This is Forbidden
As a Jedi Knight, attraction and attachment are forbidden in the context of the Jedi Code. Everyone knew that.
But there were some Jedi's who didn't follow the code.
Anakin Skywalker was one of them.
Everyone knew that he and senator Amidala were together. They tried to keep it a secret, but after Anakin's master fled to the dark side, he didn't care what people thought.
Once news got out that Obi-Wan left the Jedi Order for the dark side, all hell broke loose. Quite literally.
Obi-Wan was a member of the Jedi Council and had information about the Republic that if it was in the wrong hands, we could lose the war that we have been so hard on fighting.
Anakin was a complete mess. I fought by his side when Obi-Wan left our troop. Anakin and I didn't think anything about him leaving. We were camping for the night, waiting till morning to move out. Obi-Wan tended to stray away from the group to clear his head and think.
It was until Anakin's commlink went off and Master Windu told us the news.
Anakin was furious. He was reckless. Captain Rex and I tried to calm him down. We tried and we couldn't.
I, myself was heartbroken. I felt betrayed.
Anakin told me many times that Obi-Wan was like a brother to him. I felt like he was more than that.
When the Jedi Council would meet to discuss missions, I would catch Obi-Wan looking at me. His stare was intense and I would feel my cheeks redden with his gaze on me. I could tell there was something growing between us.
On one mission, he joined Anakin and me at the last minute. Our mission was to infiltrate a slavery ring and take it down. As a woman, I had the part of the slave. Anakin was going to play as my master, by once Obi-Wan joined us, he took that role.
I got caught when one of the slaveowners started abusing a little girl, no more than the age of 10. I choked him with the force and everything went to shit.
Anakin and Obi-Wan had to come and save me. Anakin killed everyone in our way as Obi-Wan carried me away.
Back on the ship after that mission, Obi-Wan stayed with me. I could tell by the look in his eye that he cared for me, deeply.
Anakin noticed Obi Wan's behavior before he left. He said that after the death of Satine, Obi-Wan felt hopeless. Until I came into their lives.
Now, I am the one who feels hopeless. I felt so alone.
I heard a knock on my door.
"Come in." I looked over at my door to see Anakin walk in.
"How are you doing?" He came and sat down in front of me. I shrugged my shoulders as I fiddled with my fingers. It was an anxious tick of mine. His hands fell over mine, causing me to stop.
"They found him." I snapped my eyes up to his.
"What? Where?"I stood up and attached my lightsaber to my belt. Anakin followed me.
"He is here on Coruscant, down in the lower levels." He walked beside me. I looked over and saw his face. He was determined.
"Then what are we waiting for."
.
The search for Obi-Wan wasn't easy. Anakin and I tried to feel out for his force signature and came up empty.
Anakin and I eventually split up, covering more ground.
I kept looking over my shoulder, feeling the hair stand on my neck from someone looking at me. I kept my pace slow and kept my gaze low and swept the street and people around me. My fingertips inches away from my saber.
I turned into a deserted alley and waited. I could feel something, but I couldn’t be so sure.
I heard someone behind me. I didn’t dare move.
“L/N.” It was him.
I turned and faced him. Shocked at his appearance.
He was dressed in all-black robes, stopping mid-thigh. He had black boots. His figure looked elegant. Black was his color after all.
My eyes made way to his face. I took a shaky breath when my eyes met with yellow eyes. They were a pale yellow, rimmed with red. They looked frightening and inviting.
I missed his beautiful blue eyes.
His hair and facial hair were the same since he left. He still looked like Obi-Wan.
“Why?” I could see his yellow eyes search my face. I could feel tears well in my eyes. He stepped towards me. I stood my ground. His steps were measured carefully.
“I couldn’t be who I wanted to be, Y/N. I couldn’t do the things I wanted to do.” He turned his hands so I could see his palms, meaning no harm. He paused once my commlink went off.
“Y/N, come in.” It was Anakin. Obi-Wan nodded for me to answer. My eyes still on him as I answered.
“Anakin. Did you find anything?”
“No. Anything on your end?” Obi-Wan looked at me, hesitant for my answer. I paused.
“No, but I am going to keep looking.” Obi-Wan exhaled.
“Okay. I’ll check back in later.” And the commlink went dead. My eyes still on him.
"Thank you." His eyes looked sincere. I shook my head.
