A stunning spectacle
The sunlight discreetly shined through the open window, A small- cooling breeze accompanied with the smell of whatever stands were outside wafted into the room.
Distant chatter, The sound of choir music was scratchy and unclear, most likely coming from a speaker too old for its use.
Serene and plain.
A comforting atmosphere in spite of all things.
From the inside of the small room. A pillow discarded to the corner of the table, A blanket strewn from its original place and spread along the floor, seemingly tossed away during some point of the night.
The sound of a light snore every now and then that provided a domestic warmth of the atmosphere.
And one woman who couldn’t get up for the life of her.
Youngmi had woken up around 13 minutes ago. Typically she was a morning person. It was always best to start the day early so the morning events wouldent stretch out into night.
it had to be.. at least 8:30
But a hand wrapped around her, extending all the way to hold her back, A chin resting atop her head as her own head was practically pressed into the crook of the others neck.
There was a weightlessness to it. profound and soft.
But there was also a hint of confusion.
Or i guess you could call it panic.
The most humorous of it all was her current position. She couldn't move her head even if she could- she had to either be directly pressed into her or.. end up pressed directly into hyunjus…
…
Her face burned as she tried her very best to stay still.
And- Yes. Chest. She definitely has them-
She wanted to pinch herself, To slowly peel herself away before she melts entirely.
…
Her heart raced and she just prayed hyunju couldent feel it- Hoped that when she woke up they could pretend nothing happened and-
“y…mi..”
She opened her eyes again- Breath taken away as she felt a squeeze around her whole body
a hand pressed to the nape of her neck- squeezing dangerously close- And her ears Burned.
And it became all the more apparent just where youngmis hands were-
One was busy bunched up in her borrowed shirt- She was sure her nails were practically digging into it. But her other hand?
…somewhere, at some point in the night. She managed to sneak her hand way too close to the lower side of hyunjus stomach.
Way too close for comfort-
She gasped as she felt hyunju press her chin farther onto her head
A small shiver crossed through her body as she pressed closer.
It felt wrong.
On the one hand, Hyunju was sleeping. She wasn’t aware of what she was doing at all.
But youngmi? she may as well be shameless.
If hyunju was really aware of it. She was sure she would be appalled.
She wasn’t even sure if she had the luxury of being like- this, with hyunju. Close, Casual.
She shook the thought from her head, forcing it down as the last thing she wanted was too doubt their friendship.
…
Youngmi laid her head farther back, having to glance upwards to make out the expression the other woman had
Peaceful.
Quiet.
Youngmi took note of the way hyunjus bangs managed to fall to one side so symmetrically.
As if every part of her knew she was pretty, and held her to the standard.
As if to prove something..
…
Beautiful..
..
Youngmi wasn’t stupid. Shy at times? sure.
But she definitely wasn’t stupid.
Hell, maybe all those extra circulars and psychology classes and courses helped her with one thing.
The ability to really take note of the people around her.
Because if there’s one person she’s extremely- always aware of. It was herself.
Every single thing, every time she speaks, her voice her actions her flaws.
And how it manages to change near people.
Especially people she actually enjoys spending time with.
And that’s what worried her, It’s happend before-
That comforting feeling, the serene presence that is another human being.
Because although she loathes the steady tension she also yearns for it.
..
Youngmi took another glance to the woman in front of her.
Has she been doing it again?.
After last time? she would attempt to repeat it all?
For how long had she been unknowingly getting herself back into this mess.
Yearning.
Unproposed- unspeakable yearning.
That’s what scared her the most.
Because she knows very well that a person like her, without even sparing a second thought, could be cast aside- shunned from those she enjoyed being in the presence of.
She held her tongue. Distant memories of her old friends- and family who cast her out as soon as they gathered what type of person she truly was.
And that look they gave her as she told them the truth.
People like her weren’t normal-
Unacceptable, Unprofessional, unjust
…unnatural.
As soon as those 3 words came out of her mouth- all of it disappeared in a flash.
And was it worth it?
To be accepted but never truly yourself- never whole.
Or to be shunned and ignored, but able to look at yourself as your own person?
Youngmi knew what she signed up for.
Knew of the drawbacks, the consequences.
But she pushed.
Because deep down she knew she couldent bare to live as someone she wasn’t. Even if it terrified her.
…
Maybe that’s why she found comfort in hyunju’s presence.
Maybe that’s why even after all the overthinking, the part of her mind that tells her it isn’t worth it- she feels drawn in.
Compelled to stay.
…
A profound sense.. to yearn.
..
Youngmi looked to her once more, Hand still clinging to hyunjus blouse. As if she would disappear if she let go.
…
But she’s afraid, yearning is all she’ll be able to do.
As much as she were too.
She isn’t even sure if hyunju…thought of other girls that way-
“.youn…mi?”
There was a small shuffle of the legs, a quiet inhale that snapped youngmi out of her daze and awake once more.
She stayed quiet for a second, testing the waters with a squeeze of her blouse, Returned with a small graze of hyunjus hand.
Another shiver up her spine
Simple, Domestic yearning.
it would be good enough.
“..youngmi? Have you… been awake?..”
So she would treat this all the same. Unfortunately it would go unfulfilled.
Youngmi nodded with a small smile
“..i didn’t want to wake you up”
The way the sunlight gleamed into the room, The wisps of light managed to make hyunju’s hair shine..
Youngmi looked up at her, the angle causing her to stare with a tilted head. Almost playful.
Almost..
Hyunju’s eyes gleamed in the sun. She stayed quiet, Finally taking note of the placement of her hands.
But her expression never wavered
instead, She looked around, As if there was a sense of normalcy in this moment.
“what time is it?..”
“i think it’s at least.. 8:40?”
They were still close together. It was almost domestic, if it wasnt for the fact they were both strewn together in an almost messy fashion.
Hyunju was the first to move, Shuffling back but her hand still resting close to youngmis arm.
Youngmis hand still barely hung onto the fabric of her blouse.
Hyunju laid back down as she spoke
“..how did you sleep?”
There was another pause
“..Probably the best sleep i’ve had in a while..”
She was sure she was flushed. She didn’t care.
Hyunju smiled quickly replaced with a yawn
“that’s good..”
And youngmi smiled back, Filling the silence
“..and you?”
There was hesitation. Longer then expected.
Hyunju tried to find the words as she looked down, Taking note of the hand youngmi had placed in between them both.
Her own hand twitching in response to the empty space that she could easily fill.
…With her hand of course
What else?
“Between the sleep i got at the dorms and now?.. It was relatively similar.. “
Youngmi flickered her gaze up and down
“..But surprisingly the only comfortable sleep i had was with you. So..thank you”
Youngmi flashed a toothy smile. The one that hyunju thought was incredibly contagious.
“..should we get up?”
“…ah”
She stayed put, Hyunju on any other day would be up by 9:00.
…
Could she make an exception..?
…
They would need to get up regardless..
What did she have to do again?
Wait..
…
“youngmi?-“
she rubbed at her eyes
“yes?”
“did either of us- text Miss Geum-ja last night?..”
“…”
“…”
“I thought you did-“
…
…
Hyunju got up instantly- youngmi following suit as she scrambled for the phone placed on the window sill
“Shit- Unnie what’s your pass-“
“-5645 Here take the number-“
she hastily input the number as hyunju glanced to the mirror, Fixing her hair a bit before the sound of chimes came from the phone-
“are you calling them?-“
“w-well yeah! They might not answer texts right away and we forgot-“
Ping!
There was rustling, A bit of laggy audio was overheard as live video played
Hyunju came closer, back pressed into youngmis as a hand rested on her shoulder.
So that they both fit into the camera frame
“facetime?”
“i just clicked whatever i saw first-“
“YOUNGMI! HYUNJU!”
The mic peaked
Distancing the mic from them for the sake of their ears
“H-hi miss Geum-ja-“
“you girls! I was worried something had happened! Did you two get home safe? Did you sleep well-?”
They paused, taking a second to glance at each other, youngmi looked off to the side flushed as hyunju nodded as she spoke
“ah- well yes we did, We’re sorry for not calling Miss geum-ja- it barely crossed our minds at the moment-“
There was a small dip of silence, On the other side of the phone, Geum-ja raised an eyebrow as she pursed her lip
“Is that so?..”
youngmi clenched the phone in her hand as hyunju continued
“..hm, Are you sure you girls slept well?”
hyunju raised an eyebrow
“yes?…”
The shorter woman next to her laughed it off as she burned up
Geum-ja laughed to herself as another noise was heard
“ma! is that them? did they call?”
