you were there next to me
Beer after beer Logan slammed them down on the old wood of the bar knowing that it would take so much more to even feel tipsy due to his healing factor burning it out so quickly.
“Can’t serve ya anymore; your at are max." stupid fucking humans stupid fucking everyone
Stupid fucking me logan angrily thought
Wade
I left Wade in that car by himself.
“Don’t care,” Logan said, sliding a big buck over to him, and the bartender shrugged as he took the very large tip, handing him another beer.
It was sick that Wade made that joke at such an awful time.
But it wasn't Wade's fault. He didn’t know why logan got so mad; it was just the wrong joke at the wrong time.
Wade was probably just trying to make a cheesy joke by saying I love you like all the other couples did after cumming on each other like nasty dogs.
“Give me another." Logan’s mind was everywhere, sticking to the walls of this dirty, cheap bar.
And this time the bartender didn’t say anything and gave Logan 3 beers.
How could Logan think that fucking Wade would magically make his feelings disappear?
Well, they didn’t really get to fucking because they were both too busy kissing.
Kissing
That kiss made Logan crave Wade in such a way that he never thought was possible. Wade tasted so fucking good against his tongue, wades hands guiding him so he could reach his orgasm.
Logan clinched the bottle a bit too hard, cracking it. He was angry at himself for still thinking about it makeing himself craving Wade.
You can’t miss what you don’t know, and now Logan knew Wades kiss, so his dumb plan of fucking Wade to get over him would have never worked.
No, that’s not why it wouldn't have worked. Logan got a taste of many people like that, and he could walk away just fine.
It wouldn’t have worked because Logan got a taste of Wade before that filthy kiss.
Logan got a taste of Wade ever since he met him for the first time at a bar just like this
the taste of love, not lust.
He loved Wade so much; how did he not realize it sooner? Why did a fucking doctor have to tell him that he was so love sick that he was blind?
And now Wade would leave Logan just like everyone else if he ever found out... Should logsn even go back to the shitty apartment with..
With that shitty...
Wade?
Wade Why did you have to make a joke that I so desperately want to be real? Logan clenched his fists at the thoughts
Why can’t anyone want my heart more than my body?
Logan stood up roughly after downing the three beers, feeling a tipsiness that would only last about 5 or less minutes due to his healing factor.
He walked out of the bar with women and men’s hands brushing against his arms and legs with sweet words that would have him diving into if he was in his timeline but..
None of them smelled like Wade did.
none of them were Wade
It was nighttime, and the air was so cold that it nipped and bit Logan’s nose.
He didn’t know where he was walking, but he had to go somewhere, so he walked, his skin now completely numb.
Logan remembered how when he thought he was going to die while saving the world, his 'last' moments spent thinking about Wade
I wonder what Wade thought of during that situation.
Logan was a fucking idiot; of course he didn't know how to 'find a way home' Logan had no idea where he was
This always happened whenever something happened
Anything small or big
Logan would run away to save himself.
Something touched his shoulder, and in an instant Logan’s claws flew out, his chest, raising and falling heavily while pointing his claws at the person who dared touch him.
It was Scott (cyclops an x-men).
“Logan?” Scott’s voice was so familiar to Logan that he almost puked.
It was a sick fucking joke that Logan would run into the Scott of this world while the one in his timeline was dead.
So he ran.
Logan took off running fast and hard; he always found himself running.
Running away from every problem and chasing it down with a beer
All of a sudden Logan remembered that he had a cellphone.
Shakily, while running Logan called Wades number.
Almost instantly a voice that made the coldness around sink away and become harsher at the same time chimed in.
“Logan? Logan, fuck, I was so worried you didn’t pick up any of my calls, and I thought you—you really left me.” Wades voice was frantic.
Was Wade crying?
That doesn’t make sense since Wade should be mad and should be yelling at him because Logan left over a silly joke.
Wade would understand his reaction to running away if he actually gave it but Logan never would.
So why wasn’t Wade yelling?
“Why is there so much wind noise? Logan-answer me.”
And finally Logan did. “A x-men found me, and I ran away from them... I- uh.. could you pick me up?"
Logan pushed down the little pride left that he had left to ask for help.
“Of course, Logan, I’m already on the way.”
“Huh? How do you know where I am?”
“As soon as you answered, I found what cell tower you were at.”
“Fuck- your a creepy.”
"No, I’m just worried.”
After that, Logan didn’t respond as he looked behind him.
“How do you deal with it?” Logan said without thinking.
"Deal with what?" Wade responded
“...Seeing someone that died but is now alive.”
A sigh
“You never really get over it, but like they say, time is everything.”
Logan sat down on a rock next to the road.
“So... Vanessa,” Logan started , regretting that he ever chose the topic of conversation, especially after this was the first time they talked since they rutted against each other.
“We can talk about this later, huh, bub?” Wade said in a weird lighthearted way.
“Bub? You can’t say bub, that’s my thing.”
“You can’t own nicknames.”
"Well, I say bub, and you say peanut, honey badger, and many other weird things." Logan said, starting to think about Scott’s face and how it looked just like his Scott.
“So you remember all the cute names I call you, huh? I knew you liked me...." Wade trailed off at the end like it brought up a sickness within.
“Wade..”
"Yes, honey badger?”
“I’m sorry…” Logan’s voice was so small and quiet, like apologizing hurt him physically.
“Heh.. how many drinks did you have there?” Wade said off-put by Logan’s words.
“I don’t see you.. as something just to fuck.. I care about you.... I do.... When we saved the world and I thought I was going to die... I wouldn't have minded because you were there next to me.”
It wasn’t a love confession. It was a confession that Logan cared about Wade and would even consider him his best friend.
Because logan didn’t have a chance nor would allow Wade to be anything more