It started with the headphones, that if potter wasn't in class he was wearing headphones, while that was mildly irritating to professor Snape it was when potter started wearing roller skates and then happily dancing around the castle, it was infuriating. It all changed tho the day that Snape saw Potter skating down the hall, finding Draco in the middle of the corridor instead of excuse me, potter picked Draco up twirled round put Draco down and bowed with a flourish and made to skate off. Snape had had enough "potter get over here right now" Harry skated over to Snape and with a wave of his hand his skates changed into trainers, and he took off his earphones, and walked in to the potions class room. Snape looked at Harry and spoke "I'm only going to ask you this once potter, what's with the headphones and the skating?" Harry looked at Snape and replied "you wouldn't understand" Harry turned to go, Snape was well accustomed to Harry's insolence "well then mr potter you had better do your best to explain it to me then".
Harry turned to Snape and replied with venom in his Voice "you asked for this, remember that, you asked for this" Harry sent a charm to lock the door and walked over to Snape anger burning in his eyes and put one of his hands on Snape's chest above his heart and his other hand on Snape's head "close your eyes, this is going to hurt" Harry seemed to almost laugh but it was hollow with no feeling. Snape's eyes shut seemly on their own as if Harry was making him do it and suddenly he realised what Harry was doing, as his eyes became accustom to the darkness he heard Cedric diggory and Harry saying "together" Snape realised he was in the maze the 3rd challenge in the triwizard cup, with horror he realised that Harry was going to make him watch Cedric die, as they landed in the grave yard and he heard the dark lord "kill the spare". Harry made Snape watch all the horrific things that the music made go away, he saw Dumbledore in the cave with Harry drinking the poison so they could get the locket Dumbledore begging Harry to let him die, Severus hadn't known about that. He then saw the kindly wizard dieing at his own hands, but he also heard Harry's voice "I know you didn't want to kill him, I know he was dieing from the curse on his hand, that it was planned so Voldemort would trust you" then he saw the aftermath of the battle of Hogwarts all the dead students and staff lay out in the great hall, he saw others crying over the dead the sound of despair in their voices was something Severus never wanted to hear again, every terrible thing that Harry had experienced by Voldemort's hand, he saw it all, he saw Harry loose his godfather, Snape was suddenly aware of the sound of screaming. He realised that he was in Harry and Ron's dormitory and the screaming was Harry who was asleep he new that he couldn't do anything, suddenly the door flu open and Ron and Hermione ran in, "I hope this works" Hermione said putting a set of headphones on Harry, slowly Harry seemed to calm down his body was still shaking but the screaming was less.
Snape found himself on the ground Harry lay his eyes open but vacant and his whole body was shaking violently his jaw locked. Severus saw the headphones and grabbed them and held them to Harry's ears but nothing happened Harry was still shaking, he put the headphones to his own ears nothing. Severus frantically pressed buttons on the machine and was greeted by the message low battery. He picked up Harry and thought about taking him to the hospital wing but his own living quarters were nearer, so he ran cradling Harry in his arms yelling the password "veritas" and laying him down on his bed, the door shut behind them. Severus looked at Harry who was still shaking but was now also screaming, Severus realised with alarm that he'd only ever heard that kind of screaming from one thing, the cruciatus curse. He quickly cast a silencing charm. He needed to do something this was heartbreaking the sound of Harry's pained screaming... Hermione she'd know how to fix this. Or at least make the music player work.
Severus apperrated into the gryffindor common room. It was late and Hermione was sat alone in the common room reading a book, she jumped seeing Snape, he was panicked "it's Harry you have to come now" Hermione got up and Severus grabbed a broomstick and ran threw the portrait hole, "I can't apperrate with a student in the castle" Snape got on the broom and pulled Hermione on behind and kicked off flying at breakneck speed through the dark castle, back down to the dungeons. Hermione new something bad must be happening she and professor Snape had never really seen eye to eye, and the speed they were travelling at, she could only think of one thing and she hoped with all she had that she was wrong. Severus jumped off the broom handing it to her, and ran to the door and yelling the password not caring about Hermione's presents.