She turned around
“oh yes! Come come young-sik say good morning”
Hyunju and youngmi both watched as the camera panned to young-sik, Who obviously just woke up due to his mess of hair and squinted eyes due to his glasses being left behind-
“Gah! ma!- i’m changing!?”
The camera quickly turned back as she laughed
“Well hurry up then!- anyways, Girls, i trust your not too busy tonight?
youngmi shook her head, looking to hyunju who shook hers in response
“good good! then in that case, i’d say it’s about time i held to our promise- tonight you two should come over! me and young-sik can head to the stores and prepare a hearty meal for us all! right young-sik?”
She turned the camera over to him again, this time, he was messing with his shirt
“ma!-“
Another laugh was heard as he turned around embarrassed
Switching the camera back to her as she spoke through stifled laughter
“-so what do you say? can we meet tonight?”
Youngmi smiled as she giggled to herself
Hyunju nodded
“Yeah, we will be there.. let’s say 7:30 PM?..”
“oh no need to be so early! Honestly i’d say the best time is around 8:00! Don’t forget alright you two?”
They both nodded
“we won’t! it’ll be nice to see you guys again..i can’t wait!”
Like hyunju said, The smile of hers was contagious..
“We will text you when we get closer, is that ok?”
“yes yes of course! Want to come say bye young-sik?”
there was a small stumble from the other side of the phone
“-bye you guys!- See you later!”
She nodded
“bye young-sik!, see you soon miss Geum-ja!”
“we will be there on time, don’t worry”
Geum-ja smiled as she nodded waving a hand before the phone exited the call
…
Hyunju still had a hand on her shoulder, Youngmi didn’t mind of course, They exchanged a glance as she put the phone down
Two seconds of silence turned to a small fit of laughter. Pure and innocent.
“-poor young-sik!..”
“His hair?… Maybe we should get him one of those head wraps?”
Youngmi put a hand to her face as she laughed again- this time harder
“unnie! Don’t say things like that!-“
she nudged her as she continued to laugh
“but you’re still laughing youngmi?~”
She poked her shoulder as youngmi practically leaned into the touch
turning to her as she spoke through stifled cracks in her voice
Eyes furrowed as she smiled playfully
“Since when did you tease?”
She froze as a small pool of heat creeped up to her neck.
…that’s what she’d like to know too-
“Is it weird?”
Youngmi raised an eyebrow
“No, not at all”
Slowly shuffling forward to sit next to her again
It felt much more natural this time..
“I think its cute”
She turned to smile at her, Friendly and quaint
staring once more, But a smile was flashed as hyunju looked to the side
cute.
~~~~
The time had gone by quicker then imagined.
7:00 PM exactly.
Youngmi had left a while ago.
well- a long time ago actually.
She mentioned she wanted to try and get new clothes.
She was supposed to leave at 10:00 but it.. ended up stretching into 12:00…
The both agreed to meet up back in front of hyunjus place and walk together…
To save time of course.
All for the sake of convenience.
“i’ll see you later hyunju..”
…
Those words continued to circle in her mind for the next hour. Not getting anything done till 12:30-
but it felt like a while seeing as the time passed by pretty quickly.
Not much has happened-
She managed to pick out a new outfit..
A light creme colored jacket, Warm enough so she wasn’t cold. And a matching plain black dress with a small design on the side, In the shape of vines lined down to the waist.
All she had to do was her makeup.
The tiny box in her room held only a variety of lipstick, Eyeliner.. And sometimes she could find lashes on sale but she was still contemplating whether to use them or not..
She grabbed the lipstick first. It took her a while to really get into a routine with her lipstick.
She chuckled to herself having to use youtube diys because she was worried about messing up, especially if she needed to readjust it in public..
Glancing to the mirror as she held it an angle, Eyes focused on the red color-
Flickered to the corner view of the mirror.
Making a double take as she noticed a black piece of cloth in the corner of the room.
She raised an eyebrow- When did she take out the rags to clean?-
Now that she thought about it, She hasn’t even bothered to restock on them so what?..
She turned around, Crawling over to pickup the cloth.
Only it wasn’t cloth, Hyunju watched as the fabric loosened and fell out into onto the ground
A t-shirt. Baggy and slightly wrinkled due to being bundled for so long-
…
Youngmi left her shirt.
..
She should probably return it.
…
But- youngmi did say she was going to get new clothes..
..
Maybe she could hold onto it.
Just for now.
…
She folded it neatly and stuffed it into her sleeping bag. Later she could… Wash it. Then she could return it.
She put the sleeping bag back neatly in its corner.
Glancing back at it. As if thinking about something she really could not let herself-…. imagine.
A dark blush spread on her face as she faced forward- focusing on the lipstick she needed to apply that slowly started looking more like the shade of red on her face.
…
Oh-
Youngmi left the house wearing her shirt then.
…
She buried her face in her hands. Seemingly annoyed at the sudden change in demeanor.
Acting like a fool was one thing- but this? Like a school girl and her first crush?-
Completely out of the ordinary! Unlike her at all.
…
She smiled to herself as she checked the time
7:18
letting out a small gasp as hyunju grabbed her nearby purse.
Looking back at the sleeping bag as she huffed- getting up and taking one last look in the mirror.
She wondered what type of outfit youngmi had picked out..
Not that she would need to wonder any longer. It wouldent take long to find out..
…
The time ticked by as hyunju checked her phone over and over again.
7:18 turned to 7:20.. 7:20 turned to 7:25…
All the way to 7:30
Hyunju looked around, Not many people pass by this part of town.. relatively quiet..
But she still felt- anxious.
Which was weird.
hyunju took out her foldable mirror from her purse, Making sure to check if her eyeliner smudged or her bangs needed to be fixed.
Letting out a small sigh.
She held her purse close as she checked the time another time
7:32…
Did youngmi head to their house already?..
Oh god- what if she misheard and they were supposed to meet at geum-ja’s together-
She should leave now?-
She fiddled with her phone case as she contemplated her decisions
The sound of small putter patter came from behind her- Eyes widening as she heard a familiar voice
“Unnie!!- i’m-“
She was practically running over, When she stopped- She tried her best to fix her hair, A little messy but still nice.
“-i’m sorry i’m late, The bus to get here was delayed so i ended up needing to walk-“
Youngmi trailed off for a second as she flickered her gaze too hyunju’s outfit, Her stature was always admirable but.. Her sense of style was way too good..
And utterly- hopelessly attractive.
Her makeup was so pretty..
Overall hyunju was always pretty-
The jacket suited her nicely.. It brang out the color of he hair too.. And…
A black dress..
…
…
A small flashback of the…Memory- youngmi had yesterday came back up for a split second. Almost making her stop talking completely.
Hyunju caught her staring. She welcomed it but did some of her own..
Youngmis outfit consisted of darker hues, a dark blue crocheted vest alone with another simple crème colored button up underneath, And a comfortable long skirt with dark blue colors
It was simple.. Dainty but simple.. And the clothes also seemed to be baggy but still..managed to fit youngmi more then well
Hyunju gripped the seam of her dress as she bit the inside of her lip, just for a second.
Youngmi looked cute.
She tended to remind her of a type of puppy dog. She still doesn’t know if that’s rude to think but- It fits?..
“-and i didn’t realize it would take me so long so i started running-“
the way she would bundle her hands into her shirt was a common action she did, but hyunju found it charasmatic..
yes. Overwhelmingly cute.
Hyunju stared off to the side as she spoke
“it’s okay really!.. I uh- really don’t mind the wait..”
There was a beat of silence
“you…”
clean up nicely?.
No that’s way too formal-
You look great?
Plain…
….
“you have a great sense of fashion”
…
She wanted to bury herself.
Hyunju Stuttered with her words as youngmi stared blankly
“..do i really?”
Youngmi held a hand to her neck, tilting her head in response
It wa….unknowingly cute when she did that.
“ah- uh… Yes..wait- I meant..”
Youngmi stayed quiet
“You look really nice”
The void of silence was replaced with a small stumble, Youngmi stood straight as hands rested at her sides
…
“…You look stunning”
Hyunju turned back to face her, A sudden smile from the shorter girl made her eyes widen
stunning?-
“Black suits you really well! but you look really nice in lighter colors too..”
she thinks i look nice-
…
Where was the sudden confidence from??-
..
Youngmi took a step forward as she flashed another toothy smile, Hyunju clenched her hands together as a slow creeping burn began to pass through her neck.
