There he was, Loki, the god of mischief himself, now holding a baby in his arms. He didn't want to believe it at first, but the more he looked at the child, the more it looked like him. Her eyes were bright blue and her hair the same raven hair he had. Her cheeks were round and puffy, and her nose was perfectly round. But.. he couldn't have this child. He couldn’t even take care of himself the right way, let alone a small child. What would he do? How will he do it? What would they think? How would Thor and Odin react to bringing a child that was claimed to be his own. So he did what he thought was best.
With the knowledge of his secrets and shortcuts to Midgard he was able to bring little Zuelia to what he thought would be a safer place. A place for her to grow up with people who were able to take care of her.
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Years had passed since that day, and Loki would find himself helping along the TVA with Mobius. Though he never really wanted to in the first place, or even wanted to find this “very dangerous” variant. He got more and more bored each time he would open a new folder of his other variants' information and past records, brushing it off since he knew what they’d do. He kept doing this over and over, getting more and more annoyed each second, it wasn't until he saw something that made his heart sink and jump at the same time. His eyes widened as he looked at the file.
He had a daughter?.. A child of his own blood?..Had he really forgotten about his own blood?.. The file showed her face and info, listing her recent features, she was older… Did he really miss her whole life? The file was worn, as if her data had been there for a while. He closed the file, his eyes now glossy from the tears almost falling. It didn't take him long to rush down the halls of the TVA in search of Mobius.
He kept looking for him. Asking other TVA workers if he knew where Mobius went. It didn't take long for him to bump into Casey, accidentally knocking over some paperwork he had been holding.
He would know? Right?
He looked at Casey then the papers he began to pick up. Loki didn't bother helping, he just needed to find Mobius..
“Casey! Sorry about the papers..” he paused and looked at the papers again “But do you happen to know where Mobius is?” he watched Casey, hoping he would have an answer, unlike the other TVA staff who just ignored him...
“Mobius?” he asked as if not hearing what Loki had said in which Loki responded with a small hum, “I think he's on a mission right now.. I could check if you wan-”
“Yes! Please check!” He interrupted, holding Casey by his shoulders. Casey gave him widened awkward eyes, Loki looking back at him with a less eye widened awkward look would let go of his shoulders, “I'll be right back..” Casey said before awkwardly walking away. Lavong Loki to pace back and forth, waiting for Casey to come back.
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After what seemed like hours to Loki,despite it only being a few minutes… Casey had come back. Loki’s mind was full of thoughts. So much so he didn't even notice the impatient expression he gave to Casey. It was like he was going to explode if Casy didn't walk faster.
“He’s in a meeting now, but I’m pretty sure they’re almost done,” Casey explained with a somewhat awkward smile, “he did say he was going to check on you when he finished.. so I’d be where you were before” he turned and left to do his work. Loki nodded as Casey left, soon walking back to the library when Mobius had originally left him. His quick pace never slows down.
Mobius rushed out of the meeting room once the meeting finished. He'd been wanting to check up on Loki. There was just something about him, something that made him care for him a lot. Loki, on the other hand, was asleep on the desk he used to look at the files. Mobius would walk into the library and see Loki sleep, a small smile crossed his lips. Seeing the calmly sleeping god made him calm.
Mobius would use the file he looked at to wake Loki up, three little taps on his elbow, which was enough to wake him up. Loki’s bright blue eyes met with his, they looked at each other eye to eye, both of their hearts seemed to flutter at this. Loki had then remembered the file and jolted up making Mobius’ heart jump, “I NEED TO SEE HER!” Loki blurted.
Mobius had a worried, surprised look on his face as Loki continued “Mobius.. I know this is so sudden and I'm not fully trusted here, by you, or by anyone, but I need to see her, she's important and I need to make things right and-” Loki kept rambling about this person he so had to see. It wasn't until Mobius had to calm him down.
“Whoa, Whoa! Slow it down bud..” He looked at Loki worried “who is this ‘she’ you’re talking about?” he asked, his hands motioning for him to sit back down. Loki obliged, sitting in his seat. His leg started to jump from the anticipation.
Mobius put his hands on the table, his worried expression calming a bit. He was still worried, seeing Loki’s sudden attitude change really surprised him. “My daughter..” Loki explained, his leg was still jumping “I have a daughter..” Mobius’ expression changed rapidly, his eyes widening, it was a like he knew. Mobius got lost in his thoughts, panic rushing through his head ‘But how.. I thought I put those files back correctly.. How did he-’
“Mobius?” Loki called out a little, his voice was soft. This snapped Mobius from his thoughts. The softness in Loki’s voice made Mobius' heart melt a little. “About my.. Daughter?..” Loki asked softly again. “Right..um.. Loki-“ Mobius started, taking a moment to think about his words, “your timeline..” he paused again.