As the door opened Hermione heard the strangled screaming, it was worse she'd never seen Harry this bad then there were the shouts of "please no stop" Hermione ran over to Harry and looked at the music player "no no no, it's dead, I'm going to have to go and charge it up, professor I'm sorry but your going to have to ride this one out with him, I'll be as quick as I can" she had tears streaming down her cheeks, she took the music player and broom and took off back to gryffindor tower shutting the door to professor Snape's living quarters. Severus didn't know what to do, so he thought about his own mother she use to hold him if he had a nightmare and this well it was most definitely a nightmare, Snape got on to the bed and picked Harry up, he realized that Harry had wet himself, at this point he really didn't care a wet bed was nothing quick clean up charm and it would be fine, Harry was obviously terrified, Severus did the only thing he could think of and stroked Harry's hair the screaming was starting to lessen now he wasn't sure if it was him or Harry just couldn't scream anymore he did a clean up charm and carried on playing with Harry's hair feeling utterly helpless to stop this, the whole thing of trying to be gentle was a decidedly odd feeling to him but kind of soothing at the same time, it reminded him a little bit of a cat, that you had to be gentle with.
Suddenly Snape's door opened it wasn't Hermione but a voice said softly, "I hope you don't mind but Hermione sent me, this sometimes helps" Harry was still shaking violently in Severus's arms, as Luna sat on the bed and started to sing, it was a song that Severus new, he quietly sang along still cradling Harry his long fingers running through Harry's hair. Luna heard Severus singing and nodded giving him a small smile, A while later Hermione ran in with the music player and put the headphones on Harry, stopping only momentarily to take in the scene of Severus Snape gently cradling Harry his fingers absentmindedly playing with his hair and Luna singing. Harry's body was still twitching but slowly he stilled and he fell asleep in Severus's arms. Hermione looked at professor Snape and asked why he had brought Harry here. Severus looked at Hermione and answered still looking like he was shocked to the core "1 it was nearer then the hospital wing and 2 I didn't think Harry would want others to know that this was the reason he wore the headphones" Hermione asked if Harry could stay where he was until he woke up, Severus nodded. Hermione and Luna left and Severus held Harry. Before Hermione left she turned to Snape and asked "professor? He showed you, didn't he? There were tears in her eyes and she shakily lifted one hand and put it over her heart and put her other hand onto the side of her head. Severus nodded and answered quietly "he showed me everything" Hermione looked at him a said very quietly "I thought so" and left. Severus made to put Harry back down on the bed but heard a little voice as Harry grabbed his cloak his knuckles white "no please just hold me just for a little while Sirius just while I sleep" Harry sounded broken. Severus held Harry shocked that Harry had referred to him as Sirius. Harry woke up and found himself in Severus's arms Severus was still sat up in bed gently rocking Harry. He still looked shell shocked. Harry looked scared, no he looked petrified, almost shaking again. Severus realised with shame that it wasn't the nightmares or the lack of music scaring him this time, it was him that Harry was scared of now, Severus gulped and said in the most gentle voice he could manage "it it's okay Harry, your not in any trouble I understand now, I'm not angry, do you want me to put you down so you can sleep more comfortably?" Harry held onto Severus's cloak pulling himself nearer and shook his head and mumbled one word "warmth" Severus took this to be a good thing and held Harry closer to him.
It was 2 nights before Severus saw Harry again, he was getting ready for bed when there was a knock at his door Severus opened the door to find Harry headphones on and walking into his living quarters and going straight to his bed and getting in "safe I'm safe here, in your arms I'm warm and safe" Severus was shocked and slowly got into bed and held Harry who fell asleep in his arms with his music on.
In the day Harry seemed normal he went to his classes listened to his music and danced in skates round the castle but at night he'd knock on Severus's door and sleep in his arms. One day as Harry sat headphones on studying in the gryffindor common room a large beautiful owl landed on the table where he was sat, Harry removed the letter and read 'the password is victas'' the note then disintegrated on to the table. That night Harry let himself in to Severus's room and got into bed cuddling up and putting Severus's arms round himself and saying "Goodnight".
