5th of June, 2022 (Cloudy)
Dear Diary,
I met a real-life goddess today. What’s her name again? I don’t really remember but she has the same surname as me, Kim! I hope she’s not my distant relatives or whatever (jokes).
Signing off,
Naky
13th of June, 2022 (Cloudy)
Dear Diary,
PRAISE THE LORD. Why you might ask, well, it’s because…(drumrolls) I GOT PAIRED UP WITH THE GODDESS FOR A PAIR WORK! Okay okay, no more calling her goddess (even thought she’s one) cause I finally get to know her name!! :)
Her name is Kim Yooyeon, a little funny, I wonder if she is as flexible as her name…jokes! She’s one year older than me, there goes another checkbox ticked, older, beautiful…okay Nakyoung stop! We made several eye contacts, but I couldn’t hold it without blushing tomato red every time.
I have to go now…maybe I’ll dream of her tonight and get her number tomorrow! Goodnight.
Signing off,
Naky
14th of June, 2022 (Cloudy)
Dear Diary,
Yippieee!!! :D I finally got her number!! Also, we texted for a bit and guess what…she called me cute!!!! Well, it’s not because of my looks or anything but I accidentally embarrassed myself while we are texting :(
Not many things happened today except for this, so I gotta go!
Signing off,
Naky
7th of July, 2022 (Windy)
Dear Diary,
What do I do…I really like her so much but I don’t think she returns my feelings... :c. Today, I saw her hitting a guy of his arms while giggling and laughing. Does she like him…or is she just being friendly…
However, we still got to hang out for a while. We got ice creams together, I found out that she likes mint chocolate, it’s odd but it’s okay cause it’s Yooyeon, who am I to judge such a goddess, right? Ooo we are not at the climax yet but we will get there in a second.
SHE WIPED THE CORNER OF MY MOUTH!! AND THAT’S NOT THE END, SHE EVEN SMILED AND CALLED ME “BABO”. I know it means idiot but…I can feel the affection. AHHH just the thought of it makes me want to go to bed and dream of it.
That means a goodbye.
Signing off,
Naky
20th of August 2022 (Windy)
Dear Diary,
It’s been two months plus since I met you and I haven’t even had the courage to confess to you…you now consider me as one of your best friends, but to me, you are something more.
…ugh snap out if it Kim Nakyoung, you are so dramatic.
The same guy, the one that you were hitting on the arm and laughing with a month ago, I saw him handling flowers to you, but you threw it away after he turned around and left. That’s when we made an eye contact, you chuckled awkwardly after getting caught red-handed by me.
You walked up to me, with a smile on your face, then waving your hands saying what I saw was nothing, and the relationship between you guys were merely friends, besides that, he’s the one that has feelings for you that you couldn’t return.
You throwing excuses in front of me gives me more hopes. Okay okay I’m sorry for writing in second person point of view, anyways, goodnight.
Signing off,
Naky
1st of January, 2023 (Sunny)
Dear Diary,
Okay so I’m here connecting my diary from 31st of December 2022 to 1st of January 2023.
Today was the best day of my life, well, the second-best thing after the first time I’ve met you. You just look so pretty under the fireworks, I wanted to confess, however, I couldn’t.
I hate myself so much.
The same guy, wrapped his arm around your shoulder out of nowhere, but I was relieved when I saw the shock on your face, and how you immediately stood away from him, after you saw me witnessing the whole situation.
We watched the fireworks together. You kept hitting me on the arm affectionately, mouth chanting “Naky, Naky, look how pretty they are.” I can’t believe I get to see the cutest side of you that night, it was refreshing.
We stood together under the moonlit sky of Seoul, you wrapped your arms around mine, we took a picture together, just you and me, that was the only picture of me taken that night, but not in your case.
The guy purposely stood super close to you. The camera flashed, he smiled brightly, his teeth almost reflecting the flash, while you, just stood there looking like a Greek goddess. I have the picture of us together hung up on my wall in front of my desk, hope you did the same too.
