so I watched the final 2 episodes of AAA and wasn’t too happy with how Agatha treated Rio I love Agatha …. however, her treatment of my girl Rio is just so heart wrenching and so not fair…. Set after the final episode and Agatha becomes a ghost
“I don’t want to see your face “6 words…6 fucking words it took to destroy me…. I am so numb…. I mean I am always numb given I am death…I rarely feel…. heck I don’t give a fuck…but this mortal woman whose 6 words are ringing in my head made me feel ..made me believe in love and that I the most hated and cursed cosmic being in the world…is worthy of love and feelings…. And for the first time in centuries…I felt alive and had a purpose and a reason to live….my duty as death meant little when I was with her….my task made lighter with her smile and love…now she fucking hates me…. for what???? Doing my job that I had no control over…fuck I love her…loved her…still fucking love her and will burn the world for her…. but she doesn’t want me…and it fucking hurts…why doesn’t she want me… I don’t know sister…but this torment you’re in…...it’s hurting me too…...we are twins after all…closely connected…. Wherever I go you follow…it shatters me to see you in such pain…. you’re the mighty death…....people fear you….this mortal woman has managed to do what no one in the history of forever has managed to do…break death…I knew you loved her and Nicky….hearing his name brought fresh wounds to Rio’s black heart….you a being capable of so much had the ability to feel love accept it and give it back tenfold….heck you barely tolerate me and I am your twin….I feel everything you feel … fuck this….it is time for this to change…you deserve better…. Agatha really didn’t think through the 6 words she told her wife….so when Rio showed up to collect Billy for breaking the rules…. Agatha was taken back after all Rio usually keeps her word…. death was not here for her but Billy …..Agatha died….and since she doesn’t want to see Rio…..she chose to become a ghost…. the thing Rio hated the most ……death mourned her love….and sought comfort in her siblings and told them all what happened….
During this reveal is when her twin sister life got so mad on her behalf…visited Agatha’s resting place…. Life got to Agatha’s resting place followed by Rio….and well life being life brought Agatha back for a short time….since she can’t allow Agatha to remain alive for too long and disrupt the cosmic balance…she gave her 2 additional years…Agatha who was freshly buried….risen from the grave her wife had so tenderly laid her in…aware of the life flowing in her and wondering why and how….she turned around to face the one person she definitely didn’t want to see…she specifically requested it….rage and fury coursed through her….you brought me back why…for fuck sakes I don’t want to see you…..didnt I make it clear…Agatha was not aware of the other being with Rio as she was to focused on her wife…. “Ahemm you’re welcome” …. the voice responded…Agatha finally realized there was another being…..”oh so you didn’t raise me up, got your sister to do your dirty work huh” Agatha viscously tormented …..”Gosh is she always this mouthy “life inquired???.....”Mouthy’ Agatha was ready to reply but instead was cut off by life…. ”listen up you little bitch fuck,now I had just about enough of you….you wallow in your resent and hatred of my sister for a fucking thing she could control”…..you don’t get to speak…..you will listen…just as I have listened to my sister agonizing cries and anguish over you….as I have felt the deep pain and loss from her….I feel everything she does…..it nearly killed us and we can’t die….do you know what you have fucking done….you wounded death…fuck you made her cry…no fucking mortal in their existence did that….you broke my sister…so much that that she begged to release from this burden and life…to just simply not exist anymore…do you know how fucking painful that is….it sting like no other….and all because she lost you….and I was suffering with her….I am not emotionally invested like she is…but the immense despair and pain radiating off her in waves made me wish to never feel like that again ever….