This turned into a new kind of normal Harry in pyjamas and headphones putting on the invisibility cloak and now letting himself into Severus's and snuggling into the potion masters arms to sleep and feel safe. Until one night they were cuddled up asleep as usual. Headmistress McGonagall wanted to see Severus but getting no answer because Severus had placed a silencing charm round the room as Harry had nearly wet himself when a door banged somewhere in the castle even with his music on, McGonagall had let herself in and found Severus with Harry half on top of him asleep Harry's head on Severus chest with one earphone in his ear, Severus's eyes opened feeling that someone was in his room he could feel it, seeing McGonagall, Severus's breathing was controlled. Severus put one finger to his lips and mouthed that it wasn't what it looked like and he'd explain everything tomorrow, but to let Harry sleep, Severus had a protective arm around Harry. McGonagall could see that this was a whole thing that maybe she shouldn't jump to conclusions. McGonagall left the bedroom and sat in the living area of Severus's quarter, trying to make sense of this. Severus was going to need to explain, but there was something. To her knowledge Harry only had feelings of animosity towards professor Snape.
The next day Severus went to McGonagall's office and told her everything, Hermione and Luna nodded agreeing with everything Snape had said. Harry also said that "at night i feel safe with Severus". He had stopped calling him professor Snape unless they were in class. Severus breathed and said "you should no that when Harry finishes at Hogwarts, I'm planning on asking him to move in with me, I'm also pretty sure that I'm in love with him, I'm also planning on retiring and doing something different" McGonagall looked stunned, as did Harry and Hermione. Harry stood up and walked to Severus and threw his arms around him, and answered "I love you too Sev" Harry kissed Severus's nose. The only one who didn't look shocked was Luna who said "I have something for you I'll be right back" and ran off out of the office, 5 minutes later Luna rushed in carrying a large canvas with a painting of Severus cradling Harry it didn't move but you could see the love and concern Severus had for Harry painted by Luna it was beautiful. McGonagall looked from the painting to Harry and Severus who were still stood in a loving embrace Severus's dark cloak enveloping Harry in a sort of cocoon Harry's head against Severus's chest his eyes shut and Severus stroking Harry's hair "after this last year, we've just come out of a war defeated the darkest wizard of all time, so when you find happiness you grab on to it with both hands, your of age Harry, you've finished your exams so I don't see any reason why I can't give you my blessing, as long as it doesn't effect your last few weeks here Harry" Harry looked at McGonagall and hugged her he said very quietly "thank you for seeing what he means to me". As they left Harry put on his headphones as they walked down the corridor, Harry changed his trainers into skates and happily skated around the others spinning round in pirouettes. McGonagall smiled as she watched them leave. Severus turned to Luna and said "I tried to hide it I really did but, I love him, I'm in love with Harry, how did you know?" Luna looked at Snape and replied "the way you were looking at him, it was the same way my father use to look at my mother, although I didn't know that he was sleeping in your room every night".
School finished and Harry saw Severus waiting under a large tree in jeans a black t shirt and a long coat, his hair tied back. Harry walked over and asked "you look different, I like it, were you being serious, about me living with you?" Severus kissed Harry on the nose and said "deadly serious mr potter, also is the nose kissing a Muggle thing?" He laughed. Everyone got on the train. Harry and Severus, Ron and Hermione and Luna all sat in one carriage. Ron still not quite believing that his best mate was now in a relationship with Severus Snape and was going off to live with him. Everyone in the carriage fell asleep, Harry still with his music on but now with a connector so Sev could listen too, it was mostly Muggle music from what he could hear. As they neared London and platform 9 and 3 quarters Severus sent Harry's trunk to his with a wave of his wand and carried the sleeping Harry off the train. Promising Hermione Ron and Luna that he would look after Harry. Hermione looked at Severus and said "I think the nose kissing thing is just one of those Harry type thing" she giggled and left with a small wave.
