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Sitting across from Yoo Joonghyuk, I couldn't help but feel a sense of unease in my chest. We had been dating for a month, and things had been going well until I noticed that he was hiding something from me.
"Is everything okay?" Joonghyuk asked, noticing the tension in my body language.
"I just have a question," I said, trying to keep my voice steady. "Is there something you're not telling me about your job?"
Joonghyuk's expression shifted, and I could see the guardedness in his eyes. "What do you mean?" he asked carefully.
"I don't know," I admitted, feeling frustrated by the lack of communication. "It just seems like there's something you're not telling me. I thought we agreed to be honest with each other."
Joonghyuk sighed, his shoulders slumping in defeat. "It's complicated," he said finally. "There are things about my job that I can't share with you."
"Can't or won't?" I asked, feeling a surge of anger bubble up inside of me. "Do you not trust me enough to tell me what's going on?"
"It's not about trust," Joonghyuk insisted. "It's about protecting you. I don't want you to get involved in something dangerous."
"You think I can't handle it?" I asked, my voice rising with frustration. "I thought we were supposed to be a team. How can we be a team if you don't trust me enough to share what's going on?"
Joonghyuk's eyes hardened at my words, and I could see that I had struck a nerve. "This isn't about you not being capable," he said, his voice low and controlled. "It's about me not wanting to put you in harm's way."
"I can make my own decisions," I shot back, feeling hurt and angry that Joonghyuk didn't trust me enough to share what was going on. "I thought we were equals in this relationship. If you can't even be honest with me, then what's the point?"
Joonghyuk didn't say anything, his expression growing even more closed off. I knew that I had pushed him too far, but I couldn't stop the words from coming out of my mouth.
"If you can't even trust me with something as simple as your job, then how can I trust you with anything?" I said, my voice shaking with emotion. "I can't be with someone who doesn't trust me enough to be honest with me."
There was a tense silence between us, and I could see that Joonghyuk was struggling to find the right words to say. But before he could speak, I stood up from the table, my heart pounding with anger and hurt.
"I can't do this anymore," I said, my voice barely above a whisper. "I think it's best if we end things here."
Joonghyuk's eyes widened in shock, and I could see the hurt and confusion in his expression. But I didn't wait for him to respond. I turned on my heel and walked out of the cafe, tears streaming down my face. As I walked away from Joonghyuk, I couldn't help but feel a sense of sadness and regret. I had really cared for him, but I couldn't be with someone who didn't trust me enough to be honest with me. It was a hard lesson to learn, but I knew that it was the right decision for both of us. The week following our breakup was a difficult one. I had blocked Joonghyuk on all social media platforms and had deleted his number from my phone. I didn't want any reminders of him in my life. However, as fate would have it, I found myself at our go-to cafe a week later, trying to finish up an essay that was due that day. I had made sure to pick a table in the corner, hoping to avoid any potential run-ins with Joonghyuk. Unfortunately, luck was not on my side. He walked in and sat in the seat across from me. I felt annoyed as soon as I saw him and I quickly got up to leave. But before I could walk away, he grabbed my hand, and his regretful expression made me pause.
"Please, just hear me out," he said softly, his eyes pleading with me.
Reluctantly, I sat back down, keeping my hand away from his grasp. I still felt hurt and betrayed, and I wasn't sure if I wanted to hear what he had to say.
Joonghyuk took a deep breath before speaking, "I'm sorry for not telling you about my job. I should have trusted you and told you everything."
His words felt empty to me, and I couldn't believe that he had lied to me for so long. "How could you keep this from me?" I asked, trying to keep my voice steady. "You knew how important honesty was to me."
"I know, and I'm sorry," Joonghyuk replied. "But please understand that I was just trying to keep you safe. I didn't want you to get involved in something dangerous."
I sighed, feeling conflicted. Part of me understood where he was coming from, but another part of me couldn't overlook the fact that he had lied to me.
"I need some time to think," I said, pulling my hand away from his grasp. "I don't know if I can forgive you for this."
"I understand," Joonghyuk said, his eyes full of regret. "But please know that I love you, and I'm willing to do anything to make things right between us."
I stood up, not wanting to hear any more of his apologies. "I need some space," I said, before turning and walking out of the cafe.
The days that followed were difficult, as I tried to come to terms with what had happened. I didn't know if I could trust Joonghyuk again, and I didn't know if I wanted to give him another chance. In the end, it took some time, but I decided to give him another chance. We talked things out, and he promised to be more open and honest with me from then on. It wasn't easy to rebuild the trust we had lost, but we were able to work through our issues and make our relationship stronger because of it.