Youngmi pulled on her jacket the tiniest bit before lightly rubbing the edge of the jackets inseam
“we should go now right? we’re gonna be late-“
Hyunju nodded. Following along as they walked close.
…
And why is it- Surprisingly attractive-
..
Hyunju cleared her throat. Mentally preparing herself for the night to come.
On the other hand..
Youngmi walked a little more forward, Hoping to god her ears weren’t gleaming red.
~~~
The sun had gone down. The cold breeze of the night beginning to waft through the streets. While some house had their lights off, the hazy gleam of a yellow bulb could be seen from the outside.
along with the smell of grilled meat and steamed vegetables.
The sound of chatter filled the silence, if one were to pass by, Voices ranging from laughter, Normal talk and babbling could be heard.
With the occasional silence due to the small talk coming to a stop to eat.
And the sound of clinking glass Was heard in the small home, the pouring of drinks accompanied with the sound of sizzling food from a table pot.
“Cheers!!!”
A small thank you and your welcome was passed as everyone got a drink.
The two girls had arrived late but not by a lot, The table was set up as everyone one got to there spots, Two people on each side as plates were scattered along the table and banter continued.
“it’s good that we’re talking now that you have a shirt on young-sik”
Youngmi ate a spoonful of rice as she looked off to the side at hyunju who was hiding her laughter behind a pair of chopsticks
Young-sik scoffed in response
“hey! i was caught of guard!”
Geum-ja placed down a plate another plate as she took a sip of sake
“Well i did tell you to get up earlier but you just love sleeping in!”
“So the girls are allowed to sleep in but i can’t?”
“Hey i never said that!”
she playfully covered her face from young-sik and jokingly nodded at the girls
hyunju chuckled as youngmi took another bite playing innocent
“oh how cruel”
youngmi grabbed more rice as she spoke
“Yeah.. but you do live here”
She ate another spoonful of rice as she helped geum-ja placed down her own plate to eat with them
young-sik chuckled as he grinned at hyunju
Leaning in closer to whisper something
“psst.. hyunju-“
She raised her eyebrow
“Is there something on my face?”
He laughed again
“No no- just- look at youngmi”
She furrowed her brow, glancing over, nothing seemed out of the ordinary?..
“What about youngmi?..”
He sat back, Pointing at his mouth and whispering
“look at how she eats rice!”
She stared blankly
Glancing to the side as she drank a sip of sake
Youngmi was taking a drink, Hyunju looked over to young-sik who seemed to be giggling to himself as he ate grilled meat
She raised another eyebrow as she looked back at youngmi
Using her chopsticks to pick up a very large amount of rice. Taking a big bite and chewing happily.
The way that she was chewing- the first picture that came to her mind was of those videos of the hamsters stuffing themselves with pumpkin seeds.
…
Hyunju glanced back at young-sik who laughed to himself
Hyunju stared off as she held a hand to her face
Keeping herself from laughing but her face became a slight hue of red
The vision of youngmi and a hamster as she thought to herself
That has no reason to be cute. Why is that cute. Damn it all-
she grabbed her small cup of sake and drank it with a sigh
Placing down the cup as young-sim chuckled
“another drink hyunju? I can pour you one”
She extended her cup
“-please”
Next to her, Youngmi held another large helping of rice giggling as she spoke
“Already? That was really fast, it not even halfway done with mine”
She flashed another toothy smile, Hyunju noticed a small grain of rice managed to get stuck on her cheek.
When young-sik gave her now reffled cup back, he watched as hyunju wiped it off for her, A small goofy smile plastered on youngmis face
Geum-ja nudged him in the side gently, Nodding as he placed down the cup, the two girls now laughing in front of them
He pushed his glasses up as he raised an eyebrow
The scene looked pretty similar to those he would see on TV. How amusing.
Hyunju took another sip as youngmi looked back to her food, grabbing some steamed vegatble as well
Geum-ja laughed as she poured herself a drink
“I’m surprised youngmi! How does such a small girl manage to eat so much? You’ve had thre helping to rice!”
There was a short pause, youngmi simply finished chewing and grabbed her cup
“oh, i didn’t eat anything else today”
young-sik coughed as he furrowed his brow
“wait for real? Not a single thing?”
She shook her head
“i mean, i got myself some water and juice from a local convenience store but-“
“really that’s all?! oh my, Youngmi you must eat! Especially at your age? I can understand if you don’t have a huge appetite- but only drinking water and juice?”
she laughed it off
“I mean i spent so much of today looking for a new outfit i might’ve lost track of time.. Oh and i also spent a good hour looking for another hotel or Inn to live in! I managed to find two-“
Young-sik interrupted
“Wait hotel? inn? I thought you were staying with hyunju?-“
Hyunju let out a staggering cough as she took another drink to clear her throat
Youngmi stuttered with her words
“what- Wait! N-no we’re not-“
geum-ja Chimed in
“Oh young-sik! i’m pretty sure youngmi stayed over the night is all, That’s what i asked of them. And besides, They’re both grown woman! Don’t intrude on their personal space like that”
He rubbed his neck seemingly apologetic
“ah i see- Sorry about that! I just assumed so that’s my bag on my part-“
youngmi rubbed her hands together
“It’s fine it’s fine.. I just left early so i wouldn’t bother anyone-“
“this is why you can’t find a girlfriend young-sik! i tell you- think before you speak!”
“ma!- not now!-“
She laughed as he spoke.
Youngmi looked to the side, Face red but laughing along.
Hyunju still looked down, hoping the cup covered her face but she quickly put down her cup as her tolerance was beginning to falter.
A small red blush proving that
“Is that your third cup hyunju? my my, you’ve basically got the same level of tolerance as my old self!”
Geum-ja laughed as hyunju turned a darker shade of red
“But i highly doubt you’ll beat me at my best! I used to be able to drink the whole thing!”
“ma that isn’t good for you and you know it-“
“Hey i was young!”
As they bickered, Hyunju could feel eyes staring at her. Soft eyes, That would occasional catch her attention.
Hyunju glanced back, a small comforting silence was present as youngmi stared off, picking at her bowl
“…”
“..”
“you weren’t bothering me..“
she spoke in a hushed whisper.
Youngmi looked back up, Eyes on her. Curious and gentle.
She didn’t speak, Hair falling a bit too the side as she nodded
A small smile forming as she glanced away
But hyunju continued
“…”
“…i…kind of missed you..”
There was another pocket of silence.
At least for a second untill hyunju felt a small touch on her lower arm.
…
..
“kind of?..”
…
..
“I did.”
…
..
Hyunju scraped the bottom of her plate, Noticing the small touch on her arm turn to a squeeze as she pulled away
The sound of chewing becoming apparent as they both listened to the others bickering
…
…
“…i did too..”
…
..
The darkend blush had to be from the sake.
…
Then again… hyunju wouldent have minded it.
…
~~~~
“I’ve packed you some food for tomorrow so make sure you eat alright? And hyunju, get some sleep, You had a bit to drink today so make sure you drink water- actually one second i’ll get you some-“
the time was 10:46 PM
Youngmi and hyunju were set too leave but geum-ja wanted to make sure they left with some food..
Youngmi already had 3 full tubs of food in a bag but she persisted.
And as for hyunju, She was tipsy. Okay maybe a bit more then tipsy- But she had her reasons!.
“Ma, cmon, They don’t need to be coddled, didn’t you say they were grown women?”
She sighed
“Well yes but as a mother i’m not going to let them go home without proper care!”
She handed a water bottle to hyunju as young-sik chuckled
“Well the sooner they get home the sooner they will be safe right?”
Ah right, home.
Hyunju glanced over to youngmi, Who was smiling at the situation, Boxes in hand as she looked away
So, youngmi would be going to the hotel then?
He urged the girls to start walking along as geum-ja spoke
“Stay safe okay? Text when you can! Youngmi- make sure you eat!”
The shorter girl waved Nodding in response as young-sik called out
“Bye you two!! get home safe!!- hope the hangover isn’t bad hyunju- Ow!”
“ignore him! goodnight!”
youngmi laughed as they walked off, The light in their house turning off as she faced forward.
Hyunju was awfully quiet…
Not that it was a bad thing
She took a glance at the taller woman, She looked tired.. Or well- i guess that’s the effects of the sake they all had
Youngmi only drank 1 cup and a half but she was too focused on eating. It really was a long time since she had a proper meal like that.
She smiled softly, sighing gently as she moved a little closer to the taller woman next to her.
Hyunju felt warm, besides the drinks she had- She just felt.. warmth.
God it sounded so cheesy.. But it sure was a while since she’s had a night like this..way too long.
