December

Dani:

Maybe I was a little dramatic when I decided to kill myself over a boy, but I wasn't thinking my head was all messed up. But this led to old friends; Lara and Megan, To actually care, I was sent to a mental facility, and it wasn't fun, they barely even helped just made everything worse. prescribed a bunch of drugs and forced me to take them. When I got signed out of the hospital I didn't have anywhere to live. so I asked the poor girl who already had to save me if I could live with her until I got up and running, she thankfully said yes and I officially moved in

She was making food as I packed my four pairs of clothes into her guest room, I left all my clothes in that house, a house now filled with bad memories "You good?" she questions peeking her head into the door "Mhm, just unpacking" I say in a dry voice, I'm not trying to be dry on purpose, everything just sucks right now" I hear a chuckle and she leaves a few minutes she comes back with a stack of pancakes "chin chin" She says, I looked at her confused "Is that not Spanish" She asked me back, clearly confused, I give a half smile my heart not really into it but I wanted to do something to at least show her I'm listening. She shrugs "Anyway I made pancakes, your file- I mean you seem like the type f person to like pancakes, so here" She hands me the plate, with fruits on top, it looked genuinely good, but it reminded me of him, everything does
I hear the kitchen door open "Dani love, I made you pancakes with strawberries on top and light powder sugar, since I know there your favorite" Zach says with his apron on, flipping them on the pan "get a plate" I do so and sit down as he stacks the pancakes on my plate putting syrup between each one, than strawberries on top "Thanks Zach, this means the most to me" He than starts to clean up the kitchen, putting on music as he does the dishes.

We sing and dance than give left over to the neighbors old dog, it's dying anyway might as well die with a full stomach of delicious food. he decided to make making me pancakes an every Wednesday thing.

Always a happy moment until he messes up the pancake, and goes into a fit a rage, he'd break the plates and blame me for them being ruined he had anger issues, and I just have to be the bigger person I reminded myself.<

I feel someone's hand on my shoulder, my eyes widen as I push away the pancakes. Looking up to see the girl who saved me confused but also curious "So no pancakes, got it" She says jokingly and I go upstairs, I need to forget about him, every time I think about him, it ruins me all the good things he's done has an underlined bad tone. I quicky lose the detail everything around me, it all goes black. all I see me and a pill of anti depressants, all I need is one just to calm me that's all. When I go to grab it the blackness goes away and my eyes are caught with the light skinned girls "Where did you just go?" I look at her confused as my hand still grasp the pill bottle that she's now holding on to "Please just give me a pill only one, please it'll help" She looks at me eyes sorry for me, she checks my bags for more pill containers and leaves with them. I lock myself in the guest room. I feel bad It's not even my house but I'm acting like I own the place. I'm acting like him.

Two minutes I hear a knock at the door, knowing it was selfish of me to lock the door I unlock it and she comes in holding a yellow coat "We're going on a walk" I look at her , I couldn't tell if she was mad at me "It's raining" She shrugs and throws the coat at me, seeing that she was probably angry I hurriedly put the yellow rain coat on and red rain boots
We've walked a couple blocks now in the rain "You have problems Dani" she says simply, we've been walking slowly and I try not to stop in my tracks "There valid problems, you were basically abused, but there still problems" She finishes her sentence and we walk in silence again "I know, I'm sorry" I tears in my eyes again "I know you don't know me but I'll try okay, I'm sorry you have to take care of me, I just have no where else to-" I start rambling but she cuts me off, speaking in a gentle tone "I'm not kicking you out, I'm stating a fact and I want to help you but I need you to want to help yourself" I nod and she continues in her gentle voice "you don't deserve to keep reliving these memories that are causing you torment" We walk in silence for a bit "I kind of did a thing and signed you up for therapy behind your back" She says looking guilty, which is weird cause if anyone is guilty of shit it would be me, something about her brings me warmth in my heart "Your first session is at 8pm tonight okay" She says to me carefully and I just nod. She seems satisfied with the answer I gave her so we just continue walking in silent

