dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time
James potter was what most would call popular, in other words he had it all. Not only was he captain of the football team, talented without a doubt and good enough to have been offered scholarship after scholarship. He was also smart, able to breeze through lessons with ease and ace every test without much effort put in. He was lucky to have two supportive parents that not only loved him, but had managed to make all other kids envy their cool, laid back attitude and not to mention, he also has the best friend group one could ask for, alas it is also true that he was blessed with strong bone structure and is what one could describe as handsome, hot, easy on the eyes etcetera, etcetera. It doesn't help those who hate him, that he is also a very nice person, generous, funny and charasmatic etcetera, etcetera.
Lily Evans on the other hand was what most would call a try- hard. Granted she had a supportive friend group mixed with outsiders of all fonts, not to mention her eyes are notoriously known for their shining emerald colour, and her snarky and witty attitude does favours for her likeability at school as well as rivalring James Potter for the top spot in classes. However she's not effortlessly charming nor does she hide her contempt for those she doesn't like, unlike a people- pleaser she does what she wants and well, she reminds teachers when they had homework due. Which is why others find her annoying, too smart etcetera, etcetera
despite all of this, James and Lily are friends, and have been since that fateful day when the Evans moved in, next door and after she fell whilst trying to ride without stabilisers for first time, James helped her up and showed her how to do it. Since then they have been inseparable.
“I cannot bloody believe you!” The pillow thrown across the room and shoved unceremoniously into James’ face shows the true extent to Lily’s rage. This, however does not waver James who then bursts out laughing. She growls lowly, eyes piercing daggers into him.
“Jeez calm down before you pop a vein or something”
“How to hell did you beat me in English? English?” To which James shrugs, sitting in his desk chair and watching as she paces, her cheeks flushed and hair billowing in her face with her strides. James practically swoons at the sight.
Another thing to be mentioned, James has been in love with said best friend since they were eleven and James, still lanky and short had been threatened by rosier and Mulciber (two thirteen year olds who had knocked his double chocolate ice cream with two extra flakes out of his hand and onto the floor) thus resulting in him watching Lily grow annoyed and shout hey, telling them to pick on someone their own size, throwing her vanilla ice cream into rosiers face and running away.
the only thing stopping the very dramatic and hormonal and now-seventeen year old from confessing his undying love and yearn to grow old with her is the fact that she is dating Benjy Fenwick (an annoyingly nice guy who is also on the football team and admittedly has very soft blonde hair)
Meet Sirius- his best mate and adopted brother- who likes to mention this fact anytime James brings up lily (which is all the time) and laughs at his friends misery (albeit somewhat pityingly but only because his boyfriend tells him to be nice)
his boyfriend being Remus- James’ other best mate who is also very good friends with Lily- who is done with their clear mutual pining and insist that Lily is in denial (not to her face, She is quite scary when mad)
that is why at this point, when a pillow has been chucked onto your dazzling hair (which took half an hour to style as ‘cool messy’ instead of merely messy because “yes Pads there is a difference”) one would think to retreat from the red-eyed ginger who manages to retain colossal amounts of frustration which could be deemed as concerning.