But even Before her transition it never really came easy, She never found it in her to enjoy herself.
But now?..
She felt youngmis hand graze her own.
Ah right.
Well.. things have definitely changed.
And it felt nice..
It felt real.
Real enough where a part of her was really starting to believe she could just-
Breathe.
No second guessing, no hesitation..
No- needing to look down at the floor when she would walk around other people-
Even at the games, People wouldn’t look at her like that- As weird as it is to believe.
But truth be told, People seemed to be more concerned about not dying rather than the people around them.
She looked over to youngmi as she continued to think
And there was her..
Probably one of the first people to make her feel.. seen.
Made her feel like she didn’t have to just look down all the time.
Someone who sees her for her..With those kind.. Gentle and glowing eyes..
Charming and yet so curious.
Hyunju liked that the most about her. How she made her so curious..
About wanting to hope for something better, To want more then she has…
..
And to want to feel..
Just feel..
To yearn for that kind of emotion she would read about in books.
..
She wanted to let herself believe she could be capable of feeling something other then doubt.
She wanted to yearn for her.
..
Hyunju stepped a bit closer hand falling to her side as hands grazed once more, This time, not stopping for a second, hyunju held on, Gentle enough to give one squeeze to the other girls hand
…
Hyunju yearned to want her.
..
There was a bit of silence accompanied with a small gasp, Another squeeze of the hand. Fleeting touch that somehow turned into their normalcy.
..
She yearned to want her.. Because she isn’t sure youngmi would want her… Not like she wants her.
so? She stayed quiet.
choosing to ignore it. Maybe it would be better to never know rather then force it all to come crashing down.
In a way, it was similar to their first encounter.
Only this time, Hyunju wasn’t sure if youngmi would bother calling out.
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“..hyunju?”
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.
Then again.
She had a way of surprising her.
..
Hyunju didn’t look over, She knew if she did she would aim for more then she bargained for.
So she simply spoke
“Yes youngmi?”
“would it be okay.. if i dropped you off at your place?..”
There was no hesitation when she spoke, Just a squeeze of the hand that she felt revealed her own emotions.
But there was.. a bit of disappointment.. Hyunju couldent place her finger on it.. But she wanted..more
“Yes”
“Thank you”
There was another squeeze accompanied with a small graze of the thumb
“Of course”
Even if she wanted to say more, It felt like more then enough.
It felt real
That’s all she ever wanted.
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They walked slower then usual, Luckily both of them had a pretty good idea of where to go. It was quiet most of the time, not much to be said besides the occasional action of a squeeze of the hand.
Youngmi felt her heart beating at a normal pace, Even if her mind was running with thoughts by the minute, she could really center it around 1 thing
Hyunju
Not that it was any surprise.
She’s been one of the main thoughts in her head for the past week.
But this felt different then she could have ever imagined.
Because she felt like there was a chance.
let it be wishful thinking or foolishness.
She just couldent bottle it up anymore. She got a taste of this- This authentic, blissful and giddy- Childishly feeling for days now.
Never truly coming to terms with it but whenever she looks at her she just can’t help it.
Those eyes, the way her voice manages to convey such emotion, A beautiful soul a beautiful woman who deserved nothing less then joy..
She wanted to cling onto that feeling for as long as she could.
An overwhelming sense- and urge a downright need..
An urgency to bring out that side of the other woman. Just a chance to give her that semblance of care.
The same way hyunju had managed to make herself realize, that she can want that too.
limiting herself to a simple pleasure of wanting what you can’t have- not because she couldent have it in the first place, she convinced herself she wasn’t worth it..
But hyunju?.. God she makes her believe she can be worth it…
She watched as they had finnaly made it to the apartment complex. Stepping inside as hyunju and her made it to the elevator.
“mind clicking floor 3?..”
She nodded
It felt rushed somehow. As if taking the elevator would get them get to the room faster-
Hyunju still had her hand locked in hers. But the elevator buttons were on hyunjus side.
She let the bag rest on the ground as youngmi moved over to reach around, pressing it as her arm pressed into hyunjus side.
Still no words be spoken but a small tug of the sleeve was felt as hyunju moved back
The elevator began to move dreadfully slow, youngmis heartbeat was still rapid, But it was more excitement if anything..
Excitement to which she had no reason for, other then being in the presence of hyunju?
She really was wrapped around her finger..
To which of course, she had no complaints.
She wondered what she was thinking about right now?
Youngmi simply stared at the elevator buttons.
would it be foolish to think that she could possibly think of how they are right now?
Hands locked? Standing all too close together but not a word being said.
Did she think it was awkward? God she’d like to know.
The tension was eating her alive but she couldn’t get enough of it. she clenched the bag in her hand as the elevator reached the second floor, door opening
No one was there, And in a way, she was almost relieved
she felt that if anyone were to come in at that point that it would like disturbing a private moment.
That this small elevator, space enough for them, just them- Was there own.
It felt odd and equally desperate to think about.
And in an act of excitement, youngmi made the mistake of looking back at hyunju.
Locking eyes with her only to realize that the taller woman seemed to have an eye on her the whole time.
And she froze, feeling her heart beat in her chest at a rapid pace as she let out a small gasp.
Another squeeze on her hand as hyunjus eyes flickered to multiple places. Places youngmi couldent pinpoint but directed at her.
And she wanted to say something, anything at all, just to capture this moment and-
ding
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They made it to the third floor.
Youngmi faced forward, she stood up straight, fixing the front of her bangs as she turned around to face her, Hyunju stared blankly
…
youngmi looked back down, Hand in her shirt as she mumbled
“…which room is it again?”
Hyunju whispered
“..Room C”
hyunju still stared.
Unwavering as she watched youngmi from the back, which wouldent last long seeing as she was the one who need to open the door..
The way her hands fumbled around when they weren’t occupied
The way her hair wisped around when she walked..
Was she still tipsy?..
It didn’t feel like it.
…god she felt warm. Her hand felt warm- youngmis hand felt warm
So overwhelmingly warm. So incredibly soft.
She had to let go.
Partially because she needed to get her keys out. But also because if she held on for any longer, she wasn’t sure what she’d do.
…
Youngmi stood behind her, Bag in hand as she watched hyunju open the door and take a step inside, She’d be lying is she said she wasn’t beckoned to come in.
But she knew better
…
When hyunju turned around, The dim lighting of the hallway really didn’t help her to see her face.
Not that it was necessary. But a part of her wanted it.
And there was silence.
Comfortable, Tense silence.
…
She wanted to break it. To do something. To say something.
Enough so that she’d stay but also enough to where she doesn’t seem desperate- is that too much to ask?
How hard is it to just say-
Stay.
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..
She did it before, back at the games, asking her to stay was easy because she had no clue how much it would affect her.
But now?..
How could she ask her to stay? Knowing that she couldent possibly take it if she were to go-
..
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Eyes locked as a shuddering breath was heard
A small flickering of the eyes gazing from up to down as hyunju simply.. stared.
That’s all they did.
Stare.
Like it had become some type of habit they grew accustomed to.
..
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“Can i..see you tomorrow?..”
It came out as a hushed whisper. gentle and pure.
Youngmi stood still as she heard those words.
“..i’d like to get coffee at that place you mentioned..”
Hyunju was blushing. Red hue scattered across her face like a compliment.
And youngmis eyes gleamed.
A set of thoughts centered around three things, She wanted to see her again, wanted to be near her again- Wanted to go somewhere with her-
Hyunju fiddled with her hands
Staggering with her words
“and.. I wouldent mind at all if you wanted- even if it’s just for the night-
There was a pause
“you can stay-“
Three words.
All it took was those three words
youngmi stepped forward, practically pulling on her jacket as she closed the gap between them.
She held onto the jacket, nearly possessive, Separating for a second before pulling back in.
she felt dazed, A rush of adrenaline mixed with the need- the urgency to just keep her as close as possible.
Thoughts running wild as youngmi dove her hands in the taller woman’s hair, Soft.. Even the expanse of the skin below her neck was soft-
And there was an overwhelming warmth that practically drove her mad.
After days of yearning.
Hours of contemplation.
Mere seconds of silence, that were filled with a deep sense of relief, A feeling of hope.
And a rushing- burning emotion of overwhelming adrenaline.
Hyunju’s lips felt softer than she could ever imagine..
She was and is- everything she could have ever imagined
She wanted the overwhelming pressure to captivate and surround her-
But she needed to breathe.
Youngmi let her hands fall to the upper part of hyunju’s collarbone. Standing on the tips of her toes just so she could still be near her.
