Guy never thought that he would still be alive today. He wants to die. His remaining hope was kept tightly within him. He is tired of his life. A despair because his wish to die did not come true.
Especially after the war. And war again.
Until all of his students who he considered to be his own children had died first.
At first, it was Hyuuga Neji who disappeared from this world.
Then Tenten and Rock Lee.
No. After Neji, Neji and Tenten's son left, without even coming to this world. Followed by Rock Lee's wife who is also Metal Lee's mother.
Guy wants to catch up with the dead children. But he lives.
Is it because he still has Metal Lee left in his life that Rock Lee left behind for him to survive?
Maybe it was true that Metal was the last defense he had for survival.
But it turned out that the desire to die was still stored in his heart.
He wants his papa. Which privileges him and makes him feel like he is the center of the whole world. Always and only.
"You have me, Guy" Once Kakashi said to him.
Guy just smiled hearing Kakashi talk like that. It felt like a rotten joke.
After the fourth Shinobi war, after the ship flew, he slowly realized that her feelings of love for Kakashi were fading.
He realized all along, he wanted Kakashi's love. Crave it.
But slowly that love faded. Life isn't fair, isn't it?
Guy has understood who he is since childhood. Even so, he wants to be the best.
Until one day, Guy realized that he couldn't even though people told him that he had become someone extraordinary.
He felt dirty and humiliated. It's not that he's ungrateful.
A reason.
Her cheerfulness was formed from her desire to fight against her trauma. Tragic trauma.
Compared to the ridicule he received from the people, it was still better.
Not long after his beloved father died, Guy was sexually assaulted.
Guy was raped. And he wanted to die after that.
But he lived thinking that if he lived there would be something good or someone who would make him important.
He was wrong. He was the one who needed someone to support him and he clung to Kakashi. He was the one who needed Kakashi's love.
The reality was just as difficult because Kakashi only saw dead people.
Even though it's funny, now Kakashi is always by his side. Right now, he is the one who should be pitied.
There was a time when he wanted to cut Kakashi out of his life. When he finally became a teacher, he was finally free from the perfect Kakashi he wanted.
As a teacher, he was happy to have what was his responsibility. Until finally his priority wasn't Kakashi anymore.
It's just that it seems like the world will always bring him back to remind himself that he exists only for Kakashi. Kakashi's happiness that wasn't his own.
Slowly but surely, the people Guy knew and grew affection for, had to give them up for Kakashi. Because they thought Kakashi was the one who needed it more than him.
So even though currently Kakashi is always by his side, in fact he can't stand it but he also can't hate Kakashi. Because it seems that the universe has chosen Kakashi to be the main character.
But he didn't care anymore. NO!
Guy just wants his children back to him. Also his papa's warm hug to keep him safe from the world that hurts him.
Now all he had was Kakashi. And he must return to his role so that Kakashi is happy.
Can't he be happy?