“We can’t go back.. she may be gone” Mobius explained, he tried to say this carefully, too afraid of making him upset. But Mobius didn’t expect Loki’s response to be, “She’s alive.. I know because..” he sighed before continuing, “because I.. I left her in a different universe.. I thought it would be for the best.. But I..” His voice slightly hitching from trying not to cry. His regrets were slowly eating him alive. “I've abandoned her Mobius.. Like I had everyone else.. And I want.. No.. I need to make things right..”
“I don't know Loki.. you already tried tricking us before-“
“This is not a trick! Mobius please.. I know I haven’t been the best.. But I'm begging you.. even if I get to see how much she’s grown for a second..” Mobius’ face became a shocked and worried one, seeing the way Loki was really desperate. Loki didn’t even hide his emotions. Tears streamed down Loki’s face.
Mobius sighed “Even if I did trust you, which I do! The others wouldn’t agree.. Loki, all you’ve done for us was waist time and mess around.. I’m not trying to make you more upset, I'm just doing my job..” Loki put his head down on the table. It was as if he gave up. Mobius’ eyes furrowed, and a soft sigh escaped him.
“I’ll.. I’ll be right back” Loki looked up from his arms and watched as Mobius left, putting his head down again when he was gone. He felt alone, other times he would be used to it, but this time it actually hurt. Not only being denied of going to see his Daughter, but Mobius’ words. They stung like an angry bee on a hot summer’s day.
After some time, Mobius had come back. Loki was looking at the other files, his expression was bored and sad at the same time. This made Mobius’ heart ache, he thought it was weird at first, he felt bad for him. Mobius once again shook off the feeling and walked over to the table.
Loki looked up from the file he was reading. Mobius had a slight smile on his face, making Loki a little worried about what he did, but at the same time, Mobius’ smile made him feel warm. Loki looked away to stop the warm feeling he had. A little weirded out by the feeling as he looked back at Mobius, who still had that overly positive smile on his face.
“Yes?” Loki asked, his sarcastic tone matching the look on his face. Waiting for him to answer. “Soo.. I was able to get permission, you know, so you could see your daughter.. But-” Loki’s face lit up, a small excited smile plastered on his lips.
Mobius, who was trying not to let Loki’s adorable reaction get to him, continued to speak, “But.. I do have to be there.. You know, so you would betray us-”
“Have the whole TVA go! As long as I make things right…” Loki blurted, it made Mobius chuckle, his cheeks going pink as he watched him get so excited.
Loki looked up at Mobius when he started to stand up, “when?” he asked, wanting to prepare himself.
“Now”
“What?”
“You get to see her now” Mobius answered again, chuckling when he saw Loki’s reaction. “Now? But I don't even know what to say to her- or what to do” Loki Argued “Well you better think about it on the way” Mobius said opening a time door based on her file. He gestured a hand towards the door, gesturing to Loki to walk through.
Loki walked through, he seemed to be confident, but he was actually very nervous. He didn't even know what to say or what to do. But nothing could prepare him for what he saw. It was Midgard, but not as he remembered. It was dark and musky, buildings were crumbing to pieces, and the streets were all old and withered. But it wasn't a nexus event.. This was how they lived..
Luckily the time door opened in an alleyway, from afar Loki could see people running from crowds that were being chased by these weird sick looking people. Soon after Loki had witnessed the world his daughter was put in, Mobius walked through. “Rough world, isn't it?” He asked while taking in everything that was in front of them.
Loki remained silent, continuing to grasp that this was Midgard. Mobius started to walk, Loki would shortly follow. The walk was silent, very silent. Walking through the alley ways was more dangerous than expected, broken glass from windows, rotting food that had been left on the side of the road, little critters and bugs running away from sudden noises, and not to mention the smell, ugh.
After some time of walking Mobius and Loki would stumble upon a more narrow alleyway, there was less trash and less rotting food, as if someone had been keeping this place clean. Mobius was skeptical of this, “Careful Loki..” He warns as Loki goes to investigate. Sudden noises of knives and daggers clinging could be heard, grunts and noises of struggle could also be heard.
Loki was able to make out the fight, it was a fight between a girl and a group of guys, 3 or 4 even. The noise was followed by running and cries of pain, the group of guys being the ones in pain.
Mobius eventually caught up to Loki, but accidentally managed to knock some metal can of a crumbled wall. The girl who Loki had heard fighting was very alert. “Who’s there?” She called out, readying herself in a fighting position. That was when Loki started to walk in frame, Mobius hesitant, but followed after. Loki’s eyes would widen a bit upon realization. It was her… Loki looked back at Mobius, who nodded to confirm Loki’s realization.
“You .. ”was the only thing the girl said, her cold stare piercing through him.