However James has always prided himself as being brave and courageous, valiant etcetera, etcetera (also widely known as stupid or being “an arrogant toerag”) either way, the boy does not cower behind his chair nor does he flee the room to seek protection from his mother-also known as the most beloved mother in the neighbourhood who bribes all the children with their favourite sweets at Halloween (she knows this information after making James and Sirius take a survey at school “inconspicuously boys, don’t want any other mothers getting any ideas”)
no James Potter laughs, and continues to laugh and lily becomes dangerously silent (it has become a precaution that when lily Evans becomes silent when angry, one should look for the nearest shelter or run as fast as they can) he clearly has not gotten this memo because he rolls his eyes and smirks (If bystanders had witnessed this moment they surely would have prayed for the boy and given him their wishes)
“You need to calm down lils, I only beat you by what was it? 5 marks" this is where most would face palm themself and walk away, not wanting to watch the wrath be unleashed, however before the girl can expolode (which does happen and is traumatising for those in imidate distance) James has stood up and given her a hug
Were it anyone else, this would be where the warning of "code red" would be breached and one would consider this an act of either suicide or a want for eternal suffering, however seeing as it is James (her favourite person who smells like pine wood and the earl grey he obsessively drinks- this is known due to multiple sniffs taken "Evans did you just sniff me" over the years)
Her anger does begin to fade (one of the many reasons added to Remus' "evidence" as to how it is clear she does in fact "fancy the socks off of him" which was written in the book)
A fact that you probably don't need to know, Remus Lupin is competitive and stubborn, to such a degree that yes he goes to the lengths such as keeping notebooks in order to gain evidence or merely have proof of what you have said in the past to win arguments, petty squabbles (and blackmail his boyfriend into buying chocolate for him)
Another reason added to said list being that time when she said his stuffed toy antler headband looked “cute and adorable” to which could only be a result of either: a) her lack of eyesight and/or sanity, b) her being too nice to say anything or c) her being in love with James to the point where his obvious idiocy has been disguised as “cuteness”
The evidence had been concrete, and most definitely pointing towards C (both Sirius and Remus agreed, as well as Marlene and Dorcas who were too scared to say anything to their best friend who they are afraid of)
the hug does it’s purpose (for the time being) and Lily (grudgingly) let’s the matter go. Only because James bribes her with homemade Dhokla and meethe chawal (that his mother makes) she’s about to tell him he doesn’t get off that easy (even though it’s not actually his fault) when the door bangs open and Effie-the-cool-mum saunters in, an apron donned, making her look like some classic cook show host.
“food will be ready shortly” before she leaves however, after looking at the state of her son’s room (clothes lying everywhere) she picks up the closest thing (a black t-shirt) and lobs it at his head. His muffled “Oi!” Is cut off by her reprimand "tidy this room young man, at least make it clean for Lily dear"
"It's not like she's a guest, at this point she lives here" the dangerous look in her eye (the one she taught Lily and will take credit when there is an opportunity) makes an appearance and stops James from arguing anymore
Sirius stands behind euphamia potter and laughs whilst James waits for her to turn round and smack him on the head (much lighter than anything James ever got) and tell him to do the same before turning back around and looking at Lily fondly, lovingly etcetera, etcetera
Lily had always been the favourite. And James had no idea why. And James had an idea why, aka she actually helped his mum in the kitchen and hadn’t inherited the need to argue/ exaggerate everything (something he got from his mum- so it wasn't his fault)
"Sorry for being dramatic earlier" Lily says sheepishly to which Jamws raises an eyebrow
"Yeah it happened like 20 seconds ago." He pats his head dramatically "and you ruined my hair for shame!" To which she rolls her eyes fondly and walks out to go eat.
James does not stand watching her leave with hearts in his eyes, no he stands after she has left and sighs lovingly whilst Sirius snorts takes a picture and continues on his way to the kitchen.
Lily waits for Benjy to come a pick her up for school and tries not to watch James stomp around his room in a flurry, a mess of waving arms and clothes being flown around the room. (Safe to say, he is not a morning person) she also tries not to watch when he takes his pyjama top off and exchange it for his school shirt (who changes with their blind open anyway- anyone could creepily watch from their window)
not that she is, it’s just a hypothetical “anybody” because really anybody, an innocent bystander for example could just-
“LILY!” The sound of her sister shrieking (a correct use of the word) stops her from watching, appreciating him, looking outfor- stops her from daydreaming and summons her out of her room and down to where her sister is
Meet Petunia, her sister and a year older -in her last year of sixth form before university- who is the bane of her existence
Petunia is what some may call snobby posh and it is suffice to say that her and Lily do not get along (it is most definitely Petunia’s fault) both too stubborn for their own good not to mention Petunia looking down on her for choosing English as an A-level “it’s not a proper subject like maths or business”
that had earned her the finger (and a pillow to the face) she should have known not to do that, the pillow forever ruined by her sister’s make up staining it. “Well it was your fault darling, shouldn’t have thrown it” had been their mothers reply to her childish mourning of said pillow
Before Lily can shout back (the Evans’ home has always been known for its shouting) she hears the honk of her boyfriends car (it’s actually his dad’s car and he only just got his licence so Lily is always waiting for them to get hit by a bus)
“Hiya love” he kisses her cheek and as she is about to reply-
“aw love you too Benjamin” James has made his way to the car, leaning on her door so that she can’t close it without hurting him- not that that means much to her
“uh actually-“ she sometimes wonders how someone can be so naive, genuine and bless him, the means of a joke
“piss of Potter” is her reply instead before she shoves him out the way and closes the door, he clutched his chest in mock hurt and it is only then she realises he is still not properly dressed, wearing tartan pyjama bottoms with his white shirt and school tie. He looks Absolutely ridiculous (and maybe just a little bit adorable) she unwinds the window “you do realise school starts in like 15 minutes?” She asks him although she knows the answer already
“don’t you worry, I will be at school, so don’t miss me too much”
”I won’t miss you”
”I was talking to Benjamin- I was telling him not to miss me not you, you absolute baffoon” (she won’t laugh at that- it’s not even funny) she can feel her lips twitching but Benjy is growing restless so she gives James a warning look and he rolls his eyes, hands up in mock surrender before he steps away from the car
“see you later yeah?” She calls back (because she misses the grin) and he nods before retreating back to the house
“I honestly forget you guys are friends”
another fact: James and Lily don’t talk that much at school, no reason really, they only have English together and don’t share the same friends (even though she will always state that Sirius and Remus prefer her to James) she doesn’t know why that comment hurts, it shouldn’t but it does (probably because he is her favourite person and she misses when they would spend all their time (at home and at school) together.
