No One Like You
The morning after the whole ‘kissing Marlene incident’, Sirius was woken up by screams. Really loud ones.
At first, he thought he had had some kind of nightmare, and quickly checked the clock above his bed for the time. 9 AM. But then, another series of screams soon followed the first one, each of them getting louder and louder.
Sirius didn’t even bother changing his pijamas and immediately ran to the corridor and began following the direction of the sounds until he felt himself getting closer.
The commotion was coming from the third floor, right outside someone’s bedroom, but Sirius couldn’t see who’s. But then he looked at the center of the small crowd of servants and selected women that was beginning to form, and he felt his heart stop.
There was a guard holding Alice’s arms behind her back in what seemed to be a really painful way, and two other guards were doing the same to...another guard?
Before Sirius could even do anything or process what was going on, he heard his mother’s voice coming from his right, and turned to see her and his father looking at the scene.
“What on earth is going on here?”
A guard immediately stepped forward and replied, “My queen, we found this officer kissing this woman, Alice Fortescue, inside her chambers about five minutes ago.”
Horror immediately filled everyone’s expressions. When Sirius turned to finally take a look at the man’s face, everything suddenly made sense.
The officer that was being held was Frank Longbottom. Sirius’ mind instantly went back to the conversation he had had with Alice weeks ago.
‘My heart already belongs to someone else.’
‘He was going to enlist. We didn’t know where he would go to.’
He looked at Alice again, and found she was already looking at him, her eyes filled with guilt and shame.
That was it. The man Alice had talked about was Frank Longbottom, who had started working at the palace the day before. For those who don’t believe in fate, some weird coincidence had led him to the exact place that she had gone to.
‘But at what cost?’ Sirius thought.
He had his answer not a second later as his mother’s voice echoed through the hall.
“You both know the punishment for a crime like this,” she stared at Alice and Frank with a look of pure disgust, “Death.”
“NO!” Sirius shouted, horrorstruck, and subconsciously took a step forward to block Walburga’s view of the couple, “Mother, I will not allow this.”
Her head shot up to Sirius so quickly that it almost scared him. Almost.
“What do you mean, ‘no’? Don’t you understand what they just did? They betrayed us, they betrayed YOU!”
“I understand perfectly what they did, mother. But this is my Selection, not yours. I won’t let them be killed.”
Sirius shocked even himself with how firmly he confronted his mother on that, his head raised high so he stood towers above her.
He could see from the corner of his vision that everyone’s eyes were darting between him and the queen, probably stunned by the confrontation.
Walburga stayed quiet for a moment, staring daggers at her son, but eventually she spoke up again.
“Very well. There will be no death sentence,” Sirius let out a relieved sigh, but immediately found out it had been too soon, “The punishment will be whipping.”
“What?! NO!”
“And expulsion from the palace,” she continued cruelly, and Sirius could see the satisfaction in her face.
“Stop it! You can not do this, mother!”
“I can, and I will. You are not king yet. I am the queen, and it will be done as I say.”
Sirius desperately turned to his father. Orion was a very cruel man, but he was a little less cruel than Walburga, which was not a difficult thing to achieve.
But Orion simply shocked his head and ignored Sirius’ pleadings. He looked at the couple being held by the guards and ordered, “Take them to the square.”
The men immediately obeyed and roughly pushed Alice and Frank in the direction of the square. Sirius turned to his father for the last time.
“Father, please—“
“I don’t care if you like this woman, Sirius. She is a traitor, and both of them deserve death. We are being kind enough already.”
And with that, Orion and Walburga turned and followed the guards. Sirius stood there for a moment, failing to process the situation, until a voice called him.
“Sirius. Are you okay?”
It was Regulus. His brother was looking at him with worry and something that looked like compassion.
“Come on,” he continued once Sirius stayed silent for too long, “Let’s go.”
When Sirius and Regulus arrived at the palace’s square, Alice and Frank had already been tied up to a post in the center, and their father was standing next to them.