Rain started to pour down, and we were already a few miles from her house, I say her because it's not mine and I don't want to get attached. Anything I get attached to leaves me anyway. I fill that sense of doom growing inside of me again and my vision just becoming a dark void, I was alone again. I grabbed into the darkness, not knowing what but my vision starts to clear I can see straight again the trees are quite beautiful, I look down to realize I'm holding her had, she must have been the thing that grounded me, probably a one time thing. I must have stopped because I didn't realize she now was looking at me until I looked up from our hands into her eyes. I decided not to move my hand, and she seemed fine with that answer as she didn't move hers either we kept walking until we came to a pier she let go of my hand when we came near fairy lights and a radio playing tonight I may by dogzeye, she reaches her hand out to me "Let's dance" I grab her hand as she spins me around, I felt an emotion that I now understood I haven't Truley felt in awhile, happiness, not pure but still happiness in itself.

Manon:

We danced around for a while, and she smiles not a big one and her eyes are blank, but still, I can tell she's trying. The music changes to a slower tempo and the rain had stopped "Please help me, I want to be better" She mumbled to me in a hug, and right then and there I realize this task might break me, she was truly a broken soul, and that can hurt even an angel's heart.

We walked back to our house, yes, she lives there now so I think of it as our house. on our way back I decided to let her choose if she wanted to hold my hand, when she did it on the way to the pier, I felt weird, but I decided to ignore it, when I looked into her eyes, I could tell she was recovering from something by holding my hand. I just didn't know what, all I know is she was fighting some demons that she shouldn't have to fight by herself.
When we get back to our house, she seems tired and she changes into some pj's I let her barrow, they had ducks on them, and she looked adorable in them. I than feel like a mother as I tuck her in, I go to leave but she grabs my wrist, in not a cliche 'stay with me way' but something much more sad she tells me quietly "I'm scared to be alone, I know you barley know me but please I zone out and the world goes dark and I can't sleep and you... you seem to be an anchor for me, so please.." Her eyes look pained and she's not even looking up at me I get on the other side laying above the covers as she snuggles into my side, in 10 minutes she's peacefully sleeping, this is the calmest she's looked all day.

all the sudden a hologram like vision of the big man "Manon" his big voice booming, I shush him and he talks more quieter "oh my bad, how's the task going" I nod towards the sleeping Daniela "I'd say good" he gives me a gentle look that I've never seen before "She's not yours" he says and realization hits me "you don't get to have her in the end, I told you not to get attached" he says still in his gentle dad voice "I Won't get attached, it's a job" I know I'm lying in the back of my mind and he knows to.

He sends me a two books, how to keep a girl happy, and rules "Till the end of December right" He nods, I know I shouldn't start this argument but I do anyways "They already took my wings" I pat my back and feel the scars "And you deserved it, once you make her happy I'll get you new ones, this is your way out" he says matter of factly "I don't think you understand, you guys pinned me down and sawed off my wings, my back hurts every time I touch it, the scars never fully heal, you say it was punishment but I was framed, and you knew that" I regret making the point because he stats to get mad "You have till the end of December Manon, you can either choose your wings or her. by the end of December somethings going to happen, and if she's not truly happy there's a spot in hell for you" he says, he really is heartless a common misconception is he is all good "Fine whatever" I say and he disappears. I feel Dani stirring right beside me "Am I going crazy or did I hear you talking to someone?", rule one never blow your cover. "Sorry it was a podcast, my air pods unconnected" I lie and she seems to believe it and goes back to sleep, I brush my fingers through her hair, and she hums "This is the calmest I've ever felt" she mumbles.

I set a timer for 7:30, and snuggle into her, I know I shouldn't but it doesn't count as getting attached right? As I snuggle in she grabs my waist and puts her face in the crook of my neck, I fall asleep peacefully, dreaming of sugar plum fairies or some shit.