she just shrugs, before doing her seatbelt and turning on the radio.
They’re in the canteen having lunch and Sirius and Remus are being annoyingly adorable So James is sulking and trying to get sympathy from Peter (who rolls his eyes and carries on texting) James scoffs dramatically whilst they all groan at his semantics
“I’m sorry if my company is such a burden to you all, I’ll just leave then” this comment gets a mix of reactions (Peter: “no don’t go” but it’s sarcastic and uncaring and his eyes are still glued to the screen, Remus: snorts and rolls his eyes before throwing his chip at James and looking disappointed when it doesn’t get tangled in his hair, Sirius: grins at him before loudly stating “what you need is a good shag” before revelling in the blush that blooms on James’ face
the earlier statement that James has a great group of friends has been retracted (except not really) as they all do spend hours of their time listening to him moan about Lily before leaving him with Effie and hoping she doesn’t murder them from it
James is under the impression that they are all great listeners and know how close he is with this mum. Peter has fallen asleep multiple times (it usually takes five minutes hearing about her laugh)
“excuse me but could you not shout that so loudly?” James glares at Sirius, still mortified as Sirius snickers to himself happily
”what’s it true? Honestly Prongs if you ever take any advice from me, let it be this” (prongs is his name due to the antler headband that he drunkly wore and stole on multiple occasions)
Remus- kind compassionate Remus- “they’ve been dating since year 11 James, it’s time to move on” -is not his friend anymore “Wow. I really thought you of all of men kind Remus would understand”
Sirius cuts in again "you know what scratch my thing you are never going to get laid I mean what the fuck did you just say?" He then continues to mock him (with an impressive imitation of James) "of all men kind"
"Alright jeez what should I do then?"
"Find someone else, we're not saying bloody marry them but you have got to stop this obsession. Like Creepily running after her this morning half dresses"
"You did what" Remus it seems is shocked (and is that concern?"
Peter finally looks up, able to shed some light on this situation and defend James like a true frie- "That's fucked up mate" (Sirius' small "thank you" and high five with Peter is really just the cherry on top"
"That's not what happened! She wasn't weirded out" they all look at him and he shrinks in defeat. (Potter's don't give up- except for that one guy on his dad's side that gave up because he was only Indian family member who didn't have aspirations to become a doctor.) but besides that Potter's don't give up. "Fine what should I do"
"You could date dorcas?" Now they all look at Peter with confusion
"Pete have you been living under a rock? Marlene and Dorcas have been dating for months"
"Really?"
Sirius ignores him and rubs his hands together before scanning everyone whose eating lunch before muttering a small "bingo" (James is quite curious to see who he says) That is before he proposes that James should ask out Mary McDonald “are you bloody crazy!”
Meet Mary McDonald- a girl in his maths set that completely terrifies James. (He once stutters when she asked if she could borrow his glue and had ended up rolling her eyes and muttering “never mind”) she was notorious for not giving a shit and it was known that she hated footballers or anyone that took part in sports (seeing as he was the captain she had a feeling that wouldn’t go down that well) “the girl hates me Sirius, and I’m terrified, there was once a rumour that she went into the boys changing rooms and took all the clothes and burned them, are you hearing this Burned them and that was before I was captain” his whisper shouting getting louder with his apprehension “not to mention she actually likes maths!”