You fucking resent and blame her for taking your son…you don’t acknowledge he was also hers….do you fucking think it was easy doing that???? You see her as this evil person for taking him and cursed her for doing her Job…do you know how many times she begged her sibling to do something….to help her and mostly you…she was willing to give up everything to save him…her whole self….if it meant you can have him alive….and you know this…..cause even when you pushed her away and now you don’t want to see her…she still fucking loves you…and for fuck sakes I don’t know why…..but she was there with you when Nicky died…you pushed her away…took out all your grief and rage on her…she took it all for you…she never one fought you…or lost patience and in all my time existing never have I seen my sister like that with anyone… and you are so fucking selfish and cruel to the only person who has truly loved you and stuck by your side….and yet you push her away even in death you wished to not see her face ….even now on borrowed time you still refuses to acknowledge her…..you fucking broke and scared death… she doesn’t blame you for hating her or resenting her….trust me she resents herself enough for both of you……she forgives you for everything actually and she wished you understood the burden of her responsibility….the weight she carries that no one truly understood……she honestly thought you of people would at least understand not that she didnt try to make you…you refuse to even attempt to understand nor ask…you just assumed the worst…because she is death…. I actually cant with you…I simply cannot for the eternity of me understand why you are so deserving of my sisters love and forgiveness…..when all you do is trample on her heart and spun her love away….personally you don’t deserve my sister ……she fucking loves you…….She chose you out of every single person out there…..
she’s a kind face to all who enters her realm…..humans have mis constructed her and labeled her as evil….even you have called her that and been afraid when she showed up to take your son away before he could be born…you cursed her and said you won’t forgive her if she did it…..her fucking job that she had to do…..you begged her to let him live….she came to us and begged…..we couldn’t do anything to upset the balance….she knew it too….. yet she bent the fucking rules for you allowing you six years with him….she went against everything and stole time and more life for him…… defying her fucking nature and rules for the immense love she has for you…..for you to turn around and be so fucking ungrateful….saying she gave you nothing….she give you fucking time you shouldn’t have….time no humans ever living got will get or is getting…not one fucking soul got what you got….you are to fucking blind with grief and hatred to see and acknowledge just how much my sister loves you….enough to risk the sacred balance for you…I understand your grieving and stuff….I get it….it hurts….but your treatment of my sister is just ugly and nobody deserves that……my sister loves and understands….trust me….its time to see her pain too…..and maybe just maybe you could understand… With that life turns to her sister who still had her back turned to Agatha …..who was intent on keeping her deal of not seeing her…..her heart breaking with each word her sister said in her defense……she could feel the pull of Agatha on her heart and as much as it made her desperate to see her face….she remained stoically turned away….she couldn’t bear the already heartbreaking look on Agatha face as she realized she was so wrong all this time……
life spoke to her sis…..I have to go…..you coming or staying….will you be ok….Rio embraced her sister…..thank you and yeah I will be ok….you are my twin……I love you…and will be here for you…even if I don’t like the choices you make at times…..I will support you…see you soon sis… Life turned to face Agatha who had tears streaming down her face…..her now alive functioning heart twisting in agony as the memories played in her head….now it was the truth spoken had Agatha wishing she was still dead….you have been granted a second chance…..please do better and I apologize for my strong language and all my other errors……also it wasn’t her fault and you know that….and with that life disappeared…..leaving Agatha standing with the one person she should of listened to and understood…..who have yet to look at her…. Rio was about to go……she was just about to cut her way out of there using her knife and disappear from Agatha….for her …….her sister said everything that is there to be said…she saw no need for her to be lingering…..she was done….designated to her fate of not being forgiven by her lover or accepted…… she couldn’t take any more for a cosmic being with mortal human emotions and feelings…..she was just done with these damn emotions she shouldn’t even possess……
When she was stopped by 4 words…..Rio???? please my love…..Rio stiffened at the use of the pet name….memories of such said words uttered…..the memories of begging and longing occupied these words in an ancient time when they were two different beings….not broken and bleeding from the same wound… Please are you not going to face me…..come one ……look at me…Rio seethed with anger…..how dare she act like the victim…..it was her request to not see her face after all……she is doing just that….its your request that you don’t see my face Agatha Rio deadpanned….you know I didn’t mean that babe I am so sorry Rio……oh you’re sorry how rich Agatha…..Rio chuckled humorlessly…. Please let me see you my love…..what exactly are you sorry for Agatha….the great Agatha Harkness above apologies is actually issuing an apology to you….me literally death …..a cosmic being personified…..fuck I should be apologizing to you….never you didn’t do anything other than love me and did everything for me….Rio stiffened at these words…..they cut deep…Rio still didn’t turned around…..I’m so sorry I hurt you…I didn’t know….I didn’t ask or understand….I should of listened ….should of believe and not push you away when you were grieving too and still had to do your job….I was blinded and consumed with grief and I took it out on you…and you let me…..never complained or got annoyed…never left me even when I pushed you away.....and I would have understood if you did leave but you stayed….fuck I have made such a mess of things…..holding on to the resentment of you for something you had no control over….I wanted you to feel the pain I felt and you did only doubled and fuck I broke you…. God I am so sorry Rio….I left you to grieve our son alone….your son…Rio interrupted….you made it painfully clear that night after he died…..you may not remember everything you said and did…but I do….perks of being a cosmic being….damn she is officially mad at me…..
