First year- late night
Remus's Lupin
Remus couldn't be more anxious ever in his life. What's going to happen here ? How will he deal with being a werewolf in a school full of people. And how ever will he hide the fact hes A werewolf?" . Remus cant breath he feels my chest tighten at the thought it
There's so many questions Remud doesn't know the answer to . And now now he has people around him all the time. How will he be able to hide this from them if they 're constantly want to around him.
"Mr. Lupin, there is this house, well its more of a shack and you will stay there during your transitions" she says .
Mr. Lupin , Remus's last name, it just reminds him of his father. And how he let this happen tohim, he's the reason Remus even has to be here in the first place , worrying about how I'll survive going here.
All because of him
"Can you please just call me by my firstname?" Remus ask Madam Promfrey "Of course sweetie" she smiles with empathy , and remus forces himself to show a smile.
"Now, Remus let me show you through the process, we will put you in there before the full moon appears, we will lock it up and put a charm around the shack for extra security" she says looking through some files .
"Got it" Remus says. its better than the arrangement Remus has back at home. Which s just a cellar surrounded by silver so he wont escape. Remus's Mum has been sick for a while. so she hasnt been able to be there before the transition, to tell him it'll be alright. Remus is glad that people here know about this kind of stuff so he guesses this situation will be a bit more barrable.
"Do you think I can maybe get some blankets in there ? I get cold after transforming back" he ask after .
No mater if its Summer or Spring Remus still gets cold. Remus thinks its because he goes from having fur to not having fur. "Of coarse, Dear , I'll have all of things you will need in there, if you need anything you just tell me, Remus" she says putting her hand on Remus's shoulder looking down to him . "Okay, thankyou" Remus mutters swallowing the lump in his throat. "Anytime Remus, you're not alone here".
Oh if only that was true, Remus is alone, He's Alone here in that shack, and he's alone at home in that cellar . He is alone.
On his way out she says "Remus , if you don't feel comfortable with anything just tell me ill find a way to fix it" she says .
i don’t feel comfortable being a werewolf. Can you fix that? . Remus thinks , his chest tightens at his mindset.
"Alright , have a good night" Remus swallows dryly. “Goodnight Remus" she smiles.
Remus gets to his dorm and sees Sirius James and Peter giggling like a lot of school girls. Remus sighs.
"remus!!" The three boys say in unison. "isnt it fantastic we're all sharing a dorm?" James cheers.
"Yeah fantastic" Remus replies with sarcasm basically dripping off of his tongue . "what are you lot giggling about anyways?" he asks.
"Well its great you asked Remus" Sirius stands up . Oh god. "Drum roll please" James and Peter start taping there hands against the floor like drums.
"I . Have. An. Idea" Sirius says with pauses in between words " well, Go on " Remus says blankly , he crossed his arms in front of him.
" Well, Remus, I can't tell you if you're being rude" he says with a grin with head leaning to the side. Does he always have that stupid grin on his face?
"Fine" Remus gives in, a dull expression on his face .
Sirius smile widens "Yay!". He cheers. then Remus says"I don't want to know" Remus says bluntly, Sirius blinks at his response , before starting back up.
"Oh come on Remus, lighten up" Sirius insists, Remus walks over to an empty bed and assumes it’s his. Sirius follows him, like a stray dog.
"No" says remus, crossin his arms. "Remus, please?" he holds his hands together . "Ugh fine , but only to shut you up" Remus gets up from his bed. "Great" Sirius says.
"Now Remus , this is now a pack and you have to join it" he says "A pack?" questions remus. James and Peter get up and Sirius steps back and puts his arms around them.
"James and Peter are already in it" they all smile . "What?" Remus drags a hand down his face.
"We were all talking and since we all have the same house, and we're in the same dormitory, we might as well become friends , what do you say Remus?" James adjusts his glasses and holds out his hand for him to shake.
Remus sighs, this is exactly the opposite of what he wanted to happen. Them getting attached can't happen , they'll ask where he is during the full moons and about his scars.
He can't let them know, everyone will hate him, they'll all think hes a freak. "No" Remus states bluntly "Oh, c'mon Remus" James says and drops his hand.
"I'm going to sleep you have fun with your 'pack' " Remus says mockingly , going to the loo to change into his pajamas. He comes back and sits on his bead closing his bed curtains.