“Uh I swear you like maths-“
“Not now Pete, and it’s different I don’t like it I’m just good at it, she likes it!” Both Remus and Sirius roll their eyes
“Jeez will you relax my god.” Sirius says, the picture of grace and calmness “she’s fit and you would look good together” Remus sighs
“sorry love, but gotta agree with James on this one. Mmm what about Pandora”
“You mean Pandora, as in Pandora that walks into glass doors on the regular no offence but that girl is on crack, there is no way she isn’t high all the time” Suffice to say, they go through every girl in the hall with no luck.
Also suffice to say of course it’s Lily Evans herself that helps.
she’s in history when she feels something hit the back of her head. It’s a small piece of paper which says “yo Evans”
she looks around to see Sirius lounging in the back, leaning on his chair and not at all listening to what the teacher is saying, she looks at him with confusion and he smirks before hitting her right in the face
Sirius Black too has no regard for the safety precautions set for an angry lily Evans
“I need your help setting James up with someone, got any friends?” (It really shouldn’t feel like a punch to the gut) she swallows (her mouth has gone dry) and scribbles hastily
”no why?”
”um because I want to set him up? Duh?” She looks back to see him lifting his eyebrows at her
”does he want to be set up”
“irrelevant “
”yeah then no, nope got know friends”
”ik you have no friends (kinda sad)
”haha”
”I’m hilarious I know”
she thought that would be the end but no. (Another similarity between Sirius and James is persistence) Sirius catches up with her at the end of the lesson
“Oi Evans" and then he's asking her and she doesn't know what to say. He smiles (knowingly) "unless Evans there is a reason why you wouldn't want your lonely friend to have someone. Just one date"
And seriously what the hell can she say to that, because there is no reason why she should be against the idea is there? She sighs "I'll talk to Ellie"
Meet Eloise Midgen- she's part of the cheerleading team (a stupid 'sport' in Lily's eyes) and has golden hair that is annoyingly perfect, gracious etcetera, etcetera
And her and James would be the golden couple, football captain and cheerleader, blonde and brunette. And fuck why does this bother her so much?
She meets up with her in their next free period, and (of course) just as she asks, her (sweet amazing) boyfriend shows up “Wait your setting her up with Potter” is his (oh so helpful) input to the conversation Ellie looks unsure, so (of course) being the nice guy he is, Benjy looks at her comfortably and says "hey, why don’t we go on a double date that way it doesn’t have to be so awkward” someone fucking kill her now
James is sitting on Lily’s bed as she gets ready for their double date. She seems more aggravated than normal, and he can’t help but feel she is annoyed with him (more annoyed than usual)
“god I don’t know what to wear, what are you wearing?” She hasn’t properly looked him in the eye since she told him about the idea (he will kill Sirius later)
right now he has to get through this dinner, try and get to know Ellie (she seems lovely) without getting distracted by Lily and Benjy also having a date
this is pure torture, having to watch the person you love go on a date and have to pretend everything is fine.
he texts Sirius again, another middle finger emoji and (what he hopes) is an intimidating picture of himself glaring (it isn't and Remus and Sirius have pissed their pants laughing at them)
"I don't know probably my baggy jeans and what maybe my red shirt think that's ok" and she stops, puts down the (huge) bundle of clothes in her hands
She really does look very cute (illegally adorable) her hair is in a messy bun, strands of Auburn curls framing her face, and she wears his baggy Manchester United jumper (his favourite that he gave to her years ago which somehow is still.big on her- could have to do with the fact that he is 6'1 and she is 5'6)
"you're wearing a shirt" she sounds faint
"Uh yeah, Why something wrong with that” she clears her throat and looks down shaking her head
”no no of course not, it’s just Benjy’s never worn a shirt to a date before”
“oh I don’t know, but you know what mum is like she will bloody murder me if I go out in what jeans and a t-shirt?” He snorts at the idea
she smiled shyly, as if telling a huge secret “he sometimes wears joggers” the gasp that escapes him is not fake in the slightest (he is exaggerating again- it is fake)
“how dare he! Oh god does mum know about this? She most definitely wouldn’t have approved of him dating you otherwise”
“shove off” and she smiles before joining him on the bed and leaning her head on his shoulder. (The relief he feels that she’s not mad is the reason for the huge creepy smile) “what?” she turns to look up at him, chin resting on his shoulder
he looks down at her fondly (maybe a little too fondly) and smiles softly “nothing” and they both just sit there staring at one another and he hears her breath catch but before he can even begin to understand what that means-
the telltale sign of Benjy honking his car startles them and they both jump “shit we’re not ready” and she’s pushing him into the bathroom, throwing his (nicely ironed) shirt (thanks to his mum) before they are both running to the door shouting bye
"be a gentleman James honey!" And of course just as they are about the close the door "remember to use condoms" (his mum- the devil) lily snorts as he winces in embarrassment.