I am so sorry she kept repeating agonizingly wishing the ground could swallow her up to escape her nightmare….this is not going the way she expected …..she fears she may have pushed her luck to far and have bitten off more than she can chew…Rio turned around to find Agatha kneeling in the mud…face pulled down shielded by her hair…. Is that what you think ….that I am mad…..Agatha dared look up at the sound which seemed really close now….and into the eyes of her wife….trying to discern her thoughts…..instead she met with a calm neutral almost careless expression worn by death….her wife’s eyes that sparkled with mischief laughter and love….now possessed a dull void in them….centuries of hurt, betrayal and pain….stared back at her….as if daring her to change them…..Rio had one thought after seeing her wife’s face…..fuck she is beautiful….
Rio sighed a big one of defeat …. she resigned…..she was tired and broken down….the strong unbreakable wife……I am not mad just disappointed that you think me so low,callous and cowardly when I was just doing what had to be done Agatha…..fuck you knew what I was ,I thought you of all people…I guess I was wrong….I loved you through your resentment grief, hatred ,rejection …you name it…..I was there…you may have pushed me away but I was in the shadows waiting for you to let me in….you know it….you didn’t….you left me to grieve him alone…and yes despite what you may think I grieved and love him too….I lost him and you…. We both lost him and each other and instead of us grieving such said loss together…. You resented and blamed me as mortals do when I came to guide him home….you didn’t love me then…I became your worst nightmare ….you loathed me like every single mortal in existence….you changed I didn’t….you loved someone more than me……you became fearful of me when faced with the truth that yoIu will lose the very thing you love more than life itself….you changed by loving a mortal….a precious mortal that belong in your world…..destined to walk in mines….I remain what I am….death ..the end of all things…you Agatha changed by loving a mortal who would die…. You never asked me about that awful day…..you just assumed the worst out of me because of course I am this evil heartless being who cruelly took your son in the night……the six years granted that you called nothing…..do you know what it cost me…no you don’t cause you never bothered to find out….you begged me used our love as a condition …..remember you said “if I do this you will hate me forever”…..surprise you still do…..
I love you so much I broke my laws for you…my very essence……yet you still cant forgive me …you resent me so much….do you know how much it fucking hurts…nope you don’t care…. Why am I even bothering to explain shit to you…like fuck…..just argggg…. You request is granted….you will not see my face…..I have made alternate arrangements for you when the time comes…..goodbye Agatha ….. Rio is about to snap her fingers to disappear in a flash of green when Agatha stops her….Rio baby …curses that word again…why is she tormenting me so much….you know I didn’t mean that …you know I say things I don’t mean …..Rio knows that is true but she is ton tried to care….that’s the thing Rio replied her voice deadly calm as if resigned to her fate of never being understood forgive or love…accepting that it is truly over and her wife wont move past this….you did mean it….somewhere deep in you a tiny part of you actually wants me to stop pursuing you….I can’t keep fighting and chasing you if you no longer desire that and you made it perfectly clear that you don’t want me too…I am mentally exhausted fighting for your love and us when you keep rejecting me…this shit is hurting my black heart that beats for you….I am not a mortal…you made me feel human emotions ..gifted me with a semblance of a human life….I have all these human emotions and while I am also a cosmic entity with unlimited patience and understanding …I exist in this form for you…do everything humanly possible for you….I cant exist in the grey when it comes to you…..I feel these human emotions and now they overwhelm me…..these emotions stayed because of you…before you I never knew exhaustion….need or want….didnt get tired….now I feel these in extremes…it fucking hurts….. I love you ..you are all I will ever need and love….