And she opened her eyes, gleaming with curiosity. Filled with want.
And for the millionth time.
darkened brown met Soft gentle eyes, only this time, youngmi did not have enough time to enjoy them.
She was pulled back in before she could breathe
As if it were a hunger, Hands wrapped around youngmis waist, Practically lifting her up as lips clashed once more
Hands and nails pressed into youngmis side, stinging as she let out a gasp
Hyunju practically held onto her even harder as she kissed into her mouth, Taking the opportunity to swipe a tongue to her bottom lip
Asking for permission as youngmis head began to spin
She couldn't breath, everything she touched was hyunju- Everything she was feeling was hyunju and yet she couldn't get enough.
She felt the bag of food slowly drop from her hand as it fell to the floor with a thud. Seeming to break them both from their daze.
Hyunju was the first to back off, Hands still wrapped around youngmi but gently placed. She took in a breath as she looked down at the shorter girl.
Taking in every detail, Flushed and panting, hair a mess but god at this point it was more attractive if anything.
..god it just made her want more.
Hyunju simply flushed glancing at the smudged lipstick left on youngmis face
She felt a squeeze on her shoulders
“..ag…in.”
She flushed red, Youngmi looked down as she pressed her head onto her.
Still on the tips of her toes as she spoke, Looking back up to meet her gaze
“…again”
she flushed red again, Fumbling with her words as she spoke quietly
She didn’t need to think twice after that, pulling her into the room as she shut the door, Youngmi didn’t waste a second as she Pinned the taller woman to the door
It was almost comical, Even with nearly a full foot over her she managed to keep control of the situation
And that made her all the more needy, all the more curious to continue
Barely any words being spoken but the tension rising as hyunju couldent hold her legs up anymore,youngmi noticed, Slowly taking advantage of this to start kissing down her neck
The tenacity she managed to display in a matter of seconds made her weak in the knees. Practically clinging onto her as youngmi kissed at the crook of her neck, The necklace she wore getting in the way but she continued her barrage of feathery kisses
It wasn’t until She felt a breath against her neck, hot and staggering that made her shudder, Followed by a bite that sent shivers down her spine
Making hyunju mewl.
She bit her lip, The sudden noise causing a rising heat to her face.
Hyunju fell silent, Embarrassed by the sudden noise, Surprised that she would even make such a noise in the first place.
It had been.. a while.. there was even a part of her that felt a bit intimidated by such things…
She glanced back down. Trying to cover her burning face.
Eyes fluttering open as Youngmi paused for a second, looking up at the taller woman, eyes with desperation as she whispered quietly
“..Can I hear you?..”
Her heart throbbed.
They haven’t even spoken about.. what exactly they’re doing…
Hyunju squeezed the woman’s shoulder that let out a stifled sigh
..did they really need all the words?
“..please..sound so pretty..”
No. They really didn’t. After days of constant escalation? Fuck words.
Hyunju leaned down once more, Kissing youngmi with just an equal amount of vigor as she did.
Open mouthed as she practically whimpered into her, Feeling a hand squeeze against her side, Another mewl escaping as youngmi took the opportunity to slip in her tongue
They were still pressed into the door, youngmi kissed and bit as she began urging hyunju away, Almost luring her away
Continuing to make her melt as youngmi bit the lower lip before pulling away. Returning to her neck, a sly smile that hyunju couldn't see but she could feel it..
That smile that she’s grown fond of.
And there was a pressure. A delicious, delicate pressure as youngmi sucked on the same place she’s been attacking for the past three minutes
And she moaned.
There was a small pause. Between the panting breaths and the small squeezes youngmi provided, She felt a small sense of pride hearing the taller woman like that.
It made her want to hear more.. To make her feel even better
That’s when she felt her lower leg hit the edge of the small table she had, Bumping into it once more as she got an idea
She quickly stood back on the tips of her toes as she leaned against it. A noticeable rock of the hips felt as hyunju gasped.
She smiled.
Hyunjus mind was going crazy. The feeling of youngmi pushing against her was already enough pressure, But to feel.. everything through that thin.. Long skirt of hers?
She was going to be driven insane.
And it started really getting to her, it was getting way to hot in this jacket.
She pulled back, Youngmis hands extended as she watched the taller women smoothly remove her jacket, tossing it to the side as it hit the floor with a small noise.
Face flushed at the sudden bold action, But hyunju didn’t waste a second resuming to grab and hold youngmis waist, Lips slamming together in an untimely but fevered fashion.
Just as hungry until the familiar rocking of the hips was felt again. Transforming more into grinding as youngmi pulled her closer
Hyunjus leg managed to be positioned fairly well in between her thighs. The feeling of steady friction applied in the best way possible.
Not only that, But the position managed to allow hyunju to press right into the expanse of youngmis thigh.
Her dress strap managed to loosely fall off at this point, Allowing for youngmi to teasingly pull at it. As if asking for permission for an unknown request
Hyunju wanted it. she knew she wanted it.
Was she.. waiting for her to do something?..
Waiting for her to try?
…
It was amusing, Another game to play, more to add to the tension.
Sharing one last kiss before pulling away again.
sharing a look of want, Eyes shining due to the moonlight pouring into the room. Adding all the more effect of youngmi finally being able to look down at the mess she made of her neck.
Bites in one place as marks scattered along her neck.
She was almost guilty for doing such a thing but prideful that she’d done it.
She was too busy admiring her work that she barely noticed the hands on her
Hyunju played with the collar of youngmjs button up shirt, trailing a finger dreadfully slow, all the way down to the hem of her crocheted vest.
Youngmi couldn't help but watch in a daze as hyunju pulled the collar still and began to lift it off of her.
Using her now empty hand to trail those long.. manicured fingers up the buttons.
Making the occasional eye contact as youngmi blushed dark red.
The snap of every button from the top to the mid section of her shirt was made, With the way youngmi was sitting, She slowly began to move downwards
hyunju smiled slightly, Glancing up as she began to kneel.
Youngmi was gone, Too focused on those eyes but trying so hard to keep pace with the touching.
Watching as hyunju opened every button so devastatingly slow. Glancing down at the expanse of newly shown skin.
Hyunju even smiled to herself as she bit her lip in thought
Youngmi even had beauty marks trailing up her body.. Stopping around her lower collar bone.
She recalled what she had wondered in the first place. Was she as soft as she looked?
She hesitated, glancing back up at youngmis flushed face. Hands slightly grazing the hands on her waist
Hyunju felt weak, Looking up at her like this? Solidified how much she wanted this. She was sure she looked desperate, Eyes half lidded pupils blown.
But youngmi stared in awe, lips parting as she moved a hand to the expanse of hyunju’s neck, Softly holding her as she leaned into the touch, Whispering softly as hyunju flickered her gaze from her chest back to her eyes
“Can i..Can i keep going?”
The words alone made her melt, a shiver going down her spine as she nodded. Something about her just asking, With that expression..
Hyunju slowly brushed the sleeves of her button up down as it scrunched onto youngmis hands, Moving forward to press a small kiss to the beauty mark at her stomach.
Face burning as she glanced back up, Eyes gleaming as she held eye contact, Moving up to kiss the next one under her chest. The hand on her cheek rubbing gently, as if urging her to continue
Youngmi whimpered as hyunju made it to her collar bone, Skipping over her chest due to the bra she still had on. She leaned back, pulling away as she watched hyunju pout
Which was way too cute for her own good.
She grabbed the bottom of her bra strap, in one full motion- taking it off as her hair fell back down messily
Youngmi wasn’t the biggest, she knew that. And honestly she never paid attention to it. But hyunju stared at her for seconds. A part of her was embarrassed, but another part of her felt this strange sense of confidence. As if she was almost proud to get that sort of reaction out of her..
“Are..is this okay?..”
Hyunju looked back at her, Still knelt on her knees but her posture straightened as she nodded
Youngmi flashed another smile, extending a hand to intertwine with hyunjus, Slowly beckoning it to glide against the expanse of youngmis abdomen, trailing against every mark and smudged lipstick stain
Locking eyes once more before youngmi placed her hand against plush soft skin. Stifling a soft whimper as another hand grazed her abdomen
Hands now squeezing as she whimpered, fitting perfectly in her hands.
Locking eyes as hyunju began to kiss at the crook of her neck, Feeling another squeeze as she leaned back.
In the same position as before, Hands wrapped around hyunjus back as she tried her best not to fall backwards.
Not taking too long as the rocking of the hips began once more, this time, more timely and needy.
Youngmi felt like she was burning, heat beginning to pool into her lower abdomen as hyunju pressed closer and closer but never fully making contact.
