Always

Sex was just as amazing as it was last night. I was on top this time. Ron helped me move my hips back and forth, when I could no longer move, he held me to his chest and thrust into me repeatedly until we both were spent. We laid in bed for a while after, panting and catching our breaths, after a while I got up and started the shower.

“Are you coming handsome?”, I called out to him. I heard him muttering a cleaning spell on the sheets before he made his way into me. He stepped in the shower behind me, and I could feel him watching me. “Why are you staring at me like that?”, I asked, turning around, and pulling him in closer to me, my hands pressing into his back.

“You’re so fucking perfect”, he said again, for the third time tonight.

“Stop, I am not. I’m overweight, I don’t wear makeup, or dress nice…” he cut me off.

“Katherine. Stop. I don’t care about shit like that. I think your body is perfect, I prefer you without makeup, and I prefer you in my clothes anyway… well actually I prefer you naked”, he joked, kissing my neck.

“Ron, you could have anyone. Wouldn’t you prefer someone prettier? Someone like… Laci”, I whispered the last part. He gripped my chin and forced me to look at him.

“Fuck no. I only want you”, he said sternly. I grabbed the soap and loofah and began washing his chest and arms, turning him so I could get his back.

“I’m very self-conscious. You know my past… it’s… it’s easy to go back to those thoughts”, I sighed. He grabbed the loofah and soap from me and took over washing my body in a comfortable silence. After our shower, I threw on some pajama shorts and a shirt of Ron’s. feeling self-conscious I went back to my dresser and tried to find a better-looking pair of pajamas. I felt Ron’s hands snake around my waist, I tried to push his hands away, but he held me tighter.

“Please don’t change”, he begged. “Come to bed. I’ll go grab us a snack and we can relax and watch tv in bed”, he kissed my shoulder and left the room.

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I walked over to the mirror and pulled my shirt up to look at my stomach. I pinched at the flab that was there. As if pinching would make it go away. I would go back and forth from either not eating at all or throwing up whenever I did eat. Sometimes I would start pinching the areas on my body that I hated until purplish bruises appeared. Ron started checking my body for marks after a while. I was finally healthy again, but I found it too easy to go back to my old habits sometimes. I despised my body.

I pulled my shirt down and climbed into bed and waited for Ron to return. I was still feeling surprised he loved, was in love with me. I was snapped out of my thoughts by Ron bouncing on our bed.

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“What did you get?” I asked quietly, still in a sad mood.

“I found some fruit salad in the fridge. Mum must have dropped it off at some point”. He tried to hand me a fork, but I shook my head.

“I’m not hungry”, I lied. Ron placed the fork down in the bowl of fruit and reached for my hand.

“Kat, please. I know you are feeling down right now. And that’s okay. It’s okay to not be okay. But please, for me. Just a few bites, okay? Please.” He begged me softly. Concern written all over his face. It broke my heart. I reached for the fork and grabbed a cubed piece of pineapple from the bowl for him. He pulled me into his side and rubbed circles into my back, my eyes tearing up.

“Thank you”, I barely whispered, a tear slipping from my eye.

“Always”, Ron said, kissing the top of my head. I sat up, crossing my legs, and faced him.

“Ronald… when did you feel it?” I asked. I wanted to take my mind off the bad.

“Feel what?” he asked confused, taking a bite of fruit.

“When things changed for us. Our feelings. I think I have loved you for a long time. For me it was after graduation. The ceremony was over, and I remember a lot of people coming up to me, but it was like tunnel vision. I just wanted to hug you and be with you. Then we moved in together and it was all the small things. Your touch, even something simple, like touching my back made my stomach flutter. I found myself getting lost just looking at you. And it was like suddenly all I wanted to do was kiss you and touch you… and kiss you. I really love kissing you”. I was rambling at this point, but he laughed at me wanting to kiss him so much.

“Okay, well first, I really love kissing you too… and all the other stuff”, he winked at me and felt that pull at the bottom of my navel. “I guess I’ve always kind of felt it. But I never knew if you did for sure, so I didn’t push it. Do you remember when I broke up with her?” He asked and nodded, frowning, lords I hated her. “I never told you the exact truth to why we broke up”. He said looking down. “Every time she would kiss me, I only thought of you. Of what it would be like to take you back to my room and… do every dirty thought I’ve ever had to you. So, I broke it off. It wasn't fair to either of you.” He finally looked back up at me.

“Then we moved in together this summer, and you kissed that first time on the couch. It was the smallest, quickest kiss. Almost like you were afraid to do it. You couldn’t see because you were watching the movie, but I smiled the rest of the night. That truth or dare over the summer at my house though. That kiss… I really wished no one else was there. I wanted you so bad”, he started to bite his lip and I had to look away before I jumped him.

“I’m really glad you went for it”, I smiled at him.

“I love you Katherine, truly”, he said, cupping my face and pulling me closer to him.

“I love you too Ronald, truly”, I replied closing the distance, kissing him softly. We snuggled back against the bed, and ate the fruit while watching some TV, before falling asleep.

I woke up and could feel Ron’s arm breath on my neck. I turned slowly so that I wouldn’t wake him up. He looked so peaceful. I wanted to kiss each freckle that painted its way across his face. His soft red hair was sticking up in places from him sleeping against me all night. I could see his muscles twitching under his shirt. He was stunning. I loved him more than he would ever know.

I slowly reached my hand under his shirt and down his pants, gripping his penis in my hand. I slowly began to move my hand up and down. He grew hard at my touch. Ron slowly blinked his eyes and pulled me in for a kiss.

“Mmm, what are you doing beautiful?”, he grinned at me, our foreheads resting together.

“Touching my boyfriend”, I said simply.

