Dean 's P.O.V.
We are hanging out, we are laughing, I look over at him and he’s smiling so big, he looks so happy, and it just hits me.
Shit.
I’m in love with him.
I am in love with him.
I, Dean Thomas, am in love with my best friend, Seamus Finnigan.
I have known for the longest times that I loved, of course I did, he’s my best friend, but that's it, he IS my best friend. I thought my love for him was only that, the one of a friend, but no, I am absolutely in love with him.
Fuck.
I don’t know what to do, what should I do?, should I tell him?, how would that even go?, would he feel the same?, would he hate and I would ruin our friendship forever, and then he won’t be in life at all, which would be even wor…
“Hey Dean, you alright?” Seamus asked breaking me out of my internal rant
Fuck, he is so close to me, how did I not notice that?, I can see his face so closely, fuck, he is just so beautiful “Yeah, yeah, ‘m fine” I said trying to sound the most natural I could
“Okay” he said with a smile, oh that smile, how did I notice that I was in love with him before? “You just kinda seemed lost for a moment, just wanted to make sure”
He’s so sweet, fuck, I love him so much “Yeah, I’m fine, don’t worry”
“Okay then” he said, still smiling, and looked at the T.V. again.
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“So, I’m in love with Seamus” I said Ron and Neville, the next day, after I sat down at their table at their flat
“No shit, I never would’ve guessed” Ron said sarcastically
“Hey don’t be so hard on him, it took us a while to figure out they were in love with each other too” Neville said to him, wait did he just say that Seamus …?
“Wait, what do you mean in love with each other?” I ask them
“You guys have been in love with eachother since you met, it took us a while to figure it out, but once we did it was so fucking oubvious” Ron said stiffling a laugh “Honestly it was so funny to just watch you guys pine, and be so obvlivious, we were just waiting to see who would figure it out first”
“And now you owe me £10” Neville said to Ron, smiling
“You bet on us?” I asked incredulously
“Of course we did, you guys were oblivious for years? Ron said as if it were obvious, giving his money to Neville looking annoyed
“So he really feels the same about me?” I asked
“Yeah, he does” Nevile said smiling sweetly
“Yeah, man, he is alway looking at you all starry eyed, and like he smiles all the time he talks about you, and he just sounds so in love” Ron sais, “Just go talk to him, tell him how you feel, there's no way he won’t feel the same”
“Okay, I will” I said smiling
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“Hi, Shay” I said as I entered the living room sitting next Seamus
“Hey” He said, smiling at me, momentarily looking up from the book he was reading.
How am I even gonna tell him? What if Ron and Nev are wrong and he doesn't feel anything for me?, I really don’’t want to lose him, he is amazing, he is my best friend, he is so important to me, I can’t lose him, but fuck, I do love him, and I do really want to tell him, okay here goes nothing
“Um, I have something very important to tell you” I said, slightly nervous.
“Sure, what’s up?” He said, looking at me worriedly, putting his book to the side.
“So the other day we were hanging out, I was kinda hit with a realization, something I had never thought about before, or even notice, but it was a very intense feeling i had never felt before, for anyone, um, but I’ve realized that I am, I am uh, I am” I couldn't get the words out, he is definitely listening to me I can’t just pretend nothing happened, but I’m so scared, I take a deep breath and close my eyes “I’m in love with you” I finally said, not looking at him, I couldn't bring myself to it.
Silence, that’s all I hear he is not saying anything and I’m still not looking at him, I don’t know what to do, I start to panic, and then I feel his hand in mine.
“Hey” he said sweetly, smiling and looking for my eyes, trying to get me to look back at him
“Hi” I said breathlessly, looking up and into his eyes, those blue eyes, that are staring at me, and I see it, I see the look Ron was talking about
“Hey” he says smiling, the same big, bright happy smile, that made me realize my feelings for him, and then I feel his lips on mine he is kissing me sweetly with one of his hands cupping my cheek, “I love you too” he said breathlessly when he pulled away from me.
I smile at him, he smiles back, and I pull him in for another kiss.