"god that never gets old" she says
"shove off" and he is steeling himself, preparing himself for what lies ahead. someone fucking kill him now
"so, what's your favourite meal?" (he tries not to cringe, he really does) but who asks that question?
"um I guess I would have to go with saag paneer" Ellie looks at him blankly and he smiles "it's uh well god it sounds really bad in English but it's like spinach and like tones of greens and cheese" she nods her head "yeah, it's not everyone's cup of tea"
"what isn't?" Lily has just cut in for which James is grateful. he's sitting opposite her with Ellie beside him and Benjy across
"saag paneer" Lily immediately smiles
"fuck your mum's version is so bloody good" and he looks down smiling (fuck he loves her, has he mentioned that?) she looks at Ellie "his mum's cooking is divine honestly her Indian food is so good"
"cool, maybe I can try it sometime" (he really wishes he liked her) he smiles "sure" but it's strained
And lily is looking at him weirdly, there is a look in her eyes and he can't place it, he only realises they've been staring at each other (way) too long when Benjy clears his throat and Lily immediately turns away from him. (she doesn't make eye contact after that)
he gets a text from Sirius: how's it going loverboy?
to which he replies "fuck off" (besides he knows it's going bad the prick)
Bmejy is looking at her with concern, and James is looking at her with both (increasing) amounts of desperation and also as if she is crazy
neither is very comforting at the moment. because she is panicking (as in is sure she is one stop away from having a panic attack in Nando's or breaking down and crying in Nando's) she doesn't want to ruin her Nando's, it sacred. and why does she keep saying Nando's?
Something valid to be mentioned, Lily Evans is extremely good at denial and avoiding her feelings (most of the time) so it could be said that it felt like some huge revelation (when really everyone has known for ages now) when she realises that she likes James Potter.
As in, just now when talking about him mum's food she realises how bloody easy it is with him, and how wrong it is to seem him sitting there talking with bloody Eloise Midgen (her own fault she knows) she doesn't actually dislike the girl.
and now she doesn't know what to do.
because (of course) it Is James, James with his stupid antler headband and stupid hair and stupid grin. he just gets her, he's always (without a doubt) been there for her, and she has always been there for him.
James who loves his mother openly with no shame (Benjy kicks her out of his room whenever she checks in) and James who can ramble on about anything, and James who does stupid (kind, generous) things like giving her his favourite football jumper when she is sad, and lets her bloody smell him because (although he teases her about it) he knows its comforting
James who despite being popular, and having friends never left her behind, and always gets her and if she wanted to do something dangerous he wouldn't stop her "Lils, it's dangerous maybe I should go first" he would bloody give her the push of courage to do it first.
James her best friend, her neighbour next door (who is incredibly fit), her favourite person, her person.
and she loves him, loves him something awful and blinding and real (no etcetera)
she loves him and she needs to tell him before he does something stupid like fall in love with Eloise first. But then their eyes meet and she just knows, (don't bloody ask her the how's or why's about it) she just knows that he feels the same, that he has always felt the same, as if he has been waiting for her to catch up.
waiting so bloody patiently, and she needs to break up with Bnejy, and she needs to leave now before she does something stupid like tell the world that she is undeniably and irrevocably in love with James Potter, her best friend.
she stands up, and she is still looking at him (she pull her eyes away) "I-" they all look at her "imm sorry, I have to go" and then she is running out the door, something new (but has always been there) something fresh (but as old as time itself) nestling within her, breaking out of her, burning so ferocious she can't breath. (she has never breathed so freely)
Two weeks is the longest they have gone without speaking (it's been two weeks since the double date) which ended suddenly and awkwardly (Sirius had laughed himself silly- the bastard)
lily hadn't replied to any of his messages, but he had heard (as had the rest of the school) that she had broken up with Benjy
She had broken up with Benjy, and he wanted, he needed to speak with her (he was choking with the need for it) but he would wait, he had waited years and he would wait. because the best things deserved to be waited for, because the most precious things need to be handled with care.
