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I am sorry for not posting.
I- Something is wrong with me... my body? My mind? I don't know. It is... it's weird and hard to describe. It's like, like everything I feel, I also feel the opposite. I am freezing, yet It is extremely hot. I feel pain in my chest but at the same time it feels like... I'm radiating healing. Sounds weird but it's the only way to describe it that comes to mind. Speaking of mind, my thoughts are also all over the place, I think about how cute my dog is but there is at the same time the thought 'he is worthless, rip his heart out, he doesn't deserve life'... I- I can't... it's hard. As context, I am writing this- all this in- this is all written in one go. Any mistakes- any- if some things don't seem to add up, it's not adding up- because my mind can't- my mind is a mess.
I hope that you can understand... any of this, maybe- or why... this is just- I just want to say- want to tell you why there hasn't been anything despite me- my promise that a new chapter is in the working.
- yours truly, ... I- I'm not sure