It was the best day. They were both going to get married, finally together Without fear. The whole Highschool experience forgotten And forgiven. They were at the altar of the church both wearing beautiful poofy white wedding dresses. Everything was perfect.
The officiant said ânow you may kissâ. They leaned in to kiss each other and thenâŠ
It was a dream. Heather looked beside her and no one was there. Heather McNamara died years ago⊠they never got their happily ever after. Mac died thinking Duke hated her which wasnât true, because she loved her so so much.
Her face felt wet. Sheâs crying. Again. The cycle repeats almost every night. Sleep. That dream. Wake up in tears. Repeat.
She checked the time, 2:30AM. Ronnie said she could call if they happened. She knew about them when Heather told her about them. It was recent around a year after her death they were all 18 just starting their lives, then she felt this huge guilt. Like it was her fault Mac wasnât here anymore. Then the same dream would happen, them getting happily married and every single time when their about to kiss sheâd wake up. In a cold sweat on the verge of a breakdown. Her and Ronnie were still friends Even after the whole westerburg insident.
Duke fessed up about what bothered her and Veronica said she could call her any time they happened if she needed someone to talk to or just know someone was there for her.
Now a few years later she was finally taking up the offer.
Ring
Ring
Ring
âR-ronnie remember what you said, if the dream happened and I needed someone I could call youâ
âYesâ
âIâm calling you now I just need to hear someoneâs voice. It wasnât my fault. Was it?â
âFor what?â
âMac not being here anymoreâ
A few sobs were heard on the line from her end.
âNo no no. Of course not. Mac had other problems too and even though you caused some of them you didnât mean for it. You were just abused by Chandler wether you think itâs abuse or not. And then when you got the opportunity to seize the power to protect yourself, you took it. You were scared it could happen again and thatâs understandable, we all dealt with things back thenâ
âThanks, but you really sound like a therapist right nowâ
âYeah, want me to come over, I donât think you should be alone right nowâ
âThis happens every night Ron, Iâll be fineâ
âTheir that often?â
âYesâ
âOk well now I am certainly coming roundâ
âFine i know thereâs no stopping you anywayâ
âIâll be there in 10â
âOk, bye for nowâ
âBye for now see you soonâ
With that Heather put the phone down and contently collapsed on her bed.
10 minutes later she heard a knock. It was Veronica, who else would come round at like 3am.
Heather got up, took her keys and opened her door.
âHiâ
âHeyâ
Then when they went inside into dukes room, Veronica held out her arms, âhugs always help me when Iâm sad, they might help you tooâ.
Suddenly tears poured out of the shorter girls eyes again and she fell into Veronicaâs arms, incoherently murmuring something while sobbing.
âShhh, itâs ok, itâs ok, itâs all gonna be okayâ Veronica told the green girl, she said it again and again until she finally stopped crying.
âIâm sorry, I didnât mean to cry that muchâ heather said.
âGreif is hardâ Veronica replied.
âBut itâs been almost 4 years⊠and Iâm still not over it, am I doing something wrong?â The last Heather questioned herself.
âNo no greif is hard and processing it is even harder, it isnât linear and it will always be there you just grow bigger and stronger so the greif donât feel like it takes up that much space.â
âOhâ was the reply.
Veronica stayed over, neither of them really felt like sleeping so they put on some random movie and just talked about stuff. It was ok. It was all gonna be okay.