“Alice Fortescue and Frank Longbottom,” Orion’s voice was strong and powerful, and everyone suddenly went quiet, “You are both being accused of high treason against the royal family, especially your future king, Sirius Black. As a sign of great mercy, you will escape death today. However, you will each be whipped five times on the back, banned from the palace for the rest of your lives and become Eight.”
The people had formed a circle around them, and Sirius’ blood ran cold when he saw two other men approaching the now large crowd, each caring a big whip in their hands.
An officer suddenly went closer to the couple and abruptly ripped Frank’s shirt, exposing his bare back, and did the exact same to Alice’s dress in sequence.
Sirius threw one more desperate look in his parents’ direction, but his mother’s firm command echoed through the open space anyway.
“Let the whipping begin.”
Everyone turned their attentions to the two officers and the long objects that were now high up in the air. Then suddenly, they were lowered in a fast, swift move and the first blows were heard.
“One!”
Alice’s and Frank’s cries reached Sirius’ ears, and he flinched so hard that Regulus immediately grabbed his hand.
“Two!”
The couple’s backs were already raw, but there were still three blows left to come. Sirius could vaguely hear some people applauding the punishment, while others either cried silently or stayed frozen in shock, but his mind couldn’t focus on anything besides the girl kneeling on the dirty ground.
“Three!”
Alice was biting her lip so hard to keep from screaming that blood was almost dripping from her chin.
“Four!”
Sirius couldn’t watch that anymore. A tear fell from his eye and he turned his head to the side just as the whips were raised one more time.
“Five!”
Sirius was shaking madly at that point, and Regulus’ firm hold of his hand was probably the only thing that kept him standing.
He was taken out of his stupor pretty quickly, though, as not even ten seconds after the torture ended, the three men that had been holding Alice and Frank earlier grabbed them again and swiped them to their feet, ignoring their weak protests of pain.
Sirius’ mind worked like crazy, searching for anything that he could do to prevent them for being thrown out, but nothing came.
“Take them out of my palace,” Walburga almost spat the words as she turned to the guards, who immediately obeyed and began dragging Alice and Frank in the direction of the gate.
However, as if by magic, Sirius’ brain suddenly lit up with an extraordinarily crazy idea. All the years of mischievous acts and escapades with James came rushing to his mind like an avalanche, showing him the only way to protect them.
If the plan didn’t work, that would be it. Alice and Frank would definitely be killed, and Sirius would be in an unbelievably amount of trouble.
But he had to try. If they went to the streets like that, they would die anyway. He let go of Regulus’ grasp and didn’t waste a second before running to his mother.
“Wait!”
He saw the guards stop in their tracks at the same time that his mother’s furious eyes landed on him.
“I will not tolerate any more of this behavior, Sirius Black,” she whispered in a murderous tone, “Those two will not be spending another minute here. You should be thankful we didn’t—“
“I was actually going to say that I understand, mother,” Sirius interrupted her scold.
Walburga opened her mouth as if to reprehend him again, but stopped as she realized what he had just said, confusion clear on her face.
Sirius continued talking as if there was nothing out of the ordinary, “I guess I let my feelings influence me before, but you are right. We can not let this kind of betrayal stay unpunished.”
She stared at him for a moment, her eyes analyzing every inch of his face, searching for any traces of a lie there.
But Sirius had become very good at lying to his parents ages ago so, after a minute, she nodded in satisfaction.
“Well, I am glad you used your brain for once.”
He purposefully ignored the insult and showed her a quick bow, in sign of respect, before lifting his head again.
“Can I just ask you for one thing, mother? Let me take them to the gate. I need to do this myself. I can take Officer Potter with me if you feel the need of a guard there.”
From the corner of his vision, he saw James’ eyes widening almost imperceptibly from where he stood only a few meters away. He definitely knew that Sirius was up to something.