“And what do you want to come from waking me up in such a manner?”, he moaned softly. I moaned in response. Fuck his sounds could make me cum all on their own.

“Hmm. What would you like me to do?”. I kissed his neck, nibbling on his sensitive spot. He groaned and flipped me so that I was under him. He slammed his lips onto mine, kissing me fiercely. His hand started to make its way to my neck, but he stopped. I was about to tell him it was okay, but he pulled away to remove his shirt and then mine.

“I will never tire of looking at your body”, he groaned, kissing the spot between my breasts, his tongue lightly licking it. I moaned and gripped his shoulders. That was an overly sensitive spot for me, it made fireworks explode down to my core. He sucked on my nipple while his hand found its way down my underwear to rub circles on my clit. He moved his hand lower and inserted two fingers while his thumb continued to rub circles on my clit.

“Don’t stop Ron. Ug just like that”, I moaned with a smile. He pulled back to look at me.

“If you’re going to be cheeky, maybe I should give that mouth something to do”, he kissed into my neck. I moved my mouth to his neck, sucking the spot above his collarbone. It was his favorite spot. He groaned and ground his hips into mine. I moaned in response.

“Your mouth… please”, I panted out between kisses. Ron kissed my lips and then my forehead, before moving to remove my pajama bottoms. He kissed my thigh before moving to lay next to me.

“Come here”, he motioned for me to get on top of him.

“Ron, no. I’m too much, I can’t”, I said panicked.

“Kat, really it is fine. Please. I want to. Lean on the headboard if you need to”, he encouraged me. I climbed on him reluctantly and leaned toward the headboard, so that it was holding most of my weight, not him. He grabbed onto my thighs and pulled me down, so that my heat was on his mouth. He slowly ran his tongue from my entrance up to my clit, sucking lightly on my clit and then repeated that action a few more times. I slowly relaxed on top of him. He moved his hand, so he was rubbing my clit while he moved his tongue to my entrance and began to move it in and out of me.

Oh… oh my… Ron!” I moaned loudly. I began to buck my hips back and forth over his tongue. I leaned back slightly, arching my back, and placing my hands on his stomach. I started to buck my hips faster, moaning his name. I started to move off of him, but he gripped my thighs to keep me in place. “I only want to flip around. Take off your pants”, I demanded, moving off of him so he could take off his pants.

I settled back over him. He began to lick me again as I slowly placed him in my mouth. He moaned loudly and bucked his hips. We continued our pace for a while, until my sucking became messy as I shook over him and I came undone. I continued to use my mouth on him, he was hitting the back of my throat. He came shortly after I did. I turned around to kiss him passionately.

“Take me Ron. Make me yours”, I whispered into his ear, and kissed down his jaw. Without hesitation, he flipped me so that I was on my stomach and positioned me, so that my ass was sticking up in the air. He lined himself up and smacked my ass before he slammed into me. He went as hard as he could and smacked my ass again. “Oh lords. Fuck Ron. More please”, I begged.

“You liked it rougher?” he asked in a growl. I couldn’t form words, so I just moaned in response. The truth was, yes, I did like how rough he was being. I liked that he was taking control.

“Faster”, I begged. He quickened his pace instantly. I could feel myself clenching around him, my legs shaking.

“Ron… I’m close”, I whispered.

“Me too, love”, he said, and I could feel him twitching inside me.

“Ug. Kat. Fuck!”, he moaned loudly before coming, filling me up. I came shortly after, the feeling of him coming undone, sending me over the edge. I rolled over to my back panting.

“Blood hell, that was…” he couldn’t finish, as he was out of breath.

“Fucking amazing”, I finished for him, causing us both to laugh.

"I'll be right back. Stay here", Ron said, getting up suddenly. I don't think I could move if I tried to. After a few minutes I heard the bath running and Ron moving around. I got up with wobbly legs and walked into the bathroom. Ron had filled the tub and used my favorite bubble bath; he was now lighting some candles on the sink counter and the shelves. I walked up behind him and wrapped my arms around his waist and planted a kiss on his shoulder.

"You are too good to me", I smiled at him. He helped me into the tub and bent down to give me a kiss. I took the opportunity and pulled him into the tub with me, water splashing over the side. I waved my hand, and the water mess was cleaned up. Ron laughed into my shoulder, and I felt the butterflies set off in my stomach. I don't think I could ever grow tired of the way he makes me feel. He makes me feel good about myself and genuinely happy. My heart always felt light around him. Every touch was like electricity being shot through my whole body.

"I love you Ronald" I said to him sweetly.

"I love you too Katherine" he replied smiling at me.

"I like when you use my full name. I love my nickname, and I don't want you to change that, but whenever you use my full name, I know you mean whatever you are about to say with your whole being". I moved so that I was between his legs, my back resting against his chest, my head on his shoulder. He kissed my neck gently.

"So that was really fun", I said, craning my neck so that I could look at him. "Do you think... could we maybe explore some different things'"? I asked, slightly embarrassed. I knew neither of us were really experienced so we would have no idea what types of things we would actually like.

"Yeah, we can. I would enjoy that actually". He kissed the top of my head, wrapping his arms around me to grab my hands in front of me.

"But no threesomes. I refuse to share. The thought of another girl touching you makes me feel like I'm on fire with anger. I would literally cut her hands off. You are mine"! I fumed.

"Relax there, killer. I'm yours and yours only" he chuckled and pulled me back against him. We stayed until the water got cold in a comfortable silence. Ron was rubbing my arms with his fingers, and I had my eyes closed with my head resting on his shoulder. I wish I could have stayed in the bubble bath forever with him. After our bath while we were getting dressed, my stomach loudly grumbled which caused us both to laugh.

"Come on, let's go get you something to eat", Ron kissed my temple, lacing his fingers with mine and leading me out to the kitchen.