leaving me outside (I can't get back in)
I never ate dinner. I stayed locked up in the guest bedroom Mr. Stark let me stay in. A small part of me wished Mr. Stark would come and check up on me, but I knew that wasn’t gonna happen after I pushed
him away like that.
He’s gonna ask questions. A lot. I have nothing to excuse myself with, I just wanna crawl out my skin. I’m gonna have to face him regardless so I need to be ready for the storm. For him to never let me back In the tower. I’m lucky Mr. Stark even likes me enough let me be here. Let alone have a room.
“Pete?” Mr. Stark knocks on the door. “I feel like we need to talk bud.”
Im scared to even look at the door. But I can’t shut him out forever. I slowly creep towards the door but I stop once I reach the door nob.
“I brought some pizza with me, four big slices.” No. No way am I eating at a time like this. I might barf over the very expensive carpet Mr. Stark has in here.
“I’m not hungry Mr. Stark.” I say as I open the door.
Mr. Stark lets himself into the room. “Peter you have to eat dinner, and I know with super metabolism you’re gonna eat these if not more.” I move to sit awkwardly at the edge of the bed. “I had a really filling lunch Mr. Stark, I ate almost too much I’m okay really.” The lies flow out of me so easily, Mr. Stark looks at me quizzically. “I didn’t come here to bother about food, even you are eating the pizza-but what was that back there.”
“I just freaked out Mr. Stark its nothing serious, I didn’t know you came in the room a-and it spooked me.” I am the worst lier ever. “Kid it looked more than you were spooked. You had a panic attack. I can help you Pete. I know a thing or two about attacks like that, and I can get you help.”
Help? I don’t need help. I’m fine. I can barely afford new shoes and he wants to go see somebody? “Mr. Stark please I’m fine! Don’t waste your time on this I’m okay. I just had a rocky day I’ll be okay.”
“What do you mean you had a rocky day?” Shit. I hadn’t told him about school. About flash, the bathroom, none of that.
I feel really sick now.
“Its nothing Mr stark I-I just kinda freaked out and pushed someone into a locker, a-and I f-feel bad about it cause I made the whole thing dent but I-“
“Wait a minute, you threw someone? Peter thats not like you-“
“NO I didn’t throw them it was an accident listen I’m Mr. Stark-“ I move to stand “I’m okay it’s just been a long day I’m okay I-“
“Peter this i’snt okay we need to talk about this-“
“Theres nothing to talk about. I-I gotta head home Mr. Stark t-thank you so much for letting me stay here but May is probably worried sick.” I rush to grab my things and head out the door.
I was running down the hallway practically. What the hell do I need help for? So what I freaked out, it’s not like I’m crazy or something. I just need time and dancing seems to bring a little light in my life.
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I take the subway home. It takes me so long to get home considering how stark tower is from home but it was either that or stay at the tower. Id rather not choose the ladder. I slug up to the door and I’m greeted by May.
“Peter! You’re home early. Did you set something on fire and Tony kick you out?”
“No May. We just wrapped up early. Im just gonna get some sleep.”
“Are you okay? You seem-different. Do you wanna talk-“
“NO May I’m fine I just-please I-i need to go to bed.” I make a sharp beeline for my room. This day needs to end. As soon as my head its the pillow I’m hit with a reazilation.
I didn’t eat one thing today.
I never ate dinner.