Third year -Animagus
Remus Lupin
Remus wakes up, unclothed and cold. His body’s shivering so much he feels like throwing up. His hand immediately goes to his chest that lays a fresh jagged cut. Dragging down him.
“Fuck” Remus hisses, His hand now covered in blood. He can see his breath cloud up in the air as he sits up. As he feels his body beg him not too.
He reaches under the bed to the first aid kit instantly grabbing the gauze and wrapping it around his chest. He bites down on his lip as he reaches to the end of his bed for pajamas.
Remus puts on his pajamas and wraps his blanket around him, he huddles against the wall, his knees to his burning chest. As he waits for madam pomfrey. He drives back to sleep before he hears footsteps approach
“Oh remus” madam pomfrey clicks her tongue to the roof of her mouth . “I was telling Dumbledore we should get a heater in here. I didn’t think it’d get cold so quickly . It’s only mid October.”
Remus doesn’t respond before she opens her mouth again.
“Are you alright dear?
“What do you think?” he spits back.
“ Do you need a potion? I’ve got-“
“It’s getting worse again.” Remus interrupts his voice, trembling. “I want my mom”
“I know sweetheart. You’ll be home soon enough and then you’ll see her”
“No I won’t” tears fall down Remus’s wet cheeks.
“Remus-“
“No, can I just go. “ Remus stands up, tightening the blanket around him so madam pomfrey can’t see the blood seeping through his clothes.
Madam pomfrey hands him a potion, Remus brings it to his lips chugging the potion that’ll never not twist his stomach.
“Okay dear, come on” she wraps her arm around his shoulder leading him back to hogwarts.
“Remus!” shouts his friends” Remus plummets to bed.
“Remus isn’t feeling well you all should go back to your dorm” madam promfrey
“Moons, what’s wrong? Did you give him a potion? I know he says their gross . But they make him feel better “ Sirius rambles.
“Yes I did. I mean it , you'll be able to see him later . But now he needs his rest”
“Thank you madam pomfrey, will just be back later” James adds in.
“Don’t go” Remus stretches his arm out to reach them not even sure where they are. His eyes hardly stay open.
The room stays silent , making Remus wonder if they already left. Or that they were even here in the first place.
“We’re right here moony” sirisu whispers from beside him, grabbing his hand that’s still reached out over the bed.
“I’m here” he adds. Giving his hand a squeeze Remus drifts back to sleep again. He can hardly feel the stinging in his chest anymore.
***
“Remus” Sirius whispers. Remus opens his eyes, and the infirmary is dim. Sirius is sitting right beside him, wiping the hair from Remus’s forehead . Sirius’s hand is cold but Remus doesn’t mind it. He actually finds a bit of comfort at his touch
“What time is it” Remus asks groggily.
“I’d say like six. James and Peter just went down to get you dinner. And madam pomfrey said she was going over to Mcgonagalls, and to just call her if anything happens. So that means I get to use her phone.” Sirius takes his hand away from Remus’s face as he rambles. “You alright?” Sirius asks.
“Fine. Have you been here all day?” Questions Remus as he sits up.
“Remus, what happened “ Sirius stands up. His eyes go to Remus’s chest.
Fuck.
“Nothing, I’m fine”Remus brings his blanket back over his chest. His blood is as clear as day through his shirt.
“It’s not nothing. Remus “ Sirius walks around the room looking for something l he grabs something off madam pomfrey's desk. It's a first aid.
He heads to Remus’s bed and closes the curtain around it. “I don’t know any healing charms, but I am pretty good at bandages” sirius sits at the end of his bed. “Come on , sit up”
Remus sits up more and his blanket drops off his torso. “Now take your shirt off”
“Sirius-“
“Remus” Sirius says firmly. Remus start’s unbuttoning his shirt and he hears Sirius breath goes still. “Oh moons, why didn’t you say anything? “ Sirius’s eyes are on the bloody bandages covering his jagged cut .
Remus doesn’t answer. Sirius starts unwrapping the gauze. Trying to keep his breath from being too heavy.
Remus’s stomach is tied up in knots now. And they tighten more and more by the second.
His eyes connect with Siriuss blood stained hands, reaching into the first aid. He grabs out rubbing alcohol .
“Now this is going to sting,” Sirius whispers. He wet a cloth with it . He reaches to put it on Remus’s chest. But hesitates to rub it against his skin .
“Just get it over with Sirius”
Sirius takes a deep breath before rubbing the alcohol over his open skin.the stinging sensation takes over his body. He bites on his lip until it’s over.
“Okay” Sirius Sirius turns to the kit again, grabbing the gauze. “I need to do it tightly or it won’t work. “
Sirius starts wrapping his chest before Remus starts talking. “Where did you learn how to do this stuff “
“It doesn’t matter” Sirius dismisses and continues with the gauze.
“You should've told madam Pomfrey, she could’ve fixed you up in a second.”
Remus frowns slightly. “I’m tired of being a burden”
Sirius’s hands stop and he looks up to remus. “You’re not a burden”
Remus moves his eyes to his right, to avoid looking at Sirius. Sirius finishes wrapping the gauze.
“I don’t want you to think you’re a burden, because you’re not. Alright?
Remus stays silent and he can tell Sirius doesn't know what to add. The room is quiet and he decides to keep it like that.
“Y’know me and the boys have been reading about Animagus‘s recently. And I think it would be a great idea.”
“Why would you want to be an animagus?” Remus questions.
“We could help you, during the moons-“
It takes Remus a moment to register what Sirius is suggesting.
“No. absolutely not”
“Moony-“ sirius protests
“No! You think I want you getting hurt. Them getting hurt. .” Remus stands up and points at Sirius .
“It’s better than sitting here and watching you get hurt” Sirius looks as though he’s pushing back tears.
“No it’s not. It’s too dangerous . I don’t need your help” Remus grabs his shirt and starts buttoning it back up.
“You should go Sirius l there’s no need for you to be here any longer . “
Sirius frowns slightly. “Fine.” Sirius bolts up and storms out the room.
Remus feels like he’s going to throw up. Why can’t they just not Care? How stupid. Turning into an animagus to protect him. That’s the last thing he wants.
He wishes they didn’t care. Maybe it’d be easier .