the goblin king costume
Three Pretty Best Friends
[08:02] lads
babes
my soulmate + james
[08:03] kinda rude but alright
what do you need x
[08:03] mmfleeping
levae me alotnr
[08:03] that’s Remus for “i’m sleeping leave me alone”
i’ll message you in priv x
[08:03] okie dokie babes x
[08:03] anyways, prongsie i need ur advice
[08:04] with what? x
[08:04] i really want to talk to my sister y’know
make sure she’s okay
but she keeps like, not showing up when i invite her over
am i doing something wrong?
[08:05] so
obviously i don’t know her at all
but from what i can tell, it seems like she doesn’t like the idea of it being a group thing
have you considered asking her to do something with just the two of you?
[08:05] that makes sense
i have not, i just do better when i’m not alone
[08:06] but she might do better when you two are alone
it might be uncomfortable
but it might be what you need to get through to her
[08:06] i understand
why are you so smart james x
i don’t even know the catalyst for her leaving our parent’s house y’know?
like i know she left but i have no idea why
[08:07] i know it has nothing to do with me
but that’s it
it sucks cuz i want to know why she left so bad
but i don’t know how to start the conversation
[08:08] have you tried over text? that might be easier for both of you
i don’t mean to sound mean but you’re shit at talking your feelings out in person
case in point: you’re texting me about this instead of like, calling me or asking in person
[08:09] touché, prongs x
i’d try over text but she’s normally really short over text and it sucks
idk
should i try?
[08:09] maybe not right now
it’s pretty early
but maybe tomorrow, try it x
[08:10] what would i do without you babes x
[08:10] die i think xx
[08:10] u right x
[11:43] good
afternoon? morning?
dunno
i’ve just woken up
[11:44] good “almost noon” to you as well
your friend pandora stole my number from your phone btw x
[11:44] that bitch
we were drinking and she had my phone LMAO
[11:45] you were drinking?
and you didn’t even drunk text me?
i’m offended, reg!
i drunk texted you in our FIRST conversation
[11:46] that’s true
but i get really sappy when i’m drunk
so i make her take my phone so i don’t spam anyone with sappy texts
cuz they’re quite annoying
[11:46] i wouldn’t think they’re annoying ;(
i’ve been told i’m a flirty drunk
but also an overly emotional drunk
[11:47] that’s not surprising at all
considering i told you i wasn’t your friend and you told me to STOP FUCKING WITH YOU
[11:47] HELP IM STILL SO EMBARRASSED BY THAT NIGHT AHAHA
it’s so tragic that i acted like that
i apologize i’m horrible
[11:48] i don’t mind, honestly
god my fucking head hurts
[11:48] have you eaten anything?
[11:49] no
dorcas wants to order mcdonald’s
i simultaneously want food and also want to throw up
hangovers on testosterone are awful
[11:49] that sucks
im sorry
my mum’s dahi puri is what i normally have when i’m hungover
works wonders
[11:50] that sounds so good
i think i’m gonna go devour like seven egg mcmuffins
[11:50] have fun with your mcmuffins x
[11:51] thaaanks xx
Regulus Black Defense Squad
[14:39] pandora lestrange
i have a fucking bone to pick with you
[14:39] WHAT DID I DO
oh
wait
[14:40] YEAH “OH”
WHY DID YOU TAKE JAMES’ NUMBER FROM MY PHONE
[14:40] LMAOOOJDHDKDJD
[14:41] LISTEN MAN
WHY DID HE RAT ME OUT LIKE THAT
WHAT A SNITCH
I JUST WANTED TO HAVE HIS NUMBER
plus if YOU didn’t want to drunk text him then I WANTED TO
[14:42] pandora i fucking hate you
honestly
he texted me this morning and told me
[14:42] fuck that guy
[14:42] what did you even need his number for
[14:43] pandora if you did anything fucked up
im killing myself and haunting you
[14:43] …
do you remember dorcas’ halloween party
[14:44] SHUT UP
[14:44] PANDORA YOU DID NOT
THE ONE OF ME DRESSED UP LIKE JARETH FROM LABYRINTH???
[14:45] NO BUT NOW I’LL SEND HIM THAT ONE LMAOOO
no the year before that, when you were a devil
i sent him the one of you, wasted, cuddling with dorcas’ cat
[14:46] my god i hate you
i was so fucking drunk in that photo
ur awful
[14:46] maybe next time i throw a party pandora can invite james ;)
[14:47] dorcas ur so smart my love <3
[14:48] i will leave this gc
i swear to god
[14:48] we know where you live
we’ll just come to you
[14:49] so true!
[14:51] fuck you both x
i’m at my limit x
[19:12] < Attachment: 1 Link >
good song
[19:13] you like phoebe bridgers as well?
[19:13] i love her!
[19:14] at least i know you have good taste now
what other music do you like
[19:14] i listen to a lot of the beatles, david bowie, queen, abba, taylor swift, hozier
and phoebe, obviously
[19:15] gay people music, i see
[19:15] KSDJKD
yea i guess so x
what about you?