Another second person POV, I’m so sorry I’ll stop it now :c
Signing off,
Naky
2nd of February, 2023 (Light rain)
Dear Kim Yooyeon,
Where are you? Where did you go? You just vanished without a trace. You changed your phone number, you deactivated your socials, I tried to reach out to your friends, but they were all confused too. Please don’t leave me.
Signing off,
Naky
17th of April, 2023 (Heavy rain)
Dear Kim Yooyeon,
I miss you.
Signing off,
Naky
13th of June, 2023 (Windy)
Dear Diary,
It’s been a year since I’ve met her, and it has also been one year since she occupied my mind every second every minute of my life.
Signing off,
Naky
11th of September, 2023 (Cloudy)
Dear Diary,
Where did she go? I really miss her.
Signing off,
Naky
31st of December, 2023 (Sunny)
Dear Kim Yooyeon,
It’s been a year since we celebrated our first new year together, I still have the picture of us hung up on my wall by the way.
I have ZERO ideas where you had gone to, but I wish all the best to you. Heyy…a little secret, I still think about you every night, I still cuddle the cat plushie you got for me for my birthday every night. I really really miss you, fuck, I might cry myself to sleep tonight.
New year without you just don’t sit right.
Signing off,
Naky
7th of March, 2024 (Cloudy)
Dear Kim Yooyeon,
Hey. Remember Sohyun and Xinyu? Our friends?
Yep, you’re right, I mean, we’re right, they did get married in the end. Today was their wedding, I didn’t expect you to show up though, even though a teeny tiny part of my heart did. They look soo good together just like you said.
They were in their best suit and dress. By the way, Xinyu was also whining to me and Sohyun about how you could’ve been her bridesmaid, we all miss you here.
I despise myself for not confessing my feelings to you earlier, or else, the next ones dressing up in their best white dresses, could’ve been me and you. I hope you are doing well over there; I hope you’ll be able to reach out to me soon.
Signing off,
Naky
24th of May, 2024 (Heavy rain)
Dear Kim Yooyeon,
How dare you. Do you know how much this hurts me? How can you just do this out of nowhere after abandoning me and my feelings for you after two years.
Signing off,
[empty]
9th of July, 2024 (Sunny)
Dear Kim Yooyeon,
There you stood again; you look absolutely mesmerizing. You were in your custom-tailored wedding dress, diamonds attached to it, reflecting the lights, making you the brightest in the room. You smiled at me, your arms linked
With someone that’s not me.
The same guy whom had been all over you for the past few years looks fit in his sleek piece of suit. I refuse to acknowledge his name. You look happier with him now, I’m glad you grew up to realize he’s the right one for you.
I adored you among the seas of guests, everything else besides you were invisible to me. I hate you, I hate how you still have the nerve to look at me, after leaving me like a fool for two years, having me waiting for you. I hate how you still manage to make me fall harder after years, even in your wedding dress.
I purposely ignored you during the whole ceremony, I saw the confused and disappointed look on your face, it was hurting me so badly, but I am doing this for both of our sake. You tried to hold the conversation between us longer, but I’m sorry, I only know the words, “Yes” “Uh huh” “Yea”.
I feel so selfish honestly.
But I would never ignore the longing looks you have in your eyes when you look at me. I hope I’m not delusional.
Signing off,
Kim Nakyoung
19th of September, 2024 (Rainy)
Dear Diary,
I think this girl is the right one. I hope this girl is the right one.
She is three years younger than me, her smile reminds me of…her, I’m sorry I’ll stop thinking about her now.
Anyways, I didn’t get to know her first name, but her name is Yubin. We met through a mutual friend and that’s right, the friend in the question was Xinyu. We exchanged contacts, hope to text her more from now on.
I still haven’t move on from HER fully yet, thinking about her makes my heart ache. That really traumatized me. However, I’m now here trying different things now, how did I go from someone one year older than me to someone THREE years younger than me.