“..h-hyunju..”
There was a noticeable pause.
Hyunju whined as a staggering movement allowed her to feel total friction against her core. A stifled moan was heard as hyunju pressed into youngmis chest.
“o-oh god…”
Seemingly dazed, The sudden reaction made her curious. Watching as hyunjus face flushed with red and heat
As if she read her mind. Hyunju moved back up, Practically whispering in her ear as she spoke with pure desperation
“..Say my name like that again..”
It was quiet, Practically a request. But it made youngmi so unbearably excited. Gasping as she felt hyunju grind against her once more, This time with the pure intention to make sure she feels every single move.
“Hyunju!..Mmh-“
The table shook with every staggering movement, a telling sign that they should have moved places already.
But something about the position merely urged them on.
Hyunju let her hands wander, Gently gripping the underside of youngmis thigh, Even if she still had her skirt up, It wasn’t uncomfortable at all, She lifted her leg with the palm of her hand, kissing into her mouth again as she felt hands grip and dig into her shoulder
Youngmi pulled away, Head resting on hyunjus shoulder as she spoke
“..Just like that.. oh god just like that..”
Hyunju gripped the table, Face burning as she felt youngmi cling to the back of her dress again.
Her words.. god her voice? she felt weird. Hot and heavy as youngmi continued to babble on.
“…S-so good-“
Her legs shook, moaning at the words.
The pressure in her lower abdomen became all too apparent as she practically rutted herself against her.
She needed more, to see more, to hear more.
Youngmi was fully aware of the way she was acting.
A part of her was surprised, She didn’t expect hyunju to be so..
She moved back again, Panting as she tried removing her dress entirely, Struggling as she didn’t want to pull away too much.
Youngmi watched as she slipped it off, Eyes widening as she tried her best to be respectful. Or as respectful you can get in a situation like this..
There was a pause, Youngmi scanned her body.. Eyes flickering to her chest and lower body..
She flushed, She already knew hyunju was attractive but.. Everypart of her… The marks left on her neck, her lower collarbone are small.. slightly visible scratches on her shoulders..
She looked lower, Eyes scanning every expanse of skin. Eyes widening at the visible bulge in her undergarment. Hyunju looked away. She had to admit a part of her was self conscious. She didn’t feel.. done.. yet..
She wouldn't have blamed youngmi for wanting to stop. She wouldn't hold it against her.. She looked back to youngmi, not having enough time to react before she felt hands on her waist, Slowly grazing upwards as she was slowly pulled back in
Making eye contact as youngmi felt her poking at her inner thigh, Smiling playfully but kindly, Kissing her with the same amount of want as the first time.
Hyunju melted into the kiss, Hands repressed into her thighs as youngmi pulled away, eyes still locked as hyunju spoke first
“…are.. you sure that.. this is-“
She was cut off by hands holding her face gently
“..Hyunju”
It was so gentle. Enough to warm her heart, She just looked at her with those eyes, Whispering.
“Hyunju...i want you so bad it hurts…Please..it’s driving me crazy and you look- you’re so pretty.. You’re so beautiful- god please i-“
That was one way to say yes.
And god be damned if it wasn’t the best way..
Hyunjus lopsided smile continued as she began to kiss a trail down the expanse of her neck all the way down to every individual beauty mark, Making sure to watch as youngmi stared at her in adoration.
Stopping at her skirt as she tugged on it slightly, Eyes flickering from soft fabric to kind eyes
She nodded, Still managing to hold onto the table as she watched hyunju slide off her skirt by hand, tantalizingly slow as she took in every single detail. Wanting to burn it into her memory.
A memory of one of the prettiest girls she’s ever seen.
The way hyunju managed to look so put together and yet there was that vulnerability that just made her so.. So human. That Youngmi couldn't help but adore it- to adore her.
They were both nearly equally bare, For the exception of hyunjus bra which was barely hanging by one side of the strap. But it made her look so unbelievably cute..
She spoke in hushed whispers, brushing her hand against hyunju’s bangs. easing her on as hyunju parted her legs.
“You look so pretty, hyunju…”
“what kind of pretty?..”
At this point, she was simply teasing the edge of her undergarment, Her thumb lightly pressed into the skin of her inner thigh as hyunju awaited a response.
In a way, it was almost like they were teasing each other.
Youngmi knew well that at this point, There was no going back, A rush of shy- coy expression slipping as she felt the palm of her hand massage the skin
she felt fingers part the final layer of clothing between them, not even taking the damn thing fully off. Choosing to leave it on.. Hyunju had to admit there was some guilty pleasure to it.
She flushed red, Trying her best to keep her composure as youngmi whined against the graze of her fingers. That feeling coming back up again as she Took in the whole picture of youngmi in front of her.
Youngmis blush went all the way down to her shoulders, In awe of how intimate the situation had gotten so quickly
Hyunju awaited her answer as she beckoned closer, as if those words would be some sort of plea to have her continue
“…Every kind of pretty..”
Her eyes gleamed as hyunju blushed dark red, Youngmi continued.
Her head fell back as hyunju started to eat her out, painstakingly slow. Savoring every swipe of the tongue as she whimpered. Sweet sounds urging her to go on.
“So overwhelming.. the best kind..~ God you’re so- F-uck..”
overwhelm me
The sound of youngmi cursing in such a manner made her ears burn, Holding her legs up, Slowly feeling them wrap around her head as she looked back up.
Youngmi wasted no time putting a hand to hyunjus head, Almost holding it in place- Soflty moving with the motions hyunju was making.
She leaned into the touch, a sign of affirmation that she should hold on tighter. She smiled at the action as she mumbled
“You look so pretty in between my legs.. Feels so good- Don’t stop- please don’t stop~”
“Mmmh~”
Hyunju moaned.
The sound radiating through youngmis ears as she sped up. Truth be told, hyunju wasn’t exactly expierienced, But what she lacked in talent she made up in determination. Making sure no space was left unattended.
A hand coiled around youngmis waist, Gingerly placed against her lower abdomen, Still parting the hem of her underwear but this time, thumb pressed into her clit and youngmi jolted back.
No longer able to keep herself up as she laid on the round table, Back arching as her legs wrapped tighter around hyunjus head.
The pressure from the sudden squeeze made her pull away for a second, Taking the time to breathe as she continued to create circular motions around her clit. Legs shivering as she softly whimpered
“This feel good?..”
Youngmi wordlessly nodded, Not being able to form words is one thing. But she just couldent process most of it. Not with hyunju practically tongue deep inside her, Making her heart race and looking at her like that.
“Ahh~…Mmn-“
But she still needed to say something, She just had too.
Youngmi couldent sit back up even if she tried but she rambled.
“So good~ so- so good.. Doing so well for me~”
Hyunju felt a shiver go down her spine all the way to her core, The warmth and the bunched up feeling of heat made her all the more aware of the growing tightness in her undergarment. Grinding against air as she fucked the woman with her tongue, still rambling on.
“You’re doing so well hyunju- So good~”
there was another press to her clit as hyunju mindlessly moved her head upward, Sucking as the table shook. another guttural moan being heard from the taller woman as youngmi practically shook.
“Mm!!~”
The vibrations from her steadily growing moans made her head spin.
All sense of thinking being completely thrown out the window, Like all the previous times this woman has managed to get to her-
“Hyunju!!~”
She started limply grinding back on her fingers, As much as she could at least. Eyes rolling back as she tried to ground herself.
Head burning as hyunju sucked once more.
Hyunju took it well, Using the hand could around her, placing it on her lower abdomen to keep her still. Youngmi could feel it, The sudden pressure giving her that sensation that made her see stars.
her head fell back, Her whole body felt hot as the coil in her stomach began to inch closer and closer to unravel.
It felt all to quick, too short and so soon but after years of shaming herself for wanting something like this? She was surprised she managed to last long anyways.
Hyunju could feel her jaw begin to give out but she didn’t care. All the noise, the praise- the pressure. It felt perfect, so delicately overwhelming. She couldent get enough of it. She opened her eyes to see youngmis back arched and it was devine.
Picturesque and pure.
She was happy to make her feel this good- She made her feel good daily, She felt so good- it all felt so good and she just wanted more.
“Y-Yes god just like that- just like that- Please please pleasee hyunju!~”
Youngmi felt lightheaded, slurred speech and phrases being all she could muster as hyunju pressed on. If she passed out right now she’d surely never forgive herself.
“I’m so close~ You feel so good- Too good- just perfect!~ You’re perfect!!~”
That sent hyunju over the edge, thank god for the floors not being polished or else this table would have been rocked around the entire room.