One More Week till the full moon. Remus cant help but worry about this , The wolf doesn't react well to new things and will tear him apart.
He tries to go to sleep but he hear James and Sirius talking "He'll come around don't worry about it , we've got seven years to swoon him" James jokes
Remus rolls his eyes when he says swoon like a teen girl in a film . "swoon him" Sirius snorts "I guess you're right, goodnight" Sirius says and heads to bed. "Goodnight, mate" James says and heads to bed as well.
***
Sirius's Black
Sirius cant sleep. he cant stop thinking about home. Sirius doesnt think hecan never go home again. His mother will kill him when she hears the news whether he tell her or not.
He cant face her. Gryffindor, why couldn't it be Slytherin, Its not like he cares what house he could’ve been, but his parents are not a very reasonable people . They’re not going to be okay with this. They’re going to do what they always do, and Sirius know this is normal, every child has to deal with this, so why does it bug him so much? Why des he want to stop it from happening? It happends to everyone
his mother hates him enough. Sirius does everything wrong when it comes down to it , he doesn’t wear his suits the right way, he listens to the wrong kind of music, his hair is the wrong length, He tells the wrong jokes.
Sirius has just given up at this point of trying to be the perfect son.
Nothing he does is ever good enough, and when she hears about this he'll be cursed. The ones she uses when she is really mad hurt so bad.
The cuts they leave behind don't stop bleeding for hours days even..
Oh godric, and Regulus is there all by himself.
In deep a thought, thinking of every possible way his life could be going to absolute shit, he hear ssomething drop .
"Shit" Remus says picking up his wand. He looks around to see if anyone heard him. Sirius sits up and see's Remus sneaking out of the room. What could he possibly be doing?
Sirius wants to follow him out the room, he stands up and starts walking twoards the door.
***
Remus Lupin
Remus looks out the window of the common room to the nearly full moon
Looking at the stars shining brightly near the moon crescent moon. Such a beautiful thing, the moon . Remus cant grasp h understand how something so pretty could cause so much pain.
The thing He's been dreading most of his life. He wishes he was just a normal kid. he wishs he didn't have to deal with this. Not even his own father wanted to deal with this, with him.
Rmeus doesn't even know where he is. He could he dead for all he knows, Its not like he'd care anyway if he was. He doesn't deserve his sympathy
***
Sirius Black
Sirius can see him, just looking out the window of the common room .
why am he here? Sirius thinks about leaving, while hes about to walk back to the dorm,the floorboard creaks loudly enough that Remus must of heard.
"merlin" Sirius mumbles under his breath. He had to of heard. He see him turn around and put his hand on his chest "Who’s there?" Remus squints at him . "Come on , show your self"
Sirius peeks out of the dark "Remus, I can explain, I just couldn't sleep so I came out here" Remus lets his shoulders untense. "Oh, you weren't spying on me ?" His questions.
"Pft no , unless you got something to hide Lupin" Sirius teases.
"what? No what would I be hiding " he says quickly .
"I dunno" Sirius shrugs
Sirius sits down on to common room couch. "Do you like it here?" he asks , filling in the silence as usual .
Remus turns his head to face him " I don't know, do you" He shrugs " I think so" Remus sits down the couch as far from SIrius as possible.
We sit in there in silence for a while. "Its weird here" Remus says "What do you mean?"Sirius asks looking over to him.
The scars on his face seem a lot more noticeable when you look at him from this angle.
" I mean it's weird how everyone is so used to all of this," he says looking around the room Sirius furrows his eyebrows, is he talking about magic?
" Like all this magic, everyone seems so used to it" he finishes his sentence and looks to Sirius .
" Well most of us grew up around magic, are you a... a muggle born?" Sirius says cautiously .
Sirius's mother always said not to talk to muggles same with muggleborns, says theyre mudbloods and that they have dirty bloods
I grew up thinking they were bad and to stay away from them. "A what?" Remus asks
"A muggle born, it means you don't have magical parents."
"Oh, no I'm not, my father went here, my mum, uh she didn't " he looks down to his feet . "ohhh, so you're a half blood?" Sirius raises his brows.
He doesnt really know anyone that's not pureblood. " I guess so" he says while getting , stretching his arms out . "I don't know about you but I'm knackered, g 'night" .
"goodnight Sirius says softly, he sits in the common for awhile longer after remus leaves before going back.