When I wake up it's because of an annoying beeping "Dani" I whisper, she doesn't respond and that's when I try to remove myself from her she just grips on tighter "Dani wake up" her eyes open and she removes here head from my neck and looks up, I see a faint pink tint cover her cheeks, as she sits up and faces away from me "Hey it's okay" I reassure her "It's just I have to drive you to therapy" she nods and changes into a different pair of my clothes "We'll go shopping tomorrow okay" I say remembering that she barley has any clothes

Dani:

The drive to therapy was silent, and it left me with my faults that was the best sleep I've ever had, what lead me to ask her to stay, was it cringe and she probably felt bad for me... that's the only reason she's even helping me right now, Don't get attached Dani, she could hurt you like he did. We were five minutes away from our destination "I'm nervous" I didn't mean to admit that it just slipped out, she kept driving but looked in her rear view mirror "you'll do just fine, I'll get you ice cream after okay "Moose track please" I ask her and she just smiles.

When we got there she signed me in and left, she felt like my mom, no more intimate than that, she cared for me, and didn't hit me and did stuff for me, she felt like a boyfriend or technically girlfriend, but I know that's not how my story gets to go I don't get a happy ending, and I have to remind myself.

The waiting room felt like the world was closing in on me "Hi I'm Mrs. Clementine and I'm here to help you" I could feel my nerves heighten as I sat down on the couch, my leg started bouncing uncontrollably, made me stress even more when she wrote something down

I know what I was saying was irrational, but I didn't like this new environment "I don't trust you and you won't get anything out of me" She wrote something else down on her notes

"We don't have to get into the deep stuff today I just want to know more about you" she says to me.

She than asks me generic questions, I start to settle in until she starts to slip in deeper questions, I answer them unknowingly until I hear one question loud and clear "Who is Zachary" everything stops and I try to answer "He was thing guy I loved, I think I loved him I don't know" I realize I've started speaking faster, "He loved me, but he also hit me I don't know" she started writing more stuff in her note "I started taking anti-depressants to help but couldn't stop" I continue my breathing started to pick up, she writes more stuff down and it send me into a panic mode "STOP FUCKING WRITING IN YOUR FUCKING NOTEPAD ITS STRESSING ME OUT" I yell, knowing I over stepped a limit, I go to immediately apologize "I'm so sorry Mrs. Clem-" she cuts me off "Dani, I'm here to help you, I have to take notes in the beginning but I'll stop taking them later on" she explains to me, I nod tears still briming my eyes, I did not likes this "He wasn't a bad person" I say trying to clear his name "Dani, your protecting in your heart, but you must listen to your mind, anyone that has brought hurt or pain to your life is not good" I nod calming down a bit more.

She than asks one more question which shifts the mood "Who's manon?" She asks me mentioning the person who made the appointment "Oh she's so awesome, feels like she's a literal angel sometimes," I chuckle.

"She's also the one who stopped me from killing myself... we can unpack that later" I sigh finally coming to terms with this whole therapy thing. I continue "Anyway she's been letting me stay at her apartment, and been taking care of me, I haven't smiled in awhile and she made me smile not really a full one, but still a smile none the less, plus I got the best sleep when I was snuggled into her" She raises her hand to pause me, I pause confused "You two sleep in the same bed?"

My face goes bright "It was a one time thing.. I think, not like that" I put my hands over my face "Dani, how do you feel about Manon" Mrs. clementine asked me "Like she saved me" I answer simply, and with that we ran out of time. What she said got into my head, how did I feel about manon? and how did I want to feel about her. Too many question that my brain could not think of or handle the answer to right now.

I head outside of the building to see manon waiting there, I get into the car and she hand me my moose track ice cream, As we drive to her house I finish my ice cream and she puts on some music, and sweater weather comes on "What the fuck" I go to change the station when she stops my hand "No, I like this song" So I let her listen to it, from what I've seen on TikTok it's apparently the bi-anthem, so I at least have that going for me. when we get back to her house, She gets ready for bed, I didn't want to say anything so I just waited outside the door of her room, once she notices me she looks at me for awhile, until she opens her arms. Seeing my invite I hop into bed with her a snuggle in and fall asleep,

A/n:
Hey guys it's the author here, please vote and leave a comment on what you want to see, this story will have deeper topic than my other ones, I really hope you like it as I have worked hard for this story line. Please let me know if you like it. Vote and comment :)