Pain
Pain
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He is in pain.
Why was he in so much pain?
It's painful, very painful.
What was causing him so much pain?
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He wants to see her. He wants to be with her.
He cannot.
She is gone. Presumed dead.
Heartbroken.
This was what it was like to experience heartbreak
That would explain the pain in his chest.
It didn't explain the rest of his pain.
His eyes were burning.
Headache.
How long had he been sitting alone in his lab?
He was having trouble keeping track of time. He couldn't hope to form coherent thoughts that didn't have to do with his broken heart or the pain in his eyes.
The pain in his eyes should go away eventually, it's best if he stays in his lab until it does. He couldn't let people know he was in pain, not even his older brother.
Hashirama worried enough as is.
Not to mention, he was starting to hear things that weren't there. He didn't want to bother his older brother with that.
He shouldn't concern his older brother about this.
These hallucinations will go away on their own. He's an adult, he can handle this. He didn't need help.
He could put up with the hallucinations and pretend to be fine.
Isn't that what other people do anyway?