Chapter 11
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"If I can't walk anymore, I will kill you, Hashirama."
Madara grunts as Hashirama place his hands around Madara's hip, with his warm glowing green chakra.
"You'll get better. As healthy as before. Even healthier and more agile. I promise."
Hashirama chuckle softly.
"I'll still kill you from the embarassment and everything"
Madara groans as he glares at Hashirama.
"Oh come on, can you even live without me, Madara? No one's gonna deal with your grumpiness."
Hashirama smirks smugly and poke Madara's cheek.
Madara gave up and finally stop scolding Hashirama.
"Now try to move, does it still hurt?"
Hashirama help Madara to stand up.
Madara move his body, it feels fresh and relaxed now.
"..yeah it's good now"
Madara mumbles as he glance at Hashirama.
"Are you gonna wait for Tobirama, or you're gonna go home now?"
Madara sit down on his bed and take off his geta and socks.
"Hmm...i'll wait for Tobirama."
Hashirama smile sheepishly.
"Can..can i stay here until he comes back?"
Hashirama glance at Madara, hoping he can spend more time with Madara.
"Alright make yourself at home."
Madara went to the bathroom to take off his yukata and obi, then he came out in his regular uchiha clothes.
"So...how is things with you? Hokage stuff and the village."
Madara glance at Hashirama, he didn't know what to talk about.
"Tobirama is planning some things for alliance with another village. Corps or some resource, i didn't pay attention."
Hashirama smile sheepishly.
"How are you, Madara? How is your falcons and hawks?"
Hashirama sit next to Madara on the bed, but still giving a bit of space.
"My clans are dumb as usual. Some clansmen don't agree with my decision and stuff. Whatever. Also my falcons are fine."
Madara answered generally, he also didn't know what to talk with Hashirama.
"Hmm..."
Hashirama ponders about what to talk.
He can blabber so many things now, but he want to let Madara talk first and be open.
"Madara, do you have someone you like? or someone you find attractive?"
Hashirama finally asked the thing.
He is curious, Madara never get close with anyone, does he even find anyone attractive?
"You think i'm gonna answer that?"
Madara smirks smugly.
Hashirama excitement dime down as he realize Madara probably doesn't want to talk about things like this.
"There is someone"
Madara said gently, he start playing with his glove.
"...But this person is out of reach. They're too good for me. They're too bright for me."
Madara glance into the distance.
Hashirama watch Madara's expression fade into sadness.
"Why do you say they're too good for you?"
Hashirama glance at Madara, as he move his hand to caress Madara's hand.
But Hashirama pulled back his hand, he didn't want to trigger Madara.
"Don't put yourself down, Madara."
Hashirama pat Madara's back, since he thought maybe touching Madara's hands is too intimate.
Madara sighs and inhales deeply, he continue playing with his glove.
"Because they are too good for me, Hashirama. They're always positive and see the good in everyone and every incident. I'm pesimist and i always expect the worst."
Hashirama stays silent, as he listens to Madara carefully.
"Also...They're just...out of reach. Sometimes I imagine being their lover or stand next to them, but I feel filthy. They're as gracious as an angel. Heart pure as gold. Their kindness spread around like breeze. I don't deserve to be with them. They deserve someone who can be on par with them."
Madara inhales as he glance into the distance again.
Hashirama continue rubbing Madara's back to comfort him. Wow, Madara's crush is someone amazing. And it seems like Madara think of them so highly. Madara must've loved them and admire them a lot.
The thoughts make Hashirama jealous. Madara loves someone. He loves this person deeply and look up to them so much. He hates it, because it couldn't be him. Madara hate his noisy and clingy ass.
But right now Madara need some comfort. It hurts Hashirana to see Madara look down on himself that much. He put aside his jealousy and glance at Madara.
"Don't say that, Madara. Everyone deserves love. Including you."
Hashirama move his hand and caress Madara's hand and knuckles.
"You're an amazing person, Madara. Your determination, your hardwork, your loyalty. You always stay true to yourself and focus your dream and goals. You wish for a world peace and we even build the village to achieve peace between clans. It's a good thing. Don't look down on yourself, Madara. It hurts me that you look down on yourself as if you're nothing."