You are right …I took …. I didn’t give anything…..my thoughts of that I was actually helping you in that time…well was wrong….I took the one good thing in your life away forever…because I am that evil…I get it…..you will never forgive me for that and I am done trying to earn that forgiveness for doing what I had to do….you keep calling the shots and because you know I will always come back you keep running and I chasing you…..that is how we work right???....you run and I chase you to wherever….you loved the idea that I am always there no matter what you do…the security of it…of me…the one person who knows you….love you is their only crime….understand you …loyal to a fault….you no longer wants to see…..like why Agatha….you know I will always do as you ask whatever it is….I have never once said no to you……I love you too much to not do as you requested….man I didn’t I still don’t deserve your hatred your resentment and rejection of me…when all I ever did was love you and was always there….I let you blame me and hate…I let you unleash your fury and grief on me…. I took it all without flinching…..but these words haunt me and break me…..they hurt…I understand your grief more than you will ever know….you think I don’t…but I do….so thank you for breaking me so much…I finally hit my breaking point…which as you know humans possesses…..and since you know I am human as much as possible… well my breaking point has been reached…. I’m sure if the tables were to flip you probably would have given up a long time ago…being constantly rejected….emotionally manipulated and being fed scraps of the love you so deeply crave….I honestly don’t know what to say anymore…
But I will say this…I am glad you got the emotional maturity to acknowledge your errors….thank you for your apology…late a lot late to do anything…..its been noted but not accepted…sorry I just can’t right now…. Agatha full on sobbing realizing the impact of her behavior…hearing just how much she had hurt her wife….tore her apart….hearing the finality and resignation in Rio’s voice…broke her…she refused to accept this is how things are now….approached Rio….she reach out to touch her but Rio flinched and pulled herself further away…..this is not how it ends…..Rio I am sorry… I love you …we can fix this please don’t give up on us…. I know you do Agatha…. I know…. but this can’t be fixed …we are too broken…. centuries of resentment hurt grief and pain… I don’t even know how to begin bridging this chasm….I mean I tried so many times…..all I got is hatred….I don’t want to resent you…which I will do…then it will be toxic and that is not good….so as you requested you will not see my face…you will be protected until your time comes and I will always love you and you are my greatest scar…. Goodbye Agatha Harkness…..Rio disappeared in a flash of green….
Well that was what should of happen…except she was interrupted ….Rio curses for the fifth time….what for fucks sake is it now….she is back in the clearing with Agatha….oh for fuck sakes what is it now…..Rio you are back….you left …love wont you turn around and let me see your face please….my love are you really going to not let me see you….you requested to not see me….im just doing as you requested….Agatha was about to respond when she was stopped by a voice…mama….mama…Nicholas???? Agatha called out hardly daring to believe……. she would hear this voice again…. oh God Nicky….. she look around towards the sound in time to see her son standing before her…looking as perfect as the day he left the world ….Nicky how are you here….ahh that’s why I’m back here Rio thought…mom Nicky called to Rio …why are you facing away…..umm Nicky I may have said somethings well a lot…mama what did you say to mom….I might have told her I don’t want to see her face when I die….mama oh gosh that is not good….but it will be ok… Nicky how are you here son….ah yes there was this nice lady who said my mama needs me for short time…she said she is my aunty life….oh sweet fucking hell…Rio cursed…trust her sis to get the kid involved….mom is she my aunty….???? Mom why wont you look at me….Rio love look at your son please…..our son…no your son….you made that painfully clear a lot….mama why is mom saying that….at the sound of Nicky’s heartbreaking question she slowly turns around to face her son….
