Ch. 42
3.pov
Genma was so nervous waiting for a tea, his hands could not stop moving his hands were sweaty. He heard Mito voice from the kitchen :"Is everything okay, you seem to be on edge."
Genma panicked and nodded :" I just have something to ask, but I don't know how you will react."
Mito was confused and curious about the Genma saying this :" I don't know, I don't think you can surprise me with anything. "
She brought the tea it had calming smell and Genma drank it as soon as Mito had left it on the table in front of him, Mito even gesture to drink it slowly. It didn't seem like it worked so she gave Genma her own tea too, while she went for another cup.
Genma wasn't ready yet he knew, but if he was here already he had to say something, if he didn't it would be weird and Mito would probably avoid him. But he wasn't ready he had went to her apartment on a whim. He didn't even realize he was standing in front of it. So he only assumed he was there for a half hour, but I could be even more. Mito was back she didn't ask anything she could see that Genma was lost in his thoughts. She could wait after all she was interested.
Genma finally spoke :" I know this is probably out the blue for you, but I most say it now. I think I like you. In fact I know I like you, but I don't like as a friend, I like you for your beauty for your personality. I think it was a love on first sight."
When he stopped talking and finally looked up from his second cup of tea he could see a red Mito, she was so red, he almost thought she turned her back towards him. She looked so cute, he wanted to squeeze her cheeks. She didn't respond, she only took her coup of tea and slowly drank it. Genma knew that she was still processing it. Mito finally said something :" it seems I was wrong, you really surprised me there. It kinda makes sense your behavior around me, I just didn't notice it I geuss. But I can't say I like you as lover though, but I can see your potential as one. I think that I will need some time to properly process everything and to understand this situation we are in. But I am not against it at all. I just need some time. It might be long period because I never was in this situation before you see. "
Genma face was bright, he wasn't rejected, he wasn't rejected, that was all that mattered. He couldn't stop smiling he was so happy. Mito also smiled. He then said :" I will give you as much as time as you need. I just wanted to lift this stone from my heart."
Mito nodded :"I don't want anybody knowing about this though, because they might pressure us. So please keep it secret. Okay."
Genma nodded his head and said:"okay."
Genma finished his tea and was ready to go home. Mito walked him to the front of house she had a apartment in and they said their goodbyes.
Later that night Mito couldn't sleep well she was wondering if it was okay, wonder if everything would be fine, wonder if this are supposed to move this way, she didn't know answers to these questions, she knew she will never knew too. While she in her (his) previous life, didn't experience love, she(he) did have a crush on somebody. She dreamt that day about her. That person had a brown hair, her kind brown eyes that could heal any broken heart, her smooth skin, her rare smiles, her soft voice, her determination in everything she did. That was everything the person Mito was before wanted from her(his) parent. But the person Mito was before wasn't anything like Mito. He was shy he didn't believe that anything good could happen to him. He never tried new things, he wasn't ambitious. He was always a friend to his crush, and he was always satisfied with their relationship. One of the reasons why he never conffeses to that girl was that actually one of his bullies from his class always made comments about them being too close like a couple. He knew she didn't like him like that, he wasn't her type at all, so he had to allways denied that. After some times he started to talk less with that girl. She didn't ask why. Inside he was scared that his bullies would go after her. The boy who didn't know love, who loved, cared too much, he knew he shouldn't be friends with anyone anymore. He could see the girls crying face…
Mito woke up screaming all sweaty. She never expected to have dreams about her past life, she knew that she wasn't that person anymore, she tried so hard to change herself. She didn't want to go back to being unloved, to being useless. She still wasn't sure what to do, but she couldn't go back.
Genma also couldn't sleep well. But he only thought about Mito, he still feared her rejection, but he mostly wondered how long would it take Mito to say her answer. He also didn't want to be rejected before chunin exams. He also wondered if he could keep it secret. He wondered if he could take her on dates. He barely slept but he was super motivated the next morning. His training seemed to easy now.
Kakashi also barely slept, but he didn't know the reason for it, he was feeling annoxoius and he couldn't help but to feel like he missed something. He felt that he didn't know something, something he should know. He felt it was somehow realeted to Mito. He was always confused about Mito, because every time he thought about her he could feel his heart speed up, he could also something every time he saw her with Genma even before he learned Genma was having crush on her. Then it hited him, he was jealous on Genma, he realized that he also had a crush on Mito. He was terrified of that. He didn't want to become fangirl. He was restless. He did not want to chase Mito but he also didn't want to let Genma have her. He was selfish, but he knew Mito made him better, he now fitted everywhere better. He had to confess soon. But he didn't know when he would have a chance.