[19:16] i listen to the same bands as you, but i also listen to like
aerosmith and elton john
and queen
i listen to a concerning amount of music from the muppets :|
[19:17] honestly you don’t strike me as a muppets fan
you seem more like a
death metal don’t come in my room its not a phase mom person
[19:18] that too, i just prefer to spare myself the embarrassment of telling people i used to stan my chemical romance in my early teen years
but since you called me out for it, now you know
[19:19] LMAODJEKD
what’s ur favorite muppets movie?
[19:20] muppets movie? the original from 1979
but out of all of jim henson’s movies, labyrinth is probably my favorite
[19:21] is it because of jareth
[19:21] it’s because of jareth
i dressed up as him for halloween one year
[19:22] SHUT UP
show me right now i swear to god
[19:22] NO ITS HIDEOUS
ITS SO EMBARRASSING AHAHAHA
THEY GAVE ME A FAKE BULGE AND WVERYTHING
[19:23] NO THEY DIDN’T AHAHAH
was this pandora’s doing
oh my god wait i have her number
[19:24] NO
[19:24] PANDORA IGNORE JAMES IF HE TEXTS YOU
[19:24] what the fuck why
[19:25] hello my favorite person ever x
[19:26] reg told me to ignore you
what did he bring up
what do they not want you to know
[19:26] to be honest they brought this onto himself
anyways
so he dressed up as jareth for halloween?
[19:27] YES THEY DID
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[19:27] PANDORA I LOVE YOU
[19:28] you looked great as jareth x
[19:28] im gonna squish pandora like a fucking bug next time i see her
i’m taller than her i can do it
[19:29] how tall is she?
[19:29] she’s 5’7
i’m 5’10 but i wear tall shoes a lot
[19:30] i’m 6’1
[19:30] jesus you fucking Tree
[19:30] LMAO HELP
honestly though your costume was great
kinda hot ngl
dorcas was sarah?
[19:31] yeah she was
we tried to make pandora be hoggle
but she ended up being sweeny todd and mrs lovett with an old friend
[19:32] ah
[19:32] she wants to be pinocchio and the blue fairy this year tho
[19:33] why pinocchio?
oh wait
[19:33] “i wanna be a real boy”
can you tell i hate her sometimes
[19:34] i feel bad for laughing
but thats so fucking funny regulus
[19:34] be careful with pandora
or she’ll make you be geppetto
[19:35] yeah fuck that i dont want to be your father figure
[19:35] it’d do wonders for my daddy issues x
[19:35] KHHKSDHJF
[20:03] hey
how’s your night so far?
[20:03] hi
it’s been pretty good, how’s yours been?
[20:04] it’s been good
i’m pretty shit at doing this over text, but i feel like we have a lot of unresolved tension between us and i just want to know if there’s anything i can do to start resolving everything.
[20:06] what is there to resolve?
[20:07] a lot. like, a lot. i hurt you when i left, yeah?
[20:07] obviously, sirius. you left me alone with our abusive, homophobic parents, that’s gonna fucking hurt.
[20:08] as if you weren’t their favourite, mate.
[20:09] are you fucking kidding me?
sirius i was never their favourite. they hated both of us.
[20:10] they had children out of an obligation, not because they loved each other. they’re incapable of that. i was always the second choice. the backup child. when you left, and they couldn’t abuse the kid that they wanted to abuse, they just put it all onto me. the only reason they never hurt me when you were there is because they forgot about me half the time, not because they liked me.
[20:12] you have no fucking clue what happened to me while i was living with them because you never cared to learn. not until right now, for some reason. i know why you left, sirius; you left because you couldn’t stay. not for me, not for our parents, not for yourself. and i respect that. but you’ve never cared to learn why i left.
[20:13] so i’m sorry that i was their “favourite,” or whatever you want to think.
[20:15] can i call you?
[20:16] even if i say no, you’ll do it anyways.
[ Incoming Call ]
sirius black
[ Accept ] [ Decline ]
“Hi.”
“Hello.”
“Your voice sounds different.”
“...does it?”
“It does. Are you sick?”
“No.”
“Oh.”
“...”
“...”
“Why did you want to call me?”
“Right. Sorry. I…fuck, I’m shit at doing this. Uh. I’m not going to sit here and pretend like I didn’t mean it when I said that you were their favourite. I did mean it. I only said it because I felt like it was true. But now I know that it’s not.”
“If you’re trying to apologise, you’re doing a shit job at it.”
“Fuck. Look, what I’m trying to say is that…fuck, I don’t know what I’m trying to say. I feel bad that I assumed you wouldn’t get any shit from them after I left.”
“…”
“It was stupid of me to assume that they wouldn’t just…treat you the same way they treated me. I should have known they wouldn’t stop. I don’t know. I’m not very good at this.”
“I can tell.”
“Have you always been this annoying?”
“Yes. I suppose it’s been so long that you’ve forgotten.”