Sirius sighed inwardly in relief as she, after pondering it for a while, nodded, “Alright. Take him with you.”
That was how, two minutes later, Sirius and James found themselves walking away from the crowd and towards the gate, Sirius grabbing Alice’s arm and James grabbing Frank’s.
“Sirius,” James called in desperation as soon as they were out of ears reach, “What the hell are you doing?”
“We are going to the secret room,” was his only answer.
“What?! How?!”
“Almost everyone is at the square, so the corridors must be empty. But we need to be fast.”
The second they were out of sight, Sirius stopped walking and turned to the extremely confused couple.
“Sirius, what is going on?” Alice asked him and the fear present in her voice broke his heart.
“I don’t have time to explain now. Do you think you can walk faster?”
“I can, yeah,” Frank nodded before frowning, “But Alice is in too much pain.”
Before the woman could protest, Sirius put one of his arms behind her shoulders and the other one behind her legs, carefully avoiding her injured back, and swiftly lifted her up.
“James,” Sirius turned to his friend before they continued walking, “I need you to go and call Madame Pomfrey right now and take her there.”
Shock consumed James and he stared at Sirius like he had grown another head, “Are you sure? Do you realize how dangerous this is?”
“I do. But that’s their only chance. If these wounds are not treated soon, they will infect, you know that.”
“Okay,” James nodded with determination, “I will meet you there soon.”
And with that, he squeezed Sirius’ shoulder tightly and left, running.
“Come on, we need to hurry,” Sirius told the couple, and they started a faster pace.
Frank was struggling, clearly in a lot of pain, but he managed to keep up with Sirius as the adrenaline consumed all of them.
“Where are we going to?”
“The garden.”
About five minutes later, Sirius caught sight of the familiar rock behind a small bench near the end of the garden. He carefully put Alice down on her feet and pushed the rock aside.
There, covered in fake grass and flowers, was a square. Sirius wasted no time and lifted it up, revealing a small, dark passage, big enough only for a person to pass without much difficulty.
“Wow,” Frank looked between Sirius and and the hole in shock, “Is this a secret passageway?!”
“Yes. Do you both think you can get down?”
Still taken aback by the shock, the couple could only nod, eyes wide. Sirius gestured for Frank to go on first, and the man carefully stepped on the first step of the vertical stair that led downwards.
Next it was Alice. Sirius tried to help her as best as he could, but she was still hissing in pain at every step. Then finally, Sirius got into the hole and closed it.
Total darkness enveloped them, and Sirius groped the walls blindly for a moment before his fingers found the button to turn on the faint light.
When Sirius finally reached the bottom of the stairs, he watched as Frank and Alice looked around the room in awe.
It was not an extremely big room, but it was big enough that about fifteen people could stand there comfortably. In the middle, there was a table with a few chairs, and a small bathroom could be seen in the corner.
Frank quickly shook himself out of his trance and grabbed a chair for Alice, helping her to sit, before sitting down right next to her.
“What is this place?”
“I honestly don’t know,” Sirius answered truthfully, “James and I accidentally found this when I was thirteen. We were planning a stupid prank and I tripped on the rock, fell face down on the floor.”
Sirius let out a small nostalgic laugh as he remembered, before shaking his head.
“Anyway, that was how we discovered it. Based on what we found when we first came in, we think this place was probably used a long time ago, when torturing and exploring the staff wasn’t forbidden by law yet. Then it just stopped being used, but no one ever closed the passage.”
“And have you told anyone?” Frank asked him.
“No. We thought there might come a day where this place would be useful,” Sirius stopped for a second before giving them a sad smile, “I guess we were right.”
Just as he finished talking, a noise was heard from above their heads, and sun light suddenly filled the room for a moment. James and Madame Pomfrey were coming down.
“Oh, dear!” she exclaimed as soon as she saw Alice and Frank. She was holding a bag with what Sirius assumed were stuff to heal the wounds.
