Rtc Nischa/Perfectdolls/Spacedolls one shots!!! [On permanent hiatus]

Ocean sat at the front of the minibus, playing with Penny's hair. She loved choir competitions. They were outside and on a stage and the fresh air always seemed too cool her nerves. 

That was, until they got there. 

"Fucking sick dude, it's inside" Mischa said, it wasn't usual for choir competitions to be inside. 

"Language!" Ocean yelled, getting her mind off of literally everything else. 

The choir got ready, getting mics on and finding their room. A tiny, humid room with no air conditioning. Ocean found herself unconsciously playing with her hair. It can't all be perfect. 

The choir stood on stage to rehearse, all the lights were too bright and they all made this horrible humming noise, it was barely legible but Ocean could hear every ring. Ocean played with her skirt ruffles, trying to drown out the noise. 

Penny looked at Ocean with a look of sincerity, to which Ocean returned a forced smile, trying not to show how every noise was going through her. 

It wasn't made better that when they started singing, the microphones made these horrible high pitched noises, of course everyone else found it annoying, but now Ocean was on her last leg. 

She could feel all the lights on her skin, she could hear the humming noise coming from the lights. She could feel her clothes on her body. She could feel the microphone on her face. She could feel how close everyone is. She could hear Ricky's crutches echoing around the room. She could hear Mischa texting. She could hear Noel chewing gum, she could hear Penny cracking her knuckles. She could hear Constance tapping her feet. She could hear father Marcus tapping on the stand. She could hear everything. 

She could feel her breathinh speed up. She could hardly control it. They went to sing again and the horrible noise happened again. Ocean couldn't take it, she covered her ears and let everyone know she would be back in a second. 

She didn't know the place she was at, so she went to the choir room. She could feel the humidity, so she turned the fan on. It wasn't any help. It kept crackling and moving. Thats when she gave up and started crying. 

She felt stupid for crying over some noises, but the thought of feeling stupid made her cry even more. She turned the fan off but the stupid heat got worse. She started crying even more, she didn't know what to do. 

That's when Mischa and Ricky came in. It's probably the first time they'd seen Ocean in such a state. They didn't know what to do as Ocean's crying developed into a full blown panic attack. Mischa didn't know what to do except help her breathe normally, as he sent Ricky to go and get Noel. He would know what to do. 

"Ocean I swear to God- Ocean? Are you ok" Noel asked as he walked through the door. 

"I'm sorry" was all Ocean could mutter. Her eyes were twitching uncontrollably as she slowed her breathing down slightly. The closeness of everyone made her feel even worse. 

Noel had know Ocean since kindergarten, he knew what this meant. 

"Ok can everyone please just get out" Noel demanded as Ricky and Mischa left to back to the choir. 

Ocean kept her head buried in her arms, flinching Noel away, not letting him touch her. 

"Ocean please talk to me, what happened?" Noel asked. Sure they argued but they were like siblings god dammit, they could care for each other.

"Everything" Ocean mumbled. She could feel herself shutting down. She could feel her skin on her bones, her hair on her head, her nails on her fingers. She burst into tears again. 

Noel asked again and again what was going on but got no response before Ocean sprinted out to go to the bathroom and wash her face. 

She stood over the sink, splashing water. It didn't work. She locked herself in a cubicle, her fingers and eyes twitching uncontrollably. Tears poured silently. She couldn't even talk to herself. She had no voice. 

That's when she heard a knock on the cubical door, and a soft voice echoed throughout the bathroom. 

"Ocean, it's Penny. Can I please come in?" Penny asked, having gotten all the details off of Noel. 

Ocean slowly got up and unlocked the cubicle, letting Penny in before locking it again and sniffling to herself. 

"Sorry" Ocean mumbled, the only word she could get out. 

"What happened? Noel told me you were having a panic attack and went non verbal. What happened? Was everything too much or, sensory overload or whatever it's called? Ocean?" Penny spoke softly and slowly, making Ocean feel safe. 

"I don't know what happened. All the lights and the air and the noise. It was all too much. I'm so sorry Penny." Ocean apologized, starting to cry again. 

"Ocean, please don't cry. You're talking again so thats good, maybe just tell me something random. Tell me about our first date, maybe that will distract you!" Penny replied. 

Ocean rambled on and on about their first date. She gave every detail, including the times. She interlocked her and Penny's fingers together, squeezing as she got excited about every little bit that she could remember. Penny sat and listened, never interrupting Ocean. 

Ocean stopped her talking as she realized she forgot she was crying. She forgot about the panic attack. Penny was a genius. 

Ocean kissed Penny before they returned onto the stage, getting ready to rehearse. Of course, Ocean still payed attention to every noise, but Penny made her feel safe.