"The only reason why I didn't tell Anakin I found you, is because I want answers." I took a step closer. I heard him sigh.
"What do you want to know." I crossed my arms over my chest. I saw for a split second his eyes flit to my chest and back up to my eyes.
"Why did you leave?" He paused.
"I felt controlled, trapped even. I felt like I couldn't be who I wanted to be." His eyes roamed my face, searching for my reaction.
"And you just left. Without telling anyone. Why didn't you say anything to Anakin, or me?" I stepped closer. Close enough to hear him breathe.
"I couldn't. And believe me, I wanted to so bad." His head bowing. I could tell in his voice he was telling the truth.
"You said that you couldn't be who you wanted to be. What did you mean by that?" His yellow eyes met mine again. Intensely.
"I couldn't be with you." My jaw dropped at what he said.
"What?" Obi-Wan stood closer.
"I have feelings for you, and living the Jedi Code, I couldn't do anything." His voice was soft. The look in his eye told me that this was also true.
"Why didn't you tell me?" He sighed again.
"Because you probably thought of me as a brother, or saw me as a father figure. And after Satine died, I couldn't and wouldn't put myself through trying to live by the Code and having feelings for someone who saw me differently." He sighed in defeat and looked down at the ground. I paused, thinking over my next words.
"All you had to was ask, Obi-Wan. I never saw you as a brother or father figure. The only person I see as a brother is Anakin." His head snapped up at my words. He stood closer, feeling his hot breath brush my cheeks.
"That's not really what I'm trying to say, Y/N." My eyebrows furrowed together.
"Then what are you trying to say, Obi-Wan. I want answers." I could feel myself get frustrated.
“I want you.” He blurted out loud. I have never seen or heard Obi-Wan blurt something out.
“I want you, so bad. And with the Jedi Code, I couldn’t have you, at all. The Jedi swore to protect life and keep the peace and to never have attachments to anyone.” He reached out and unfurled my arms so he could hold my hands. They were warm and gloved.
“But it’s forbidden to the Jedi Code to have attachments and when I would look at you, I wished I could have made you mine.” He gripped my hands as he stepped closer to me, his chest brushing against mine. I could feel something inside me yearn for more of his words and touch. My breaths started to get heavy. I swallowed before I spoke.
“What would you do if I was yours?” My eyes looked up into his yellow eyes. His eyes widened with my question. He paused before he said anything.
"Things that are forbidden." I looked down at our hands. His were quite larger than mine. I could feel my cheeks heat up when one of his hands moved from mine to my cheek.
"You need to be more specific, Obi-Wan." I looked up at him. His thumb grazes my bottom lip, his eyes watching his movement.
"When I realized I wanted you was when I saved you from that slaver. I wanted to slaughter him for touching you. When we got back to the ship, I wanted to rip your clothes off and fuck you into the mattress." He was confident when he spoke such language to me. I could feel something inside flutter from it. Obi-Wan noticed.
"You like the thought of that, don't you?" His hand lowered to my jaw and tipped my head back so my eyes met with his. His familiar smirk was painted on his lips.
"Say it." His eyes moved to my lips when my tongue darted out to wet them. I could feel warmth pool below my stomach from his words and gaze.
"Yes." Obi-Wan exhaled as he leaned in and brushed his lips against mine. His lips were just as soft as they looked. His facial hair was soft as it tickled my upper lip and chin. His hand dropped mine and used both hands to grip my head.
His lips sucked and pressed against mine until they felt numb. His must've been the same because his lips left mine and trailed down my jaw and my neck, above where my Jedi robes would allow him to roam. I could feel the sensations of his lips on my skin travel down to my core.
He got frustrated since his hands were ripping my utility belt off me and opening my robes enough. My hands stopped him, my breathing heavy.
"This is forbidden," I looked into his eyes. "And you know that." He stood up straight and looked down at me, with a look in his eye that I have only seen a handful of times.
Something about it made me what him to kiss and touch me again.
"I don't care about the Jedi Code, clearly, and I am going to show you why." His hand came up to my jaw again, tilting my head up once more.
He spun me around and moved over to the closest wall in the alley. His chest against my back as his hands started to roam over my sides and hips.
"I have thought about this moment for a long time, darling." His hands finally got my Jedi robes open and touched the skin of my stomach. The both of us moaned at the feeling. His hands started moving down towards my pussy. I stilled at the sensations that he was causing my body to feel. Obi-Wan must've felt my body still.