Hashirama sigh again.
"You're an Uchiha head clan too. You're a great leader, and an amazing friend."
Hashirama still try making his words get into Madara's head. Yet Madara continue staring into the distance, as if not listening to Hashirama, nor believe any damn thing he said.
"...Madara look at me."
Hashirama carefully take Madara's chin and make Madara look at him.
"You're an amazing person. Don't look down on yourself. Don't talk bad about my best friend like that."
Hashirama eyes glance straight into Madara's jet black eyes. Hashirama hold Madara's hand gently once again.
Madara glance at Hashirama and his big brown eyes. Damn, he really want to kiss this idiot right now. Because Hashirama is saying so many good things to Madara. He can't help it.
Does Hashirama really see Madara like that?
"You're saying that just because you pity me."
Madara spit out whatever comes in his mind first. He facepalms in his head, that was so rude!
Hashirama raise his eyebrows, he hold Madara's hands while trying to convince Madara.
"Madara, I'm not just saying those things because I pity you. That's just the truth. Why do you always look down on yourself? I see you as an amazing person and an amazing friend. Please don't talk bad about yourself."
Hashirama pout, as he feel like Madara is downplaying Hashirama's feeling.
Madara chest feel fuzzy and warm from Hashirama's words. And the idiot looks so cute pouting like that. Madara really want to pull him close and kiss him right now.
"Alright. Thank you, Hashirama."
Madara pull out his hands from Hashirama's gentle embrace.
Hashirama looks a tad bit sad when Madara pull away. He feels empty and he is afraid of Madara becoming distant again.
"Please, Madara. Talk to me. Lean against me. I'll always be here for you to listen and help. You don't need to hold your burden all by yourself."
Hashirama take Madara's hand again, feeling scared that Madara would retract back into his shell again.
Madara glance at those big brown eyes again. So captivating. Madara is trying to search any hint of deceive, but he only see some genuine concern.
"Okay, Hashirama. I'll try."
Madara nods again, and both of them just stare at each other.
"You..you got my back too, okay? I'm not good with words but i can try do something."
Madara said as he chuckle.
Hashirama smiles wide, his face immediately lit up, feeling like a spring just come. And there it goes. Some white roses bloom on Hashirama's head again.
"You'd turn into a walking garden if I'm not next to you to pluck these off."
Madara smiles as he reach to Hashirama's head, plucking those flowers and sniffs it.
"Oh, it smells rather nice."
Madara give an approving look, while Hashirama was blushing from that gesture. Fuck. Madara is being so hot, he loves it when Madara become soft just in front of Hashirama.
He knows the Uchiha is a softie inside. Madara cares about Hashirama, and eventhough Hashirama always doubt it, in this case, he feels seen by Madara.
"Oh?"
Madara glance at Hashirama's head again.
"You're a walking forest now, Hashi."
Madara take some sakura petals from Hashirama's head. Now the senju grow sakura branches as his cheeks turn pink.
Madara glance at Hashirama again. That idiot is looking at him like a lovestruck. Eventhough it's really hard to believe. Hashirama likes someone who is clingy and affectionate. Madara is far from that.
But why does he feel like Hashirama is falling for him now? Well Madara doesn't want to jump into conclusion.
"Hashirama.."
Madara glance at Hashirama again, tracing his fingers on Hashirama's jaw, and then gently cup Hashirama's cheek.
Hashirama head grow more sakura branch and white roses simultaneously.
"Do you have feelings for-"
Madara words were cut off by a door sliding wide open.
Madara quickly retract his hand and move away from Hashirama.
"We're home!!"
Izuna appears from the door with his happy tone.
Both Madara and Hashirama refuse to look at each other, and now trying to find some distraction.
"Oh hey Izuna. Do you buy lots of snacks?"
Madara stand up from the bed and approach Izuna.
Tobirama was behind Izuna, and he could see his brother head is like a walking garden now. He clench his fist tightly, knowing something must have happened between Hashirama and Madara while they're gone.