Lovers?

The last few weeks have been emotional tough for me I am still with Blake but I keep thinking about Eddie, he is the only thing I think about these days. I asked Hen for help and all she said is to follow my heart but I can’t really follow my heart when it doesn’t know what it wants. Blake is amazing and is great to be around, but the thing is so is Eddie. The pros and cons list was no help they both have amazing pros and not that bad of cons and I couldn’t choose between them, so back to square one. Distance is what I need right now form the both of them and Blake understood that, one though he doesn’t know about my feelings for Eddie. I even went to Bobby for advice and he just said that I need to be honest with myself and to both of them, he said that I should tell Blake about what has happened with Eddie. A lasting relationships do not have any secrets and I 100% I agree so I decided that I would tell Blake. I went to a corner where no one was I called Blake.

“Hey baby what’s up?” I can see that he was just doing desk work by all the papers all over his desk.

“I need to tell you something and you might not be happy about it.” I said and Blake face turned more serious

I just ripped the bandage off and told him, I told him about the kiss at Bobby’s house, the conversation that Eddie and I had at his house, the almost kiss that happened, everything. First Blake was silent and I can hear the people in the background talking about a double homicide. Then he started to speak.
“Ok I am glad you told me. My only question is do you have the same feelings for hi that he has for you?” And I was just silent I didn’t know what to say.

“Well Evan when you have an answer let me know, until then I think it should be for the best if we just stop seeing each other. Goodbye take good care of yourself Evan.” Before I could say anything he hangup.

My head goes in my hands and tears roll down my face, it makes sense that he breaks up with me I would do the same. It still hurts and when I look up I see Eddie looking at me and he does turn but he gets to me quickly. When he get to me he doesn’t say a word just hugged me and when he let go he just stood there, I look in his eyes and he looked in mine. I can see that there is so much love, did he always look at me like that and never noticed. Once I got my composure we walked to the kitchen area and Eddie got me a water, and we sat down and then Eddie asked me what as wrong. I told him about the phone call and then before I know it I was going on about everything I was feeling since the kiss. When I mentioned the kiss Eddie took me to a corner so we wouldn’t be over heard, and he let me rant. About five minutes later I finished my rant and Eddie with the same look just took my hand, and kissed it.

“This is my fault I am so sorry to have put you through that. I never meant to hurt you but I am your best friend and I you need someone to talk to you can come to me. Or if you need space from me i will disappear.” Eddie starts walk away.

“That is the last thing I want don’t leave me please.” I grabbed his wrist.

“If that’s what you want I will be here.” We then started to walk towards the crew that just stared at us as we approached.

No one said anything even though I know that they heard or at least saw what happened, we all just sat around in silence reading books or cleaning watching videos on their phones until the bell goes off. We get to the scene and it was a fire in a wood mill so everything was burning like crazy, Bobby was yelling orders and everyone followed. Eddie and I went in form the South area the fire was on the north, so we would work are way in to get victims out. The closer we got to the fire thankfully the less people there were, we were about to call it quits due to the fact that the fire was right in front of us but I heard scream. I ran with Eddie on my heels we get to the source and se that there was a man the was trapped under a cart full of equipment. Our radios go off with Bobby telling us to get out a flash over but I was not going to leave this man to die. So ignore Bobby orders me and Eddie push the cart out of the way with the man screaming in agony, I pick him up and me and Eddie run the way we came avoiding falling debris. We get out just in time the flash over hits hard, I get the victim to Hen so they can get checked out and I see an upset Bobby walking towards us.

“You guys radio better have been off or not working because I know said to get out of there.” Bobby says making both of us sit and have Chim look at us.

“But Cap there the man was stuck and I wasn’t going to let him die with out at least trying, plus we made it out without a scratch.” Bobby gave me the don’t test me look.

We were fine and we get back into the truck while Hen and Chim take the man to the hospital. We get to the station and I was feeling little better about the whole break up with Blake, Chim starts to talk about how his half brother moved to America. He wanted everyone to meet him and we all agreed of course, Eddie pulled me aside to see how I was doing and I told him that I was fine and honestly I meant it. The best way for me to get over Blake is to be surrounded with people that care about me and love me and the 118 is just the people to be surrounded by. We walk back over and Chim is still talking about his brother his name is Albert.

The rest of the shift was easy only small calls and Eddie has been nothing but supportive and helping me through this when he can without over stepping. I offered to come over later and I said that he did not need to, I was going to run errands and then sleep until the get together. I headed over to Chime place at around other than Maddie and I am assuming is Albert I was the first one there. Everyone slowly started to show up and about an hour later everyone was there. We ate heard so stories about the Han brothers growing up and then, the question on where Albert was going to live was brought up by Chim. Then Albert went on how he left as soon as he could and didn’t really think about where to live just going to crash in a hotel until he can get on his feet, of course Chim wouldn’t let that happen and told him that he can live with him for the time being. Everyone start to filter out about 3 hours and me and Eddie walked out together, where he stopped me in the parking lot.

“Hey are you good we haven’t had a chance to talk about everything that happened just wanted to make sure you were truly ok and not just shitting me.” Are cars were parked only a few feet away from each other so we were standing at Eddie’s.

“Honestly it hurt at first but I am fine it just take some time to get over completely but I will get there.” I said and Eddie walks closer to me

“I am glad to hear that I am always here if you need to talk about it.”

“Thank you Eds I can always count on you for being there.” I said as I try and get my keys out of my pocket.

“Have a nice night I will see you at work tomorrow.” Eddie says and we walk our different ways.

I get to my car and drive home the whole way thinking about Eddie and I get to bed and I pull put my phone and look at Eddie’s name thinking of calling him, then it starts to ring and it is him. I answer right away I can also see he just got home he was in his kitchen.

“I was just thinking about calling you, but I guess you bet me to the punch why?” I asked as I reach for the lamp and sitting up.

“Actually I don’t know I wasn’t thinking before I called you just felt like it I guess but if it’s late I will hang up.” Eddie says as he grabs a water from the fridge.

“No I actually glad you called I wanted to talk to you. for some reason I couldn’t say it when I was just with you. But if you are down I would like to take you on a date and give us a chance.” I said and Eddie almost choked on his water.

“Wait really this isn’t just a flirty thing is it?” He asked wiping water off of his shirt

“No have Carla stay a little later and we will go on a date.” I was smiling form ear to ear and so was Eddie

He told me that after shift Chris was actually spending the night with a friend so it was the perfect time to go on a date. And once again the universe gave us a sign but this time I listened and seized the opportunity. We discussed what we should do for a date and after about 20 minutes of deliberation we decided to stay in at Eddie’s place and we would have a cooking date. We chatted for a little bit and then we decided to go to sleep. Tonight I went to sleep with a smile on my face and I knew Eddie did too.