Severus had apperrated to his front step and carried Harry in. His 2 house elves ran to greet their master "master Snape has brought a guest, shall we set up a room for him sir" Severus thought and replied "yes thank you Teato, and Coda I'm going to put master potter in my room can you stay with him, I'm going to run into town, if he gets agitated, play him some music on the radio, a Muggle station please" Severus left for the nearby town.
When Harry woke up he found both house elves stood near the bed "ah master potter is a wake did you have a pleasant rest sir" Harry took off his headphones and looked around the room, he saw the painting of him and his Severus that Luna had painted on the wall. He sniffed he new that smell of sandalwood and aniseed "this is Severus room isn't it?" The house elves nodded "yes master potter sir" Harry laughed and said "call me Harry please none of that master or sir stuff. I hate it, it's just not me, I'm just Harry" he had asked what their names were.
Severus came home and found that Harry was in the library headphones on reading a book, Harry had made himself a sort of cozy den in the middle of the library. Severus walked over and rubbed Harry's back, Harry grabbed his wand and pointed it at Severus's neck as if under attack, Harry's breathing shallow and fast his eyes dark his heart hammering in his chest, Severus backed away slowly with his hands up "Harry it's okay it's me, I I'm sorry I startled you" Harry lowered the wand and threw himself into Severus's arms. "An old habit I'm going to guess, noted sneaking up is a bad idea" Severus spoke kindly, Harry new that Severus could have disarmed him easily, "would you like a drink and maybe something to eat?" Severus called for Teato who appeared before them "would master Snape and Harry like a drink or something to eat?" the elf asked, Severus looked at Harry who explained that he'd told the elves his name was Harry he didn't want to be master or sir potter he wanted to be Harry. Severus smiled and nodded at him and asked for a cup of tea and Harry asked for a hot chocolate. Harry was surprised that Severus always said please and thank you to the elves. Harry thought to himself that Hermione would be impressed.
Harry and Severus sat in the library. He turned to Harry and said that the elves had made up a room for him but he was free to sleep where ever he liked, that this was his home. Harry took off his headphones and said "I want to sleep with you, if you want me in that way, I don't mind I'll still be in love with you either way" Severus was shocked, Harry wanted sexual intimacy with him, of course he had thought about taking that step with Harry, on the days when he'd wake up with a hard on with Harry in his arms, he'd imagined it happening with him many times, but he wasn't even sure if Harry had even had sex before, and sex with a man that was a whole new kettle of fish, it wasn't the sort of thing that he could just ask him, and he didn't want to hurt Harry, he never wanted him to be scared again. Harry looked at him and said "to the question your probably thinking now, yes I have had sex before, and yes I have had sex with a male once before, at one of the Hogwarts Christmas party's, although I was really rather drunk at the time if I remember correctly, this time tho I don't want alcohol in my system, I want a completely clear head, so I can remember every detail, I I don't know when exactly yet but I know that I do want to". Severus smiled "of course I want you in that way, I'm more than happy to wait until your ready, I don't care how long, all I know is that I love you"
Severus woke up to find the bed empty, He went into the room that was set up for Harry and it was also empty. He called for the house elves and asked where master potter was, the elves answered "Harry has been up since dawn sir" he put on his dressing gown and went downstairs he heard laughing and music, he followed it and found the new addition that Harry had added a skate park, with Harry was Hermione Ron Luna and Ginny sat round a table surrounded by skates, skateboards and scooters, eating what looked like breakfast. Harry skated over to Sev and asked "would you like to have breakfast with us?" Ron suddenly felt very apprehensive, this was his old professor's house and Harry had added a skate park and invited all of them round. Severus walked over and sat down, "Luna brought the croissants, we provide fruit, Hermione brought my favourite breakfast cereal, Ginny brought pumpkin juice and Ron brought homemade yogurt and this for you from Mrs Weasley" he handed Sev a parcel wrapped in brown paper. Severus looked at the note on the parcel 'welcome to the family, everyone in the family has one of these, love Molly' Severus opened the parcel and found a green knitted jumper with a golden S on the front, "mine has a H on for Harry" Severus stood up and with a wave of his wand his pyjamas and dressing gown turned into jeans and a t shirt with his hair loosely tied back, and put the jumper on. Ron looked from Snape to Harry and said "ok I take your point, right as always Harry, wow!" Harry started laughing nearly falling off his chair, the others were laughing to. Luna turned to Ron trying to stifle her laughter and said "well it could be considered a compliment" Ron looked at Luna as if she was mental. Ron answered "yer Luna quite a compliment to make to your best mate about their partner" Ron was now very red and trying to hide his face. Sev gave a questioning look at Harry who answered "I told Ron that your arse looks amazing in jeans, I'm guessing that Ron is embarrassed because he just openly admitted, to checking out your arse in public and thinking what was it Ron, wow!" Severus laughed and said"I think I'll take that as a compliment".
