Going to be alone
~~Y/N's POV~~ Huge time skip because I like the suspense~~
It has been months since I and Severus fell deeply in love with each other and each day I fell more and more in love with him, when I get up every morning and hear his grumpy voice, it's like a light in my soul, we complement each other in the most mysterious way possible. I even became interested in searching about soulmates and if they were like people told me when I was younger, the way people used to say that you would gain a dependency on them and how much you would care for them, the way your stomach would become a butterfly field with just a cute little small smile crept on their lips.
I knew that Severus had been in love before so for him this feeling wasn't quite new, but for me... For me, this felt like when you go on a rollercoaster for the first time, the feeling of adrenaline and euphoria and happiness, I never expected that person to be my own potions professor but for one side I am glad is him.
The love we shared in the last few months was magnificent and even knowing that the probabilities of war were coming more and more true each day and even with all the sadness and suffering around us, nothing made us let go of each other's hands at the end of the day, night, meeting, meal, we were there for each other's souls and hearts. One day during the pick of spring we decided to go pick some flowers from the house we were at, they were only temporary as we were on a run from the Ministry, I had a pretty flower dress on and he had a white shirt and some black pants, it was going wonderfully until he stepped on a small swarm of bees, he just looked at me and yell run, we run and laughed trying to get away from the bees, he got some stings in the end and trauma to bees, it was one of my favorite memories together.
Him trying to explain to me the most complex of complex potions and trying to make more, us training new defense spells, us reading on cold nights with just some firewood and each other to keep warm.
But we also had our fights, when I left something messy being or when he didn't talk to me for full days, but we learned each other goods and bad and learned how to love each one of those.
Right now I don't know where I am, I feel empty, I can only see black and it feels like a void.
~~Severus POV~~
I had her, and just like that I lost her and everything I had gone with her, my happiness and the best moments of my life were now memories and just a smear thought.
The Wizarding World is finally at peace, the Dark Lord is gone forever, I am not his servant anymore, just like dust he went. Hogwarts was destroyed due to the battle and was once a happy and colorful place that is now ruined and black.
Everyone around me, either is happy and cheering we won or depressed and having the worst pain of their lives.
And well I am the second, the body of the love of my soul is now resting in my arms, she sacrificed herself for me, and everyone else. I want to believe she is at the place she wants, the perfect garden filled with sunflowers that turn to her instead of the sun, filled with the brightest red roses and the prettiest carnations. I want her at the peace she deserves and in herself.
“I love you, Y/N.“ Tears, I am crying. I never thought I would be able to cry after Lily's death but I am crying again, and once again due to loss. I pushed her eyelids down with my fingers and at that moment the sky opened a bit, enough for a single ray of sunshine to hit her face.
{A/N- hey everyone, yes this is the first part of the last part of this story, I am sorry for taking so long but the online school has been crashing me and my mental health.
BE SAFE AND TPWK. All of the Love. }