Don't Go Breaking My Heart
His gentle breathing was soothing. She loved the occasional coos and croons he would do.
Gamora sat on the edge of his bed and watched Peter sleep. She was much more at ease now that she had finally gotten him into bed. She was stilled pissed though. She was so angry with him. He was destroying himself, and hiding from her and all the others.
It made her so incredibly angry. She understood that he was sad, even she had gotten to somewhat like Yondu but she never could have thought Peter would break like this.
She was angry that Peter wouldn't talk to her. She was angry that her stupid and fun Peter was gone.
No...that was all a lie. She was truly angry because she couldn't help. She didn't know how she could. She felt useless as Peter drank his sorrows away. She felt an annoying tug at her heart as his heart obviously ached.
She stared down at Peter and gently brushed a hair away from his eye. He had been through so much. He thought he had found his true father just to end up being manipulated and used by him. Then his true father figure sacrificed himself for him.
Gamora couldn't help but feel it had been partially her fault. She remembered the talk she and him had in the forest. She was the one who had convinced him to go through with it, to trust Ego. She just...she just wanted to see him happy.
She didn't know how to truly talk to people. She didn't know how to express and understand how others felt. Being under Thanos' care she had learned to hide and not talk about her feelings. Sure it helped in making her a damn good assassin but when it came to feelings and stuff she was useless. She had tried her best to tell Peter hoe she feels about him.
She didn't fully tell him how she felt but it felt like a confession enough. She remembered watching the ravager funeral in his arms and telling him she felt the 'unspoken' thing too. She had never been as...open about her feelings for him as he had been for her. Mostly because she wouldn't accept it and it had all been a knew concept to her. On the other hand Peter was not very good at hiding his feelings, and Mantis reading his mind confirmed everything.
Gamora couldn't help but smile looking back at the memory. It was the one good thing that came put of that damn trip to Ego's planet. She got confirmation that Peter wanted a relationship with her. That she wasn't just a trophy he could claim like the other women he had. No...he wanted more from her. Romantic love Mantis had said...sexual love.
She just didn't know if she could give that to him. All she had ever known was death. She killed people, manipulated them, used them. She was no better then people like Ronan and Ego. Peter was too nice, he deserved better.
And yet he wanted her.
Gamora raised her hand and gently placed it on Peter's cheek. Gently stroking his cheek with her thumb.
She didn't know what the future held, but she knew no matter how hard ot would get she would be here. She would stay here for him just as he would for her.
Her mind began to wander and just as Peter had done earlier, her eyes traveled towards his lips. She wondered what kissing him would feel like, she wondered if it would be as fulfilling and great as she had wanted it to be.
However, for all she knew Peter could want nothing more to do with her. Maybe, he would blame her for the events at Ego's just as much as she blamed herself. The thought scared her which she thought was irrational. But it was the truth, the thought of Peter leaving her alone was...terrifying and all the clues pointed to this becoming true. He was hiding from the others and her. He resulted to alcohol instead of talking like he would usually do.
Doubt creeped into her thoughts so she decided to shut them all out. Instead of thinking she decided to do something more pleasant.
She began to hum. Her humming changed into a whisper and silently she began to sing one of the many songs Peter had taught her all the words too.
"Don't go breaking my heart."
She decided to do something crazy and lay down next to Peter. She layed on her side and faced him.
"I couldn't if I tried."
She wanted to be as vocal and as sweet as Peter. To tell him he was as beautiful as much as he always told her. She wanted to ease his worries and calm him like he did for her.
"Honey, if I get restless"
She was scared. For so many different reasons. The biggest being getting hurt, but she tristed Peter. She trusted him with her heart.
"Baby, you're not that kind..." ,she trailed off.
After a few more minutes of silence and staring at Peter Gamora sat up amd decided it was time for her to go grab some sleep. If she was going to help Peter put of his slump, she was going to need to be her best self.
For him.