Severus was woken up the next morning by Harry's hands sliding into his pajamas from behind, as he heard Harry saying that he wanted to play. Severus was shocked but smiled and asked "am I right in thinking that your ready, you want to have sex with me?" Harry looked at him and said "I want you to make love to me, yes" Severus turned so he could kiss and touch Harry who he found was naked. He kissed along his jaw concentrating on every part of his body so he'd be relaxed, he removed his clothes so Harry could explore his body. Harry's hands ran over his torso, he wrapped his hand round Harry's cock sliding his thumb over the head and using the pre cum as a lubricant, rubbing it over Harry's hole and slipping one long finger into Harry as he played with him. He slid another finger into him. The look on Harry's face was pure bliss. He curled his fingers inside Harry and gently massaged his prostate, there was a string of expletives that came out of his mouth as he started to cum. He looked into Severus's eyes pleading "fuck me now, please Sev" he removed his fingers and covered his cock in Harry's cum and slowly entered. Harry looked into his eyes and nodded, Severus bent down and kissed him, and started to move in and out, Harry's hands were grabbing on to the bedposts as he let himself go, as he came again, the string of swear words, took Severus by surprise he'd heard the odd swear uttered under Harry's breath but this was incredible. He new he was going to cum soon and asked "Harry do you want me to cum inside you?" He was shaking with the effort of stopping himself cuming, Harry looked into his eyes and answered "stay inside me" Severus relaxed and came. He collapsed down next to him "fuck Harry that was incredible" Harry looked at him "I've never heard you swear before" Severus started laughing "your one to talk, someone has quite the potty mouth on them when they cum" he was laughing he as he pulled Harry into his arms and handed him the music player. They both snuggled into each other their arms and legs tangled together. Harry fell asleep knowing his first time with Severus had been perfect.
It was a couple of days later when Harry went downstairs from the library, thinking that they could sit in the garden and have lunch, when he heard music, he recognised it from swan lake. He followed it to where he'd added the skate park suddenly aware of an unusual chill in the air for early summer Harry put his jumper on. As he rounded the corner to the skate park, he noticed the ice. He walked carefully on to the ice and was more than just a little surprised by what he saw, in what was the skate park was now an ice rink created by Severus and in the centre of the ice rink was Severus ice skating leaning back arms outstretched on one leg eyes closed with a look of contentment, as the song came to a close Harry watched as he rose up pulled his arms and leg in and spun round before coming to a graceful stop. Severus smiled and skated over to Harry "who taught you to skate?" Harry asked impressed. Severus looked slightly embarrassed as he answered "Lucius malfoy, he wasn't always so hateful, I taught myself to dance tho on the black lake, little trick I learnt from Bellatrix to freeze over part of the lake at night, she wasn't always" Severus thought over the words carefully, Harry nodded and said "completely and utterly bat shit crazy, as the Muggle in me would say" Severus nodded "that was all him, he ruined her, tortured her to within an inch of her life, I suppose she learnt to like it and derived some form of pleasure from it somewhere along the way, if I had to guess I'd say she was in love with him, or at least I'm sure she thought she was, personally I always thought she had Stockholm syndrome, her husband never got a look in, poor bloke never complained either, I suppose just the fact that one of them was in the inner inner circle was a thing of great pride to him even if she was mentally unstable because of him, I don't think she ever loved him, Rodolphus knew that he'd always be second fiddle, it was always Voldemort she wanted". Severus was sat on a chair with Harry sat on the floor next to him the music of swan lake still playing in the background. Severus suddenly realised who he was talking to. He looked shocked and pulled Harry into his arms, he'd promised Harry he'd never mention that name to him, it was a topic that was totally off limits, the only topic that was off limits. Harry sat curled up in Severus's arms stroking his hair gently, "shhh it's okay Sev, he can't hurt us anymore" Harry carried on now twirling Severus's hair loosely round his fingers Sev's hair was a lot thicker now "the important thing is that we're been invited to the Weasley's for lunch tomorrow at around 6, and I'm thinking about maybe adding some light curls to your hair, it's got quite a bit longer now" Harry whispered. Severus looked at Harry and started laughing.