“Can you heal them, Poppy?
“Yes, of course. But first, I need to apply this.”
She took two small bottles out of her bag. Morphine.
As Madame Pomfrey settled to work, Sirius pulled a chair to himself and sank down on it, feeling the exhaustion finally envelop him. He put his head in his hands and took a deep calming breath, and a hand rested on his shoulder only a second later. James.
“Are you okay?” his best friend’s voice was charged with concern, and Sirius could only sigh.
“I don’t know.”
James set down next in front of Sirius so he couldn’t escape from his friend’s gaze.
“You did absolutely everything you could, Sirius. Thanks to you, they were not killed, and now you are saving them again. I am proud of you.”
Sirius was shocked to see a few tears in James’s eyes, so he just pulled him for a tight hug.
“Thank you, brother.”
James smiled affectionately at him and stood up, “I have to go, brother, before anyone suspects anything. I will tell your mother you went to your room, yeah? It is understandable that you need some time.”
“Yeah, okay.”
With one last squeeze to Sirius’ shoulder, James turned around and left. Sirius focused on the couple again, and watched them as Pomfrey cleaned and sutured their injuries.
‘Loot at what love caused them,’ the thought crossed Sirius mind and he sighed sadly.
That’s when it suddenly hit him.
If that had been their fate, what would happen to Remus if someone found out about him and Sirius? Would he be able to save Remus, when he had just barely saved Frank and Alice?
Sirius suddenly felt sick at the realization and took a sharp intake of breath. His head was spinning like mad and he felt the panic beginning to rise.
How could he have been so selfish? He had been so caught up on his own feelings for Remus and how happy the other man made him that he had completely ignored the possible consequences.
Remus had been through so much in his life already, Sirius couldn’t let him experience any more pain. Especially that pain Sirius himself knew so well.
Sirius’ conflicted thoughts were interrupted when a small hand rested on his arm, startling him, and he almost fell off the chair. He looked up to find Pomfrey looking sadly at him.
“I did the best that I could,” she informed him in a low voice, “They will still feel a lot of pain once the morphine’s effect pass, but they will be okay.”
Sirius sighed with relief and stood up. Without even thinking about it, he enveloped the woman in a hug. He felt her tensing with surprise for a moment, but she soon relaxed and reciprocated the embrace.
“Thank you, Poppy,” Sirius whispered once they parted.
The woman stayed quiet for a moment, just looking at his eyes, before she lightly squeezed his arms and gave him a sad smile.
“You will be an amazing King one day, Your Highness. Don’t worry, your secret is safe with me.”
And with that, she let go of his arm and turned around, climbed the stairs and disappeared from view. Sirius didn’t even have the time to fully process what she had said when Frank appeared in front of him.
“I have to thank you, Your Highness,” he didn’t bow his head to Sirius, but instead looked at him right in the eye, his expression filled with gratitude, “Thank you, for taking care of her when I couldn’t. And thank you for risking so much to save us. I owe you my life.”
Sirius was left speechless for a few seconds with the intensity of the moment, but he eventually managed to extend a hand to the other man, who immediately took it.
“It was my pleasure.”
As soon as the handshake was over, Alice stepped forward from where she was standing and turner to Frank.
“Frank, can I talk to Sirius for a minute?”
The man immediately nodded and excused himself. Not that there was many space for him to go, but he did his best to stand the furthest away possible in order to give them some privacy.
“Sirius, I am so sorry I did not tell you,” she began before Sirius could even blink, her eyes filling with tears, “It all just happened so fast. It was an absolute shock to me to see him here, and then he started begging me for his forgiveness. Then we talked a lot, cried a lot, and it just happened. I am so sorry I broke your trust.”
At that point, the tears were falling freely and dripping from her face, and Sirius was quick to reassure her.
“Alice, look at me.”
She did as he said, so he kept on talking.