“...I, yeah, you’re right. It has been a long time, hasn’t it? A few years at least.”
“The last time I remember seeing you is the day you left.”
“Do you remember when we rode our bikes down to the corner shop to get some sweets that day?”
“From Honeydukes in Hogsmeade? Yeah. All because mum told us we couldn’t, our family was too dignified to act so childish. You fell off your bike on the way back. Scraped your knee up pretty bad if I remember correctly.”
“Yeah, it took like, a month for it to heal properly. I love that memory, though. It’s like, the last time I remember being a real kid.”
“...”
“...”
“I have a question.”
“What’s up?”
“Why did you never tell me where you went when you left?”
“...well. I think I never said anything because I was scared of mum and dad finding out, I guess. I didn’t want them to hurt you if they found out that you knew where I was. It was hard enough with Bella at school, I had to tread carefully when we went home.”
“That’s fair. I haven’t spoken to any of them in awhile, but Bella’s only gotten worse. She’s married now, though, which is weird.”
“Really? Jesus.”
“Yeah, to that weird Greyback guy she dated in school. Andy’s got a kid now, too. A daughter. I still talk to her sometimes.”
“Holy shit, really?”
“Yep. Her name’s Nymphadora, but they call her Dora. Ted picked the name out.”
“Fuck, I’ve missed a lot. I wish I still kept in contact with them.”
“She misses you.”
“I miss her too.”
“…”
“…”
“There’s a lot we still need to work through. I’m not going to sit here and pretend like we’re okay, because we’re not. But hopefully we can start to work through everything, rather than sit here and pretend like nothing happened.”
“I agree. I’m sorry I left, if it’s worth anything.”
“I appreciate it. Thank you.”
“Of course. I love you, sœur.”
“...yeah, I love you too.”
“Talk soon, yeah?”
“Yep. Talk soon.”
[ Call ended ]
[21:03] talking about feelings is bullshit
i bet you’re good at it
you seem like you are
[21:04] i wouldn’t say i’m good at it
my mum taught me that feeling things isn’t bad, i guess
it’s not something to be ashamed of, and if you need to talk about it, then you shouldn’t feel scared of it
[21:06] what’s your mum like?
[21:07] my mum is the kindest woman you’ll ever meet
honestly
she’s like. a ray of sunshine in human form.
she loves to cook for people. if you ever came over she would feed you until you exploded, honestly.
she knits me scarves and mittens for christmas every year, she says that i don’t dress properly for the cold
[21:08] that’s sweet
[21:08] yeah i’m thankful i have a mum like her :)
what about you?
[21:08] oh man
she was the worst lmaooo
[21:09] really? how so?
[21:09] there’s a lot, do you really want to know
[21:09] i have time darling x
[21:13] alright. both her and my father were abusive. my brother ran away when he was a teenager, but he left me behind. i still sort of resent him for it. they never really hurt me, but after he left, they gave all their unwanted attention to me. shortly after he left is when i realized i was trans, so i ordered a cheap pair of clippers online and cut my own hair. she didn’t like that, grounded me for six months and banned me from doing anything to my appearance because of it. wouldn’t let me eat, wouldn’t let me go anywhere. so as soon as i turned 18, and i had the money they had saved for me to go to school with, i cut them off and ran away too.
[21:16] holy shit reg
i’m so sorry you had to go through that
[21:17] it’s alright
i’m still working through a lot of the trauma, i need to find a therapist honestly lol
but it’s alright
[21:18] if it’s worth anything, i’m proud of you. i don’t know the whole story, but i’m proud that you were able to leave. your mum sounds like a bitch.
[21:20] thank you, james. that means a lot. and you’re correct, she is a bitch.
[21:21] i really mean it. it’s a brave thing to do.
[21:21] thank you.
i think i should go to bed
i’ve got an early day tomorrow
goodnight james :) x
[21:22] goodnight reg :) xxxx <33
[21:23] dorcas
can i call you
[21:23] sure yeah
[ Incoming Call ]
reggie <3
[ Accept ] [ Decline ]
“Hi.”
“What’s up, mate?”
“…how did you come out to your family?”
“…well. It was hard. I just…sent them a text, basically explaining everything I was comfortable with telling them. They were fine with me being a lesbian, though.”
“…”
“Is this about Sirius?”
“Yeah, it is. We talked tonight, and I really need to tell him that I’m trans. I know he’ll be okay with it, it’s just terrifying because of how bad it went with my mum and dad.”
“I get it. Tell him when you’re ready, mate. If you’re that stressed about it, Pandora and I can come over and we’ll plan something out together.”
“Dorcas, how would I survive without you two?”
“You wouldn’t. You’d still be eating ramen and crisps from the petrol station.”
“You’re so right. I love you.”
“I love you too, Reg. Now go to bed.”
“It’s not even that late.”
“And you’ll somehow find a way to stay up until 4 if I don’t make you go to bed now.”
“…fair. Goodnight, Cas.”
“Night, Reggie.”