Loss and Necromancy
Necromancy.
This was against all forms of natural law.
But it was okay, it didn't matter. It didn't matter because he didn't care about such things anymore.
Between the annoying attempts of the clan elders to arrange a marriage and the stress of Madara leaving, there was now new motivation for Tobirama to finish this necromantic experiment. He just needed more time.
Madara Uchiha is dead.
Or at least, that's what is being presumed. None of the search parties have found anything or any trace of him. It has been over how many months and there's been no word or any sign that the man was still alive. It was a strange thought to think of Madara as dead. Madara, die? Now that's something surprising.
And very saddening.
Madara Uchiha was one of Tobirama's few friends and the best friend of his eldest brother Hashirama. Neither brother was okay with this new development. If Madara had just let Hashirama go with him, this wouldn't have happened. Madara would be alive... or both Hashirama and Madara would be dead, and where would that leave Tobirama? Not in a very pleasant place. Perhaps it was for the best Madara went alone. But, neither brother would see it that way as both brothers would blame themselves for Madara's death. Tobirama would contain the self-blame in the back of his mind.
After all, he had an experiment to finish and an older brother to comfort. He and Mito both put great effort into making sure Hashirama kept his mind off the subject. The funeral was difficult for both brothers, losing someone close was never easy. It doesn't matter how many people that a person loses, it's still a painful experience.
Loss is an awful thing. Death can be whimsical regarding who it claims, it didn't discriminate. Young or old, rich or poor, sick or healthy--- it didn't care.
It wasn't fair.
Most things weren't fair.
And Tobirama hated that.
Madara's death gave the younger Senju brother more motivation to press forward the experiment he was working on. Death didn't care, why should he care about things like natural order? He found a way to defy it, a way to change the natural order... or at least Tobirama was close to doing it. He just needed a little bit more time.
He needed to keep this a secret from Hashirama for a little while longer.
It wasn't completed yet, he still needed to run the first testing. Then he would go back to make improvements if necessary. Hashirama could not find out about this. At least not until Tobirama was completely finished.
dont worry, hashirama.
i'll bring madara back,
i'll bring back itama and kawarama too.
my friend tatsuma will be coming back.
and i'll bring Her back as well,
no longer will death separate us from our loved ones.
just give me a little bit more time.
i'm close to a breakthrough, just let me continue my work.
let me continue with my experiments.
This wasn't the beginning of Tobirama's downward spiral. His descent into this darkness had begun a long time ago, years ago to be percise. It had began with the loss of Akemi. The difference between now and then is that he was much better at hiding it back then. It didn't matter though, Tobirama would be finished with this experiment.
Soon, his brother would be happy.