It was the next day and Severus was stood looking in the wardrobe, finally with a feeling of complete and utter defeat he called to Harry and side "what does one wear to go to someone else's for lunch? I've never been asked to go to anyone else's to eat before" Sev sounded embarrassed. Harry got off the bed kissed his nose and looked through the wardrobe and picked out a pair of black jeans a t shirt and the jumper Molly had made for Severus, Harry pulled on some tartan trousers a t shirt and his knitted jumper that was dark red with a golden H on the front. It had been a long time since Harry had been on his broom and the freedom was exhilarating, he dipped and turned in time to the music that was playing through a small speaker almost dancing in the air. They landed at the Weasley's. Taking Sev's hand Harry walked straight into the bustling kitchen not bothering to knock and shouted "I'm home" Molly rushed over and hugged Harry and shook Severus's hand. They were then bombarded with questions regarding how they got together, Severus saw that everyone was wearing a knitted jumper with there initial on the front. Molly banged a pan with a spoon "okay enough of that you lot, Harry would you be a love and set the table" Harry grabbed the cutlery from the draw and pointed out the glasses to Severus. Harry grinned and whispered to sev "I love it here Molly and the weasley's have never treated me any different from anyone else" everyone crowded in to the small dining room and ate. Severus smiled noticing Hermione, Luna and xenophilius lovegood all wearing knitted jumpers, Molly raised a toast "to the newest member of the family, welcome Severus" Severus cheeks went slightly pink. after the meal some went home, but others stayed including them cuddled up on a comfortable couch. At 10.30 Harry and Severus left a little way on their journey back the heavens opened and the rain came down. Harry laughed doing turn overs and flying upside down the music obviously having the desired effect. Harry landed in a soggy heep on the doorstep having slipped over on the wet marble, Harry laughed and when Severus made to pull him up Harry pulled him down on top and kissed him. Harry looked up at Severus and smiled he was shivering. The door was suddenly opened and there stood the two house elves.
Severus laughed looking up at the elves asked them if they could make the fire in their room, Severus then apperrated him and Harry into the bathroom, Harry magicked off their soaking wet clothes and pulled Severus into the shower with him. His fingers ran over Severus's body Sev was hard. Harry looked at him then dropped to his knees "I've wanted to do this all night" he then took Severus into his warm mouth and started sucking him off, the pre cum tasted good as it landed on his tongue, he wanted more, he slowly slipped a fingers inside Sev who didn't seem to notice until Harry slipped a 3rd in. Harry looked at him and said "let me make love to you?" Sev smiled and said "you'd better get the lubricant then" Harry grabbed it from the draw in the bedroom the fire was lovely warm as he passed. Harry got back into the shower and dropped back to his knees and carried on sucking until Severus came down his throat, Harry then covered his cock in the lubricant bent Severus over then slowly slid into him. Harry waited for him to say that he was ready before he moved. Severus had his hands against the wall as Harry gripped his hips, he was close now "do you want me to pull out" Severus shock his head and pushed back to get Harry deeper. Harry shot filling Severus along with the still shocking ream of swear words as Harry came. He slipped out of Sev and they both sat under the water kissing. They got out of the shower and into the warmth of the bedroom where they snuggled up in bed and fell asleep in each others arms.