unrequited - sirius black (dark)
Y/N stumbled out into the garden holding her copy of ‘To Kill A Mockingbird’. Her eyes scanning the pages rapidly, with one hand holding her book and the other was lifting a part of her dress from the ground to avoid tripping. She never paid attention to her surroundings.
She called out to her best-friend Lily, since at this time every afternoon they would read a new book under the big tree in her garden. They were all in hiding, the war in full blast, there wasn’t much else to do these days. When she didn’t receive a response, she lifted her eyes from the book. Y/N walked closer to the tree in which they were said to meet, but as she whirled around the side of the tree she came to face a sight which would surely destroy her innocence.
Lily was dead.
She was lying in the grass underneath the tree. Her arms resting together on her lower abdomen. A flower crown was resting lightly on her red hair.
Her long white dress which Y/N saw only hours earlier was now blood red
Lily was dead.
Y/N came to a halt at the sight and just stared.
She didn’t scream, as she probably should have and maybe, just maybe, the nights events to come could have come to a stop, if only…
Instead she stood mouth agape. Her eyes watering and throat dry. Her eyes were flicking back and forth from Lily’s crimson stained dress, and her seemingly peaceful face. Y/N spotted a bloody knife resting next to her and then, it was like something inside her snapped.
A blood curding scream was heard in the background, one which surely frighten even the bravest of people. The book long forgotten and dropped to the ground. Tears clouding her vision, but she refused to let any fall… if she did, they wouldn’t stop. Her breathing sped up and everything around her span in circles, her heartbeat was loud enough she thought even the deaf would hear it. Her ears were ringing, and she could faintly hear a shriek of pain. But then finally, she realised that scream was of her own.
Slowly but surely, Y/N regained her senses. She noticed a note rested in Lily’s pale hands. Cautiously, she crawled a few inches to her best friends cold body. Gently moving out to tuck a loose hair behind Lily’s left ear. She leant forward and kissed her forehead gently. Running her hands through her soft ginger hair, knowing this may be the last time she could see her. Y/N reached for the note and her eyes scanned the words written down.
Her head whipped up faster than lightning. Her eyes wide and practically bulging out of her skull, her hands gripping the note tightly causing it to scrunch up a bit.
‘Turns out not all mudbloods are dumb, princess here knew all to much, so she just had to go. My apologies for the blood spillage I’ll be sure to clean that up later, Run while you can dear. All my love’
Y/N pocketed the note in her dress and quickly scrambled to her feet. Sending one last meaningful look to her best friend before scurrying off back to the manor. Y/N pushed the door open with all her might and bolted through the quite hallways. Panting heavily through to the kitchen knowing her favourite elf ;Greta, would be helping with the other elves today. After what seemed like forever, she pushed open the kitchen door only to see a sight that was even more horrifying than before…
The pots were overflowing and reached their boiling point causing some hot bubbles to leak through. Half the kitchen elves who were usually present weren’t there today anyway, since it was meant to be a slow day, nothing important going on. But the unlucky ones who happened to be, were laying motionless on the floor. Blood was splattered and it looked like a crime-scene. 5 elves dead. Her house elf Greta was one of them. Y/N felt physically sick and had to turn away from the sight. Her breathing still hadn’t slowed down from sprinting down to the kitchens, and now it was even more irregular. Y/N looked back at everyone once more and quickly left without investigating any further.
Y/N ran out the front door all the way over to the lake remembering that Sirius her betrothed fiancée would still be there, from when he left this morning with his brother (and also her best friend) Regulus. She darted through the trees and woods, resulting in some scratches on the lower part of her legs but proceeded to called out Sirius’s name.
Suddenly out of nowhere Sirius appeared in front of her causing her to gasp from shock and stumble back slightly, before letting out a relived sigh since it was only him and not the killer on the loose.
‘Woah, you ok there dear? You seem out of breath… did you run all this way?’ Sirius asked
Y/N leapt forward to hug him making him chuckle slightly and pull back after a moment to softly rest his hand on her shoulders.
‘What’s happened dear?’ What’s wrong?’ He questioned gently
Y/N caught her breath before answering… ‘Help! it’s Lily, sh-she’s … dead. She was killed. And everyone in the kitchen, they’re all de-dead too.’ Y/N stuttered an answer. His eyes widened significantly.
‘Ok… it’s alright. We have to run. Now, come on’ Rushes out Sirius
Y/N halts in place when he tries to pull her along by her wrist, bruise surely forming due to the tight grip.
‘What are you talking about?! Run? Why would we run, we need to call for help, this is serious, how are you not freaking out right now!?’ Y/N rushes out, a sick feeling bubbling in her stomach thinking back to the sights she saw just earlier.
‘We could be framed for this, no-one else is present in the castle, your Mother and Father are out on that trip to Paris and someone will think… oh what would they think, this will ruin our reputation Y/N! We can’t be here!’ His voice is urgent and alarmed making Y/N off-put and frightened, but she pulls her wrist out of his grip quickly.
‘How are you talking like this!?’ Y/N says flabbergasted, ‘People have been killed… murdered! This is outrageous, we must get help immediately, how is our reputation your first priority?!’ she cries out bewildered, urging him to see his error of thought.
But Sirius’s eye brow twitched so subtly she may not have caught it if she wasn’t staring directly into his eyes with such fright, but she knew he was probably just as scared as she and trying to be brave for her.
