AHHHHH
Sirius during war 1<3
we are going to change the world
although the connotations diverging my view that doesn’t always mean for good
i could burn down towns are ruin lives
worlds would be changed and consequences dealt
i could cure cancer or kill my self, the moon could fall on my command all life shattering
all changing some formation
sometimes it doesn’t hurt to not think so positively all the time
Remus 24/7 after the war/ befor grant as BF🥲
stagnant water feels relatable.
dead and buried by just sitting still, contaminating your brain with duvet days and never ending biscuits tins.
forcing laughter around friends to fake the moon lit party joy and cover the self inflicted violence in cold days and layers and smiles and emotionless conversations.
if just to connect to a mental stream again and feel okay. too run into the fresh air and breathin deep, leaving my emaciated old body in feverishly warm sheets and climb too the roof and scream.
help the wounded and the move dead but i can’t help but too fear the latter of either, or too envy their zealous ideal state
Grant @ moony lol
would you again hold my hand
sit by my bed and watch me sleep
pray for my irrevocable soul and life
kiss my cold skin under the gritty cloth
i know they say they arnt worth it but if i where to fall would you fall too, or would you throw down the rope to catch me, the love i hold is ineffable but the rage is rather declarative
we were going to go to spain and spend summers inlove before we went out separate ways and now you are going with him and i am just a friend.
all of mary’s bf after they break up
it’s dark and desolate
i like the cold and the weak feeling when the blood seeps and that warm fear that shakes me that this may be it, i like the think of the hole i wouldn’t leave and how the sun would still rise and the tide still come