She practically pressed her head in between youngmis legs as she rubbed her clit with faster motions and newfound vigor, Sliding her tongue in as deep as she could. Before reaching her palm out to press onto her lower abdomen.
Legs squeezed around her head as plush skin was felt around her.
The coil in youngmis stomach finally coming undone, walls tensing up as she felt her back arch farther, Eyes rolling back as her head throbbed with overwhelming pleasure.
“-O-oh GOD!~ Yes yes!!~ Hyun- Hyunju!~”
Like a prayer, Mustering all she could to form words and practically screaming her name endlessly. Hyunju focused on the noise like it was a devine symphony and drank her like it was the last drink of water she’d ever have.
Hyunju felt her jaw drop slightly as she held her legs down, crossing her own to keep the pressure building in between her legs. Limply gathering every drop of youngmi on her tongue as she made sure she took on ever whimper and moan, Every slurred out phrase and obscenity she rambled on as she came down from her climax.
Everything felt fuzzy. Youngmi could barely feel her legs as she rubbed at her eyes, Somewhere along the line they had managed to start watering, Most likely due to the sheer pressure of… pleasure she just experienced.
She gazed up dazed. Met with the stare of hyunju who was busy wiping her mouth with the palm of her hand, Pulling it away only to lick her upper lip right in front of her.
The absolute.. Fucking attractive audacity..
Face burning as she hadn’t completely snapped out of it yet. Hyunju extended a hand out to the woman laying on the table, Back still arched.
She was apparently slightly drooling as well. A thumb rubbing against her chin as she pulled away, youngmi watched in awe as hyunju took her thumb and playfully licked it.
She looked downwards, Syes flickering between the bites in between her legs, The fact that her legs were laying limply wrapped around hyunjus waist and the feeling of her buldge pressed gingerly against her.
A string of arousal connecting them.
Gathering her breath as her back fell back down.
Grinning back at the women as she blushed.
“do you…”
Youngmi slightly pressed against her core, feeling it twitch slightly as hyunju flickered her gaze to her and her smile.
“do you want some help?..”
She was sprawled out in the table, The position was just so raw.. So unbelievably messy but so..so fucking good.
As if both of them just came to an unspoken agreement that this was the perfect place to be to finally let go of their inhabitions.
The pressure in her lower stomach was proof of that..
Youngmi felt hyunju start to grind against her again, shivering slightly as her clothed tip grazed her overstimulated clit.
It felt incredible.. So undeniably amazing.
The throbbing in her head dying down as youngmi felt her walls tense up only to relax again.
Like her own body was begging for it.
Hyunju could barely speak, The only audible noises being that of whimpers and shuddering moans.
so much she wanted to say and express but barely any sense of thought.
Did it always feel this good to just let go or was it because of youngmi?
She let her bangs fall in front of her face
“..Come here.. Can i see you?..”
Youngmi reached out a hand, Holding hyunju tenderly as eyes met, only to flicker back down to her lips. Wordlessly, they closed the gap once more, This time melting into each other as hyunju held her sides, Youngmi still holding her close but pushing her back.
“lay down for me?..”
And with how softly her words radiated in her ears? How could she resist?
Hyunju listened, Although the floor wasn’t exactly the most comfortable. It was the last thing she was thinking of.
The woman on top of her was too busy making sure she was the only thing on her mind, Youngmi tried her best not to stumble over, Legs still sore but still so eager to get near her.
Laying her hands down to caress the top of hyunjus shoulders. Leaning into the touch as youngmi sat up on top of her. Applying a similar amount of pressure to her lower abdomen.
the cool air making youngmi shiver.
Hyunju did not know where to put her hands, Hoised above her head as youngmi flushed pink.
No words spoken as hyunju scanned her body, Marks and small fading bites scaling her body like a constellation, She couldent help but admire her.
Slowly bringing hands to hold her waist, Placing her thumb lower to caress her softly.
Youngmi could feel herself getting worked up again, She really was needy… But hyunju wasn’t one to talk, effortlessly rocking against air as youngmi felt eyes on her.
And she felt the tip of her clothed bulge graze her back as she shivered in curiosity. Hands now trailing up to hold her chest, Hyunju finally taking the time to lock eyes once more. A small wince escaping as she tried grinding again.
Youngmi watched as ever furrow of the eyebrow and flex of the muscle occurred, Wanting to study every detail of the women under her but her body practically begging to move on.
So why not kill 2 birds with one stone?
Youngmi leaned down, Head nuzzling into the crook of hyunjus neck, Kissing at it a bit before moving upwards, whispering carefully as she felt hands grip her sides.
Turns out she wasn’t the only one becoming impatient..
“How do you want it hyunju?..”
The words alone made her weak, face flushed with curiosity and adoration as hyunju rocked her hips again, Answering with cut up words
“..want..need you-“
“use your words pretty girl?~”
She Groaned, eyebrows furrowed as she watched youngmi move back, eyes meeting once more as she spoke
“be good for me?”
She was lost. Utterly and hopelessly gone.
Hyunju was sure she have came right then and there,but she’d play this out for as long as she could, Anything to keep that voice in her head.
So she nodded, Rambling as she felt youngmi push up against her.
“Please just.. T-talk to me.. say..say more stuff like that to me-“
Fingers pressing into soft skin as youngmi winced in pleasure.
“God..You make me feel so good youngmi.. please?..”
It felt right, almost ironic how the woman atop of her who always seemed so skittish and awkward would have switched the roles like this somehow..
And what was even better was that it worked. It worked so well, hyunju wanted more of it- To feed this desire and grow this newfound curiosity.
Youngmi smiled, Holding and watching me hyunju’s eyes dart to her own straight down to her groin as youngmi slowly brought her hips down. Not entirely joined but that’s what felt so good about it.
So undeniably shameless.
It started with one sway of the hips, a small thrust upward as she felt youngmi start to grind against her
Simply letting her hands rest at her sides as youngmi playfully leaned down for a second to whisper in her ear.
“..Don’t be quiet hyunju.. You sound so cute~ You have a pretty voice.. did you know that?..”
Her eyes shut, Keeping them closed so she wouldn't see her pathetic expression. trying to move a hand to her face but not even making it as far as a finger off, Youngmi sat back up- the weight of it making her moan even louder as the shorter woman held her hands to stay on her waist
“Keep these here.. You’re doing so well..Sound so lovely..”
The dry humping becoming less coordinated and more raw.
Somehow that just made it even better. Uncalculated and unnecessarily hot…
Hyunju started speeding up letting skin clash as she twitched, Eyes opening to see youngmis face flushed, recall the way down to her shoulders as she moaned.
It was a sight. One she wanted to have engraved in her memories, Fuck closing her eyes- she didn’t want to miss a single view. Hands gripping around youngmi as hyunju held her up a bit, confusion setting into youngmis head before she felt her grind upwards, pulling her down onto almost overwhelming stimulation.
“Oh- Fuckk!!~”
Youngmi looked like a mess, a beautiful, Devine, Sultry mess.. Ysing all the strength she could, hyunju leaned upwards, Using a leg to push youngmi closer, Slamming their lips together as she continued to moan.
It was feverish, hungry, Needy- every word she could think i of. Centered around one thought- to make sure they would both be an absolute mess by the time it was over.
And judging by the constant amount of pressure and pleasure hyunju was feeling? it wouldent take long
Youngmi kissed her back harder as she tried to sway her hips to hyunjus Rhythm. Digging her nails into her shoulder as she felt the coil begin to start all the way back up again. Tears nearly pricking her eyes at the friction and hyunjus near overwhelming stamina.
Leaning her head back to kiss at her face, Messy and primal.
A need to love her and ever part of her like it was a necessity. glancing at her as she spoke in a exaggerated maner, Face gleaming red
“You’re Doing such a good job hyunju~ so good for me.. Are you feeling good? tell me..”
It came out in a staggered nod, Youngmi smiled as she whispered
“..tell me~”
Hyunju gasped at the feeling of youngmi pressing down on her, fingers digging into supple skin that youngmi tried not to whimper at
“Good- So so good.. Feel so good you feel-“
“That’s it.. good~.. f-fuck you’re so beautiful hyunju.. So perfect~”
perfect…
Youngmi rewarded her with a deep swing of the hips, Finally swaying at hyunjus pace, Deep and heavy as hyunju felt her head fall back.
Beautiful.. god she thinks i’m beautiful..
