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"I'll make sure to keep my distance,-" His hesitant hand raised to reach for him but he was too far away already.
Out of his reach like from the very beginning.
"And say I love you when your not listening...." The quiet whisper faded with the strong wind, erasing the existence of something that shouldn't be said or hear because it sounded like a sin.
"What was that, Sasuke?" Bright blue eyes stared a at him from afar, appearing to have heard the quiet lines of the brooding man. It carried a hint of confusion, an expectation for something he was too scared to put a word to.
But the Uchiha feared and so he simply said with a smirk to hide all his lies, "Nothing, Dobe."
The blond growled and fired back with a familiar title, "Teme!"
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My life carried a darkness that was rooted deep within my heart and my soul, for that I was constantly at a loss and without a home.
There was never a day for me to rest, never a day for me to sit and relax.
I felt chained to this town, I felt cold and bound by invisible obligation and high expectations set in stone by those in the past.
And as though the lies of my people were painted on my skin with red ink, people stared at me as if I was a walking sin.
I did nothing but believe the words they whisper under their breaths.
For I was a child that had nothing but revenge on my mind, nothing but hate dancing at the edges of my sight.
And curses that echoed in my memories that were as clear as the lake where my brother promised me everything will be fine.
My memory of that night is always replaying in my mind, the night where walls of white were tainted with the crimson color of our eyes.
When the sizzling noises of the evening creatures lay forgotten with the people that died.
When the moon was as red as his cursed eyes which stared at my soul as if engraving a vengeful spirit within my broken mind.
When the piercing silence thrusted an invisible dagger that was burned by the betrayal of someone from my kind.
Suddenly, I was given a bloody knife.
It felt as though the thin ice beneath my feet cracked and crumbled to ashes from the fire of a traitorous man that carried nothing but deceit.
My beloved life was suddenly drowned by a blinding hate that was rooted in my heart by the ancestors of my clan.
Everyday felt like a burning steel was pressed on my tongue whenever I opened my mouth to deny the wretched love my brother so proudly spoke of.
Then, he came barging in on the fake solace built by my shaking hands that were filled with nothing but blood and cuts, companied by the cowardliness of the boy with a home that had empty halls.
He touched the edges of my burning soul with a bright smile that slowly drove away the darkness brought by my walls.
His bright blue eyes that hid an unspoken understanding, I wish they only saw the good, the untainted and the best parts of my being.
His smiles gave me this warmth that I grew to love and hate with every fiber of its familiarity.
His annoying voice that called for my name, it left this featherlight touches in my heart, it was invigorating.
He saw me as who I was, Uchiha Sasuke, nothing more than his unreachable rival standing at the top.
But I saw more than that, I saw more with him, I saw more with us, I saw a hope for something that was not fine, something unjust.
I saw a fire that could envelope me wholeheartedly and I would not mind if he would become mine.
And that scared me.
Then, one day he became someone that felt far away from my touch.
Slowly but surely he became this strong boy who could get through broken souls with just his words and his trust.
He suddenly felt far away, unreachable and someone who I had no right to love.
I became more broken, my life became more unjust, everything fell out of my control and I felt like an empty husk.
Yet he still smiled, he still laughed and still looked at me as if I was simply his rival in love.
But I didn't want that, I wanted it to be more, I wanted to be hugged, I wanted to belong, I wanted to be home in his arms, and I wanted to be loved.
But it wasn't meant to be.
So with the quiet steps I took to his apartment, I engraved every part of his face within my heart and buried it deep in a chest I treasure so much.
I feared touching, thinking it would make me think twice and give up with my vengeful plans, fearing it would make me stay on his side, on his good path.
I took a step back and said my goodbyes for these forbidden feelings I carry with my wounded arms.
I chose to bury them in the deepest corners of my broken heart.
Because I knew I was unworthy of his light, his calls, his attention, his smiles and his trust.
This story of ours ended before it could even start.
Because the stars never wanted to align for this one-sided love.
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Please don't stand so close to me
I'm having trouble breathing.
I'm afraid of what you'll see, right now.
I'll give you everything I am,
All my broken heartbeats.
Until I know you'll understand.
But I will make sure to keep my distance,
Say I love you when you're not listening,
"But how long, can I keep this up?"