The 2022 me will definitely laugh in my face if I told her this is what had happened.
Oh, talking about her, I haven’t seen her after the wedding, did she disappear again?
Signing off,
Naky
31st of December, 2024 (Sunny)
Dear Diary,
Guess what!? YES, YOU’RE RIGHT! I CONFESSED TO YUBIN, RIGHT ON THE DOT OF 00.00 FIRST ON JAN 2025, SHE SAID YES! I’M SOOOO HAPPYYYYY!!!!
Xinyu was also thrilled to hear about that!
Signing off,
NAKYYY :)
6th of July, 2025 (Cloudy)
Dear Diary,
Yubin is literally perfect. I’m super grateful having her by my side, I can’t wait to propose :)) (calm down Naky, it’s only been seven months)
We stumbled upon a wedding shop on our way back to my apartment, I saw her eyes lingering long on a specific dress. I gotta admit it, it was the best dress ever…yea…
I’m sure I’ll be able to get that for her! Have I mentioned that I’ve been promoted as a manager? I’ve been earning four figures in dollars for the past few months, I’ll get my girl the biggest ring and the grandest wedding ceremony ever.
I love her so much.
Signing off,
Naky :D
22nd of September, 2025 (Rainy)
Dear a certain woman that I’ve loved,
Why did you appear in my dreams all of sudden?
Signing off,
[empty]
22nd of October, 2025 (Sunny)
Dear ___,
I’ve been counting for this exact one month; you’ve been appearing in my dreams for 23 days straight. Could you please not? I’m happy with Yubin already, I’ve moved on.
Signing off,
Nakyoung
31st of December, 2025 (Windy)
Dear Diary,
I’m crying tears of joy while writing this diary right now. She said yes, Yubin freaking said yes to my proposal, Sohyun and Xinyu witnessed everything, as well as three other of her friends whom I finally got to know today, Jiwoo, Chaeyeon and Suhyeon.
Coincidentally, Jiwoo and Chaeyeon are also a pair of married couple, just like Sohyun and Xinyu. Suhyeon on the other side, is single. Oh, she also goes by the name Jiyeon, that’s what Yubin calls her. Yubin then later explained that it’s because she has another friend with the same name, so she called Suhyeon Jiyeon in order to not get confused.
Anyways, I’m so so happy!!! It was a two carats ring and she loves it very very much. I just accomplished a big mission of my life
That I’ve failed to do so years ago but we don’t talk about it now.
Signing off,
Naky :p
3rd of May, 2026 (Cloudy)
Dear ___,
I couldn’t hold the truth inside my heart any longer. I still long for you, don’t get me wrong, I love my now fiancé very much but there’s just one part of my heart that fills empty.
I must not say I miss you, but I wanna see you again, I am worried. Kim Yooyeon, you’ve made my life really different, even though the time I’ve spent with you were shorter than the time I’m not with you, you have managed to take over every single brain cell of mine.
I feel so bad for Yubin, I’m so sorry for her. I tried to tell myself that I am so much happier with my life now, but it would all be a lie. I feel so empty without you.
…That picture, I’ve already thrown it away, I’m really really sorry. After this, I’ll completely forget about you, your smile that radiates my life, your face…sorry it sounds so wrong, I’ll stop here.
Signing off,
Nakyoung
17th of February, 2027 (Windy)
Dear Diary,
I felt like the biggest fool ever. I’ve should see it coming since the day I’ve proposed to her. I opened the front door to the apartment today, first, I saw an unfamiliar pair of shoes laying on the shoe rack, then when I walked into the living room, I saw an unfamiliar jacket laying on the sofa.
No, it wasn’t completely unfamiliar, I’ve saw it on someone, that someone being…
Suhyeon
I tried to tell myself that it’s not what I’m thinking, until I walked closer and closer towards our bedroom, there laid an unsightly mess and a set of movements. They heard and sensed my presence. Yubin, my own wife, jumped out from our bed, kneeling in front of me, telling me that everything isn’t what it seems like.