“I understand. I really do. I was never mad at you, I was just crazy worried. You are my friend, and I care about you.”
Her crying grew even worse, but before Sirius could think of how much of a disaster he was with women, she threw her arms around him and held him tight.
They stayed like that for a while, and when Alice finally stepped back, she looked directly into Sirius’ eyes.
“You have the world’s biggest heart. No matter what happens, I will always wish for your happiness.”
However, even as she dug forward again to give him one more hug, Sirius didn’t feel any comfort from her kind words.
~
The whole palace knew about the incident, of course. Even the ones that hadn’t gone to the square and watched the whipping, like Remus and Lily, had already heard all of the details from other people.
Remus had spent the entire day restless and worried sick about how Sirius was doing. He knew that the other man was probably blaming himself for what had happened to the guard and the woman, and Remus wanted nothing more than to go comfort him.
After the clock marked nine-thirty, Remus didn’t wait a second and rushed out of his bedroom, taking large steps in the direction of Sirius’ chambers.
Remus only waited for a few seconds on the long corridor before Sirius opened the door and he quickly stepped inside.
“Hey,” Remus waited for Sirius to close the door behind them and greeted him, extending his arms towards the other man, “How are you doing, Siri? I heard about the—“
However, he abruptly interrupted himself when, just as he was about to envelop Sirius in an embrace, the other man instantly took a step back and put more distance between them.
Remus tried not to let the hurt he felt appear on his features. Suddenly, Sirius took a very audible breath and spoke, looking down at his feet.
“We need to talk.”
“Okay...” Remus trailed off, trying to understand what was going on, his eyebrows crinkled in utter confusion.
“This can’t go on anymore, Remus,” Sirius voice sounded so distraught and full of hurt, but Remus wasn’t following a thing.
“What? What can’t go on anymore, Sirius?”
Sirius finally looked up at him and opened his mouth to speak, eyes filled with a pain so intense that threw Remus out a balance.
“Us.”
That was when Remus felt as if he could colapse right then and there. It was shocking how a single word had been capable of provoking so much damage, of making someone’s heart shatter into a trillion pieces. Sure, seeing Sirius kissing Marlene had been like a stab, but it had been nothing compared to this.
“What? Why? I don’t...” Remus chocked on his words and quickly covered his mouth with his hand to prevent from sobbing.
Sirius looked like he was in even more pain at that, and Remus saw him rise his hands towards him for a fraction of a second before he abruptly turned around, as if to keep himself from reaching to Remus.
“It is too risky. I am so sorry,” was Sirius’ only answer as he stared at the dark sky from the window.
It felt like an eternity had passed as the two boys stayed quiet, both trapped in their own thoughts, until Remus broke the silence.
“Are you sorry for the time we spent together or are you sorry for giving up now?” his voice was shaking and filled with emotion as he stared at the other man’s back.
“Remus—”
“Remember the night we first kissed?” Remus waited until the other man nodded and then continued talking, “You told me that I make you happy, and that we shouldn’t give up on what makes us happy? Do you remember that?”
Sirius suddenly turned around to look at him again, face contorted from suffering.
“Don’t do that, Remus. This is already hard enough.”
“Don’t you think that it is hard for me, as well?” shock filled Sirius as Remus basically shouted at his face, “Why are you giving up now? Did I do something wrong?”
He instantly saw Sirius’ eyes soften, and the guilty that was already there grew even more.
“Of course you didn’t.”
“Then why?”
Sirius huffed and passed his hand through his hair in frustration, “Don’t you realize what happened to Alice and Frank today and what ALMOST happened? Don’t you see it could have been you?!”
“Of course I do,” Remus replied much lower and softer this time, “But you are worth the risk to me, Sirius.”
“Don’t say that,” Sirius shook his head fervently at him and started pacing around the room, “Don’t you dare say that, Remus, because I am not.
“Yes, you are.”
