Chapter 12
In the noon, Loki woke up. He was confused as he felt the soft and warm bed underneath him. He sat up and looked around.
"finally awake?" the Captain asked, standing at a table with a map. He looked at loki just a few seconds later.
Loki tensed and pulled the covers tighter around him. He looked at him with big eyes and noded just slightly.
"good." He took a chair and sat down across from Loki. With his ellbows rested on his knees, he looked at the black haired man. "now. What did you do this night? Why didnt you sleep?" Loki hesitated. Anthony stared at him, waiting for answers. "I.. I c-" he gasped as he felt a stinging pain in his chest.
"You cant lie to me or the crew, Loki." the captain scoffed. "try again." "I didnt wanted to sleep.. I will not let myself be humiliated by sleeping in the kitchen.." Loki now glared at him. "oh, and sleeping under the stairs where all the cleaning stuff is placed, is better?" the man seemed amused. "... i didnt plan on falling asleep there... I was just sorting in the stuff i used to clean the deck and so on.." loki muttered a little ashamed.
The captain shook his head with a laugh. "Oh my gods. You have quite the pride, even as my property." "I dont see myself as someones property, captain." Loki gave back coldly.
The captain stood up from the chair and aproached Loki. He grabed his jaw like almost every time. A predatory smile on his lips. He let his thumb stroke the other mans full lips. Looking down at Loki, he told him "but you are. You are mine now, Loki."
Lokis heartbeat fastened. His breath got catched in his troath. He looked at him with big shiney eyes.
It was almost as if he could read his mind because... Anthony leaned down to kiss him.
Lokis breath was shaking but he kissed him back. It once again felt so good but Loki pulled back.
His fathers words came back into his mind. He was a sinner. He shouldnt do this. He shouldnt give in. He shouldnt kiss him. He was a pirate-.. no.. that wasnt the problem.. he was a man.. They shouldnt be doing this.
"Now tell me.. What makes you a sinner? Thats where our conversation ended yesterday." "I am- I began a sin by- by having a Lover.. I .. I am a sinner.. because.. I dont love women..." Loki whispered in a slight, insecure stutter.
The captains gaze softened. "You arent a sinner, Loki. You are a normal human just like everyone else... Stop mistaking yourself for a sinner." "But-" "no but. I dont want to hear it. You love men and that is alright. Say it." "I - I like-" "Loki. Say love. not like. you love men." "I - I- love.. men and ..- that is alright.." loki forced those words out. "exactly. Very good." The captain smiled and kissed him once again. And loki gave in this time.