With tears streaming down her face…her resolve broke and she flung her arms around him…sobbing her centuries of bottled up grief and pain out….Agatha watched helplessly as her wife sobbed uncontrollably in her son small arms….Nicky patting his mom back trying to calm her down…it was a bit to much so he asked his mama to help….Agatha gently pried her wife out of her son embrace…and into her own and held her like her depended on it…..whispering her apologies and love into her Rio’s torment tore through her…centuries of grief and hurt bleeding out into Agatha embrace….she held in to her wife her heart breaking with each raw sob that tore from her wife’s chest…..she could whisper apologies for the rest of all time and it wont ever be enough…..her wife was broken….finally exhaustion or calmness caused her wife heart wrenching cries to still….Agatha held on to her wife…offering her solace for as long as she allowed her….until she pulled away….looked up at her tear stained wife’s face…and slowly turned her back to her……fully intend on keeping her part of the deal…..
Agatha already missed holding her wife…the feeling although heart wrenching was exquisite…. Mama what happened…..like I said I told her I don’t want to see her face and I may have been unfair to her for the past 3 centuries or more…I blamed her taking you even though she tried to explain what she had to do…I didn’t listen….. I pushed her away…I resented her….and push her away….and rejected her…she kept chasing me right up until I told her I didn’t want to see her…..now she is doing as I asked…..mama I love you and I will never judge you…you are the best mother…one of them… that is….but you are wrong…mom didn’t take me because she wanted to hurt you…no I went willing… I knew it was my time…let me show you what happened….Nicky took them back to the night of his death……you see Nicky getting up waving to the green figure in the distance he was about to go to her…she stopped him and made him kiss his mama goodbye…two kisses one from him and one for her wife…Agatha sobbed at this…they were back in the clearing …Rio sobbing silently for Nicky showing his mama how it went…. Mama…. mom used to visit me in the night… she told me everything…I know she is my other mother ….and I love her…...and you do too….very astute boy ….Rio thought….s
She made me understand and prepare…..when she came for me I wasn’t scared mama…mom was there to the end…she looks after me even now….mom is kind….she also told me how much she had to give up for you to have me…her siblings tormented her for six years….she said she would go through it again for you….mama….mom had to take me …she told me about the souls that she don’t guide……they turn angry and vengeful….they are distorted……never knowing peace….mom made sure I am at peace….mama ….mom made an impossible choice in which the results were you hating her…she knew that no matter what she did…the results would be the same…you’d hate her… mama do you hate her???? ..please don’t….it wasn’t her fault…..oh Nicky when did you get so wise….I don’t hate her…I mean I did…but oh god I was so wrong….I know the impossible choice she had to make …it couldn’t have been easy….to spare you a fate worse than death…..she took you in love ….even if it meant tearing us apart… which is what happened….I was too blinded by grief and rage to see that…. She was grieving too and had to do her job….and I left her alone to do both…oh God …she didn’t deserve that…. oh fuck …. I fucking broke her Nicky….. She has every right to hate and resent me…for a cosmic entity the level of infinite patience and care didn’t deserve the cruel hatred and resentment I inflicted on her…it was severe…
I don’t hate you or resent you.....Agatha…. I understand…..mama….mom tried everything to save me…she even thought of offering her life for me…if it would have worked….but it wouldn’t have worked….and then she though of you…if she actually died and it didn’t work….we would both be dead….you would have lost both of us….she couldn’t do that to you….leave you with nothing…..she stayed for me….she chose me and peace for you…..Agatha realized…and again she was so wrong ….she knew you would need her…she was prepared even when she knew you would push her away….Nicky finished…..oh God what have I done….the guilt is too much for Agatha…mama it is ok ….mom loves you….you have to make it right…I love you guys….mama I love you and I will never judge you I know you will do the right thing…I have to go …..Nicky wait not yet….I am sorry mama but this was only temporary….I will see you when you come home at last… I love you mama…mom I will see you soon…. I love you…with that Nicky departed…. Leaving his mothers alone again…. Rio honey I am so sorry…. I know…I am sorry too…no you don’t have to apologize….it was never your fault…you did all you could…I am sorry it took me so long to see it….. so, what now…. goodbye Agatha…oh and if you meet anyone again…please don’t treat them like this…they may not be so understanding as I am…. all the best Agatha Harkness…love of my life for eternity……with that she was gone in a flash of green…. Agatha stood hopelessness staring back at her where her wife once stood….she was determined to find her wife this time…to now chase her estrange wife and win her back….if it’s one thing she always get what she wants…