“Why?” now Sirius was the one shouting, and they could only silently thank the walls for being soundproof, otherwise the whole palace would be listening to them right now, “Tell me, Remus, why the hell am I worth risking your safety?”
“Because I bloody love you, damn it, that’s why! I am in love with you!”
Silence stretched through the room as both of them panted heavily and Sirius stared at Remus with impossibly wide eyes.
Remus, on the other hand, just wanted to dig a hole, crawl into it and never come back. Tears prickled in his eyes again as he looked at Sirius’ stunned face.
He was just about to turn around and leave before he started crying hysterically when suddenly Sirius moved towards him and he was pulled in for a long, desperate kiss.
Remus kissed back just as desperately, settling his hands on Sirius’ hips. He felt Sirius’ right hand tugging at his hair while the left one stayed placed firmly on his chest.
They broke apart gasping for breath, and Remus wasn’t surprised at all to see that the both of them were crying.
“Fuck, Remus, I am in love with you too! I love you so fucking much.”
Remus’ eyes widened and he felt his heart beating in an abnormally fast pace, which could not possibly be good for his health.
“Really?”
The other man simply nodded at him, a beautiful smile reaching his face. It hadn’t been more than 24 hours since he had seen it, but damn, Remus had missed that smile.
“Really.”
Remus laughed as he felt relief fill him and he pressed his body even harder against Sirius’, although not diverting his eyes from the other man’s.
“Please, don’t give up on us.”
Sirius’ smile disappeared as quickly as it had come and his bottom lip trembled as he heard Remus’ pleading, and his voice was cracking when he spoke.
“I wouldn’t bear it if something happened to you, Remus.”
And Remus understood him. He really did. He tried to imagine if their roles were reversed and it was Sirius who was in danger. He would also be terrified. He was, in fact, quite scared.
But he wasn’t about to let life pass by and stay still, doing nothing about it. Remus knew it in his heart they both would never be able to forgive themselves if they did that.
“We will be careful, like we have been so far. No one will find out.”
Remus could clearly see the conflict in Sirius’ eyes as he bit firmly on his bottom lip. Finally, after a few moments, the other man licked his lips and traced his fingers on Remus’ face, making him feel goosebumps all over his body.
“I feel like I am being so selfish,” Sirius whispered softly, his head slightly bended back since he was a bit shorter than Remus, “But I can’t seem to resist you.”
“Then be selfish.”
And with that, they closed the distance between them once again. Remus had no ideia which one of them leaned in first, but it didn’t matter.
They kissed like there would be no tomorrow, both putting all of their love and desire into the kiss, and Remus felt like he would explode from the intensity of it all.
Soon they were both exploring each other’s bodies hungrily, hands traveling everywhere. Remus craved for more of Sirius, to see and touch every inch of him.
Suddenly, Remus felt the back of his legs hit something and they both fell on top of Sirius’ bed. Before he could even realize what had happened, they both found themselves in a very similar position from the one in which they were kissing at the clearing, with Remus laying on his back and Sirius straddling his hips. Except this time, they didn’t stop.
As they kissed and their clothed bodies slid against each other, Remus felt himself grow uncomfortably hard, embarrassingly fast. After all, he was an eighteen year old guy with the most gorgeous man on Earth right on top of him.
However, even though every cell in his body screamed otherwise, Remus slowed down for a second and looked up at Sirius, his heart nearly stopping from the sight before him.
Sirius’ hair was an utter mess, falling down his flushed face, and his eyes...Well, Remus didn’t know how someone could look so good.
Forcing his brain to work despite the state he was in, Remus asked Sirius gently, “Are you sure you want to keep going? It’s okay if you don’t, you know that, right?”
But Sirius surprised Remus as he didn’t hesitate the slightest bit and, in a swift move, ground down onto him and brought their erections together.
“Ah!” a loud moan involuntary left Remus’ mouth and he immediately blushed scarlet from embarrassment.
