Left to rot
~~Sometime skip and Snape's POV~~
Why do I even bother to care for these students? All they do is make a huge mess in the classroom, I wish I had more students like Y/N, she never makes a mess, she is so perfectionist on everything she makes and she makes sure to not make a single mistake, I felt like she was trying to impress me but she was so amazing in everything, I saw my first love in her, Lily, ever since I met this girl I have thought less and less about Lily, this sweet girl is making me forget her. I can't be thinking this about one of my students, this is very wrong but it's like she has a pull on me, and it's pushing me to her like a magnet. But I can handle it, I just need to think clearly.
~~Time skip to dinner, still Snape's POV~~
I hate this woman with my whole body, she just never stops talking, and she always sits down next to me and talks about muggles and how muggles do stuff and how muggles do this and that, I just hate her voice at this point but I keep my composer.
I notice Y/N, is getting skinnier at a somewhat faster pace and she is not eating, today I just saw her eat an apple for breakfast and eat some rice for lunch I am starting to get worried.
She left the Great Hall, she barely touched the food, I noticed she had been very sad and pale the last few weeks but she was always like that but she is starting to concern me, I need to speak to Dumbledore about this.
I got up and left the annoying teacher talking to flies and went up to Dumbledore giving a side look, he understood and got up from his gloden trone and went to a room that is at the left side of the table.
"Is everything alright, Severus?" he asks with a wise voice like the wise person he is, this man has my entire respect and trust, he is the only person that knows that I am a double agent in this school, so I know I can't talk with him about Y/N.
"I am concerned about Y/N, sir. She is very depressed, she isn't eating much."
"Severus, I have noticed you quite fancy this girl, she has a person with a very bad past, and she is rounded by dark magic, she is really strong and she knows more about dark magic than you and me together. She is wise and powerful, Severus." I couldn't say anything, this man knows so much, probably just looking at me, but what did he meant withdark magic?
"Sir, what do you mean by dark magic? More powerful? " I was so confused by his words I just needed answers right away.
"Severus, this girl isn't as pure and innocent as you may or may not think, that girl has plenty of secrets and dark things in her life she can't change."
With that he left, my mind with questions, what does he mean by dark things? Secrets? Is she in pain?
~~ Your POV~~
As soon as I saw Professor Snape looking at me, while I was leaving I heard Pansy say really mean things about me to her stupid friends and I read her mind, that girl is such a coward and just so loud, her mind is full of Draco and Draco and gossip, I hate her even more.
I just left the Great hall not looking behind me and I just looked in front of me for a slip of a second and noticed Miss pink as... Oh sorry, Professor Umbridge, with a stupid smile in her I wanted to rubber out of her face so much but I just asked with a fake smile "Is everything ok Professor Umbridge?" she left a small weird giggle and said, "Miss Moon, what are you doing outside of the Great Hall at this time?" I hate people getting into business and already had a way too much on my plate today, "Professor, I don't think it concerns you." I noticed she kinda looked a little taken aback by what I said and just answered calmly "Miss Moon, how dare you speak to me like that?" I was not afraid of her whatsoever she was pissing me off, "Professor, I talk as I want and I just want to go to my dorm without someone getting in my business." She took my hand abruptly and took me to her office, now she was truly pissing me off.
The moment I walked in I wanted to throw up, the amount of pink is abnormally awfully. She finally let my hand go and pushed me down to a chair and a desk, "Y/N, you are going to write sentences as a punishment for the behavior had." Oh the amount of irony this woman has, I wanted to show her a true punishment with some spells me and the Dark Lord but I calmed myself down and asked "What do you want me to write?" she giggled again and said, "I should not be rude to professors." Oh please, I wasn't rude. I took the quill she gave me into my hand and wrote the fastest I could.
I felt a sharp pain in my hand and saw the letters I just wrote appear on my hand and I looked her straight into her eyes and she just walked closer and said "Dismissed." with a fake smile on her face, I promise my dead parents that when I get the change this woman will be very sorry and very much.
I am so tired of these people, this school, I am so tired I just want peace and not having to worry if someone even cares for me, because that's what I am, alone.
I ran to the Astronomy Tower and sat down on the balcony and I just left everything out of me. I was so tired that I didn't even notice a black figure following my every step.
I was alone, no parents, no friends, just stress, all the Death Eaters hate my guts, I only had the Dark Lord as a somewhat mentor figure because besides that no one, I just got punished for being honest to a teacher and let me tell you this thing stings.
(possible trigger warning - self-harm and depression)
"Y/N, are you ok?" I know this voice, Professor Snape, I wipe my tears away immediately and say with a fake smile "Yes, Professor, why do you ask?" he gets somewhat mad I guess, " Don't lie to me, Y/N." I was now surprised by his words, "What do you mean sir?" He didn't change his expression and just leaned down to me and put his hand to my cheek and said "I know that you haven't been eating or taking care of yourself, I know that these small cuts on your thighs aren't from your owl, I also know that you hide great secrets and I need you to trust me." he said while lifting my skirt up just a little bit and traced with his fingers the scars that I made to myself not too long ago, my voice was now gone and I just didn't do anything besides staring at his fingers and you just felt that he was looking into every detail of your face, "I care about you, Y/N please tell me everything." you started to cry again and much more, "I am alone, I was left to rot in this world by myself and have no one, lost all my friends because of rumors and guess what? They are right, I am just a Death Eater that kills people because some old man tells her to do so. I get O's at everything but no one to make me proud, I don't have the energy to even eat or to care." I just buried my face in my hands and cried my heart out until I felt a soft embrace hug me and the next thing I was warm and sitting on the floor, on his chest still crying when I stopped crying after some minutes he said "Y/N, can you please show me your mark." I was a bit shocked by his question but I left his embrace and while sitting between his legs against the wall, I pulled my sleeve up and showed my dark mark, and all my others marks and looked at my arm and them me with a look of caring in his eyes, he rolled up his sleeve to reveal his own mark, "Y/N, why do you so many?" he asked, I lifted my head to meet eye to eye "I am his right hand, from the moment I turned one of his, he has been training me and teaching me every weekend and on holidays, we made a few spells together, every dark spell I know he taught me, and practiced, some of the spells aren't known to the Wizarding world." he looked like he was lost but he said, "Why did you get into this world Y/N?" I don't even know why I should be trusting him right now but it just feels like I should, "I was alone, I wanted to feel true power, I don't regret it I just wish I didn't go so young. I know when you are trying to read my mind when we are in class, the Great Hall, the hallways, I know."
[A/N: this is getting there and sorry for the dark vibe of the story.
Word count : 1615 words.
Hope yall are ok, <3]