Personal Update
Hey all, long time no see. It’s been a while since I updated this and I feel bad leaving it for so long. The reasons for this are:
1) I ran out of time to work on it and when I had time I was doing other things. I just lost my job but was previously working 40+ hours a week and running errands on weekends. I was physically and mentally exhausted.
2) What is motivation anymore? Seriously, I’d sit down to work on this and end up reading on my phone instead until I had to go to sleep.
3) I’m kinda stuck on how to proceed. Some people have pointed out that I’ve fallen into the “woah is me,” “problematic main character,” trope and I agree. But I also don’t know how to fix it 😂. I have no idea how to finish writing this. Like I know where I’m going with the story and I have everything planned out (like really planned out. Talking my Tism and Hyper-focused obsessiveness made me create a whole ass family tree with personalities and houses and a bunch of other shit for this gen and the next two gens and going back like 4. I seriously have a tree website with 3,000 people on it all for this story. It’s nuts. I have no intention of going into past generations in this and I won’t be expanding past their kids but the fact that my brain could pull that shit and can’t write the next chapter is scary and fucking annoying at the same time). Where I was going with that tangent is I have the big picture, but it’s the individual chapters that are messing me up.
So, having said that, I am obviously in a bit of a slump. I haven’t written anything in what feels like ages and I need to do something a little smaller scaled to get back into things. I will eventually finish this WIP - I have no idea when but I will do it or be damned 😠 ✊🏻👊🏻. I am taking requests right now on my Tumblr for one shots. I’m really hoping I get some responses for this because my head is empty right now and I need someone to tell me what to write 😂. Thanks all! Love you and hope life is treating you well. 💛 💜