Dealing? Healing?
After getting checked out by J'onn despite telling him that his powers would have healed him without telling him that they weren't his speed powers. Pagan was once again faced with Bruce and the reality that they had no idea what to say to each other. Bruce didn't know how to help Pagan when he couldn't even touch him or being in the same room as him without Pagan stiffening. While Pagan just couldn't handle any of it as he simply didn't have the understanding.
As while he had been hurt before it had never been that bad physically, emotionally sure he had been hurt devastatingly so several times but never physical. He was too powerful to have ever face a truly powerful enemy that actually had a chance to defeat him or hurt him. And while as Flash he had his speed and the others to protect him so no true physical hurts had ever happened. So how did one go from that to....to...what had happened. How did a person deal with that kind of trauma when all they had ever dealt with before was some bruises and cuts. Not to mention, how did one face the reality of what had been done to him.
Especially as he was faced with the face of his....of the one who had hurt him every single day. Even if Pagan knew on a level that it wasn't the Bruce that he saw now, it didn't help. As it was the same face, same body, same everything. The soul was the only thing different but unless he used his Angel Sight which allowed him to See souls that didn't help him any and he couldn't use that constantly without getting a headache. So he didn't know how to deal, added to the whole issue was the fact that he didn't want to leave the mansion but also didn't want to be alone with Bruce.
Thankfully the last part was taken care of by Clark, who took some time off at the Planet and sorta moved in to the mansion. And even though he hovered over Pagan constantly , Pagan was happy to have him there. As Clark made him feel safe just by being in his presence. Clark had this aura of strength and comfort around him that soothed Pagan on all levels of existence and caused him to cling to him constantly. Which in turn made Clark happy and Bruce sad, while it also made Clark sad to see Pagan so needy and Bruce happy to see that Pagan was at least getting some comfort even if it wasn't from him.
That triangle went on for months without stop and effected the team deeply, for while Pagan had yet to return to the League, Bruce and Clark obviously had. They had some, a lot, of difficulty working together. Both loved Pagan with everything in them and both were dying inside at seeing his pain but only one was able to truly be there for him and the other was dealing with the fact that it had been him to do that to Pagan in the first place. Bruce had to face the fact that he had it in him to do that to the one he loved above all others. It was hard for him to understand that, let alone deal with it.
All and all it was one hell of a mess and one that Pagan didn't know how to fix or if he had the strength to do it. All he felt was weak, weak and dirty. So very dirty and so vvvveerrry weak that it wasn't funny. He was the King of Magic and World, Prince of Heaven, the Thrice Blesses, he was Merlin Reborn for his father's sake, he was the most powerful magical being walking the Earth and he had been harmed...By one he had trusted above all else. How would he heal from that, could he even heal from that. Or he spent the rest of his mortal life then eternity feeling this way. This weak and helpless. Was this how everyone else felt every single day, those without Power, without Magic to protect them.
If so, why did they bother to live at all as the thought of living this way forever filled him with dread the likes of which he had never felt before. Pagan just wanted it all to end and was actually contemplating suicide when his parents had enough and came to the mortal plane for the first time in decades. Chris, Wyatt and Lillian arrived before their beloved son and the Earth shook at the presence of the King and Queen of Heaven. As It was not meant to hold that much power, the Prince could barely be held let alone the King. Chris knew that it was dangerous but he didn't care as at that moment the only thing that mattered was his son.
The Charmed Ones had tried to install in their children the belief that the Innocence came first even before family, it worked mostly. But not on Chris and Wyatt as their devotion to each other was absolute, hence the fact they became lovers. Of course the Charmed Ones should have realized that Chris would never chose an innocent over Wyatt. After all, he had gone back in time to save his brother instead of simply killing him as the Resistance wished. Chris had broken every law magic had to do so and didn't regret it even when he died. So thinking he'd allowed anything to come between him and Wyatt was ridiculous. Wyatt felt the same.
The Brothers loved each other above all else and while they loved Lillian just as much, it was more a part of their love then a separate love just for her. While they loved Pagan just as much as they loved each other both as a part of them and in his own right. He was their son and nothing would ever be allowed to hurt him not even himself. So they descended to the mortal world to save him from himself and the memories destroying him. To Pagan it was one hell of a surprise to turn around and see his parents, it had been so long that he had seen them anywhere but in Heaven that it took his breath away.
"Mama.Da..Papa." Pagan threw himself in Chris's arms and just began to sob, letting out all of the emotions that had begun to build in him. Everything that he had kept locked inside since he had been taken from his reality and woke up in the Lords. Since his love's face had hurt him so badly that it left him..empty. Since it had all began. He let it all out and just expressed himself for the first time in months. Chris held his son tightly as Wyatt and Lillian moved forward and wrapped themselves around the both of them so tightly that they looked like one body with lots of heads and limbs. They comforted him.