The 'abuse' or is it?
You know when things get even more worse than before, you begin to appreciate your previously less disastrous life. I, of course, was told this by some old hags back when I was alive, but I never thought that this horrifying realisation would happen to me when I was in my diapers, barely a month old, ironically that is exactly what is happening right now. I didn’t think that I could be more depressed than before but life, once again has proved me wrong. Lately, it seems I am surpassing my own limits, but for how long will I be able to tolerate it….well who knows…
I am even getting the biggest shockers in my life as of yet….reincarnation – check, remembering my previous life – check, getting even more depressed and sad – check.
The most annoying thing now for me is perhaps the feeling of powerlessness and helplessness I am currently feeling in this baby's body. (ugh…. Just thinking about it makes me puke.)
My situation is invoking murderous thoughts inside me… I just wanted to murder and torture someone, which surprised me, to say the least. Previously, I was always a ‘talk first, fight later’ kind of girl but even that rarely happened. If I had a beef with someone, I just stopped talking to them and distanced myself from them. It worked for me at least, I did lead a peaceful life albeit a lonely one but I was always reminded of my solitude so I barely felt it till the end. Here too, I would have done the same thing if I could if I was some background character but no…. some stupid person just wanted me to be Uchiha Obito the pathetic lover… what did he even see in Rin, I wonder? She did not even glance at him, personally, he would have fucked off as soon as he realized that Rin doesn’t feel the same and I was officially KakaObi fan in my previous life so those hardcore NSFW graphic images of Kakashi and Obito are mind forever. (They can’t even be real anymore considering Obito is now a female and….me). To end this travesty towards one of my favourite ships, I would have chosen an easy way out i.e. one-way trip to hell, but as it happens I am now currently stuck in this useless good for nothing piece of garbage without any support and thus, this whole situation is making me want to murder someone possibly the one behind my misery.
Most people in my situation would probably be like, “Oh! New chance let’s make the best of it” or something optimistic like that but someone who knows how the ‘future’ goes, this has to be the worst thing ever. My end is not pretty and my future life will be as exciting as watching porn, which is practically zero. I don’t know what circumstances my new mother had me in, but considering her reaction they are not something good, her usual expressions towards is reeking of resentment and bitterness. Her casual abuse towards me is disturbing not to me but to what she is doing to an innocent baby.
If I was not a reincarnated adult who knows how to survive, I would have most likely died. Which based on her cruel and smug smirk is rather her intention. This could have come as a surprise for me but for someone who had awful parents in first life, I guess I’m not really too surprised that I did not get any good parents in this life either. I am beginning to think that the universe likes to fuck with me and I am dreading what it has planned for me in the future.
However, one thing that surely surprised me was how a shinobi village that prides itself on its world-class and observant ninjas missed my new mother’s bout of cruelty. She isn’t even being subtle in maltreatment so how did no one come banging on our door? Does Konoha not have any foster care system, I would not be surprised if they didn’t, since cared when Naruto was treated like shit even though he was the 4th Hokage’s son. To leave a four-year-old child suffering from ADHD in an adult apartment all by himself really speaks volumes about Konoha’s shitty childcare system and how much Sarutobi valued Minato’s son but then Sarutobi made quite questionable decisions, like his pathological need to not call out on Danzo’s bullshit and put him on a leash. His actions make me think of a senile old man rather than a Hokage. But what can you do, right? Ninja world, Konoha’s bullshit childcare system no surprise there, the worst of all is the supposedly ‘Uchiha parenting’ rulebook that the clan seems to follow like a cult follows their leader and the one I am now unfortunately experiencing.
One thing is for sure, whoever made that rule book knew nothing about how to raise a child and was all together not even a human. God forbid, if they ever had children, their children would have gone mad if they had to live with such rules and regulations.
Uchiha parenting is a perfect set of rules that you should not follow if you want a normal child filled with normal childish traits. If it was someone else in my place, they would have at least tried to change Konoha towards its betterment but unfortunately, they got me, so I’m not going to do that, I’m sorry whatever shit is cooking up in Konoha, I want no part of it and hopefully if everything goes right I will either be able to fake my death and leave this godforsaken place or I will die for sure earlier than intended, personally I like the latter option but we shall see. I am going to let everything go as it was previously intended and perhaps trick Madara and save myself from the bullshit he plans to brainwash me with.
Maybe if I do this, I would be guaranteed a Konoha-free life and an edge that will make sure that timeline doesn’t end up unpredictable Granted it will bring nothing but chaos and destruction but who cares about that really like even when reading the village and its people reminded me a lot of USA; a goodie two shoes image with a more skeleton in your clothing than you can hide.
Concluding this as my final decision, I decided to actually dive into the concept of chakra where I decided to apply all the canonical knowledge of chakra as well as my hypothesis on its control, which pulled me into a simple routine; I would wake up, sometimes I would be fed then, I would play around with my chakra and finally in exhaustion I would sleep (babies are so weak and fragile) this kept me busy for a few months and distracted me from my immobility and depressive situation. At least it worked for a while, for two months I played around with my chakra although I saw no results, I kept trying in hopes of finally producing some results.
The most awaited results finally decided to show themselves in the third month when I started to feel something moving inside me and as I concentrated I could even direct it to the different parts of my body which was a surprise because in canon supposedly had a very atrocious chakra control perhaps Kishimoto was wrong about that however I could not dwell in my thoughts for long because that’s quickly squishy feeling inside me was distracting me and for the first time since I was born again I felt happy now that I can feel my chakra I begin practising on how to mould it to its limit every day Which kept me entertained for a long while before I got bored and decided to try something new.
As soon as I was 8 months old, I finally concluded that I had enough strength in my leg muscles to start walking I had already begun to crawl around during my 4th month much to my mother’s horror and displeasure so maybe walking would not be as hard as I think right now.
Making up my mind I quickly crawled towards the nearby table for its support before slowly beginning to stand up as I was standing up I was thankful that I couldn’t remember my baby's life of because this was really hard and painful af. I can’t believe I had done it before my muscles were already cramping up from the excursion but I paid it no heed, slowly and steadily I stood up and when I finally properly stood for the first time I took a few minutes to relax and congratulate myself for a job well done before I started to at least try to walk the first steps were a bit wobbly and for a moment I thought I would stumble and fall but fortunately, that did not happen and soon I got a hang of it, slowly and steadily I began walking around. Soon I was walking around the house like I did in my previous life, albeit in a clumsier way than my previous graceful way but we will get there. It was honestly a nice change from all the crawling I did before for months that left my chubby knees aching. I will cherish this memory forever.
My mother was not at home since she had a habit of leaving me unattended in the house for several hours I walked around the house and observed my surroundings when the front door finally opened, startled I immediately dropped to my knees and began to crawl because its best to be average in ninja village if do not want to end up like Itachi And Kakashi and no way I’m going to let that old hag know something about my supposed ‘genius’ for her and the clan to exploit. The Uchiha clan might be a bunch of hotties but they are toxic and mentally deranged af. It is like they are drunk on a portion of I ‘insanity from love’ portion.
I was soon snapped out of my thoughts by an angry voice hissing at me;
“Is this where I left you little shit? Well, no matter, your grandma is begging me to see you I don’t know what is so special about you and why that old hag wants to see you but if she takes you in I will finally be able to get rid of you.”
Her face contained such disgust and malice that she gave Danzo a run for money. If I was a real baby with normal baby characteristics, I would have actually cried but as it stands, I am not. So I could work with this. But if my grandma adopted me my shinobi training would be possibly jeopardized and stalled. Well, let's see what the future has in store for us.