However, Sirius simply smirked down at him and pecked him gently on the lips before leaning in to whisper in his ear, “I don’t want to stop.”
A shiver went from Remus’ ear down to his entire body and he barely managed to answer him.
“Good. Me neither.”
And with that, they resumed from where they had stopped, neither of them holding back anymore. In a bust of confidence, Remus flipped them over, laying on top of Sirius, and made his way down the other man’s collarbone with small kisses, delighted with how he squirmed underneath him.
When Remus’ hands reached the edge of Sirius’ shirt, they stopped for a moment, “Can I?”
The look in Sirius’ eyes said everything, but the black haired man nodded fervently anyway, “Yeah.”
With trembling hands, Remus began undoing the buttons of Sirius’ shirt, his fingertips constantly brushing exposed skin, and he could hear the other’s breath becoming more raged.
The last button was undone, the shirt slipped off of Sirius’ shoulders and...Remus almost died at that moment. He felt his mouth open up ridiculously as he stared, but he couldn’t help it. He was seeing Sirius shirtless for the first time, and he was...
“Fuck, how can you be so gorgeous?”
Remus reached his hand and touched Sirius’ chest and abdomen almost reverently as he heard him give a breathless laugh, “I am sure I am nothing compared to you.”
That was when Remus felt himself stiff, growing completely still. He didn’t consider himself unattractive, he really didn’t. But he wasn’t as lean and graceful as Sirius was, and his scars...well, Sirius already knew they were there, but what if he didn’t like them?
“Remus?” he was startled out of his worries by Sirius’ concerned voice, “What’s wrong?”
“Nothing, nothing,” Remus quickly shook his head to reassure him, “It’s just...”
He hesitated for a moment, but Sirius’ eyes were so warm and caring that he let himself say it.
“My scars. There are...a lot of them.”
“Oh, Rem,” Sirius looked at him with an expression of understanding and lifted his head to kiss him so softly Remus almost melted, “I don’t care about your scars. They are a part of you, and I love you. They won’t make me any less attracted to you.”
Sirius’ words immediately calmed Remus down a little, but he still wasn’t feeling completely secure. Sirius must have sensed that, since he hesitated only for a fraction of a second before speaking again.
“Besides...I have a few scars of my own, as well.”
Remus frowned, and was about to think he had misheard him when Sirius turned around and...
He gasped sharply as he looked. Five faint lines crossed almost the entire space of Sirius’ back. The scars didn’t look new, probably from a few years ago.
“Sirius...,” Remus’ voice wasn’t louder than a shocked whisper, and he cautiously extend his hand and brushed his fingertips against one of the scars, “Who did this to you?”
“My father,” he answered him as he turned back around and faced Remus again, “I was fourteen at the time. We had a major fight and I told him...I told him I didn’t want to be like him, so he did this. Thankfully, he never did it again.”
Remus swallowed as he looked at the man’s face. He knew Sirius’ parents were dreadful, but he had never thought they would...
“Are those from..?”
“Yes.”
Now everything made even more sense than before. How desperate Sirius had gone after witnessing the whipping and thinking about that happening to Remus, or worse. He had gone through that himself.
“Fuck, I...” Remus felt his fists involuntarily clenching from fury and, as his hands were on Sirius, the other man immediately noticed, “I will kill him.”
“It’s okay, love, calm down.”
“It’s not okay,” Remus interrupted him and ignored the palpitations his heart did when Sirius called him love, “He hurt you, I—“
“It is okay now. I am okay now.”
Remus was about to protest again, but Sirius was faster and beat him to it.
“I have never showed them to anyone before, not even Regulus or James,” he ignored Remus’ wide eyes and continued, “But I trust you to see them. I know it is nowhere near the same, and you don’t have to show yours to me if you are not ready, I would never want to pressure you, but I just want you to know that you can.”
They stared at each other’s eyes for who knew how long, and Remus realized he had never felt so safe. He trusted Sirius with all of his heart and didn’t want to hide from him.
