Always

RON

I maybe have placed her gently on the bed, but the gentleness ended there. My mouth left hungry kisses all the way down her body. I bit along her shoulder and over her hips. I held her hands above her head with hand, the other wrapped around her throat, squeezing. I pulled back my mouth from her body and looked down at her.

"Never leave me again", I snarled. My voice came out as a growl, but my eyes were pleading. I was scared of the possibility of losing her again.

"I'm yours, always", she said. She tried to rip her hands free to touch me, but my grip was too hard. She pulled against me, and I let her go.

"Say it again", I demanded.

"I'm yours", she said again. She touched my cheek and leaned up to kiss me. The moment her lips touched mine, I crashed my body against hers, holding her hands down again. I nibbled her lip and then trailed kisses down her jaw, to her neck, nipping at the skin as I continued down her chest. I squeezed her nipple with one hand, while I sucked on the other one. I bit down, causing her to moan and arch her back. I made my way with her tongue down her stomach and over her hips. I forced her legs apart roughly before my mouth and fingers went to work on her heat. She moaned and wiggled beneath me. I pinned her down with a sap of my fingers. My magic wrapped around her and held her in place. She came undone quickly after that, but I didn't let up.

"Please", she begged. I let my magic release her. I kissed her once before flipping her roughly to her stomach. I pushed her back down and held her hips up. One hand, held onto her hip, while my other hand reached for the front of her neck. I pushed her head back to face me. I kissed her as I shoved into her. She moaned into my mouth. I thrusted into her over and over. My magic held her body in place again. Invisible ropes held her hands to the bedposts. I threw my head back and continued my thrusting. My thrusts were rough and hard.

"Fuck, Kat", I groaned. "I missed you so much", I said. Whack. I smacked her ass, leaving a red mark across her cheek. She pushed her hips up a little farther. A silent ask for me to do it again. Whack, whack. Two more smacks to her ass.

"I love you Ron", she moaned as I caressed her back.

"I'm so sorry Kat", I said. My thrusting got harder and harder.

"Yellow", she said gently. That was our safe word. I let my magic loosen a bit and while my thrusting was still fast, I lessened how hard I was pushing. I kissed her shoulder gently. I groaned and my thrusting became uneven.

"I love you Kat, I'm so sorry", I said over and over as I came undone in her. With my release, she came shortly after. My magic released her, and we fell back against the bed panting and sweating. I rolled over and hovered over her. I caressed her cheek and kissed her gently. "I am so sorry Kat. I almost lost you and I...", I trailed off as a sob got caught in my throat. She wiped away the tears from my face and pulled me down so that she could hug me. She held me tight as we both cried into each other. I took a deep breath and pulled away. "Let me draw you a bath", I said gently, wiping my face with the back of my hand.

"We should talk fi...', she started to say but I cut her off.

KAT

"Let's talk in the bath. Please. Let me take care of you", he reached for my hand and pulled me to a standing position. He held on to me until my legs decided to work properly. He would always draw me a bath or help me shower after sex. He would always say how he was taking care of me after being so rough during sex. We had a system, and I knew he would never hurt me, or he would stop if I wanted him too. I let him take care of me afterwards. I can't say that I didn't enjoy it and if it made him happy then I would let him do it. Ron helped me down into the tub and I settled between his legs. I turned around so that I was facing him. I placed my hand on his leg under the bubbles. No one spoke for a little while.

"I'm very upset with you", I said. "I understand that you don't like Draco. And I can see how without context, it would seem like I was flirting with him when you walked into the shop. But you wouldn't even talk to me about it. Instead, you just got angry and then kicked me out". I looked down; afraid I was going to cry again. I may have been upset with him, but I still loved him fiercely and I still needed him with all that I have.

"I didn't... I wasn't trying to... I just..." he took a breath, trying to collect his thoughts. "I didn't mean to. I was angry and I should have taken a breath. I should have taken a walk for space. Or even just spent the night with my brothers. I never should have said I wanted space from you". He reached for me and pulled me to him. I was straddling his legs. His hands wrapped around my waist, holding me close to him.

"You didn't come for me", I said sadly. A tear slipped down my cheek. "Why? Why didn't you come for me?", I asked. He wiped my tears away.

"That first night... I broke a lot of things. By the time my brothers came here... the living room was destroyed. Charlie took me to a bar and everyone else stayed to put the living room back together. I tried to leave that first night, but I was so drunk... my magic stopped working. I somehow convinced myself after that, that you didn't want to come home. That if you hadn't come home, then you didn't want to". Now he was crying. I held him to me. We both apparently had more crying to do. He suddenly held me back a little so that he could look at me.

***

"Why did you hurt yourself? They said that you weren't eating, and I know about your ankles. Why? I am not worth that". He was firm with his words, but I could tell he was hurt.

"I wasn't... I'm not... I wasn't trying to hurt myself. I wasn't eating because I wasn't hungry. I didn't have any appetite. I couldn't... Ron, I was numb. I just wanted to feel something. I didn't cut deep enough to damage it. It's more like a scratch", I sighed. I didn't know how to explain it to him. "Can we get out, I'm cold", I said, standing. We walked to the bedroom, and he dried me off. I put on one of his shirts and climbed back into bed.

"Kat, I understand you were hurting, but you can't do that. What would anyone do without you? What would I do without you?", he asked. We were sitting, our backs against the headboard. He pulled me to his side. I sighed.

"I wasn't trying to do anything like that. I swear. I just... I wanted to feel something. I was so numb", I took a breath. "Have you ever just felt like tired of life? Like you're not really happy but you don't want to die. Like your body's in the room, but you're not really there... I don't know. It sounds so stupid and juvenile. 'Oh, my boyfriend left me, I feel broken'. But you don't understand what you mean to me. what your family means to me. You have been my world for so long. The idea of you no longer there... I can't handle it. I felt like I was dying. I love you so much. I need you. If I lost you... not only do I lose my boyfriend, but I lose my best friend. I lose my world. On top of that, I would lose your family. My mum, my brothers, my sister, dad. I would lose them all. My home.... It felt like I lost everything, and I just couldn't handle it. I needed to escape..." I was talking quickly. It was difficult to talk about.

***

He is just a boy. It shouldn't feel like dying, but it does. I bit back a sob, but my shoulders betrayed me. He pulled me onto his lap and held me tight.

"Katherine, listen to me. You will never lose me. You are my world, and I will fight for you. I just hit a dumb stupid bump, but I am never letting you go. But let's just assume that we did break up... I can promise my family will pick you over me. Do you know everyone checked on you first before coming to me? Did you know that Mum completely laid into me the next morning?", he chuckled at that. "Charlie was about to beat me to a pulp. He probably would have if Bill didn't stop him. My family loves you. You will never lose them either''. He kissed the top of my head and took a deep breath.

"Kat", he said. I felt him shift and reach for the bedside table on his side of the bed. I reached for his hand.

"Ron, don't. I know what is in that drawer. I want you to wait. I want you to do it the way that you originally planned", I said sweetly. He reached back for me and held me tight again. He pulled us down so that we were laying down. My head was resting on his chest. I wrapped an arm around his waist. He held me tightly, his arms wrapped around me. We were a tangled mess on the bed.

"I would have said yes, by the way", I mumbled into his chest. I took a deep breath, inhaling his scent. I've missed his scent.

"Good to know", he replied. His kissed the top of my head again. We laid there for a while, just enjoying finally being back with each other. It didn't take long before his snoring started to fill the room. I smiled to myself. We had a long road ahead of us, but I knew we could make it. I let the feeling of his breathing against my cheek lull me into a nightmare free sleep for the first time in a week.