‘Oh! What about Reggie, is he harmed? Did you just leave him by the bay alone!? He could have seen inside and panicked, oh goodness, we must find him, come quickly-‘ But Y/N’s alarmed voice was cut off by a large hand grasping her yet again and when she looked up into his dark eyes which were seemingly growing substantially and blackening … she became worried.
‘Where is he?’ She asked lowly, face void of emotion, but her eyes instead of growing darker were slowly reaching understanding.
‘It’s ok dear, just come with me. Regulus is just fine, he’s probably just taking a swim… look, we’ll go and see him now’ he said with an eerie smile on his face.
She nodded slowly and let Sirius pull their now interlocked hands along to the water, a few more paces through the high grass near the water and they were there.
She could see the fishing rods that Regulus and Sirius must have been using, along with two pull out seats. But Regulus was nowhere to be seen…
‘Where is he, Sirius?’ She asked almost at a whisper, slightly anxious to know the answer that he seemed to know.
The look on Sirius’s face, was… different, than before. Smiling wide and evidently calm, he reached out and cupped her face with both hands pressing a light kiss to her forehead before letting go gently and looking at the view from the lake.
‘Well, I told you dear… he’s just taking a swim.’ Sirius says evenly, no signs of a shaky voice.
Y/N’s breathing shallowed as she processed the information and thinking back to conversations long ago when Regulus and herself first met… he couldn’t swim…
‘W-what. But.. he- he cannot swim, Sirus. You know this! What is going on, tell me what is going on!!’ Y/N’s unnerved voice growing louder in volume each word she said.
But Sirius just turned around to look at her in all her beauty, hair glistening in the sunlight and carelessly whispered… ‘Oops.’ a smile she had seen a thousand times before.
And that’s all it took. Y/N charged passed him and into the water, pulling her long dress up so she could still takes long strides into the lake, eyes wide with panic and exhilaration she called out ‘REGULUS!! REGGIE!! WHERE ARE YOU, COME OUT PLEASE!!’
Sirius watched calmly by the side of the lake with a sneer and all knowing eyes.
Y/N hastily swatted away the plants and seaweed that would come between her as the water bubbled slightly as her dress swished it.
And she saw it, the dreadful sight of Regulus. Off to the side of the shore.
Y/N quickly moved, running as fast as she possibly could while still in water. When she managed to reach him and drag him to the land not too far beside him. She gasped with terror as she saw his face, pale and lips blue. His chest unmoving. She screams with all her force, arms pressing to his chest continuously trying to revive him. But after minutes, nothing.
Y/N still breathing heavily, and now wet from the lake water, darted up to Sirius’s, face in a rage and confusion still evident.
‘How could you?!’ she screams out in agony, ‘My best friend! Your brother! To think I trusted you, we were to marry! She took a breath and continued… ‘Why?’
Sirius had not flinched from the screams or the hatred in her eyes, and merely smirked and leant down to whisper in her ear…
‘Friend, you say?’ He straightened back up to stand straight and scowl at the girl. ‘I am no fool Y/N, I know you see the way he looked at you. Eyes full of love, and the way he spoke of you… like you were the only person in the world! Right in front of me too, as if I didn’t notice!’ He glowered down at her.
‘He did not love me! No, no… not like that! And even if he did, I loved you! Now that’s a different story. I never would’ve thought I could loathe someone I adored with all of myself, so quickly. But you-you are an exception!’ She spat out in revulsion.
He laughed unphased ‘And that friend of yours… Evans. She knew of his love, supported it actually. I found them in conversation just the other day, she told him to confess to you before too late. Merlin, I've got no idea what James sees in her.’ He scoffed ‘I knew you would reciprocate. You couldn’t break his tiny childlike heart. So instead you would break me, and well… we just couldn’t have that could we.’ He asked rhetorically.
‘Oh… ‘ He continued, ‘The rest of the staff, the elves, in the kitchen, well they were just in the way of my day. They never liked me. Don’t ask me why, they just didn’t. I’m so likeable! But unfortunately they just didn’t fall for my charm, what a shame. It cost them their lives.’ He mocked a frown.
Y/N was in horror. Complete, absolute horror that someone she loved so dearly only hours ago could do such treacherous things to anyone. Especially people which he knew she loved so dearly out of envy.
‘You-you, are a wicked, horrible person’ She muttered out in disgust.
‘Yes, that may be true.’ He smiled down at her ‘But I love you dear, come with me, we can run away start a family! Away from everyone, away from consequences.’ He spoke hopefully and with pleading eyes.
Still in shock, Y/N did the only thing she thought right in that moment.
She ran.
Y/N ran through the long grass. Through the land, and though she was out of breath and with a stitch of pain from so much running… past the castle gates. She did what he said they would do… run away. But not with him by her side. She would never be seen near again.
Sirius though; he stays put, not willing to run an endless chase, a battle, in which he would not win. He had already tried and failed, to keep her to himself. With a frown decorating his face, deep down he knew she would not stay with him, not after this. But he hoped. He yearned for her love and requited affections. He had never had anything he didn’t have to share, except her. She was perfect to him, ethereal.
But he knew that Y/N loved Regulus greatly more, platonically, or not he could not decipher. But now even she was gone, and he was alone. For good. She left, like everyone else. Not that he would ever let anyone else see his loneliness, despair, sadness. His act would stay put and he would never show weakness for as long as he shall live. And so, he was not sad now, not really. He won in a way, his internal battle. Nobody would see him break his façade … because he lived as long as it stay put.
So, with a hum… he walked slowly, seemingly with no care in the world. Into the lake. And so, for now and ever onward he will watch Y/N from above, smiling down at her as the sun glistens down on her once again in a better life.