Youngmi put her hands over hyunjus, She was sure she’d have imprints on her sides but she didn’t care
“That’s it darling.. you feel so- so good~ Fucking into me so well~ Keep g-going..”
Youngmi was stuttering, Lightheaded.. a telling sign she was close. She just needed to hold out a little more.. Wanted to see hyunju unravel under her.. Wanted to see her face when she was close..
she felt her legs shaking in anticipation, Sweet friction becoming all the more addicting but also tiring. So close and yet her face still burned with want.
Just a bit more to reach the edge.. A bit more..
Hyunju writhed as she stared at her eyes half lidded, Just wanting to hear more.. just a bit more and she could-
“good girl~”
oh. Fuck.
arms practically wrapped around youngmi as she was rutted against effortlessly. Hyunjus face burned, Letting out a downright pornagraphic moan, Setting her own pace as she Felt the coil in her lower abdomen burn.
Youngmi was no different, Hands now strewn in hyunjus hair as she squealed with every grind, Sense overwhelmed with touch, vision and pure emotion- all centered around hyunju.
In some pure act of desperation, Hyunju mindlessly buried her head in the crook of her neck, feeling the warmth that radiated from her body. Youngmi used her hand to bring her face back up, smiling foolishly as her whole body was busy being picked up and nearly shuffled around.
Locking eyes for the millionth time before hyunju rambled
“s-so close so close- god please more- Youngmi p-please~”
So shameless. So undeniably desperate
So unmistakably beautiful. Nothing more beautiful then the most gorgeous woman she’d ever seen be able to feel so good.
If she wanted more she’d give her more, She’d give her the world if she could
“You’re so fu-fucking hot it drives me mad- Such a pretty voice such a beautiful face- O-oh hyunju you feel so good- I love it- oh g-god i love it- So good.. So perfect- y-you’re perfect, perfect girl~”
She groaned, Youngmi examined every expression carefully. how she managed to look so adorable with her furrowed brow, Her blush managing to spread on her skin like watercolors- Hyunju was so fucking pretty- so much- It was perfect- She loved it-
Hyunju grounded herself as she felt herself come near the edge. Youngmis constant praise and the feeling of wet skin pressing against her becoming all she could process.
She blushed hard again, Thoughts circulating in her mind as she moaned embarrassingly loud
She was going to cum just by her words and simply dry humping.
Pent up and practically begging for more of those sweet words..
A sway of the hips, A kiss pressed onto her cheek, another to her collarbone, Another push of the hips as her climax approached. Clinging onto youngmi as she felt every grind much more intense then the last.
Youngmi could feel it all. The way hyunju managed to grind just enough against her.. Clothed tip managing to graze her clit each time. Teasing her like before except this time she relished in the treatment.
“O-oh fuck i’m gonna.. Again~ I’m going to-“
It came out like a hushed whisper, Wanting to make room in her ears for hyunju’s sweet moans
“hyunju- Hyunju please~”
A final uncoordinated kiss pressed into the edge of her collar bone, a sway of the hips deep and slow- And a final lock of the eyes,
She was gone. Hyunju felt her body stagger as she climbed onto youngmi fiercely. Finally coming undone as youngmi continued to grind, Voice going up a full octave and she drank up the noise.
Hyunju practically screamed as she came, Decidening whether to look her in the eyes, bury her head into her neck, to kiss to moan- She wanted to do everything but could only glance over as her head fell forward, eyes rolling back as she felt youngmi wrap her arms around her.
a line of obscenities and a slurry of moans intermingled as she felt enveloped in heat. Probably the outcome of her second orgasm of the night.
A slight spasm rushed through her body before she could feel herself fall back, The angle of their position finally giving out as hyunju fell atop of youngmi, still holding her close as she rested on her neck.
Chest heaving to regain her breath, The dizziness fading away slowly as hyunju pushed herself up. Pinning youngmi to the floor like she had done to her.
Face flushed as she continued to come down from her high, Undergarments becoming a bit uncomfortable but she could care less.
Youngmi bit her lip gazing up at the sight above her. Hyunjus hair strewn and a bit messy, red and panting. Even if she was just coming down from another equally intense orgasm.. A part of her could not help but feel turned on at the sight.
Oh what this women does to her..
Hyunju couldn’t pull her eyes away, too focused on everything that made her look positively beautiful, she failed to notice hands lingering on her sides. Youngmi titled her head and smiled coyly, Still breathing heavy but she whispered as fingers tickled her skin.
“…when you blush.. it goes all the way down to your shoulders..”
She leaned upwards, not closing the gap but simply staying close, Hyunju melted into the touch as she spoke
“Yours goes to your ears you know..”
a small dip in silence
“…really?”
“yes..You.. also have a lot of beauty marks..”
She blushed, Giggling as hyunju pressed a kiss to the bottom of her neck. Domestic and sweet.
“yeah?.. Is.. that why you kissed me there?..”
“I’d feel bad if i didn’t..”
Another giggle, Hyunju laughed along with her as youngmi wrapped her legs around her again. Eyes locking for a second as hyunju closed the gap between them once more. It was softer this time, parting for a second before hyunju reached to place a hand on her cheek, Closing the gap once more.
hyunju let her hands travel her body, Starting at her waist, Where she could fell the indents made by her own nails.. And all the way up to her ribs, just under her chest as she kissed down her neck, coming back up to kiss her again.
Youngmi could have melted right then and there. Lightheadedness being replaced by a wave of warmth, Clinging onto hyunju as she nuzzled into her.
“You’re warm..”
“Because of you..”
“My head feels so dizzy”
“f-for real? was i being to much-“
“No, I loved it”
She giggled, blushing as she continued
“Maybe i loved it a little to much..”
Hyunju smiled, Looking away as she huffed
“You’re cute..That was cute..”
She rested her head against her again, Holding her close as there was silence
…
“Youngmi?..”
The response was instant
“yes hyunju?.”
She could feel youngmis heartbeat, Pressed against her chest, steady and soft. A hand playing with a strand of hyunju’s hair.
“..Would.. This-“
She paused for a second
“-is this- A.. one time thing for you-?”
It came out more jumbled then she’d like, But she still felt a need to ask. After all, it was important to talk about..
There was silence, a small stop in movement as hyunju heard a laugh from under her, glancing up to see youngmi covering her face, red in hue.
“hyunju… We just had sex…”
Her face burned
“I-i know-! I just.. I understand if this was just because- you- i-.. If you don’t actually want to- you know-“
She stuttered, Not being able to form the thoughts she wanted to say-
A hand placed on her cheek
“Hyunju”
“…”
“I didn’t even think you’d see me like this..”
she raised a brow
“Why?”
“Well for one- i didn’t even know if you liked women-“
“Really?-“
“-yes.. Was that dumb?..”
“N-no im just a little surprised because i didn’t think you liked women too-“
There was a pause of silence, Follwed by a small fit of laughter.
“..What went through your head when i kissed you then?..”
she smiled
“what went through yours when i kissed you back?..”
She blushed
“I don’t think i was able to think of anything to be honest-“
They laughed
Hyunju and youngmi continued their banter.
Laying on the floor in each others presence, The occasional brush of the hand that was met with mutual affection.
What time was it?
who knows.
Time be damned, For in this moment- this simple, domestic, Personal moment.. there was peace.
Like the calm after a storm.
After days of traumatic, diminishing experiences, drawn out painful Stillness..
Hours of diminishing and shunning want.
A hopeless cycle of denying one’s need.
It felt funny to admit that it all seemed foolish now.
where isolated thoughts and feelings became the norm, was now replaced with a tender need to express one’s comfort.
Not to be forgotten but only replaced.
Replaced with a newfound need to grow and to be better.
Better for each other, Better for themselves.
Hands locked and heartbeats relaxed.
An unsaid realization that they can have what they’ve yearned for. A stunning sight at a future that can be rebuilt and a past that can heal.
There is Many things already known- already felt.
Sadness, Fear, desperation.
Something so tantalizing yet so beautiful, could transpire and transform. Flowing and healing to one’s life just as easily as it could take over it.
Confidence, Foolishness, Hope.
Accepting these familiar feelings while also learning to let go of them.
Both of them Still had Their ways to go. But They wouldent need to do it alone.
“Hyunju”
“Yes youngmi?”
Hands intertwined
“can i stay here tonight?”
stay
She laughed. Heart full and smiling with a gleam of the eyes.
“Yes, Stay..”
Aloofness, Domestic, fuffilment.
Love
all variations of emotion, all caused by the heart.
As confusing as it may be, we yearn for it.
To feel and to live.
So why not let it be?
It is what the heart wants.