Covered by the blanket, head peeping out from the covers, was of course Suhyeon. I should’ve known their relationship wasn’t that simple when Yubin was the only one calling Suhyeon by a nickname.
However, I’m not any better too, maybe this is a karma for still thinking and missing her. Now I’m wondering, would Yooyeon do this to me? I’m sure she won’t…she’s pure and loyal.
Signing off,
Kim Nakyoung
20th of March, 2027 (Windy)
Dear Diary,
I’m officially divorced.
I’m such an idiot, you (diary) should’ve seen how Yubin was running into Suhyeon’s arms after we’re done with the paper works.
I wish them the best, and worst.
Signing off,
Nakyoung
5th of June, 2028 (Sunny)
Dear Kim Yooyeon,
How long has it been since we first met? Right, six years.
And how long I’ve been separated from you? Not including that one day of your wedding, four years. Why do I still miss you? Even I’ve forgotten someone I’ve met two months ago, ah, that’s right, you’re too special to me.
I miss you.
Signing off,
Nakyoung
…
19th of October, 2043 A series of car accident had happened on the road towards Seoul, from Incheon Airport. There were 4 deaths and one lucky survivor, aged 18. Among the four deaths, two is confirmed to be the parents of the 18-year-old survivor, their pictures is as shown on the TV.
They are respectively 42-year-old, Kim Yoo-
19th of October, 2043 (Storm)
Dear Diary,
How many years has it been? Let me answer, 19. Why do I still have the same diary for the past two decades? Why am I still waiting for her after all these years.
Please tell me this isn’t true, I will never believe it.
Signing off,
Kim Nakyoung
18th of November, 2043 (Windy)
Dear Kim Yooyeon,
This would probably be the last diary I am writing to you like it’s a letter. Your big girl came visiting me today, she introduced herself as Kim Soomin. She passed me a chocolate box, the same chocolate box I gave to you during the Valentines Day, twenty years ago, except inside doesn’t contain chocolates.
I’ll say my goodbye and go check out the box now, hopefully it’s not too painful for my weak heart.
Signing off,
Kim Nakyoung
2nd of February 2023
Dear Kim Nakyoung,
I’m so sorry that I have to left all of sudden. I promise I’ll come back soon and finally we can get together (if you like me too).
The first time I’ve met you, I thought you were a little stupid, in the cute way. That’s your biggest charm, and that’s the reason why I’m so in love with you. I wanted to tell you about my feelings earlier, but I’m such a coward.
But nevertheless, I’ll come back to you, where I belong. Oh I still have the picture by the way.
Your sincerity,
Kim Yooyeon
A letter…
Nakyoung picked up another envelope…inside contains another letter too, but it was written way after the first one.
Dear Kim Nakyoung,
I’m so sorry. I’m really really sorry. I wouldn’t expect this either.
I’ve been struggling for the past one year, I was forced and arranged into getting married to him, he just won’t leave me alone till the point where he forced my family to agree on the marriage. I promise I will never love him.
I’m expecting a baby. She’s a girl, I am planning on naming her Soomin, I hope she takes after my looks, I don’t want her to look like her bastard of a dad. Don’t jump into conclusion that quick, he forced me to it. I felt a little ashamed of myself but what can I do?
You’re the only one in my heart. I don’t think we will ever meet again, but I hope all these letters I’ve written to you reaches your hand one day. Nakyoung ah, even though we still have a life long time to find each other, I hope we will only meet each other again in the next lifetime.
Also deliver my greetings to Xinyu and Sohyun, I heard that they now have a child, what’s her name again? Yeojin? Yeonji? I don’t know but I wish the best for the family of three.
I’m so jealous of their little family. I hope in another lifetime, we will have a little family of three, or maybe four, or even five too.
This is my final goodbye (I hope not) to you, Nakyoung ah. Don’t wait for me in this lifetime anymore, I’ll come to you naturally in the next.
Goodbye and love you.
Your’s truly,
Kim Yooyeon.