In a swift move, he gripped the end of his shirt and took it off, discarding it on the floor next to where Sirius’ was.
Remus closed his eyes and waited for Sirius to say something, but he didn’t. He opened his eyes slowly, definitely expecting a bad reaction after the silence, but that was not what he found at all.
Sirius’ eyes were filled with lust as they roamed over Remus’ entire chest, making Remus have to hold in a small gasp. But not only lust. There was also love.
“You are the most gorgeous man I have ever seen, Remus Lupin.”
That did it for Remus, and he couldn’t hold it anymore. He bent down and kissed Sirius again at the same time as he brought their bodies almost impossibly close.
He began to scan his hand down Sirius’ body until it found the front of his pants.
A surprised sound came out of Sirius’ mouth and Remus saw his eyes widen comically. Smirking to himself and encouraged by Sirius’ reaction, Remus quickly undid the other’s zipper and, after receiving a small nod from him, slipped his trousers and underwear off in one movement.
Remus felt his mouth water at the sight. Sirius’ hard dick was right in front of him, already a bit wet at the tip, and he felt his own twitch in his trousers. Then, before he lost his courage, Remus swiftly wrapped his hand around Sirius’ cock, giving it a experimental stroke.
“Fuck, Re!”
Remus’ eyes immediately shot up as he kept on going. He didn’t want to miss the way Sirius’ eyes squeezed shut and his mouth widened open from pleasure.
However, not even a minute later, Sirius suddenly opened his eyes, “Re, wait, let me...”
He was about to ask him if he had done something wrong when Sirius reached his own hand and...
“Oh, God!”
Sirius had pressed his hand against Remus’ bulge and then proceeded to remove his pants. The sound Remus made as Sirius’ hand wrapped around his cock would embarrass him to death if he was capable of thinking straight at that moment, but he wasn’t.
“Fuck, Sirius, I...” Remus gasped at the feeling of Sirius’ hand around him. He had never been so turned on in his life.
“I know,” Sirius answered him between sweet moans and gasps, “God, Remus, I need...”
However, Sirius didn’t finish his sentence, instead he grabbed Remus’ naked ass with both hands and pulled him down so their cocks slid together, causing delicious friction and making both of them moan extremely loudly.
They continued stroking each other like that as they stumbled closer and closer to the edge, their moans and whispered ‘I love you’s the only things to be heard in the room.
Soon enough, Remus felt the burning sensation in the pit of his stomach that announced him he was close, so he thrusted even more desperately in Sirius’ hand.
“Ah, fuck, Remus, I am so close,” Sirius announced him seconds later, panting heavily, and Remus could only nod and tell him he was too.
It wasn’t long until they both came hard, almost simultaneously, Sirius throwing his head back into the pillow, mouth opened in a silent scream, while Remus pressed his face against the crook of Sirius’ neck to muffle his groans.
Once Remus’ vision cleared and he felt like he could breath again, he carefully moved from atop Sirius to his side and enveloped the other man in his arms.
“God, that was...”
“Incredible,” Sirius completed for him, with a glowing smile on his face.
“Yeah,” Remus nodded and laughed, feeling light like a plume, “It was incredible.”
They didn’t even care about the mess they had made and stayed there like that for a few minutes, just looking at each other and smiling like the idiots in love that they were until Sirius’ eyes suddenly widened.
“I almost forgot to tell you!”
Then he told Remus all about the secret place he and James had found years ago and how he had taken Alice and Frank there. Remus was looking at him with adoration in his amber eyes as Sirius told him everything.
“There is no one like you, Sirius Black.”
And as Sirius smiled brightly at him and said ‘I love you’ once again, Remus promised himself that he would never give up on that man.
At that moment, Remus didn’t even think about how they were living an impossible love story. He just wanted to enjoy the time with the man he loved, and keep it in his memory forever.
After all, who knew how much longer they would have?