends. Ironically, her name is Gwendolyn. Every spider universe has a MJ or Gwendolyn, she so happened to be Miles. Well, she is supposed to be that Peter, but their universe got messed up.
“I’ve seen Miles with this new girl. First it was you, now her. They look unhappy, but I know why. Because he regrets leaving you, y’know? But, sadly, he was supposed to be mine. So if I get rid of you, maybe he’ll finally leave that fake.”
She sounds genuine, but at the same time pissed. It makes sense. Love makes people crazy, but Hobie refuses to believe her words. He knows for a fact that Miles chose Gwen over him, because he loves her.
“He doesn’t love me. He can regret hurting me, but he doesn’t love me.” Hobie states, holding back tears. He doesn’t. Miles doesn’t love Hobie. The idea of Miles still loving Hobie makes his blood boil.
Apparently, as on cue, Miles shows up. He glares at the bloke, because he doesn’t want him here. Why is he here- who invited him? Hobie can’t breathe. He’s shaking violently, because he’s not prepared to see Miles.
Hobie doesn’t hear fighting, just a pounding headache and his thoughts racing a hundred miles per hour.
Hobie blinks himself back into reality, but now he’s on the top of a building with Miles and Gwendolyn. Miles is failing to beat Gwendolyn, and it hurts. He’s just watching, not able to move. He sees Miles yell something, but he can’t hear it. That’s the last thing he saw, was Miles yelling something desperately at him.
His world goes black. He’s falling? He knows he’s bleeding somewhere, but when did he fall? He doesn’t get to think about it, because he hits the ground before ever fully turning back into reality. Guess now he’ll only ever see Miles from the afterlife.