A fact you are probably dying to know: Lily makes the first move.
she's at his door and he's pulling her inside in seconds, hugging her, asking if she is ok, telling him he's sorry about Benjy (he's sorry she is hurt- that's not a lie) and she's taking his hand and dragging him to his room where clothes are everywhere and she turns and tells him to sit down. and she paces, (and it all seems very similar to their 'argument' about grades in English. but he isn't laughing this time)
"right, ok right. you must have questions and I just need-" she takes a deep breath and looks at him, taking his tanned hands in her pale ones, and they fit so bloody good. "I haven't replied to your messages, because I couldn't see you because the moment I saw you I knew that I wouldn't be able to stop myself"
and his breathe catches, and his heart races "stop yourself from doing what?" he doesn't think he has ever been so quiet, and then she is placing herself on his lap and he can't think.
"stop myself from- from kissing the life out of you"
"wanna kill me do you"
"potter"
"evans"
"I'm in love with you"
"oh"
"oh?" and she's pulling away, panic in her eyes but he grabs her hands (because he can't have messed this up already)
"wait-shit, sorry I was- I'm surprised"
"oh? ok"
"Evans" and he takes her face in his hands, and his thumb is smoothing over her cheekbone with such love and tender, unable to understand how lucky he is, how he has managed to have this beauty in his hands. "I've been in love with you for forever" and she exhales a puff of air and he gulps. "like I knew the moment you told those dickheads off for taking my ice cream and absolutely lobbing it as his face" she laughs nodding along with the memory
"you remember that?"
"I remember everything when it comes to you" and she smiles softly back at him
"that's why I left the date, because I couldn't be there anymore, I couldn't sit there on that table knowing it was with the wrong person. you James Potter, you are bloody hell, you are my everything, my best friend, my person and I just- i'm sorry it look me so long"
"don't apologise" he grins "I didn't mind watching. besides I knew you would come around" when she looks at him confusion a smirk takes over his features "When you would watch me get dressed? yeah Lils you weren't that sneaky about it"
"Oi!" and she is absolutely red (beautiful) "you knew about that? and you didn't say anything" and he laughs and she laughs, head in her hands "James?"
"hm?" he's getting lost in her eyes (it's cringey and cliche but fuck he can't think)
"kiss me before I attack you with an ice cream" and he chuckles
"what if I don't"
"I would suggest you listen to everyone's warnings and run" and then he kisses her, (maybe slightly too hard) but she gasps and threads her fingers through his hair.
and fuck it was without a doubt, absolutely, most definitely worth the wait. they pull apart, and she is biting her lip watching him. and she brushes the hair out of his eyes
"I love your eyes" she says it so softly, so earnestly and his heart absolutely melts. "it was you" she carries on, resting her forehead on his, "it was going to be you all along"
he's about to say something (and it isn't going to be complete mush) when the door bangs open and they turn to Effie holding a tray of biscuits, absolutely grinning from ear to ear shouting "Fleamont, Oi Fleamont get your arse up here it's happened! it's finally happened, Oh and bring the camera!" and behind him is Sirius, recording the whole thing doubled over in laughter, and lily flushed red, hiding her face in his chest as he groans
"mum!"
before he can say anything she is tittering again
"Look at the filth in this room, Lily dear don't let my son touch you until this room has been disinfected, honestly dont-"
"mum can you not-" and then Fleamont is at the door, applauding Sirius ("well done my boy!") and James sighs before cupping Lily's chin to meet her eyes and she is beaming, absolutely beaming
"it's not too late to back out now" he warns and she presses her lips to his cheek
"I wouldn't change this for the world" before moving to sit beside him and pose whilst his mum orders them to look this way and that for the camera (now tilt your head darling, oh you look beautiful!) and (honestly James you could have at least neatened your hair) and (is that a crease in your shirt?")
fin