"Will you trust me?" His lips brushed the shell of my ear. I nodded. I heard him huff behind me and turn me around so I was facing him.
"That won't do. Say it loud for me." His eyes were on mine.
"Yes, I trust you." His smirk was on his lips again.
"Good." His hips met with my neck as his hands roamed my waist and hips. He also placed one of his legs in between mine. I moved closer to him, causing my clit to rub against his thigh. I moaned aloud at the feeling.
Obi Wan's lips left my skin as he looked at my face, his hands on my hips steading them.
"You liked that. Do it again for me." His hands moved my hips back and forth on this thigh. His eyes watching my face contort in pleasure.
"Look at you. A Jedi who is now learning the pleasures of the dark side," He paused waiting to see if I would stop at his words. When I gave no response but my moaning, he continued. "Soon to be mu slut."
My insides clenched at nothing as I could feel something wet between my thighs. My heart also fluttered to Obi Wan's words.
"You would like that, to be my little slut." I nodded. I could hear Obi Wan's chest rumble with his laugh.
"Of course you would." His hands ripped my pants off without warning, taking my underwear along with them. The air in the alley felt cold and welcoming. I hear his breath catch in his throat.
"I should have fucked you when I was back at the Temple, now knowing you look like this." Two of his gloved fingers stroked up my slit, catching the slick that escaped me. He brought them up to his lips and licked them clean, my eyes widening at his actions.
"You taste so good, darling. Want a taste?" I nodded, and being bold, I grabbed his face and kissed him, plunging my tongue into his mouth tasting myself. He moaned at the feeling of my tongue against his. His hand moving back down to my cunt, rubbing circles on my clit.
I wrapped my arms around his neck as his hands were on my cunt and hips. I gasped when I felt two fingers enter my core. Obi-Wan shushed me and looked back over at the street, the two of us exposed. I couldn't give a care in the world except focus on his fingers moving in and out of me.
"What a filthy little slut. Not caring if someone sees you getting fucked against the wall." I moaned and tilted my head back against the hard wall behind me. My head started getting lightheaded at his fingers continuing their mission to bring me pleasure.
"Obi-Wan," I moaned as his lips met with my exposed neck. I heard him hum beneath me.
"Fuck me, please-e," I moaned out as he bit down on my sensitive flesh. His hands left my core and I moaned in disappointment but gasped in pleasure when I felt the tip of his cock brushing against my clit catching my juices.
"Anything for you." He thrust in. Both of us gasped at the feeling of the other. He stayed still until I was adjusted to his thick length. I rolled my hips against him, telling him it was ok for him to continue.
And Obi-Wan was relentless.
After all these years of wanting to finally fuck you just by the way you looked, spoke, and held yourself, it felt surreal that he was finally getting a taste of you.
Once he realized that he may never be able to show you this kind of pleasure, he didn't know what to do with himself. He did indulge himself with Satine once, and that was enough to get him hooked. But instead of going to her for his urges, he looked elsewhere.
And that led him to you.
Just the way that you were moaning when he kissed you, let alone touch you. He needed you, tonight.
And he can't believe you are letting him.
The sensation of his cock moving in and out of your body felt like heaven, better than relaxing in the large baths at the Temple. You didn't want it to stop. You could tell Obi-Wan was feeling the same thing.
"Obi Wan-n," I moaned as the head of his cock thrust and hit deep inside you.
"Mmm. You're taking my cock so well, you dirty slut." He could tell you liked the way he was talking to you by the way your walls would flutter and clench around his cock. He could also feel that you were getting close to cumming.
"You are gonna cum, aren't you?" I nodded at Obi Wan's words moaning at the feeling of his cock moving faster.
Obi-Wan continued to thrust faster once he felt your walls clenching tighter and tighter. He could also tell with how loud your moans were getting, you were almost there.
"Cum for me, slut." And you came. All over his cock and started milking for his. You could feel yourself tense up as you were cunning.
The force around Obi-Wan and you buzzed with energy, making both your releases more intense. Both partaking in what felt like it should be forbidden.
Obi-Wan was the first one to recover from his high as he watched as your orgasm made your skin glow like an entity. He kissed you neck and skin, coaxing you back down to the ground. His lips eventually made their way to yours.
You pulled away from the kiss, leaning your forehead against his.
“Now I understand why this is forbidden.”